Not hitting the mute button

COUNTDOWN: 10 days until my beach vacay. 🙂

I signed up for 4 weeks of Hello Fresh. I get my first two meals on Tuesday. Two meals is enough food for 4 people. So really it’s four meals for me. It’s not the most cost-effective thing, but I do get $20 off for the first 4 weeks, and then I’m canceling. I’m going to eat on $4 a day after I’m done with this meal delivery service, there’s NO WAY I’m going to spend full price on Hello Fresh. That’s out of my comfort zone. I can eat a baked potato and salad for less than $3. That’s more in my price range. I hate wasting money on food.

Too bad a lot of the meals I wanted are spicy. I can’t do spicy, so I ended up picking meatloaf, tilapia, chicken, and burgers for my first two weeks. Well, I will be on vacation for the second week so I will be skipping one week. I’m glad that’s allowed. Anyway, this will get me cooking. Most of the meals seem doable for a beginner, BUT I might have to buy supplies. I don’t cook so I don’t have shit! I have a small pan for scrambled eggs and a microwave. 🙂

I have a simple meal plan for after Nutrisystem. Here goes:

  • Breakfast: Biscotti and scrambled eggs
  • Lunch: Bar and yogurt or small turkey burger and yogut or a big yogurt parfait
  • Dinner: medium baked potato with a salad, tacos with a salad

I need more dinner options. I will probably end up eating a baked potato (carbs…ugh!) on most days. Tacos will probably happen once or twice a week. My favorite foods are tacos, pasta, and eggs. 🙂 I would love to be able to make pasta, but I know I would eat it too much, so I will probably never learn to make it. Back to dinner options – I will probably add fish (salmon and tilapia) and chicken eventually.

Yoga. Not great. I like the studio and the teacher. However, the teacher did not do the poses. I HATE THAT. She called out all the poses. Even if I knew all the poses, it was sometimes hard to hear her over the music. I’d heard of about 60% of the poses, but I haven’t done ‘hardcore’ yoga in about 7 years. I’m so glad I didn’t buy a pass. So glad. I’m not going back. Before I go to another yoga studio, maybe I should call and ask whether the teacher does the poses. ???

For now, I’m going to do yoga outside in the backyard. All the yoga studios are downtown and ugh, parking. Plus, I don’t want to pay $20 to $25 for a walk-in class. So I’ll just do it free outside until I want to challenge myself. It’ll be exciting to try to learn all the poses. Maybe that will be a goal for this summer.

Therapy. She told me to stop watching the news! LOL. What?? Okay, I have cut down on my news watching by about 60%. I’m a news junkie, so I feel a little out of sorts. As in, WTF is going on? I’m still keeping up with election 2020. That is the only thing I really care about anyway. She also told me not to watch reality TV because it feeds the idea that people are evil. ROFL. Uh, it’s reality. Duh. Too freaking funny. I haven’t watched reality TV at all this week, but I am right now. Haha.

She also was the one that gave me the debt advice. :/ I’m still bummed about that. See last entry. One correction: I said that I never missed paying a bill, but I did foreclose on my house about 9 or 10 years ago. However, I got a shitty loan that Becky wouldn’t have gotten. Becky is someone with money, btw. I think the loan I got is illegal now or they should be so I don’t feel bad at all about that. Not sorry.

I do feel a little bit better about what I’m doing because it is necessary for me to get to the next level. I have to stop using credit cards. I pulled The Star (from tarot) on how to deal with this first month or creditors calling me, getting emails, and maybe being threatned with lawsuits (kill me now). The Star is about self healing. I’ll just quote what Biddy Tarot says on this card:

As the Star follows the Tower card in the Tarot, it comes as a welcome reprieve after a period of destruction and turmoil. You have endured many challenges and stripped yourself bare of any limiting beliefs that have previously held you back. You are realising your core essence, who you are beneath all the layers. No matter what life throws your way, you know that you are always connected to the Divine and pure loving energy. You hold a new sense of self, a new appreciation for the core of your Being.

The Star brings renewed hope and faith, and a sense that you are truly blessed by the Universe. You are entering a peaceful, loving phase in your life, filled with calm energy, mental stability and more in-depth understanding of both yourself and others around you. This is a time of significant personal growth and development as you are now ready to receive the many blessings of the Universe.


