Does it ever?

So much has happened since I last posted. I don’t know where to begin. I’ll start with work. Sigh. I had a meeting with my manager on Tuesday. I’ve been there for almost 14 years. I’ve never had a problem until we got on the new system about a year ago. Anyway, the ‘big boss’ (never met her) is okay with me being fired!!! WTF? Yeah, Tuesday sucked. My manager says she’s been sticking up for me. I appreciate that…I could already have lost my job. I need to be at 100. I’m currently at 81. They keep raising what 100 should be, so I think I’m doing okay, but in reality, I’m not.

I’ve been applying for jobs. I joined Teachable and entered the 90-day course creator challenge. I am going to finish my course by August 31. Will it be for sale by then? Probably not. Because I need at least 5 people to take the course for free for feedback and testimonials. I want it for sale by September/October. I have set the price at $147. I want to go lower, but that’s the lowest price for an astrology course I’ve ever seen. Most courses at what I’m giving would cost at least $397. The point is that I’m counting on this course for income. I’ve been going live on Instagram, Facebook, etc. I need a better, more consistent plan, but that’s another story.

One job I applied for already rejected me. I don’t need a rejection letter for just sending in a resume, but thanks for the vote of confidence. 😉 I only expect to hear back if I have an interview. If my manager writes me up on June1 (which is better than being fired), I probably won’t be able to do overtime, so I will have more time for interviews and working on my course.

So that’s work. Now onto transcendental meditation. We have a total of 5 meetings. I had my first meeting last weekend. FUCK. It was a disaster. Small room and we were facing each other. I was staring at the table for 90 minutes. How freaking embarrassing! Ugh. Why were we facing each other?? I hate that.

I have 4 more meetings, and then I’m done for life unless I want to get a tune-up. Most people see results within 2 days, so I’m really hopeful and excited for the real meetings which start on June 1. It’s four days in a row. The good thing is that the first meeting is one on one. The other 3 sessions are in that damn room with that damn table. Don’t get me started on parking. LOL. I got lost and ended up walking to Whole Foods (and buying stuff) because I was walking the wrong way.

The meditation is for 40 minutes a day. Twenty minutes in the morning and twenty in the afternoon (not right before bed – the afternoon/evening). And you have to do it everyday…for life or it will stop working.

Food and diet – I ate like crap during my birthday week. I was too scared to try on my high rise skinny jeans. However, I noticed that my old jeans were falling down. I’m thinking, “I know I gain weight. Why are my pants falling down?” Well, I finally got brave and weighed myself. I gain .4 pounds! ROFL. I was 136 something before my birthday. And now I’m 136.8 pounds. Woohoo! No major weight gain. I consider myself really lucky.

I’m still on Nutrisystem even though I was going to cancel. I should cancel due to cost. I did lower the price by only being on Nutrisystem Monday through Friday. I’m currently doing Hello Fresh (affl. link – get a deal by clicking on the link). I have cooked two meals so far. I cooked rice for the first time!! LOL. I don’t even like white rice. I was going to give it to my mom, but I tried it with soy sauce, and it was so good. Why didn’t anyone tell me about soy sauce on rice? I know everyone knows about this but me. Anyway, the tilapia was so good even though I couldn’t wait for it to defrost thoroughly, so it broke up. Rice and tilapia will be a new go-to meal for me. But only with soy sauce. 🙂

Election 2020. Hmmm, not much to say. Marianne Williamson made it to 1% in 3 polls, so she technically is in the June debate, but unless 3-4 people drop out, she may still not make the debate. FWIW, I think Yang is going to make it. He is doing better than Marianne in the polls. Kamala is doing well, and so is Elizabeth Warren. Go, ladies! (Even though I won’t vote for Kamala in the primary). And I hope saying, “go ladies” is not sexist. Oh, one more thing: I don’t see anything wrong with doing the Fox townhalls. I haven’t watched them, but whatever. Either way is fine. Someone in the media called Kamala and Elizabeth ‘silly’ for not doing Fox. I don’t agree. Oh, and Buttigieg is too conservative for me. Is anyone in the midwest really liberal? I don’t hate him, but he isn’t in my top 3. Do I have a top 3? Hmmm, I guess it’s Williamson, Warren and maybe Stacey Abrams if she ran. I guess I have a top 2.

