Trying My Best

Countdown:

7 days until my birthday

8 days until my bday trip

I may be blogging more with shorter entries. Not sure. Anyway, I’m feeling better. I’m not at 100%. But I do feel like I can go on my trip next week.

The last time I weighed myself, I was 105 pounds. Still not healthy and very underweight for my height. But at least I’m not losing right now. I lost all my muscle. My body is achy and tired. I’m so thin. Too thin.

I went to see my PCP on Tuesday. She didn’t do anything. So I’m not going back to her. My therapist told me to go to my PCP, but I knew it was pointless. The doctor just said, “I wish I could put some weight on you”.

I go to the GI doctor on Wednesday. Since I’m feeling a little better, I’m nervous about that visit. When I made the appointment, I felt like shit, and I wasn’t eating. Now I’m eating/drinking five to six small meals a day. Snacks and smoothies count as “meals” in my diet.

My mom was supposed to go with me on my trip. Now she won’t be able to come. I am not going to lie. I’m kind of glad to be alone with my dog. BUT she could’ve helped out with packing and once I’m there. Now I have to do everything on my own. Ugh. I hate cleaning. LOL. I’ll have to do the dishes after every meal. Haha.

I’m currently working on my packing list. It seems like it is going to be so long. If I weren’t working so much, I wouldn’t feel as overwhelmed. I don’t know if I have to work overtime next week. I really hope not, but I would be shocked if I could only work 40 hours. We are really behind.

Work is always a stressor for me. Imagine being told you have to work 50 hours! MORE STRESS. It is not helping me. (I am making more money, of course. But my health is more critical than overtime money).

The company treated me like shit for taking ONE day off to go to urgent care. I’ve been sick since July 2020. I worked every day. SICK. I was vomiting while working. FUCK THEM.

I should have been on disability years ago. But I thought it was nobler to work. I no longer believe that. Being on disability has a few drawbacks. I could still have my business, but that would cut into how much money I would get. Besides, I don’t know if I would get approved.

Oh! I got approved for medical marijuana. I’ve never tried weed, so I’m a little nervous about it. Weed will be legal here in July, so I won’t need to renew the card next year. Anyway, marijuana helps with stimulating appetite, nausea, and sleep. I desperately need help in all those areas. I haven’t gotten my card yet. Going to the dispensary will be quite an adventure.

I’m excited about my birthday trip! I get that whole week off. I’ve been working nonstop since February 2020. I NEED A BREAK.

I’m not sure I’m going to blog before the trip. I have some ‘private’ entries I may post here. There’s nothing really private about it. I do have to remove names of people and places before I post, though.

Thanks for reading! Have a good week. 🙂

Not Dead Yet

This will be kind of short. I weigh about 105 or less. I’m too scared to weigh myself.

I didn’t go to work on Friday (more on this later). I went to the urgent care instead. I had been vomiting more than usual. I wasn’t eating. Etc. They didn’t do much because I wasn’t dehydrated or anything like that, although I am underweight. And I have high blood pressure.

The doctor gave me nausea medication. But he only gave me seven pills. Now I have to figure out which doctor to call to get more. The GI doctor? My PCP? Or someone new?

I have an appointment with the GI nurse on May 12th. That’s too far away, but what can I do? Sigh. The medicine they gave me caused the vomiting, so I stopped taking that after two doses.

As of today, I’m eating a little. Four small meals/snacks a day. That’s on a good day.

About work, I’ve been sick since July. I took ONE unplanned day off, and they questioned me about it!!! One day! Do they know how sick I’ve been? I’ve been sick and busting my ass for you! I HATE THESE PEOPLE.

I’m not going on FMLA right now. Right now, I want to go on my birthday vacation with my dog on May 17. That is all I care about. I have to keep my weight up or around 105, so I can go on this trip. I NEED this trip. This may be the last trip I’m able to go on. Who knows?