This is the best card I could have pulled! I felt hopeful after pulling that. I don’t always trust tarot which is something a tarot reader never says, but recently I’ve learned that tarot is fucking magical. I believe it it now more than I ever have. But I still don’t want to read full-time. I want to do astrology.

So yeah, therapy is going okay. I’m still getting charged full price, BUT they refund me the money about 3 weeks later. Sigh. Even though I’m doing overtime, my finances aren’t great, so I’m worried about always being charged full price. What if I don’t have $80 in the bank at that time? (I would have the copay of $25 in the bank or I would cancel the appointment). I’m in the process of switching banks for the first time ever! So I have to switch everything over ASAP. Double sigh. I will have to withdraw all the money from the ATM because I’m not going inside the bank. I will have a bunch of $20 bills to take to the new bank. It might be about $900!! That’s not suspicious at all. LOL. They wouldn’t let me transfer all my money online. They only allowed $350. Not sure why.

Not much to say about election 2020. I said I didn’t mind a big crowd of people running, but now I believe this is the end of Marianne Williamson. 😦 MSNBC and CNN won’t have more than 20 people on the debate stage. So Marianne can’t make it because she has to be at 1% in three polls due to about 25 people running. This sucks. When people poll the people over the phone, they don’t even mention Marianne. Dammit. Reality sucks.

Biden, Warren, Harris, Sanders, and Buttigieg are currently in the lead. Sorry, that’s not in order. Warren is the only one not beating Trump. She’s at 47%. He gets 48%. But this is too early and doesn’t really matter. People thought Obama wasn’t electable and I think he was president. Not sure. Anyway, MSNBC is loving on Buttigieg a little too much. I like him also, but geez. Beto is finally doing cable news. He must have read my post about him. 😉 Oh, and DeBlasio will probably run. Great. I used to really like him. Now he’s so-so like Corey Booker. He’s not as horrible as Biden. But not ideal.

This week I…

Music of the week: Beyonce, Mariah Carey, Victory, Sara Bareilles, Lissie, Jannelle Monae, Maggie Rogers, Marren Morris

TV of the week:  NBA Playoffs, How to Get Away With Murder

Podcasts of the week: All In with Chris Hayes, Pod Save America, Tarot for the Wild Soul, The Astrology Podcast, The Jim Fortin Podcast, True Crime Garage

Books of the week: Now reading – 

Weekend Plans: Working overtime. I’m exhausted, but I’m loving the extra money, so I can’t complain. I’m going grocery shopping. I will probably buy a few supplies for the Hello Fresh meals. I don’t think I need much. I can just use my mom’s stuff. I prefer to have my own, and I used to, but over many moves, I’ve lost almost all my kitchen stuff.

What else? I have to pack for my beach trip. Not a big deal. Most of my stuff is packed, but I never unpacked from Los Angeles, so everything is mixed up. I have a lot of school work to do. I’m trying to figure out what I want to take with me to the beach as far as stuff to do. I didn’t want to do work, but I probably will do school work. I wanted to just read for fun, but that probably won’t happen. I just want to relax. At least, I don’t have to do real work.

Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend. 🙂

One day we’ll have cats

Ugh. Groan. This sucks. Life. Ugh.

I’ve never been late with a bill. I’ve never left a bill unpaid. I’m an earth sign. We are responsible, loyal and reliable and now because I want to lower my debt, I can’t pay most of my credit cards???! WTF. This is going to KILL ME. I have a bill due on the 5th and to not pay it is unthinkable. They will call me, email me, and leave me voice messages. This sucks.

At least they will get their money one day. Once they agree to the settlement, they will get it soon. I don’t know if Chase will agree. Or others. I know some will. I wish this were some lifesaver, but I still have to pay off Capital One and Paypal on my own. But I should be able to pay them more.

Since I’m not supposed to incur more debt, I’m canceling Nutrisystem this weekend. I wanted to learn how to cook first! 😦 I thought I had at least 6 more weeks of food, but I will probably cancel.