This week I…

Music of the week: Carly Rae Jepsen, Rachael Sage, Rachel Platten, Jussie Smollett, Pia Toscano, Rachel Kerr, Shawn Mendes, Britney Spears

TV of the week:  Survivor, RHOBH

Podcasts of the week:  True Crime Garage, Online Marketing Made Easy, So You Wanna Be a Witch

Books of the week: Now reading – 

I finished reading When Food Is Love: Exploring the Relationship Between Eating and Intimacy by Geneen Roth which is a quick read and surprisingly good. I never thought of myself as a person with intimacy issues. 😉

Weekend Plans: Long weekend my ass. HAHA. I’m gratefully working on Saturday and Monday. I’m only working half a day though both days. I’m working on my astrology course, which is confusing because I’m taking THREE astrology courses, and I’m creating one. I’m doing all the things astrology this weekend. Doing lots of business stuff because I want my class to sell. I’m not expecting huge numbers. I would DIE with 20 sales. I would love 5. So those are my dream numbers.

Not much is going on. I need to do some spring cleaning. Just trying to live life…and figure out what to post on Instagram. This selling shit is so not me and can get confusing, but whatevs. Oh, I’m also getting back into knitting. Expect some pics of scarves and then hopefully hats soon. I used to knit about 4 years ago, and now I remember next to nothing. I’ve been watching Craftsy classes. I have to start all over. Apparently, knitting is not like driving a car. I can’t say riding a bike because I never learned how to ride a bike and I still don’t know how.

I will spend time honoring our fallen soldiers. They made the ultimate sacrifice.

Have a great weekend! Thanks for reading. 🙂

Happy Taurus season!

Well, I will be busy throughout July…maybe. We were just asked for overtime throughout July. That’s rare. I feel bad for only doing 7 extra hours a week, but that’s all I can do and still sorta have my sanity. I can’t work 55 hours a week. Would I like the money? YES. But is my mental health worth it? Nah.

I say maybe because they could easily change their mind about OT or something else could change. Who knows? But I signed up for 7 hours every week until the end of July. Well, I’m off for one week in May, and I have 3 days off in the middle of July, but other than that, I’m pretty much working EVERY Saturday.

Health insurance and counseling have not been figured out. What a shock. Not. Ugh, I hate paying the full rate. I have therapy on Friday at 6PM. I really, really, really hope I’m not charged the full price. I won’t know until 15 minutes before the session. Great. Sigh. She only works on Fridays, so it’s easy to just see her twice a month. I’m sure she’ll try to get me to see her weekly and I might consider that IF my insurance gets straight. However, after a few months, I usually don’t see the benefit of going to therapy every single week. My life often isn’t that intense. It kind of is NOW.

I’m behind on my therapy homework. She gave me so much to read. Gotta put that on my to do list.

Today was a waste of a day. I didn’t get anything done besides working OT. I was supposed to mow the lawn, but the fully assembled lawn mower has an issue with the handle. Sigh. So I wasn’t able to mow the lawn. Maybe tomorrow.

I’ve lost 20 pounds and can fit into all my old clothes. Okay, the midrise skinny jeans are still very tight, but I wore them today. Thanks to Nutrisystem. 🙂 Today wasn’t a good day. I drank vanilla iced coffee (300 calories!) and had potato chips. That is what happens when I go out unexpectantly and get hungry. I hate that. I need to carry healthy or low-calorie snacks with me. I can’t leave the snacks in my purse because my dog would destroy my bag to get to the food and I can’t leave snacks in my car because it is too damn hot. I’m sure there is a solution somewhere. I’ll think about it.

