Tell ’em that’s it’s my birthday

I have this whole week off from work for my birthday. I went to the sauna today. I wore my mask the whole time in the sauna. LOL. It was so relaxing. It’s the only time I haven’t felt tense. My shoulders were relaxed, which never happens. They are still a little relaxed.

If I liked leaving the house regularly, I would go to the sauna once a week. But I don’t like leaving my house that much! LOL.

My birthday was good. I took the full day off. I binge-watched Curb Your Enthusiasm. I love that show!  My mom bought me a tarot deck I really wanted. My sister gave me an Amazon gift card. I used it to buy a frying pan. How boring, right? But I needed one.

I bought myself a ton of shit because I’m a Taurus and we are fucking indulgent. I bought myself a Fitbit, which I think I already mentioned. I had a 30-minute astrology reading. I bought myself a laptop bed desk – FINALLY. I’ve been doing my VA work mostly laying down and, it’s not comfortable. No shit. I think I will get work done faster.

Here it is:

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It has an iPad stand and a cell phone place. It’s coming on Friday. I cannot wait. I’m so sick of working this way. I hope it comes early Friday morning. LOL.

I’m still overwhelmed with work. I’m working on things to make things better. How vague. I will reveal everything if stuff works out. I’m working tonight as soon as I finish this post. I’m trying to put myself in a position to be able to leave my job by December 2020. That’s the plan.

What is there to say about election 2020? I’m so happy all Virginians can vote by absentee ballot. I’m still not sold on Biden, but I’m not saying I’m not voting for him. I haven’t decided. I don’t have a prediction. I used to think Trump would win for sure, but then COVID-19 happened. So…I dunno.

I don’t have strong feelings for Biden’s VP. Stacey Abrams really wants it. Since Biden is probably going to be a one-term president IF he wins, the VP choice is kind of important. I don’t want him to take anyone from the Senate because we need them in the Senate. I like Abrams, but I haven’t read EVERYTHING about her, so I can’t say I support her. I like her.  I like what I know about her. LOL. And she’s not in the Senate. I don’t think she will be Biden’s pick. I’m sure she’s on the shortlist.

Just don’t choose Amy FUCKING Kloubacher. Thanks! 🙂

This week I…

Music of the week: Ludacris, Solange, Bethel Music, David Crowder Band, Ellie Goulding, Hillsong United, Rachel Platten, Stacie Orrico

TV of the week:  Survivor, The Last Dance

Podcasts of the week:  Dateline, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Truth & Justice, Undisclosed, Fresh Air

Books of the week:

I haven’t felt like reading much this week. I did go back to reading a bit of Freeing Yourself from Anxiety: 4 Simple Steps to Overcome Worry and Create the Life You Want by Dr. Tamar Chansky

Weekend Plans: Working. I hope to make it to the park one day this week. We are getting rain from Arthur. My dog would LOVE to go to the park. Me too. 😉 I haven’t worked much today, so I’m going to work for about 2 hours before I relax.

Thanks for reading! Have a great week. :

 

 

Fetch the Bolt Cutters

I’m working way too much. I don’t care what my therapist says. Back to that in a second. Some nights I am so worried about work, I can’t sleep. I can’t stop thinking of all I have to do. I was so burned out Thursday night that I could not work after my full-time job.

My therapist knows nothing about being a virtual assistant which is frustrating because that is my life right now. I have to explain every little thing to her. She thinks there is a light at the end of the tunnel. NO THERE’S NOT because I can’t hire people because I’m not making enough.

Well, I did hire one person. She is only working for me four hours a week. J lives in the Philippines. I’m paying her $8.00 per hour. An American would want at least $15 per hour for this work. I would be losing money or breaking even if I hired an American at the number of hours I wanted. Most pros would want more. Anyhow, I will have more work in June IF I CAN SURVIVE MAY, so I will probably ask J to work six hours a week.