To prepare, I have TONS of cookbooks. Most are Kindle books. So far I can recommend Good and Cheap: Eat Well on $4/Day Then I have two 3D books. I have How to Boil Water and How to Cook Everything The Basics: All You Need to Make Great Food–With 1,000 Photos. I haven’t had much time to look over the last two books yet. I will probably take them with me on vacation (13 days to go!) I need to make a list of “recipes” I want to try. I can’t cook at all. I don’t like cooking. I don’t hate it, but I prefer not to do it.

I know what I will eat for breakfast (biscotti and eggs). Yep, I will probably eat that every single day. Lunch and dinner are trickier. All I know is that I won’t cook every day. I think that’s insane and time-consuming. If I enjoyed cooking, it wouldn’t be too nuts. I’m thinking about eating yogurt and bananas for lunch. Or something. I don’t know.

Tomorrow I have yoga after work. I’m a little nervous since I haven’t been to a yoga studio in at least 7 years. I didn’t even get a chance to practice, so I feel like a newbie. 😉 It’s hot yoga because the yoga studio with the best parking only offers hot yoga. I did hot yoga once, and I liked it. But since it’s so hot in my house and outside, I’m not looking forward to being extremely hot for an hour of exercise.

Gotta go. I’m listening to a tarot book for my tarot class right now. After I post this, I’m going to take notes for an astrology class. I also have to get the horoscopes finished for the other website. Oops! I almost forgot about that.

Just thought I would blog, because I feel like shit for not paying my bills. It’s sucks. And I haven’t even been late yet! How will I deal? I’m not joking. Not paying bills, is not me. Sigh. Groan. At least I’m going to the beach soon. Yay?

Next time, I will blog about my last therapy session, election 2020, and how yoga went. 🙂

I might be a bitch, but I’m free

If we choose to introduce our true selves to anyone, we will get hurt. But we will be hurt either way. There is pain in hiding and pain outside of hiding. The pain outside is better because nothing hurts as bad as not being known.

-Glennon Doyle Melton

I went to yoga on Saturday! I love the studio. I love the instructor. I love the town, but I hate how far it is. The class itself was above average. I’d give it a B. I didn’t like that only 3 other people were in the class.  (!!!) It was a class of 4. And I got a bad vibe from one of the people. The guy. I’m sure 50% of it was my fault, and 50% of it was his. I was the only newbie, and I almost died when the instructor said to welcome me. So embarrassing.

He was the only one that didn’t speak to me which didn’t bother me. BUT it did affect the vibe of the class. I felt awkward. That is very normal for me. Will I go back? Well, this is the place I used the Groupon for. I have 4 more free classes. Yes, I will go back. I don’t know when. It expires in July.

Overall it was a decent experience. It definitely made me want MORE yoga. I think I’m going to take my yoga mat outside and do yoga on my own and go to the studio.

So much has been going on this month and it just started. May is my favorite month of the year. I love the weather, and yes, some of it has to do with it being my birthday month. Of course. Let’s see. I ordered a new refrigerator Monday night and then found out it was an electrical problem, so I gladly canceled the order.  I spent forever trying to fix the electrical problem myself. Couldn’t do it, so I called an electrician. He was able to tell me what to do over the phone! Yes, it was FREE.

THANK YOU, UNIVERSE!! I am so grateful. Everything worked out. I’ve been relying on my spiritual practice so much.

My mammogram isn’t scheduled until May 25th. How ridiculous. If it were a regular mammogram AKA a screening mammogram, I could have had it done much sooner, but since the doctor found lumps, I need an appointment with the radiologist. Apparently, the radiologists are only there during the day. Don’t they understand some people have to work? I’m so beyond sick of taking time off to go to the doctor. I want to take time off for vacations or to mow the lawn (lol).

Am I the only one who works during the day? What’s going on? What if this is something serious? May 25th??! Okay, whatever. It’s probably nothing. It’s not their fault, I have a hard time getting time off during the warmer months. If this were February, I could have gotten a quicker appointment.  Another ridiculous thing is that I have to PAY for this visit since it isn’t a regular mammogram. Last time I paid about $45.  Does that even make sense? Whatever. I’m actually looking forward to when I can have regular screening mammograms so it can be free.