I guess I have to get off Nutrisystem soon. If it were cheaper, I would not be thinking about getting off because it has the stability I NEED. Not want. NEED.

Election 2020 – Joe Biden is running for president. 😦 That will make the moderates and people who don’t follow politics carefully very happy. My mom falls into both categories, so she’s happy. I, on the other hand, follow politics too carefully and I’m liberal so no Joe for me. I probably will watch his announcement on Wednesday and his rally whenever he has it. I don’t hate him. I just don’t want him to be president.

Marianne Williamson did great on the CNN town hall. It was painful to be forced to watch CNN, and I won’t do it again (until they have a debate). Anyway, her saying abortion is a moral issue…I get it, but ugh, the way it came across will rub progressives the wrong way. She is pro-choice of course, but she just pointed out that abortion is a moral issue. I agree with her, but I don’t want to judge people who get abortions. It would be easy for me to judge because I don’t have sex! I have no idea what it’s like to even THINK about getting an abortion. So I’m not going there with abortion. I’m pro-choice. And that’s that.

Btw, Marianne is more moderate/conserative than me. But I still support her to be president. We definitely do not have the same values when it comes to some things.

About the debate in June…MSNBC will divide the debate into 2 nights. LOL. They have no choice! There are so many candidates. I like this better than the first idea they had which was one hour to ten candidates and the second hour to the second group. I wonder how ratings will be for the second group? I think they should do random draw, otherwise it won’t be fair.

This week I…

Music of the week: Beyonce, Marren Morris, Rachael Sage, Ariana Grande, Rachel Platten, Maggie Rogers, India.Arie, First Aid Kit

Liking the Beyonce live album. I’m not the biggest Beyonce fan, but I can appreciate decent work. Beyonce is good (NOT GREAT), it’s her fans that drive me insane. She’s not the queen of anything, but she sang live at Coachella last year! Props to her. I know she can sing live. She just chooses to lip-synch sometimes. I’m just surprised she actually sang at Coachella! Interesting…

TV of the week:  NBA Playoffs, Real Housewives of NYC

Movie of the week: Street Fight I hate this damn new linking shit with wordpress. Fuck this shit!

Anyway, Street Fight is an Oscar-nominated Cory Booker documentary. OMG. If he can survive Newark politics, watch out! He might not win in 2020. But this man can be president one day…when there are fewer candidates. I like him, but I don’t love that he gets money from corporations and maybe Republicans. He’s a great person and would be a decent president. I’m just not sure of where he gets his money. I don’t know. I’m not 100% anti-corporations like most progressives. I do want companies to pay taxes, though. Amazon. About the Republican money (THIS IS NOT PROVEN, BTW), I would take money from anyone except the NRA. If a Republican wants to help me…hello? Here I am. At this point, I think I could vote for Booker in the primary. Would I be thrill about it? Probably not. Would I vote for him over Biden? Hell, yes.

Podcasts of the week: True Crime Garage, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Pod Save America, The Jim Fortin Podcast, In the Dark, Tarot for the Wild Soul

Books of the week: Now reading – 

Weekend Plans: Well, today is Saturday. Like I said, I didn’t get much done other than work. Tomorrow I would like to finish my book review (so late, but I don’t care) go grocery shopping, and I’m going to mow the lawn.

Thanks for reading. Have a great rest of the weekend and the rest of the week. 🙂

My sex drive…outrageous

Yesterday I kind of wanted to die. I was overwhelmed. Work sucks. Work sucks. Works sucks. I asked for this upcoming Friday off because I need a break. I wanted Monday off but I didn’t want to pressure my boss into approving it on short notice.

Anyway, I’m feeling much better now. I have decided to take a week off from my “business” or should I call it a “side hustle” as everyone else does. Not posting on Instagram will mess me up as far as the algorithm. But I don’t care. After a week, I will probably go back to it and maybe consider it a hobby. Not sure. I love tarot and astrology, so I’m okay with it being just a hobby as long as I’m not investing too much time or money. That’s the problem.