I might be applying for a medical marijuana card. Weed helps with appetite and nausea. I have my appointment for May 4th, but I haven’t paid yet.

I never thought I would want marijuana so badly, but things change. I’ve never tried it before.

I’m rushing this entry. I have a ton of work to do. I kind of hired someone in my business because I can’t do this shit alone anymore. I just hope she’s good. People say they can do things when they have no idea how to do it. I hope I don’t have to fire her.

I’ll be back later. Hopefully, my thoughts will be more coherent.

Have a nice week! Thanks for reading. 🙂

I’ve been lost and found and lost again

Ugh. Life sucks.

I don’t know what’s worse at this point. Pick a problem. Any problem. My health, money, and work are the main categories.

I got an ultrasound on Thursday. A week from now I should hear something from my doctor. I know I still have the hernia. I stopped the medicine after 30 days (per my doctor) and now I’m having difficulties eating breakfast.

I’m scared to weigh myself after this week. My jeans are falling off me. I know I have old jeans somewhere. But who has time to go through old clothes? Anyway, I will be concerned if I get below 120 pounds.

I was off three days this week. Going back is going to be tough for more than one reason. I’m tired. I’m bored. I hate that I can’t make mistakes. The work is too hard. They want us to work too fast. They don’t trust us. They treat us like machines. All my money goes to debt, so what am I working for?

Even my freelance money isn’t giving me enough to save. Savings? Yes, I saved some. I have about $350 in savings. But I might need brakes for my car. I will find out on November 20. I fixed the rear brakes last year. But that wasn’t good enough. That’s not all.

The debt consolidation people dared to ask me to pay an extra $500 a month for 6 months!!! Yes, you read that correctly. I have only $350 in savings. If I had an additional $500 a month, I would have real savings! WTF. I wish I was that well off.

I was so insulted that they even asked me. I’m not Jane – complaining about the election, with no real problems. Dude, I’m suffering. My health is not good. I have other issues that affect my future income that I haven’t even mentioned in this blog.

I don’t have $500 laying around. I was so pissed. I’m still pissed. I work my ass off. More than Jane. I will never stop mentioning Jane. Fuck Jane. Or Suzy. Same person.

Okay, so my life sucks. What else is new?

I’m glad to be working this week/weekend on my freelance work. It’s not paying as much as I would like, but I need the money. ANY MONEY. I think this money will go to car brakes. Unless I don’t need brakes. PLEASE. I could use a break. No pun intended.

About the $500, they are going to renegotiate with Sears. FUCK SEARS. The lady says they are mean to everyone. Yes, she used the word “mean.” If they can’t renegotiate, what do I do? Let them garnish my wages? File bankruptcy? I don’t know. I should know within a month. I owe them $3,000. They want the money back in 6 months. LOL. Why do they think I signed up for debt consolidation?

I’m sick of working for nothing. I work to pay the man. I can’t wait to be debt-free. I might buy a house one day. I know I will have to buy a car one day. Where I live, a car is a necessity. Plus, I want to move to a rural area. I live in the suburbs right now (right outside of the city).

They still haven’t gotten my ballot. With all that is going on, do you think I care? NO. I don’t give a shit. I’m pissed that I even wasted my time. In 2021, I will vote absentee again, but I won’t mail it back. I’ll drop the ballot off next time.

This week I…

Music of the week: Taylor Swift, Ariana Grande, Ellie Goulding, Mandy Moore, Ed Sheeran, Grace Potter, James Arthur, Jojo

TV of the week:  Big Brother, Forbidden Love

Podcasts of the week: Truth & Justice, Dateline, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Crimelines, Forensic Files

Books of the week: Now reading – 

The Meaning of Mariah Carey by Mariah Carey

If You Tell: A True Story of Murder, Family Secrets, and the Unbreakable Bond of Sisterhood by Gregg Olson (The child abuse in this book is heartbreaking).

