We Just Play Pretend

Kind of busier than ever, but kind of not. I’m working extra hours (for free) at my full-time job, so I won’t get laid off very soon. Sigh. Maybe I should just focus on my full-time job? I have one virtual assistant client. BUT I want to learn more and work for others. I want to volunteer my services in exchange for a testimonial.

But I’m kind of stressed at the moment. At this point, I have NO TIME OFF IN APRIL. I will ask for at least one day off in April. My job is extremely stressful right now. I have a week off for my birthday in May. More about my plans for my bday later. Anyway, I’m not sure if I should volunteer to do work. I’m going to pull some tarot cards around it.

I’ve been using tarot now more than ever for work decisions, and so far the cards have always been right.

So basically, I’m stressed from work. I need my full-time job. And I also want virtual assistant skills. Since this climate is bad (the economy), I think it would be easy to find people that want free services, so I will probably do that.

I missed out on a PAID virtual assistant gig because I was working last night at my full-time job. Sigh. I didn’t check my email for four hours, and she needed help QUICK. Btw, I hate when people don’t plan and then they figure out they need a virtual assistant. I work full-time. I can’t just do whatever you want because you didn’t plan. UGH. Anyway, that sucks.

Oh, I’m now officially a travel agent! LOL. Perfect timing, right? More on that later. I can do travel and be a VA. No office required. I just need the internet.

As of right now, I’m going to a cabin for my birthday if they don’t shut the park down. My mom is paying half and I’m paying half. I don’t have my half, so we haven’t booked yet. I would love to get away, and my dog can come! They might close the park because they don’t want to pay the housekeepers or because they see the park as a hazard.

If the cabins get closed, I’m probably not doing anything for my birthday. Before I saw there were cabin vacancies, I had planned to go to the sauna and to a yoga class. Well, I know the yoga studio is closed. I got an email from the sauna, but I didn’t read it. I’m hoping they aren’t closed. That would be more jobs lost and no one needs that!

Even the libraries are closed, but they are allowing people to renew their cards or get new cards by phone.  I have 3 library cards. Two are active. I would have to drive 30 minutes to get the other card renewed. Now I can do it by just calling. Thank g-d. I would prefer to do it online, but whatever. I’m calling them next week.

It’s weird to see people complaining about not going anywhere. I never go anywhere, so not much has changed in my life. I don’t have friends, so I don’t feel isolated. Basically, nothing has changed for me. Well, I do use more hand sanitizer these days.

Welcome to my life. 

Election 2020: Biden has won the nom (pretty much), but where is he? I’m listening to Bernie give online townhalls and Joe is doing nothing in the public. Personally, I don’t need to hear from him, but I think some Democrats might want to hear someone other than Trump.

All the people that said the November election might be postponed are probably right. How did they know? The coronavirus was nowhere when people were saying this. Trump isn’t ever leaving. ::cries::

No election or election. Trump is probably going to have another four years. I’ve accepted that. So whatever.

This week I…

Music of the week: Rachel Platten, Ariana Grande, Carly Rae Jepsen, Taylor Swift, Maggie Rogers, Tori Kelly, Coldplay, Emily James

TV of the week:  Survivor, The Crown

I have stopped watching the news. What’s the point? The numbers they are giving out on the coronavirus are inaccurate because people aren’t getting tested. Besides 70% of people are going to get the virus. I don’t see the point of the news at this point.

Podcasts of the week:  Dateline, Pod Save America, So You Wanna Be a Witch, The Dating Game Killer, Have you Seen This Man?, Unsolved Murders

Books of the week:

Weekend Plans: Working. Grocery store. Walmart has food where I live. I’m going to work on learning more virtual assistant stuff tonight. I might work on my travel site for fun. No one is traveling right now, so I’m just learning more about the industry. My dad is overseas. I think he plans to come back to the US in May. I think it’s safer for him to stay where he is. They don’t have many cases of the virus.

Thanks for reading my ramble. Have a great weekend!

I can’t complain

Someone is paying me $55 to write a blog or newsletter. (!!) It’s only about 300 words, so I wouldn’t call it either. This is a trial job. If I do well, they will probably keep me. I’m not sure how much work she has. I’m guessing I would be paid $55 a week, which works for me.

I already finished the blog. I thought it would take me ALL weekend. So now I have free time. I will probably turn it in on Saturday night and…hold my breath. LOL. If she wants revisions, I can do it on Sunday. Working full-time and doing virtual assistant work is no joke.