I MADE AN 85 on my final exam astrology paper!!!!!!!!!!111!!!! Woohoo! I was just trying to get a 70. They grade hard, so I didn’t know what to expect. I still don’t have my final grade for the class, but I think I passed. It doesn’t matter. I’m not getting a certificate or a degree there. So whatevs.

NEWSFLASH: I am doing monthly horoscopes for another site. They reached out to me. Someone thinks I’m okay. lol. However, I won’t get a link back to my site. It is good experience. I’ve never done horoscopes before. I’ve done 6 so far. It’s interesting. I’m still a beginner when it comes to astrology, so I’m pretty sure what I’m doing isn’t that great. I can’t imagine doing daily horoscopes. Haha. No way. I would have to be paid for that.

If I ever stop posting my horoscopes on their site, I’m going to post them on my Patreon or my website. Plus, when I pitch to people I get to say “I’m an astrologer for ——“. How cool is that? I also will eventually add it to the bio on my website. But I’m not updating my website right now because I don’t give a fuck.

I don’t know what else to say. Just waiting to hear about work. I really can’t talk about it since I think someone from work is reading this.

Oh, I made 3 mental health appointments for April. They are all online. YAY! I’m so glad my insurance covers that. I made two appointments with a therapist for April. Due to cost, I would only like to have therapy two times a month, and her schedule only allows that. She only works online on Fridays, so it is tough to get an appointment with her. That’s why I scheduled both even though we haven’t even talked yet. If we don’t match, I will cancel the second appointment.

I may have mentioned the psychiatrist appointment last week. My 3D doctor SUCKS, so I’m going to see what an online one says. I’m worried this will be a waste of time. What if he says, “See your doctor” or “there’s nothing I can do.” I just want to know how to get off Abilify. I know it is different for everyone. I’m on the lowest possible dose. In fact, I only take it 5 days a week. Of course, I’m supposed to take it daily. Ugh, I just can’t get off of this med. 😦 Before Abilify, I was a somewhat high functioning depressed person. I could work just fine, but everything else sucked. When I got home from work, all I would do is sleep.

So Abilify works, but it sucks if you are 1 out of the 3 people who will have compulsive behaviors. I’ve read stories of people gambling excessively while on the med etc. For the first few years, I had no side effects from Abilify. I guess I would recommend to only stay on it for a year and get off ASAP…even if it works. Don’t end up like me. :/

Election 2020: Marianne Williamson was on MSNBC for the first time today! She’ll be on Morning Joe on April 4th. Finally. Can’t wait to watch. However, she still doesn’t have enough people supporting her. At this point, she will not be on the debate stage in June. 😦 That will kill her chances. I keep mentioning Marianne, but I have never linked to her donation page. Please donate. I only donated $2.00. Any amount helps!

I really like Pete Buttigieg. He kind of had a WTF moment recently when he said coastal elites don’t understand Trump voters. Sigh. Whatever. I know a lot of people feel this way. Anyway, I would vote for Pete. 100%. He’s gay. Can we have an gay president? I think so BUT then there’s Joe Biden. I think it will come down to Joe, Kamala and Beto. In a month, that opinion will probably change. I think Joe will be the candidate. Too bad.

So far I’m down for voting for Buttigieg, Williamson (of course!), Warren and maybe Castro. I wonder will Stacey Abrams run? If she does, I’ll add her to my list of people I would vote for in the primary. We vote on Super Tuesday. I’m going to try to get that day off…if I want to vote. If it is between Booker, Biden, Sanders, and Kamala – I won’t give a shit. It’s funny Booker and Joe are probably the nicest people in DC, but who cares? I don’t like their policies. (Booker’s past policies are the problem, not the stuff he is saying now).