I have my lab work appointment on this Thursday. They’re testing for iron levels and B12 levels. I hope they can give me my results before I go on vacation. I was going to buy iron pills, but I don’t know if I have anemia or what. Shouldn’t there be something stronger than iron supplements for anemia? I’ve been so tired. On the weekends, I’ve been sleeping more than usual. I’ve already talked about being barely able to mow the lawn.

Gotta go. I’ll be back soon. 🙂

I’m not doing it for the glory


38 days until my birthday vacay

71 days until my certification exam

I have new yoga socks (lol), my new yoga mat and newish yoga clothes. I’m ready for yoga!  I haven’t been to a yoga class in years. Is my body ready for yoga? If I don’t have my period on Thursday, I may go to a Kundalini yoga class on Thursday after work. Kundalini is very different from normal yoga. There is chanting going on. I’m so nervous! I’m not going to the place I got the Groupon from. I’m going to pay for this class because I want a certain type of yoga. I’ll go to the other studio in 2-3 weeks. It all depends on my period. I’m starting to cramp a little so I feel like I will get my period soon and I won’t be able to go to yoga on Thursday. 😦

Time for a Depo-Provera update: Well my period is late, but who knows what late is when I’m on Depo?? Is anything normal anymore? I have no idea. Sometimes I wonder why I bothered with the Depo. But when I can’t exercise and don’t even want to THINK about leaving my house when I have my period, I think I did the right thing. When my period is gone for good, I’ll know I did the right thing.

BTW, Depo costs about $85 per injection. Due to the ACA, I get it for free. But that would be the cost without any insurance. Good to know in case that part of the ACA is gone in the future.

I transferred my high rate credit card I was complaining about to a much lower rate. Yay. I’m still terrified to see the minimum payment in about a month. It should be lower, but how much lower? I’m scared of everything. I’m working on changing that.

I started splitting my Abilify pills into fourths. Unbelievable. I just took my first 1/4 on Wednesday. I will have enough for way more than a year if this works. If I get depressed, I will go back to half a pill. I don’t know if I made this clear in my last entry, but I’m cutting down my dosage, not due to price, but due to the compulsive behavior I believe Abilify causes. According to the experts, cutting back should reduce or erase the compulsive behavior. It also helps that this will lower the cost for me.

This week I…

Music of the week: Nelly Furtado, Ellie Goulding, Grace, JoJo, Miranda Lambert, Ryan Adams, Alicia Keys, Britney Spears

There are so many new albums coming out in April and May. Finally. Last year was slow. I’m so excited, but I have no patience. I want everything now.

TV of the week: basketball, How to Get Away With Murder

Movie of the week: none

Books of the week: I started two new books this week. Not very wise since I’m trying to finish 2 other books. I started May Cause Miracles: A 40-Day Guidebook of Subtle Shifts for Radical Change and Unlimited Happiness by Gabrielle Bernstein. I’m on day 5. I also started a fiction book. BREAKING NEWS! Sometimes I do read fiction. The title is My Brilliant Friend by Elena Ferrante. I started this book when I got it from the library. I didn’t have time to finish, so I’m trying it again. So many people love this book. I thought what I read was just average, but I’m willing to give it another try.

Still reading:

The Universe Has Your Back by Gabrielle Bernstein (rereading – my Bible)
The Tapping Solution: A Revolutionary System for Stress-Free Living by Nick Ortner

I found it interesting when I saw someone use Gabby Bernstein’s name and disingenuous in the same sentence. That person probably just read one of her books and never listened to her SPEAK. I was going to do a whole entry on this, but I’ll just talk about it right here.

Gabby admits to judging people all the time, yet her next book is called “The Judgement Detox.” She’s admitted she’s gossiped before. *gasp*  She’s admits to occassionally complaining. My point is that she talks all the time about NOT BEING PERFECT. She admits it. That is one of the things that drew me to her. She talks about her issues as she is going through them. That is what is helpful.

Other people (I hate to bring others into this, but…) have perfect Instagram lives. I can’t relate to that shit! That’s why I don’t consider them my spiritual teachers like I do with Gabby. She’s imperfect. She lets us know she makes mistakes every freaking day. That I can relate to. I selfishly wish others would learn from her so I could have more guidance. But maybe Gabby is all I need. I also find others are ruthless when it comes to issues they are supposed to help others with. They lack compassion. Some “spiritual” teachers are dishonest, and it shines through.