I still have to do the other VA work of podcast pitching. So I’m not completely work free this weekend. Right now, I have 2 clients. I should have time to work on my VA website, VA Instagram, and VA LinkedIn. I never thought I would use LinkedIn, but a LOT of VAs get work from there, so hey, I’ll join in. I sent about 10 semi-personal invites tonight (Friday night), and I only got one person accepted so far. What? Do people have plans on Friday night? 😉 I thought everyone was saying in due to the Coronavirus.

I think my ideal client is a life coach or a psychologist. Yeah, those two are different things, but they both help people. A lot of people seek life coaches for anxiety and maybe depression. I would KILL to work for a psychologist. I’m currently doing my portfolio for a psychologist I have in mind. I will send her my work when I’m done. I thought I had a chance to work with her. However, she just moved from Philly to LA, so I think she probably has help or is getting help. She didn’t move to LA for no reason. She probably has a TV deal.

My full-time job may be gone soon. They let six people go from our small team. Their last day is the last day of March. I somehow made the cut. WHEW. But they will make more cuts. Uh, I hate to be pessimistic, but I don’t see many of us making the next cut. It sucks. I can make money being a virtual assistant BUT I won’t have health insurance. And my VA work is short-term for now (since I’m new), so my income isn’t consistent.

I wish I could get part-time work at a nursery (a garden nursery), but that doesn’t solve the health insurance problem. I don’t want to work full-time for anyone else if I lose this job, so I might have to give up health insurance. I don’t want to because I really like my therapist. I see her online twice a month. I can cut my meds in half, so I would be fine for about 4-6 months since I have 90-day supplies of all my meds.

Oh well. I hope I can keep my job through December 2020. I love doing VA work and I would love more time to work on that, but I don’t want to give up a steady paycheck plus health insurance.

Election 2020: Well, a billionaire can’t buy an election? I still think it’s possible. Don’t be shocked if Jeff Bezos runs in 2024. He is friends with Ivanka and Jared and other Republicans.  But he also donates a lot of money to climate change. So I don’t know which party he would pick. He would probably do like Bloomberg and pick whichever party he thinks he can win.

Anyhow, I voted for the best candidate on Super Tuesday: Elizabeth Warren. Unfortunately, now we are stuck with two lousy candidates. I like Bernie, but he isn’t likable (ha – Hillary is right on this one!). Americans want to vote for someone they like so…Joe isn’t a good candidate because he is clearly suffering from the early stages of dementia. But if he doesn’t have to debate Trump, he might be okay.

My views align with Bernie. I hope he gets the nom. I’m sick of moderates saying they won’t vote for him. We progressives always have to do what THEY WANT. I’m sick of it. They pick safe, lame-ass candidates and wonder why they lose. Sick of their bullshit. That’s why I refuse to call myself a Democrat. They know how to lose. Occasionally they take a chance and win (Obama, for example), but mostly it is a party of losers. Progressives have to do all the organizing. Geez. So sick of moderates. Hate me for caring about winning. I’m okay with that.

The debate between Biden and Sanders should be interesting. Biden rarely lasts two hours, so I feel so bad for him. What is going to happen? Oh god. I don’t want Biden to win the nom (Anita Hill, Iraq War, etc.), but I don’t want him to be embarrassed on a national stage. Well, Biden is the media’s favorite, so they will probably say he won if he says two complete sentences.

This week I…

Music of the week: Ariana Grande, Amos Lee, Ellie Goulding, Jillette Johnson, Maggie Rogers, Marren Morris, Patty Griffin, Rachel Platten

TV of the week:  Survivor, The Crown

Podcasts of the week:  Crimelines, Dateline,  Pod Save America, So You Wanna Be a Witch, The Rachel Maddow Show, The Dating Game Killer

Books of the week:

I finished reading Murder Beyond the Grave by James Patterson. 4 stars. True Crime. There are two stories in this book. The first one is perfect and the second one sucks. It’s one that I’ve watched documentaries on and Dateline on. Please stop talking about this case! However, the first story is so good, it still deserves 4 stars. I’m on the library waitlist for part two of the series.

Now reading –

Weekend Plans: Staying in. I will be working 50% of the time on VA stuff. I don’t know how people with a FT job balance it. I don’t want to take on too much work, but I want experience and money so….For example, I thought it was going to take me all weekend to finalize the blog. I will edit it tomorrow when my brain is clear, but I’m pretty much done with it. It took less than two hours. So I have extra time unless she hates it. Ugh.

