new toy

laptop box


I picked up my laptop today. Their office is less than 8 minutes away from my house! I’m excited to have the computer, but I don’t know what to do next. Well, I know I have to do online job training, but no one told me HOW to get there. So I guess I will send an email tomorrow.

UPDATE: Uh, oops. I found out what to do. Tomorrow I have to contact the trainer and I guess I will have to start in-person training. I’m nervous because I don’t know shit. 😉


bad pic of laptop


The closer I get to doing work, the more nervous I get. The good thing is that I can work ANYTIME I want. Unlike my full-time job, I can work at 4 AM on any day, or  I can work all day on Sunday. Sometimes I wake up at 4 AM, and it frustrates me that I can’t work at my FT job. At least I can work at my PT job if I should ever suffer from insomnia (rare for me, but it does happen).

I met my trainer today while I was picking up my laptop. She seems really nice, but most people with social skills seem nice. So I don’t know. Nope, I don’t naturally trust people.

I really don’t know how I’m going to train for this job, work my FT job and study for my certification at the same time. I don’t want any of it to go away, though.

One thing I never mentioned is that this job is somewhat seasonal. They are busier during certain times of the year. We might not work for 1-2 months and then work 3 months straight. I just wish I knew what the busy seasons are. I know now is one of those times. My fear is that I’ll be in training during this whole busy season and then when it is time to really work, there won’t be work for a couple of months.

Anyway, I shared some video of the laptop on Snapchat, and I also unboxed LeTote on there today. I won’t mention my username right now, but anyone interested can just go back a page or two to see my username.

I’m going to try not to play with my new laptop. It is setting up high on the bookshelf. Away from my dog.

I got a job offer

I got a job offer for the work at home position!

It is only part-time work so no two-week notice. 😦 Bummer. But the chance to learn and work is unmeasurable. I’m thankful for this opportunity.

The pay is at least $20.00 per hour, BUT I will not see that kind of money for a while. I get paid next to nothing during training. And since I live where the office is, I have to train in person. That’s scary. What if they hate me? What then? Enough of that…for now.

Assuming I pass the background check, I will get my laptop for the job soon. I haven’t accepted the offer yet. I have to fill out paperwork and do the online background check.

Update: I did the background check and filled out all the paperwork. I’ve officially accepted the offer! SCARY.

Oh! I forgot to mention one more very important thing: I will be a 1099 contractor. That means it’s like I’m self-employed. They do not take taxes out. So I will have to save some of everything I make for taxes. I’m not thrilled about that

The only reason why I got this offer is because 1.) I’m certified and 2.)  I live where they are located. She straight up said I wouldn’t have been considered if I didn’t live where I live because I have next to no experience.

I hope training goes well. That is my main concern right now. They have high standards. I have to meet them. I’m eager to learn.

Oh and I don’t know how much I’ll be working. There is a minimum of  13 hours of work a week. My goal is to do at least 20 hours. I have to get through training first. Most of my time from here on out will be focused on learning as much as possible.

I will also be going after a more specific certification. That means another board exam! Hopefully, I will pass this one too. I didn’t think I would pass the first one.

I’m on my lunch break. Gotta get back to work.

Anywhere I Lay My Head

Just because I work at home doesn’t mean…….

  • all my problems disappear
  • I don’t get PMS
  • work doesn’t stress me out
  • work is easy/fun
  • I want to “go” to work each day
  • I’ll be joyful (haha)

Etc. I think one person in particular doesn’t get it. She has a hard time getting things she doesn’t relate to. Her job is different. She has next to zero accountability. I would love a job like that since my job is the exact opposite. Sometimes I feel like I’m a doctor, because every mistake could blow up in my face. We have to be accountable for every. single. thing.

That causes STRESS. Working at home does not cure that. This morning was a total stress fest but by afternoon things calmed down a bit. I was productive today but I wanted to scream. It was just one of those days. It starts out well and then all shit hits the fan.