Other people can ‘follow’ who they want to follow. I’ve laid out my reasons on why I prefer Gabby. See, I can do a whole entry on this topic!

Planner update: Plans in my Erin Condren planner


Plans for the Weekend: I’m running a few errands on Saturday. I’m staying in on Sunday. I’m going to study and read all weekend. That’s the plan. I’m trying a new thing of mowing the lawn during the week, so I can have more time on the weekends for dong other things. So far it is working, but it is the very early stages.

Have a nice weekend! Thanks for reading. 🙂

I just want to fight

I really want to get away. I think I just want to go on vacation NOW. A week off from work sounds divine.  I have to wait until mid-May for a week off. I have a day off in April, but I’m going to drop my car off for a tune up and then go to the GYN for a pap smear. How fun! 😉 That could take all day. It depends on how long my car takes.

I just “bought” 5 yoga classes. IT WAS FREE! Aaah! So freaking excited. How long have I been blogging about wanting to do yoga? How long have I been thinking about it? (probably since the last time I took a yoga class…3 years ago?) Thanks, Groupon! I got the email about a $30 off Groupon, so I went straight to their site. One option was sold out, but they had the 5 class option for $29, so I ordered it.

This is where nonbelievers roll their eyes: I manifested that shit! 🙂 Hell, yeah! I do have anxiety about this. I haven’t been in a class in years. I haven’t even been around people that much. I’m nervous about this. I will blog about the anxiety later.

There are drawbacks, of course. The place is 20 minutes away (with no traffic). The one class I really want to take is 30 minutes too early for my schedule. My work schedule is no longer flexible. But I’m going to somehow make it work. That means I’m going to change my schedule by 30 minutes one day a week just to take this class and hope no one notices. 😉 They even have a yoga for scoliosis class! WTF? How awesome. I have scoliosis, but I don’t have any pain, so I probably won’t take that, but there is a small chance I might.

I am planning on taking my first class on April 24th (if I don’t have my period. lol). Yay! I hope this place doesn’t suck. I’ve never been there before. It is a small, newish studio in a very small town. I admire the owners. I would’ve thought “There’s no way this is going to work. People aren’t going to come from the city to this small town just for yoga”. But they somehow made it work, I guess. Great for them!

Depo-Provera Update: My weight is steady. No extraordinary breakouts. No period, but that will probably change soon. UGH. I wish it would just end forever. That’s the point.  I know I have to be patient. In other words, nothing changed since the last time I updated.

This week I…

Music of the week: Amos Lee, Ed Sheeran, Florence + the Machine, Grace, Miranda Lambert, BROODS, Ingrid Michaelson, Lady Gaga

TV of the week: basketball, How to Get Away With Murder

Movie of the week: none

Books of the week:  I think I’ve read 6 books so far this year. Compared to last year, that’s a ton. I finished reading Breaking Free From Emotional Eating By Geneen Roth and Add More Ing to Your Life: A Hip Guide to Happiness by Gabrielle Bernstein.

Breaking Free From Emotional Eating By Geneen Roth was very interesting and helpful, but I don’t agree with everything she says. She says to eat only when you are hungry (what a concept!) and no diets. I agree with the no diet thing. But I and many other people have to eat at certain times for several reasons. So I will never follow her programs because I strongly disagree with that. I think I have hypoglycemia and I need to eat small meals every 3-4 hours. (Well, dinner is not usually small).

Anyway, I was going to pay for her workshop, but we disagree on too much. I do recommend her books, though. Like they say, “Take what works, and leave the rest.” That’s what I did with her book.  This is the second book I’ve read of hers, and I will probably read more.

Still reading:

The Universe Has Your Back by Gabrielle Bernstein (rereading)
The Tapping Solution: A Revolutionary System for Stress-Free Living by Nick Ortner

Planner update: Plans in my Erin Condren planner:


Plans for the Weekend: Guess what? I’m going grocery shopping again! ROFL. My mom and dad have to go and who has to drive them? So I’m going to go shop too, so I don’t have to go shopping next weekend. This time we are going to two stores, so I’m taking a double dose of Klonopin again. I’m getting stressed just thinking about it. I am taking less Klonopin overall. I feel good about that.