The Woman in the Window by A.J. Finn

Weekend Plans: Working. If it doesn’t rain, I may do yoga outside tomorrow morning. I need it. It’s 9:26 on Friday night and I’m so tired. I’ve been so anxious that I haven’t been able to nap. Napping lessons my anxiety after a work day. So not napping is bad for me.

Thanks for reading. Have a great week/weekend. 🙂

I want more best days

When I think I have some time, my clients give me work out of the blue! I shouldn’t be complaining. I really could use the money. The problem is one person pays two weeks late. And two clients are paying me a low rate. I have four clients. Sigh.

I’m thinking about dumping everyone since I know what I do and don’t like to do. BUT I need to find a person to replace these clients. And finding one client who pays and has work I enjoy doing would be a full-time job. I don’t have time to do that, so now I’m back to feeling semi-stuck.

One client is paying a nice rate, and I don’t hate doing the work. It’s just time-consuming.

I’m thinking about pivoting my online biz to offering Pinterest only. But I’m nervous. I’m not confident. This may be my only way out of this hell.

I’m blogging here, so I won’t keep working. I wish I could take Sundays off. That would be nice. Many people only work five days a week or less, and they make a lot more than me. That’s always a fun fact to keep in mind.

My ballot is on the way back. I mailed it over two weeks ago. They haven’t gotten it, which is probably normal. I don’t care about my vote. Virginia will be blue, so if it gets rejected, I will NOT vote in person. But if my mom’s ballot gets rejected and I have to take her to vote, I might vote too. If I’m going to wait, I may as well vote. I wish I didn’t have to take her. All I know is that I’m NOT voting on election day. That’s for sure.

As of today, I think Biden is going to win. I just want this election to be over. I usually enjoy politics. But I’m pissed at the people for voting for Biden and Trump. People ruin everything. The Dems are lucky. I think any Dem would be winning right now. I hope the pro-establishment, centrists, Democrats are super happy right now. No sarcasm there.

I’ve just been working and pissed at the establishment. My hernia is still here. I think. I have an ultrasound on the 22nd. I’m scared they will say I have to have surgery. I barely have any time off after October, so it’s going to have to wait.

I’m down to 125 pounds. I think I’m done losing weight. I haven’t checked, but now I eat two meals every day. I have Carnation for breakfast, a 240 calorie drink. I’m still not eating much because I don’t want to get sick. Being sick sucks.

This week I…

Music of the week: Kelly Clarkson, Carrie Underwood, Ellie Goulding, Fiona Apple, Patty Griffin, Ed Sheeran, Emily James

TV of the week:  Big Brother

Podcasts of the week: Truth & Justice, Dateline, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Crimelines, 48 Hours, Without Warning

Books of the week: Now reading –

The Meaning of Mariah Carey by Mariah Carey – I thought this would be a quick read, but I’m not as interested because I know she’s not addressing her REAL issues. What’s the point of a biography if the person is leaving out the major stuff? But it’s still interesting.

Weekend Plans: Working. I exist to work. What else is there to life? Since January 2020, I haven’t had a real break. And other people were talking about things slowing down and I’m like, “WTF?” I’m in this weird space right now. Hopefully, I will have more answers soon. I would like some stability.

Thanks for reading. Have a great week! 🙂

Decide the words I say

My clients are driving me crazy. But I’m setting them straight…one by one. They don’t know I’ve been sick since July. However, asking someone to spend their Thursday night on your video editing project with about 2 hours notice (!!) is NUTS. Who does that?? “I’m sending you over a video, can you edit it tonight?”

It was a weeknight. Also, I have other clients. Why should I do your shit on short notice? Anyway, I told her to give me at least 3 days in the future for video editing stuff. I hate editing videos. It slows my computer down and I have to spend 2 hours straight only working on that. Grr! Apparently, she has a lot of video she wants me to edit. Great.

She went 3 weeks without giving me anything to do, so I guess she figures she can use me for anything. And the client I fired for not paying? She’s back!! So, I’m back to having four clients again.