Have a great weekend! Thanks for reading. 🙂

Always walking in my shadows

I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing.

Well, starting March 1, I will no longer be doing astrology/tarot as a business. I only made about $300 in revenue in 2019. I worked hard for that, and it’s not worth it.

I am now a virtual assistant. I have TWO clients. That’s a lot of work…well, it is a lot of work for someone with a full-time job. One client is giving me in-depth coaching in return for me basically selling her services. I need the coaching, so fair trade.

The other I’m designing Instagram graphics for. I love it, but I don’t know if it’s a fair trade. I get a Facebook review on my business page from her once the work is done. That’s a big deal. But originally I told her I could do one hour a week and now I’m doing more. THIS IS MY FAULT!

Anyway, either of these could turn into paid assignments. So I feel the extra pressure to do an excellent job PLUS always be working. Sigh. I could really use a day off from my day job. I have Feb 20 and 21 off. That’s too far away. LOL.

I will have more to say about these assignments later. I’ve been doing stuff all day. It’s 10PM and my brain is fried.

I still can’t believe Kobe is dead. I read those words a lot. But to hear people SAY it…it’s not real to me. I’ve always been critical of Kobe. He raped a woman. I used to say, “I’m a Laker fan, not a Kobe fan”. But that’s crap. He was with the Lakers for 20 YEARS. It’s impossible to like the Lakers and not see Kobe. Kobe = Laker.

I admired his work ethic more than anything. He worked harder than 90% of the NBA players out there. I didn’t know him much as a dad/family man like those that knew him. I know him as a basketball player. Sigh. God.

Iowa votes on Monday. Sorry for the weird transition. I think/hope Sanders will win. Of course, I would prefer Warren winning, but that’s probably not happening. Speaking of voting, I have Super Tuesday off! 🙂 Anyway, Iowa should be fun. I guess.

Bloomberg sucks. Why are people falling for that crap? He’s worse than Biden.

This week I…

Music of the week: Taylor Swift, Halsey, Ariana Grande, Christina Aguilera, Rachel Platten, Rachel Kerr, Simran & GuruPrem, Amos Lee

TV of the week:  Disappeared, Vanderpump Rules

I’m addicted to Disappeared (true crime). I miss having Netflix. I probably will get it back in April.

Podcasts of the week:  So You Wanna Be a Witch, Crimelines, Dateline, True Crime Garage, Being Boss, Pod Save America, The Jim Fortin Podcast, The Lowe Post, Why is This Happening?

I’m listening to a bunch of business podcasts for a client. OMG, I forgot how much Being Boss sucks. It’s so vanilla.

Books of the week:

Who the fuck has time to read?

Weekend Plans: Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, and grocery shopping.

Thanks for reading! Have a great week. 🙂 I got to take a break to do this post and guess what? I feel guilty.

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I have an intern. Okay, she’s only doing one 1,200 blog post for me, but that’s one less thing I have to worry about it. She says she willing to do one more post, but of course, she wants to get paid, and I will only say yes if I can afford to pay her a fair wage. If she lives in the US, I doubt I even consider it.

1,200 words are essential to get a high ranking on Google. I blog a lot, but my posts are about 300 words because I don’t have time. It takes time to research etc. I can easily do long posts here because I’m just talking about my exciting life. 😉

OMG! My intern just messaged me. She wants to go over 1,200 words!! Why can’t I be her? Yes, please go over. Do 2,000 words. Rock it!

I did an astrology related guest post. It is my first guest post. It went up today.  She is a new business coach, so I’m not getting a ton of hits from her…yet.

Tomorrow my new class is being released. I’m surprised I’m not more nervous. I think, no, I KNOW I will be more nervous if/when a purchase comes in.

I don’t have to work tomorrow. That’s a new policy. I think it’s only been a few years since we’ve had MLK day off. However, I will be working for FREE just like I worked on Saturday for FREE for 3 hours. Sigh. Work has been full of pressure and just a headache.

That’s why I enrolled in a virtual assistant internship program. It provides a lot of practice and internships. That’s an affiliate link. Enrollment closes in about 3 weeks. I’m currently working on my portfolio. I have my FB setup and my free website. They have mentors go over ALL homework for the portfolio. I think it’s the best program on the market.

If anyone is interested in working for themselves from home and you don’t want to pay, here is a link to the free class. This class made me sure that I wanted to sign up for the program. Well, really it was the bonuses, plus getting to know her. She’s awesome and the real deal.