I ordered another clothes rack from The Container Store. I don’t have closets in this house. All I had was one rack (!). I finally have another one coming tomorrow. I may put it together on Sunday. I’ve been waiting a year for a second clothes rack so no rush to get it up. I do kind of want to see all my clothes, though.

I could go on and on. I feel like this entry is so long. I’ve done longer entries in the past. I guess I should go. I do have more to say, and I will be back in a couple of days with another post.

Thanks for reading. Have an awesome weekend. 🙂

my heart is cold as can be


69 days until my 3rd pap smear 😦

88 days until my birthday vacay

121 days until my certification exam

Gabby Berstein has me wanting to do yoga so bad. I need to make room in my house for it. I used to do it outside and I probably still will this spring/summer. But I’m dying to go to a class. Years ago (maybe 7-8 years ago?), I used to go this small yoga studio. I’m planning on going back once it gets warm for real. I’m still in hibernation mode even though this winter was very mild.  I’m not going anywhere right now.

The classes are $18 a piece (!!) if I don’t want to commit to 4 classes a month. So I’m going to just pay the $18 and see how it goes. If it goes well, I’ll pay the$64 for 4 classes a month. Yes, this place is expensive. No offense, but it is kind of a yuppie place. Obvs. But I’m willing to pay. I like this place. The people are nice. However, I haven’t been there in so long. I was there when they had just opened. I hope they aren’t crowded now.

If it’s crowded, I won’t pay for more classes. Simple as that. I’m thinking of going to a 8:30 AM Saturday yoga basics class. Scary! I would normally go to a class on a weekday because fewer people will be there. But I think I will give this one a try. I don’t really feel like I need a basics class because I’ve been doing yoga off and on for years, but the time is convenient, and I’m definitely rusty.

Eventually, I want to do Kundalini yoga, but I’ve never done it before, so I’m understandably nervous about that. I’m going to do it at home first and then take a class.

I’m kind of feeling inadequate over something a coworker said. It’s not her fault. I don’t think. lol. 😉 It was very warm this past weekend, and she wanted to know what I did on Sunday, so I said I spent some time outside with my dog and read. I almost felt like she pitied me or something. Is she one of those people who think you’ve got to have kids or a husband? Maybe. I don’t know her that well. I know she’s a traditional person.

I did much more than reading outside with my dog, btw. I studied, cooked, went to my mom’s house, etc. But the first thing that came to mind was reading my book outside with my dog because I haven’t done that in so long. (I did take him to the park last Wednesday). Anyway, I’m very happy with it being just my dog and me.

I don’t know. It was so weird. But then again, all my conversations with humans are weird. Nothing new here.

No major side effects from the Depo-Provera so far. I do feel like I’m cramping more than usual and I’m not even on my period. I haven’t had bad cramps in about 8 months! I know…lucky girl. I don’t even have any pain medication. When I used to have cramps with my period, I would buy kid’s pain meds (easy to take) every month.

I haven’t gotten my period this month…yet. I know it is WAY too soon to hope the DP stopped my period, but a girl can dream.

This week I…

Music of the week:  Grace, Miranda Lambert, Cheyenne Kimball, Ingrid Michaelson, James Bay, Little Mix, Mariah Carey, Britney Spears

TV of the week:  basketball, Homeland

Movie of the week: none

Books of the week: I’m so excited to go to the library this weekend!  *geek alert* Yes, I’m getting back into physical books because I can’t find these books electronically and I can go outside and read without any distractions. I don’t take my phone or Kindle when I read outside. It’s just me and the book (and my dog).

I have 4 books on hold at various libraries in the county. I assume they will be ready for pickup on Saturday. I don’t know when I’m going to find time to read these books and the three books I’m reading right now. I’m reading:  Tears We Cannot Stop: A Sermon to White America by Michael Eric Dyson (on page 90) and Gosnell: The Untold Story of America’s Most Prolific Serial Killer (on page 103) by Ann McElhinney. I just started My Brilliant Friend by Elena Ferrante.