I’m so tired and so sick. I called into sick to work on Friday. Thank god we didn’t have mandatory overtime this past week. My therapist thinks all this working is making me sick. It’s not helping. That’s for sure. I had to cancel time off scheduled for next week, so I could get paid for Friday. We don’t have sick time.

I have my endoscopy on Monday at 7AM. I need answers. I was nervous about the anesthesia, but I think I’ll be okay if my therapist described the process right. I’ve never been under anesthesia before. I have my ride scheduled. I really hope this solves the problem because I don’t want to have to pay $150 for another ride. If I need another procedure, I’m going to wait until October.

I NEED FUCKING ANSWERS!

And the summons from the credit company still hasn’t been resolved. So I guess I’m filing bankruptcy on October 1. This sucks. I can’t even worry about this anymore, because I’m always sick or working!

Current events? Who has time to even be concerned about the news when they’re dealing with all this shit. I only care about the NBA Finals a little. I don’t care about Biden or Trump. I do care about the wildfires and think about that everyday. Anyway…caring about the big news is not a privilege I have right now. Hopefully, I can get back to that soon.

This week I…

Music of the week: Ellie Goulding, Taylor Swift, Grace Potter, Ariana Grande, H.E.R, Bishop Briggs, Jessie Ware, Lauren Daigle

TV of the week:  Big Brother, 13 Reasons Why

Podcasts of the week: Truth & Justice, Dateline, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Crimelines, Joyce Meyer, The Teacher’s Pet

Books of the week: I finished reading You are the Guru: 6 Messages to Help You Through Difficult Times With Difficulty and Faith by Gabrielle Bernstein. 5 Stars. I need to listen to this again this weekend. So good and helpful.

I’m also listening to Too Much and Never Enough: How my Family Created the World’s Most Dangerous Man by Mary Trump. I’ve never managed to finish a book about Trump, but I think I’ll finish this one. I’m on chapter eight. It’s good so far. Nothing shocking yet, though.

Weekend Plans: Well, I unexpectedly slept a lot today. I’m so glad I didn’t have to work. I did work for my clients, of course, but it wasn’t much. Tomorrow I will try my best to have a regular work day so I won’t get behind.

I also have to get ready for my endoscopy. I have to read the rules again, but I don’t think there is anything major I have to do. I just have to get up at 5AM on Monday which isn’t that different from a normal Monday. I hope everything works out.

Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend/week. 🙂

Walk through fire

I don’t have much to say. I’ve worked 100 hours in two weeks for my full-time job in the past two weeks. That doesn’t count the hours of freelance work I’m doing.

I’m still sick. This sucks. I’m getting an endoscopy on September 14th at 6:30 AM. I have to pay a company about $150 because I have no one to sit with me who can drive. Woe is fucking me! What if I have to get a colonoscopy because the endoscopy doesn’t show anything? I’ll have to pay the $150 again. This doesn’t include the cost of the procedure which is probably 20% of the charge for me.

I hope I don’t have to get a colonoscopy. My uncle died from stage 4 colon cancer.

I’m not vomiting much anymore. But I still can’t eat much. I can eat at least once a day. I have stomach pain, nausea and light headaches.

Oh! This isn’t all. You thought that is all I had to bitch about? I WISH. I got a summons/warrent for credit card debt. Yipee! I’m not just dealing with working an insane amount and being really sick – I also have a court date. WOW. Someone really loves me.

I’m ignoring the summons for now. The court date isn’t until October 15. I could let them garnish my wages. Or I could try to come up with an agreement. This credit card company is supposed to be part of my debt consolidation, but the company didn’t take care of them yet. So guess who has to deal with it? ME. Not fucking Sally. ME.

Everything falls on ME. Don’t have a ride to your endoscopy? Cancel it or scramble around all week to find some stranger to take you. Exhausted? Sick? Who gives a shit. I’M going to work 50 hours a week (not counting my freelance work) for you. I did the right thing and enrolled in debt consolidation. Who got a summons? ME.