I no longer have to pay my landlord, so that’s how I was able to enroll in the VA program. My money will still be tight, but barring an emergency everything should be fine. I only have two more payments for the program. Most programs cost $1,000+, so I jumped on this deal. I need to quit my day job before I pull all my hair out.

I had an interview for a virtual assistant position on Wednesday. It didn’t go well. LOL. She saw my website. She helps entrepreneurs who want to make money while working a full-time job. So she just wanted to take me on as a fucking client. It was a disaster. I’m talking about working for her and she’s not interested. It was so confusing. Ugh.

So I’m thinking about just working as an intern so I can get more experience. I have a little experience. I’ve run my own biz for about 2 years. I’ve created an online course. I have a decent website. etc.

Right now is not a good time because I’m working for FREE at my day job. Sigh. I’m so tired. Overworked. Burned out. I need more interns. 🙂

I have to get back to work on my homework for the VA program. I have a 1,000-word blog post to do. I have 500 words. I’m such a slow writer.  If someone were paying me, I’m sure I would write faster.

This week I…

Music of the week: Selena Gomez, Taylor Swift, Ariana Grande, H.E.R, Maggie Rogers, Rachel Platten, Victory, Aretha Franklin

TV of the week:  Disappeared, DNC Debate

This debate was boring. No one stood out. Blah.

Podcasts of the week:  The Water Trio, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Crimelines, Dateline, True Crime Garage, Rituals for Liberation, The Rachel Maddow Show

Dateline deciding to do a podcast was the best decision ever.

Books of the week:

Weekend Plans: The weekend is almost over. I’ve been working my ass off. I’m going to continue working. Rest is a privilege, I guess. I do still take daily naps. So I do break. I go to bed most nights listening to the Dateline podcast. No one would probably recommend that. haha.

Thanks for reading! Gotta go. Have a nice weekend. 🙂

 

I hate Bank of America

I’ve been so freaking busy. I’m burned out. Sigh. And Bank of America is evil.

Other than that, things are going great. :/ I’m thinking about leaving my full-time job and working on my biz PLUS being a virtual assistant. I’m better behind the scenes. I want to work for other people’s business. I want to help them build it.

I don’t think I mentioned this here, but a month ago, I started volunteering at an animal shelter in New York. Yes, I work virtually. I answer customer inquiries on Instagram. It’s very easy. You know what the hardest thing is? Seeing all those dogs, I can’t adopt. 😦 I could never do this with a local animal shelter. Not that I can afford another dog. But it’s still tempting.

ANYWAY, if I had $3,000 in my emergency savings, I would quit my full-time job. I know 3K isn’t a lot. I think I have about $40 – $50 in my ER savings. Not sure. I don’t like to keep checking. So…not quitting now. January is always the most stressful time at my job. I’ve been working extra hours for free. However, I’m not working AT ALL this weekend. YAY!

I need to work on my biz. I’m launching a mini class on January 20th. Despite being tired as shit and having no energy. I would be thrilled if I made $100 from this launch, but I have no expectations.

I’m jumping all over the place. Ha. Okay. I want to quit my job and work for myself. The end.

Oh, and Bank of America truly sucks. I will go into more detail if they report me to collections. I was scammed! I filed a police report. I completed an affidavit. They don’t care. They want $900 by January 28. Guess what? I don’t have it. I’m 90% sure they will report me. I won’t be able to open a checking account elsewhere for FIVE YEARS. So that’s why I opened a new checking account this week.

That’s basically it. I won’t have more to say about that bank until after January 28th.

Doesn’t 2020 suck so far? My god. WTF? Hit the reset button.

This week I…

Music of the week: H.E.R, Alessia Cara, Ed Sheeran, Lake Street Drive, Ariana Grande, James Arthur, Lissie, Marren Morris

TV of the week:  This Is Us, RHoC

Podcasts of the week:  The Water Trio, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Crimelines, Dateline, True Crime Garage

Books of the week:

I finished Take Control of Your Life: How to Silence Fear and Win the Mental Game by Mel Robbins. A+ Five Stars. Whatevs.

Now reading –

Weekend Plans: I’m going grocery shopping tomorrow. My dad gave me money last time, so I got to buy turkey burgers and other things I haven’t been able to buy. I still have to do my grocery list. It’s going to be so warm this weekend. Yay! I’m not really taken advantage of it. Should I take my dog to the park on Sunday? Sigh. It depends on how far I get on stuff. My dog was so bad at the grooming place! I took him to a “bathing station” last weekend. It was $10. He was so scared. 😦 He was growling at the water and trying to eat it. I felt bad. But at least he got a bath!