This week I…

Music of the week: Britney Spears, Jussie Smollett (LOL), Christina Aguilera, Jewel, Rachel Platten, Maggie Rogers, Rachael Sage, Sugarland

Yes, Smollett’s charges were dropped. That doesn’t mean much of anything. I just really wanted to listen to his debut again. So I used the charges being dropped as a reason to listen to his album again. I hope Jussie didn’t pay anyone off. I don’t think he did. I think it was just a DA letting him off the hook due to the inner workings of the “justice” system. It does bother me that IF he did it, he keeps lying, but he has always said that his mom raised him not to lie (prior to all this happening), so I figured he would never admit to lying about something like this!

His mom and all his siblings probably 100% believe him. How can he let his whole family down and the few supporters he has left? In this case, I think being honest would help him get his career slightly back on track (not with Empire – screw that). But if he keeps saying he was a victim of a hate crime…uh. I dunno. People don’t like lies like that. But lies by politicians and police officers are just fine. 😉

TV of the week: The Bachelor, March Madness

Will I ever finish watching The Bachelor? Stay tuned. I started watching it late and I only watch about 2 hours a week, so that’s why I’m so behind. I probably will post about this season once I’m done. Btw, this is my first time watching The Bachelor. So interesting.

Podcasts of the week:  So You Wanna Be a Witch, Why is This Happening, Pod Save America, All In with Chris Hayes, The Jim Fortin Podcast, In the Dark (sooo good!), Pod Save America, The Astrology Podcacst,

Books of the week: Now reading – 

Weekend Plans: I’m taking another astrology class from Astrology University (highly recommend them). I have a paper due tomorrow. I have to work on that tonight. I want to finish my horoscopes too. I was running around getting a new phone from Verizon today, so I didn’t get much done. The phone I could afford wasn’t at most of the Verizons near me. I love my new phone with the Kate Spade case. I HAD to get a new one. It was hard to just make phone calls on my old phone. I had to start calling into work meetings 5 minutes early if I had to be there at the beginning.

I couldn’t use most apps. One thing I forgot – I forgot to take out my SD card. Not a huge deal. I just had music and Marianne Williamson talks on there. Oh well. This phone has so much space, so I have no plans to use a SD card.

I really have to go. UVA is playing right now. They are scaring me. They are only down by one. I hope they make it to the final four and win the whole thing. So I’m going to work on my paper and watch basketball until midnight.

Thanks for checking in! Have a great week. 🙂

I have a famous dog​

OMG! Last week was the first weekly update I’ve missed in YEARS. I’m kind of sad because I like to keep up with what music I’ve listened to that week. lol. Oh well, I will update this weekend. So busy with this tarot/astrology stuff and I’m also working a little OT. 6 hours this week. I’m trying to work on Christmas, but I don’t know if the system will be up. Hmm.

Another short entry. Oh, and my dog got a bunch of vaccinations today. He was wandering around like a lost puppy earlier. He seems better now. I shouldn’t have gone on Bing to do more research. HORROR STORIES.

It’s 10PM now. Going to bed. A pic of my dog is going to be on the local news tomorrow. YAY. 🙂 🙂 😉 Hope he feels better ASAP.

Someday I won’t be afraid

Ugh. My landlord and I are doing a walkthrough of the house on December 15th. 😦 I’m scared. WHY???? Fuck.  Unless something happens, my mom will be there too. I’m not going through that crap alone. Oh, he said he would have given me a break on my rent. Whatevs. I needed 3 months rent free to keep living there. Three months every freaking year. Not happening. 

I’m off Monday through Wednesday of next week. I should have taken the whole week off. Too late for that now.  I will make sure the junk (sofas, TVs, and actual junk) is gone by the 15th. I have to take my dog to the vet on Monday and then it would be great if the junk people could come Monday or Tuesday. I’m making the appointment soon.

Sucks. Sucks. Sucks. I just talked to my landlord. I lied to my landlord. Kind of. He always lets his calls from me go to voicemail so I expected that to happen today. NOPE! He picked up the phone. I was shocked. We talked and then he asked, “Is anything wrong with the house?” I almost passed out. I couldn’t talk. I just said, “the water”. And then he went on about the water pressure and blah, blah, blah. 