I don’t want to hear about fucking Sally and how she’s living through a pandemic. She doesn’t even have kids to homeschool. WHAT THE FUCK IS SHE LIVING THROUGH? Sally will be fine. She’s not sick. She might not even have to work for the man. She has housing. She has food. She doesn’t have a summons. She has people to take her to an endoscopy. Screw Sally!!

Okay, I have PTSD and the pandemic didn’t affect me that much because I can handle shit like this. Sally doesn’t have PTSD? SAY WHAT?

I’ll try to be nice to Sally because she’s living through the pandemic. Seriously, WTF? Add more to that plate Sally.

Did I just go on a rant? Yes.

I don’t want to talk about current events this week. Blah.

This week I…

Music of the week: Yola, Emily James, Ellie Goulding, Taylor Swift, Ariana Grande, James Arthur, Sounds of Blackness, Rachel Platten

TV of the week:  Big Brother, 13 Reasons Why

Podcasts of the week: Truth & Justice, Dateline, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Crimelines, Serial, Gone Cold, The Lowe Post

Books of the week: I finished reading Atomic Habits by James Clear. It’s a decent book if you really want to start a new habit.

Weekend Plans: Well, today is Sunday. I worked almost all day yesterday. Today is mostly a day off. I have a few freelance things to do. I just hope I don’t have to work 50 hours at my day job next week AGAIN. I know we will be forced to work at least 45 hours which is much better than 50 hours.

Thanks for reading. Have a great week.

Dry heat

I got my period for the first time in a year a week ago. Who was super pissed? ME. Fuck the patriarchy. I don’t need a period. I know all these women are so in love with their periods. Or that is a newish trend. But I think it’s bullshit. I don’t need a period. I don’t want a period. Why am I on birth control in the first place????!

I have to schedule an appointment with my ob/gyn. That’s the only way I can keep getting birth control. I will probably go in September. I’m trying to get three days off straight. So I’ll see what my new boss says. I have no idea how they do time off.

Oh, I forgot I better schedule a mammogram before they get on me about that. I will do that with time off in October.

I have an appointment with my psychiatrist in 1 hour. This should be interesting. I’m trying to get off Lexapro. It was good to me for years, but now my body hates it. It makes me too tired.

I’m overworking. What else is new? I had to tell one client I was sick today and I am. I can’t keep any food down. 😦 I’ve been sick for 3 or so days. I finally ordered some medicine, but it’s not coming until tomorrow. blah.

Anyway, at least I know what’s causing me to be tired. So should I cancel my sleep appointment? I probably should cancel. The appointment is Wednesday, so I have to cancel on Monday.

I’m still wondering whether I should hire someone. My work is kind off inconsistent, but it’s becoming more consistent each week which is good, but I’m not sure I NEED to hire someone.

I hit my income goal for July. That’s good news, but I also worked 7 days a week. So….

Politics/Current Events 2020: I probably will vote for Biden even though I live in Virginia and I don’t have to. But since I’m voting anyhow, I may as well vote for president. I need to get my absentee ballot and mail it in 3 weeks early. I want to make sure my vote counts. Not for the presidency…but for the other stuff on our ballot.

This week I…

Music of the week: Taylor Swift, The Chicks, Ellie Goulding, Keith Urban, Miranda Lambert, Aretha Franklin, Ariana Grande, Carrie Underwood

TV of the week:  Cheer

The fact that people can watch Cheer on Netflix and not talk about concussions in sports says everything you need to know about America’s sports fans. I’m truly disturbed.

Podcasts of the week:  Truth & Justice, Dateline, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Abraham Hicks, Undisclosed, Crime Junkie, Pod Save America, The JJ Redick Podcast, The Lowe Post

Books of the week: Call Me God: The Untold Story of the DC Sniper Investigation by a bunch of people

Weekend Plans: Today is Sunday. My body wouldn’t let me work as much as I wanted, so SIGH. I have two appointments tonight. I will try to fit some work in.