I’ll try to blog weekly. Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend. 🙂

 

I walk alone

Um, shit has happened since I’ve done a real post.  I’m sure this is all standard stuff that happens to everyone. I was scammed out of $1,002, BUT I only had $100 in my checking account, so the bank wants the other $905! Needless to say, I don’t have it. I will call tomorrow to make sure they don’t really want the $4,500, which is really the total amount I was scammed out of.

However, only the $1000 check was cashed, so I doubt I have to pay the other $3,500, but I’m getting mixed messages. I can pay the bank back anywhere from $75 to $150 a month. Sigh. And these aren’t the only issues I’m having about money. I have to call TWO banks tomorrow.

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I would be foolish not to ask for money if anyone has the resources and is feeling generous. So here’s my Paypal link if you want to donate. Thank you!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! 🙂

Work sucks because I didn’t meet my quota for December. Major bummer.  I’m off until Thursday. Right now, I’m more worried about money. So I spend 70% of my time worrying about money on my vacation. And the other 30% stressing about work.

I was invited to apply for a part-time job. Since it was an invite, I think there is a chance of an interview. I asked for $25 an hour. Should have asked for their minium, which was $20 per hour. Whatever. I hope I find something in January, so I can pay the bank back and other bills. :/

What I’m leaving behind in 2019 are payment plans. If I can’t afford the whole price, I’m not buying. That’s the most important thing I learned this year. Plus, they tack on a fee for people without resources. It’s funny people with money get a discount! What kind of sense does that make? Only in capitalism would people just accept this bullshit.

Well, that’s fine. I won’t be doing payment plans for anything except a house and a car.

2020 goals? I haven’t written them down yet, so this is my first take on them.

  • Make $12,000 in sales with my business
  • Take a Kundalini yoga class
  • Go on a vacay for my birthday
  • Make the goal at work
  • Have an organized space
  • Have a decent ER fund (probably $1,000)
  • Therapy at least 2x a month

These are the first things that come to mind. I have to break most of the goals into little tasks. Tomorrow I’m putting my headphones on and cleaning my space for an hour. I have astrology books everywhere. I don’t go to them as much as I used to, so they’re getting of my eyesight. I’ve never been this excited about organizing before. I already have a trash bag full. When I clean, I throw everything away. I’m not sentimental.

My birthday is in May. In May, I might have extra money BUT all the places I want to visit usually are booked by February. I’m not spending money in February unless I get a PT job soon. If I could book in April, I think a vacation might be possible. I’m looking in the $400 – $600 range for the whole vacation. Three nights. And my dog has to be able to go. I was planning four nights until all this crap happened.

I have therapy on Tuesday. FINALLY. I had to cancel all my other appointments. I had an appointment on Friday, but when I saw she had an opening on Tuesday, I grabbed that. I need help ASAP! I’m drowning.

This week I…

Music of the week: Ariana Grande, Robyn, Taylor Swift, Christina Aguilera, Mariah Carey, Rachel Platten, Beyonce, Kari Jobe

TV of the week:  This is Us

Podcasts of the week:  The Water Trio, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Crimelines, Dateline, True Crime Garage, Generation Why, Online Marketing Made Easy

Books of the week: I need to read new books! Anyway, currently reading:

Weekend Plans: I’m excited for the park with my dog. We’re supposed to be going tomorrow, but it might rain. So then we’ll go Tuesday. I’m also excited to finally clean and organize my space tomorrow. Other than that, I’m glad I don’t have to go to work until Thursday. Mostly I’m just working on stuff, so I can have $12,000 in sales by the end of 2020.

I’m going to work on an email for a collaboration I have coming up in January. I was going to take tonight off, and then I wondered what I would do? ROFL. So I blogged here, and now back to work

I have a PT job!

…I think. Why are things so confusing. No, I signed the contract, so I have the job. The pay is what I want for a PT job. It wouldn’t do for a full-time job. For training, I only get paid $6 an hour! I don’t know how long the training will last. I will ask the manager tomorrow.

It’s a work from home job. Yay! I think tomorrow we have to order the equipment and software.

I can work whenever I want BUT training is supposed to take place at 8AM. I’m at my FT time job at that time.

Whatever.