I have a great quote I want to share from Tears We Cannot Stop. I’ll include it in a future entry.

Planner update: Plans in my Erin Condren planner –


Plans for the Weekend: Well, the library. Yay! I’m also dropping off my taxes to get them done. Yes, I could do them myself and I used to. I’m taking a timed practice exam on Sunday morning. I hope I pass, but I’m not counting on it. This is my first practice exam. I have 3 more practice exams before I take the test in June.

I have to organize my clothes this weekend. I can’t fully do it until I get another clothes rack in a couple of months. I’m going to put all my winter clothes up even though it is mid-February. I believe in global warming. I’m selling any name brand clothes I don’t want (Michael Kors etc.) to ThredUp.

Nothing too exciting. The weather will be nice so I will be spending time outside reading with my dog. Should I not mention that? Does that make me sound pathetic? I’m joking. Sort of.

Have a nice weekend and thanks for reading! 🙂

nothin but time

Recently when it was 50 degrees, I decided to go out on my patio for the first time. It was so nice but then I saw IT. My next door neighbor has bedroom windows right above my patio!!! Her bedroom is directly above my dining room AKA office. I knew I could hear her moving around but I thought it was nuts to even think someone was really over my head considering I live in a townhouse. I feel like they got over on me…big time. The main reason I wanted to live in a townhouse is because I thought it would be quieter than a regular apartment and I would have no one below or above me. SIGH. Despite that, I love that my patio faces the woods. It was so nice and quiet.


I may be watching my final NFL game this Sunday. I can’t continue to know players are committing suicide and getting ALS while playing a game I watch for pure enjoyment. It is fitting that my last game will be Ray Lewis’ last game. Ever since he has been playing, I have been a fan of the game. But how can I not care how the Baltimore Ravens are doing? I will know. I listen to sports radio (not as much as I used to). I will know but I won’t watch.

Giving up college football will be harder. Much harder. I can’t say I’m giving that up…yet. All summer long, I can’t wait for college football to start. I know I can do it but do I want to? Eventually I know I will give it up all together but the thought of not watching Virginia Tech play football is surreal.

I could just dedicate my life to watching basketball. 😉 Too bad it doesn’t start until October though.


I went to my second water aerobics class. I really do love the water. I’m not sold on learning to swim yet. I’ve seen the lessons and anyone can watch you! Parents watch their kids. There are classes going on. Random swimmers are swimming around. ARGH. I have a fear of putting my face under water. I don’t want a lot of people to see that. Anyway, water aerobics is fun. The only thing I didn’t like was having to hold someone’s hand for one exercise (for resistance). Awkward. Trust me I am almost thinking about not going back to her class because of that. But I will be daring and go at least once more.

I stayed in 4 feet of water this time. I think the water shoes really helped. I was less worried about slipping and drowning. I have these shoes. So far so good but I’m not an expert.

The Y is giving me until February 9th to get my 2011 taxes in. I’m thankful for the extension. I just will be shocked if I get my taxes back by then. I will continue to enjoy the Y while I can. Right now my gym schedule is looking like this:

Sunday: Gentle yoga/or Vinyasa Yoga

Tuesday: Water aerobics (not really called that. It is a moderate impact class)

Thursday: the treadmill

I’m not thrilled about Thursdays but I can’t find any classes. A class is like an appointment. I can do that but just going to the gym to get on the treadmill…boring! After 10 minutes I get so bored. I don’t know how I will motivate myself to go. I have to find a class. There is a pilates class but my body does not like pilates. At all.

Now that I’ve gone back to yoga classes, I yearn to do it at home all the time. The video below is my favorite routine:

I like yoga classes but there is a little self consciousness there. It is hard for me to get in the flow. On the other hand, I need to attend classes to practice at home. So classes it is. I’m still searching for the perfect class. I haven’t tried Vinyasa yoga at this gym yet. I’m worried it will be too hard but I might try this Sunday. Gentle yoga I can do.

I could do water aerobics everyday. 🙂 But I only have 2 bathing suits. LOL. And I only like one of them. Nah, the real reason is that I’m not that brave to try different water aerobics classes.