Thanks for reading! Have a good week. 🙂

Been looking behind, bridge burned

It’s so fucking hot! I’m in the attic, and I have no AC. It’s about 120 degrees in here. It’s only 99 degrees outside. FUCK. That’s all I got. The main problem is when I get heat exhaustion, and I have to work, but my brain isn’t there, so I can’t work. I HATE THAT.

What else? Oh, I went back to the doctor. She has no answers as to why I’m so tired. She didn’t even mention chronic fatigue syndrome, which is a thing. Anyway, she referred me to a sleep specialist. I might go one day next week. I already contacted them and told them I wanted an appointment.

Guess what? She thinks it might be sleep apnea! Even though I weigh 135 pounds and am otherwise healthy. Yes, it is possible, but I think that’s a stretch. I don’t know whether I snore. Anyways, if I can take the test at home, I’ll do it. I’d rather not stay overnight at the sleep center and leave my dog alone. But if I do the test at the center, I would have AC. 😉

Not much going on. I have work stress and heat stress.

I was off on Thursday and Friday. I took my dog to a mostly empty park:

Politics/Current Events 2020: I don’t have much to say here either. I’m saddened by John Lewis’ death. He was just walking around in DC around June 10th. What else? The United States is a capitalistic shit of a country. That was known before COVID, but now it is so apparent.

This week I…

Music of the week: Ellie Goulding, Mariah Carey, Coldplay, Stacie Orrico, The Chicks, Rachel Platten, Robyn, Beyonce

TV of the week:  Unsolved Mysteries

Podcasts of the week:  Truth & Justice, Dateline, Someone Knows Something, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Serve Scale Soar, Abraham Hicks, Sword & Scale

Books of the week: Untamed by Glennon Doyle

Weekend Plans: Today is Sunday. All I’ve done is work. I have at least one more thing to do for a client today. So I’m going to do that before my brain turns to mush tonight.

Have a lovely week! Thanks for reading.

Nothing but a t-shirt on

My Wi-Fi keeps going out. But I had a meeting this morning, and it went okay. She taught me the very basics of WordPress.Org, and wow, I feel like I know so much. But really, I know nothing. LOL.

I’ve been working nonstop, so it feels good to take some time out to blog. And I’m working on stuff for me. Well, I’m launching a product, so I don’t have to work so much. However, it’s kind of fun. Well, it’s a bit overwhelming too.

I went to the doctor to get my blood drawn. The bloodwork didn’t tell me shit, so that was a waste of time. I’m still really fatigued, and I don’t know what to do. I start my “new” job on Tuesday. (Then I’m off on Thursday and Friday). I just hope I can keep my eyes open at work.

I’m now taking vitamins. Many say vitamins are pointless, so I hope that’s not true. I will be able to tell by next Friday.

I love being a virtual assistant, but OMG with these clients! Some pay 10 days late. Some (okay, MOST) act like they are my only client. Dude, I have a job and 4 clients. I might have 5, but that’s another story.

They act like I’m sitting around watching Netflix. ARGH!!!!!!!111!!!!!!!!

Politics/Current Events 2020: I can’t believe people are doing in-person events! WTF is wrong with these people? A business owner I respect (?) had a mastermind with about 8 people this past week! That’s fucking nuts. Are these people watching the news? I don’t value my life, BUT I don’t want to go through the pain of dying from COVID, so I’m staying home.

I also see people hanging out with extended family. NOPE. Are these people watching the news? Do they value their life? My cousin had a big barbeque. Unfuckingbelievable. I hope no one gets sick. The last I heard many new cases of COVID are asymptomatic.

I would go to the park by myself (well, with my dog). I was desperate for a solution, so I went to get lab work. My dad had me running around trying to get money from Western Union. I was so livid. Do you know how many places I had to go to? FIVE. I had my mask and lots of hand sanitizer, of course.