The point of all this is that now I’m thinking about calling a plumber. The problem is MONEY of course. But there are other issues too. What if they can’t fix it? What if they can’t fix it before December 15th? My walkthrough is December 15th. It has to be before the 15th because I’m returning the keys on that day. 

At this point, I don’t know what to do. Obviously, if I could afford it, I would call a plumber. Well, I did call a plumber, but the fixing of the leak did not fix the water issue. I think I’m going to do it. But I have so much to do over the next 5 days. I’ll go over it in “weekend plans”. So now it looks like I’m paying the junk company and a plumber. 😦

That whole ‘so you can have it all.’ Nope, not at the same time,” Obama said. “That’s a lie. And it’s not always enough to lean in, because that shit doesn’t work all the time.”

I love the part about how leaning in doesn’t work all the time. AMEN! People that act like all people have the same chances, talents, opportunities make me sick. They say that shit to feel better about themselves. They don’t want to see their privilege. Beauty? Privilege. Communication skills? Privilege. Nope, NOT EVERYONE can learn that. Most people can. Money from mom and dad? Privilege. From what I’ve seen most people have no clue about their privileges. The more I interact with people online, the more I see how clueless people are. 

Anyway, about having it all? It depends on what you want. I don’t want kids, to climb a corporate ladder, a husband, or a white picket fence. I want an eight-foot privacy fence, a big bathroom in a smallish house with at least 2 acres of land, to be able to work from anywhere and my dog. That’s doable for a lot of people. So maybe I can have it all. I don’t know. I’m working on it now. 

As far as the whole kids’ thing goes, I know people who had their kids when they were either really young or much older. They got to live their own life prior to having kids or afterward. So kids aren’t necessarily a prison sentence. LOL. I know for some people their kids are their life (is it rude to gag?). I know people that rely on their kids for their happiness. I think it’s sad, but some (most?) of these people seem okay so who am I to judge? 

Some people claim to have it all. I’ve seen people say it online. I think 50% of these people are telling the truth. 😉 It just depends on what people want. Everyone doesn’t want the same thing! If people could comprehend that, that would be great. 

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Alessia Cara, Maggie Rose, Ariana Grande, Carrie Underwood, Halsey, Matt Nathanson, Missy Higgins

TV of the week:  basketball, House of Cards, The Haunting of Hill House

I finished House of Cards. It ended the way it should have. I guess. We all knew it would end that way. I think I’m going to re-watch House of Cards from season 1 soon. 

Movie of the week: None

Podcasts of the week:  Fresh Air, The Mental Illness Happy Hour, True Crime Garage, Pod Save America, So You Wanna Be a Witch?, Where Should We Begin?, Tarot for the Wild Soul

Books of the week: Now reading:

Plans for the weekend: Groan. How can I complain when I’m off until Thursday? But I have so much to do. *whine* I’m probably calling the junk company and plumber tomorrow. 

I should be doing an astrology/tarot reading right now instead of blogging. I have never done one of these readings before, so I’m nervous. I’m also excited. I just don’t know how long it will take. She gave me her astrology info and her boyfriend’s info, so I have to merge all of it into a cohesive reading. I’m going to try my best to finish this reading tomorrow even though I’m going to be out most of the day.

I also want to work at my day job for at least 3 hours during my vacay. Imagine my horror when I found today that I was behind! Oops.  I hope I can find 3 hours since I have to take my dog to the vet, and I will be spending a lot of time at my old house with no internet so I can’t work. I NEED to find the time to work so I won’t get more behind. I will find the time. It is necessary. I really hope it doesn’t snow.  That could mess up most of my plans, but I would probably get to focus on my day job. Yipee. :/

Well, I gotta go. It’s Friday night and it’s a little late to start something, but I might start the astrology part of her reading. Or I might journal. Or just do a tarot reading for me. ha. I’m so fun!! 