And then Avon….OMG. I have to erase my phone # off of everything. I don’t have time for this. I feel bad because someone ordered and I can’t get in contact with her. She wrote her email address sloppily. Even though I HATE calling people, I called her to get her email address. Guess what? It still didn’t go through. FUCK. I don’t care.

I’m done with new potential customers. This is my fault. I guess I really do need to take down almost everything (one thing I can’t take down) related to me and Avon. If people would email me, there would not be as much of a problem. But of course they call even though they have my email address. Sigh. Normal people. 😉 EMAIL. EMAIL. EMAIL.

Yes I’m stressed out over all this. Now someone who is related to one of my customers isn’t getting her order. Ugh, how am I going to get out of this?

Right now I don’t care much about Toastmasters. You know asking me to do public speaking is like asking me to do job interviews. That may be a bad analogy. My point is, it is easy for me to do scary FUN stuff. But public speaking? I have no interest in it. It sounds like torture. Torture myself during my free time???

Just because I went to yoga classes doesn’t mean it was easy for me, it was something I wanted to do at that time. Of all people, I would think a counselor would understand this. Fun scary things are easier to do then something I have zero interest in.

Should I have to explain that? See, this is my problem. I have no patience for what I think people ought to know.

Need to get ready for bed.

same script, different cast

I only cry when I think about the fans. I can’t even think about her family. I can’t go there. Whitney and Michael Jackson were my gateways into music. My dad brought me those albums (yes vinyl). “The Greatest Love of All” is my most listened to and favorite Whitney song. But I also love “How Will I Know”, “I Get So Emotional”, “I Wanna Dance With Somebody”, “Didn’t We Almost Have It All” “Run To You” & “Why Does It Hurt So Bad” It’s weird but I never considered myself a fan…just an occasional admirer. Probably because I stopped listening to her after the Waiting to Exhale soundtrack came out. But like many others, I did grow up with her music.

But I followed her. I knew her fans. It’s the whole Mariah v. Whitney thing. I was young and I always kept tabs on them. They loved her so much. 😦 I’m going to cry again so I better stop.

So surprisingly I started working at home on Friday!!!!!! I had no idea this was going to happen. I had to carry everything (except the printer) to my car all by myself. Who knew a flat screen monitor could be so heavy? I really thought it would break. I wasn’t parked close to the building because I never park close. I was so miffed because someone was supposed to be helping me. (A stranger). But I knew that I was going to work at home so how mad could I be? I was just disappointed at how disorganized the whole thing was. It was like “Go home!”

I don’t have any big revelations about working at home. I’ve only done it for one full day. Obviously the best part is not being in the office. I have to figure out what I am going to do on my lunch break. I danced on Friday. 🙂 That will not be a daily thing. I have to shower, maybe run errands etc. And eating might be something to do.

Wait I did learn one thing: The mute button on the TV remote is my friend. I like background noise but sometimes it is too much. There is such a thing as too much news. Who knew? I can’t stand the way the news is so repetitive. I’m about to take a poltics break. Sorry for going off on a tangent.

One thing I did want to share is that since my mom told all her coworkers/manager about me working at home, her manager is now considering letting her do it! So I would suggest others float the idea to their managers IF it is possible. My mom and I kind of work in similar industries so that may have something to do with it.

Here is a pic of my home office. This is too messy to be considered an “after” pic but I did throw a bunch of stuff away since taking this photo:

home office

I like working at home but I don’t want to get carried away. I’m cautious. I’ll be more introspective about this later…maybe.

Another thing I want to share – my new obsession is Chris Hayes. 🙂 He hosts a show on MSNBC called “Up With Chris Hayes” It is on Sat and Sun at 8AM (time change). I’m officially an “Upper” and watch the show live on both days. Anyhow I wanted to share this clip:

Oops WordPress won’t let me embed the video. So here is a link to the segment on how more Americans are living alone.

I really want to read the book Going Solo: The Extraordinary Rise and Surprising Appeal of Living Alone. I’m so fascinated by the subject. It isn’t just me!! So there. 😉 I never thought of it as a money issue. After all, I’m far from affluent and I’ve lived alone (barely) for years. Interesting.