If people want to risk their lives, I’m usually fine with that, but they are putting others at risk too. My sister is a teacher in a private school. No idea what they are going to do about that. I’m glad I don’t have kids. What a headache this must be. But I would probably homeschool my invisible kids, so this wouldn’t be a huge issue. My dog is homeschooled by his grandma. He is 6 years old and going to first grade in the fall. 😉 He is so smart already!

This week I…

Music of the week: Jojo, Ariana Grande, Jessica Simpson, Selena Gomez, Jillette Johnson, Kelly Clarkson, Maggie Rogers, Stacie Orrico

TV of the week:  How to Get Away With Murder

Podcasts of the week:  Truth & Justice, Undisclosed, Someone Knows Something, White Lies, So You Wanna Be a Witch, The Productive Life

Books of the week: Untamed by Glennon Doyle

Weekend Plans: Working, planning, more working. I had a weekend off in June, so it is possible.

Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend/week. 🙂

Tell ’em that’s it’s my birthday

I have this whole week off from work for my birthday. I went to the sauna today. I wore my mask the whole time in the sauna. LOL. It was so relaxing. It’s the only time I haven’t felt tense. My shoulders were relaxed, which never happens. They are still a little relaxed.

If I liked leaving the house regularly, I would go to the sauna once a week. But I don’t like leaving my house that much! LOL.

My birthday was good. I took the full day off. I binge-watched Curb Your Enthusiasm. I love that show!  My mom bought me a tarot deck I really wanted. My sister gave me an Amazon gift card. I used it to buy a frying pan. How boring, right? But I needed one.

I bought myself a ton of shit because I’m a Taurus and we are fucking indulgent. I bought myself a Fitbit, which I think I already mentioned. I had a 30-minute astrology reading. I bought myself a laptop bed desk – FINALLY. I’ve been doing my VA work mostly laying down and, it’s not comfortable. No shit. I think I will get work done faster.

Here it is:

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It has an iPad stand and a cell phone place. It’s coming on Friday. I cannot wait. I’m so sick of working this way. I hope it comes early Friday morning. LOL.

I’m still overwhelmed with work. I’m working on things to make things better. How vague. I will reveal everything if stuff works out. I’m working tonight as soon as I finish this post. I’m trying to put myself in a position to be able to leave my job by December 2020. That’s the plan.

What is there to say about election 2020? I’m so happy all Virginians can vote by absentee ballot. I’m still not sold on Biden, but I’m not saying I’m not voting for him. I haven’t decided. I don’t have a prediction. I used to think Trump would win for sure, but then COVID-19 happened. So…I dunno.

I don’t have strong feelings for Biden’s VP. Stacey Abrams really wants it. Since Biden is probably going to be a one-term president IF he wins, the VP choice is kind of important. I don’t want him to take anyone from the Senate because we need them in the Senate. I like Abrams, but I haven’t read EVERYTHING about her, so I can’t say I support her. I like her.  I like what I know about her. LOL. And she’s not in the Senate. I don’t think she will be Biden’s pick. I’m sure she’s on the shortlist.

Just don’t choose Amy FUCKING Kloubacher. Thanks! 🙂

This week I…

Music of the week: Ludacris, Solange, Bethel Music, David Crowder Band, Ellie Goulding, Hillsong United, Rachel Platten, Stacie Orrico

TV of the week:  Survivor, The Last Dance

Podcasts of the week:  Dateline, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Truth & Justice, Undisclosed, Fresh Air

Books of the week:

I haven’t felt like reading much this week. I did go back to reading a bit of Freeing Yourself from Anxiety: 4 Simple Steps to Overcome Worry and Create the Life You Want by Dr. Tamar Chansky

Weekend Plans: Working. I hope to make it to the park one day this week. We are getting rain from Arthur. My dog would LOVE to go to the park. Me too. 😉 I haven’t worked much today, so I’m going to work for about 2 hours before I relax.

Thanks for reading! Have a great week. :