Thanks for reading. Have a great weekend! 🙂 

The way things could’ve gone

How do people, like, deal with people? I hate whoever came up with giving gifts at Christmas. It could be somewhat enjoyable if it weren’t for the whole greedy ass people who want multiple gifts. And some people don’t even see a problem with this whole charade. UGH?! It’s nauseating. The whole damn thing. 

Okay, had to get all that out. Now I’m better.  Work is going uh, I wish I knew. We now have a computer monitoring everything we do. But the computer isn’t exactly accurate so, I have no idea how I’m doing. I look at the report, and it’s like a language I don’t understand. I think I have a meeting with my manager within 2 weeks, so I’ll know for sure then. I guess if I’m doing horrible, she’ll email me before then. 

I’m working overtime this weekend. I haven’t worked on the old system in a month. I hope things go smoothly. 

I have big goals for 2019. Well, most I’m starting now except the first one listed.  I’m taking a course on using tarot to help with goals and it so SO GOOD. As of right now, my top goals are:

  • Pay off 25% of my credit card debt by January 1, 2020 
  • Learn tarot “by heart” so I can do live, online readings by the end of April
  • finish the astrology course by the end of February 
  • Get 30 people on my email list by the end of April (hopefully more)
  • Decide whether I want to do tarot and/or astrology anymore by June
  • Lose 20 pounds by April
  • Get to goal at my day job by mid- December 2018 

I will probably have more goals, but I like the idea of fewer goals. I have to break down each goal, of course. I already have a plan for the debt. Once I pay off most of my debt, I’m going to start saving for a downpayment on my dream house. That probably won’t happen until 3 years from now. 

Unfortunately, to accomplish these goals, I’m going to have to change things. No shit! The number 1 thing I’m sad about is reading fewer books. I will probably try to read one book a month. That means no more hoarding library books. 😦 I might try listening to audiobooks more. Not sure.

I’m also going to have to exercise more. I don’t have a problem exercising when it’s warm.  I do have access to my mom’s treadmill, but since my dad is living here, I don’t feel comfortable using it. I don’t know when he’s sleeping and blah, blah, blah. I was planning on doing Kundalini yoga twice a month starting in January. I will probably still do it. However, that kind of yoga isn’t much of a calorie burner. It’s great for my spirit, but not for losing weight. Hmmm, I have to come up with something. Just wait for my dad to leave in 6 weeks or so? Maybe.

That’s enough for now. I may do an updated list of goals, but I doubt it. I think that’s final. 

Oh, I almost forgot to mention my landlord got my letter about me moving. He left me a voice message. He said he was sad to see me go. I always paid my rent early and I never complained (lol). What I’m terrified about is the walkthrough. Why do I have to? *whine* The main issue (and maybe only issue) is the water. But that might be huge to him. FUCK. Sorry.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Missy Higgins, Christina Aguilera, Mariah Carey, Halsey, Jason Mraz, Ariana Grande, Florence + the Machine, Lauren Daigle

I probably will only do a top 5 albums of 2018. Not a top 18 or 20 list. So much good music was released this year. Anyway, an album I’m rediscovering is Christina’s album. I didn’t love the first two singles so I kind of slept on the album, but songs have been coming up on randomly when I listen to all my music and this week I finally decided to give the album another chance. It’s so much better than I thought. 

TV of the week:  basketball, House of Cards, Survivor

I canceled Hulu so I don’t get to finish binge-watching Nashville. Bummer. I was on the last season and was really enjoying it. I finished watching Making a Murderer season two. I don’t have a ton of thoughts. I can see why people still believe Avery may be innocent. I do think one of his family member’s had something to do with the murder AND I think Avery knew after the fact. 

Movie of the week: None

Podcasts of the week:  True Crime Garage, Pod Save America, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Sword and Scale, The Lively Show, Why is This Happening? 

Books of the week: Now reading –

Yep, I’m already cutting down my reading list.

Plans for the weekend: Working OT on Saturday. I’m going grocery shopping on Sunday. I’m working on breaking down my goals for the year.  I need to work on a PDF or mini eBook for my email list. I should be doing that now. I want to release it by mid-December. I have 2 pages done. It needs to be 13-14 pages. 

Thanks for reading. Have an excellent weekend! 🙂

Thought I could take it from here

I didn’t eat turkey. I don’t like turkey. I ate alone in my room. Well, my dog was there for 40% of the time. I know what others do on Thanksgiving and I enjoy my way more. I hate holidays. They are the worse. Mainly because I dislike anything that disrupts the norm. Snow, holidays, etc. Hate it all.

Work is kicking my ass. If I don’t meet their unrealistic expectations by the end of December, I could lose my job. I’ve been with this company for 13 or 14 years. They start a new system and suddenly I’m nothing? That’s fair. NOT. Anyway, I’m determined to get better. I am getting better, but it’s still not good enough. As of right now, I’m at about 66% of goal. Yes, I’m supposed to be at 100%. 

Working from home with my mom here is not helping. And my dad will be here on Friday or Saturday. What if he’s loud too? I haven’t lived with him in YEARS, so I have no idea how loud he will be during my work hours. About my mom, she will probably start a new job soon. So that’s good news.

I’m trying to get to 70% by the end of November and then somehow get to 100% by December 31. I have to believe I can, or I would just sit around depressed. 

I’m mailing my letter tomorrow to my landlord about moving out. 😦 I have come to peace with wanting this whole moving thing to be over. However, the landlord might want to do a walk through which sounds like hell. I’d rather not. I have to accept whatever he says. He can’t say I broke the lease. I haven’t had a lease since May 2013. 

But there are water issues with the house. It is no longer working in the kitchen. I called a plumber to fix the leak. That was a lot of money. I can’t keep calling plumbers. I give up. Keep my security deposit. I know I’m not getting that back. I never expected it back. Who thinks about that after living somewhere for 5 years? 

How about some 2020 talk? Okay, not too much. Marianne Williamson versus Stacey Abrams. Well, really it’ll be Marianne versus about 20 other people. I really like Stacey since I’ve done my research, but I have a history with Marianne so it has to be her, right? Marianne versus Beto? I will probably vote for the one I think can win. I love voting for people I like. It is so rare for me to get the opportunity. 

I’m not crazy about Elizabeth Warren or Corey Booker. I don’t want to vote for either of them. I prefer Warren over Booker. Anyway, Marianne wants people to donate to her, and normally I would donate $10, BUT I have given her so much of my money. So much. It’s ridiculous. Nah, not donating to her campaign unless she makes it past Iowa. 

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Mariah Carey, Rachael Sage, Kacey Musgraves, Ariana Grande, Maggie Rogers, The Weeknd, Christina Aguilera, Janelle Monae

TV of the week:  Nashville, basketball

Movie of the week: None

Podcasts of the week:  True Crime Garage, Pod Save America, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Mental Illness Happy Hour, Generation Why

Books of the week: Now reading –

Plans for the weekend: Ugh, tomorrow will be busy. Blah, blah, blah. We’ll be cleaning my old place since most of my stuff is gone. Then when I’m off in December, I’m calling the junk people to remove my sofas and other “junk”.  I think I have a truckload so the junk removal may cost more than the move. That sucks.

I’m also working on an astrological birth chart for my mom which is kind of impossible because she doesn’t know what time she was born. So it won’t be that accurate. I was born at 3:12 AM and my chart is almost 100% right. So far I have 486 words. I’m doing this in case someone buys one from my website. I need to have a template. I can’t just wing it. Maybe after I do this, someone will buy one from my shop. 

My dad is moving here temporarily for a few months tomorrow or Saturday. Have I mentioned that? My dog is the biggest issue because he doesn’t like anyone other than my mom and me. He now has to be locked in the room with me. He isn’t going to like that. 😦 

Tonight I will probably try to record some YouTube videos. Try is the key word because I can’t get the lighting right in this room. I never have great lighting, but this lighting is really bad despite me having THREE lamps in the room. LOL. 

Thanks for reading. Have a wonderful weekend! 🙂