My birthday is Saturday (May 16)! I’m not working on Saturday. NO MATTER WHAT. I’m off all week from my full-time job. I’m yelling a lot in this entry because I’m frustrated. Working 24/7 and barely sleeping isn’t healthy. I’m also taking Wednesday off that week off. Yay!

I just have to survive this upcoming week of working full-time and doing VA work. I worked all day yesterday. I’m taking about four hours off today. Then I’m working all evening.

I don’t have much to talk about again. I’m FRUSTRATED and sometimes resentful because I feel like my clients are expecting too much. But I’m going to see what happens when I’m not working my full-time job. If I can’t get caught up then, then it isn’t possible. 😦

This week I…

Music of the week: Fiona Apple, JoJo, India.Arie, The Highwomen, Alanis Morissette, Ariana Grande, Lennon Stella, Lindsay Lohan

TV of the week:  Survivor, The Last Dance

Podcasts of the week:  Dateline, So You Wanna Be a Witch, The Forgotten West Memphis 3, Serial

Books of the week:

From now on, I’m only going to be able to listen to audiobooks. No time to read a book. I can listen to podcasts, music, and books while working. (Most of the time)

Weekend Plans: Is there anything to do besides work?

Thanks for reading! Have a great week. 🙂

Hate it or love it

12 days until my birthday. 12 days until I get a day off. I have been working seven days a week. I’m making myself take breaks today. I did yoga outside this morning, and I’m blogging now. And I’m planning on taking Wednesday evenings off every week this month. That will be tough because clients expect you to work every day.

I got my “stimulus” check. Better late than never. I know some people still haven’t gotten theirs. But it seems like most people have gotten theirs…except poor Puerto Rico. 😦

I don’t even know what to blog about. I’m exhausted. I’ve just been working. Oh, I ordered myself a Fitbit for my birthday. I also bought my mom one for mother’s day. Fitbit had a sale. Last year I said I was going to replace my old Fitbit by May this year, and I didn’t think I would be able to, but now I’m making extra money and I’m getting a nice bonus from work in two weeks! 🙂

For my bday, it looks like I won’t be able to do much. If the sauna is open, I’m going. They are closed right now, but lots of stores are open. The sauna didn’t close until the last minute, so I think they are ready to open.

Election 2020: I’ve always said I would be extremely uncomfortable with Biden touching me like he touches women. But do I 100% believe Tara? Uh, no. But unlike Democrats, I don’t 100% think she’s lying either. I believe it could be true. But I’m also surprised other stories haven’t come out. Biden’s done a lot of bad policy things. That’s enough reason not to support him. Anyway, it’s extremely hard to PROVE a sexual assault.

I have to go walk my dog. Not much to talk about right now. I’m just counting down the days until I get time off.

This week I…

Music of the week: JoJo, Ariana Grande, Pistol Annies, Selena Gomez, Taylor Swift, Coldplay, Demi Lovato, Jessica Simpson

TV of the week:  Housewives shows. 🙂 

Podcasts of the week:  Dateline, So You Wanna Be a Witch, The Forgotten West Memphis 3

Books of the week:

Weekend Plans: Well, today is Sunday. WORK. I need to work as much as possible, so I can take Wednesday off. Watch a client asks for something or wants a meeting on Wednesday.

Thanks for reading! Have a great week.

My Way Home

Sigh. The good news is that I was off for four days straight! I woke up at 10:19 AM on Saturday!! OMG. That was not planned. What if I had a meeting with a client? I’m kind of working with two clients. I’m definitely working with C. She’s paying me weekly. I’m still waiting on the Pinterest stuff. I’ve been in training. I have to ask about payment during our meeting tomorrow.

I think I’m getting too comfortable and spending too much again. Online content/courses are my things. Since I know marketing, those kinds of classes don’t appeal to me anymore. Now it’s business taxes and self-help. A life coach certification? How is that going to advance my career? It won’t. But it could personally help me. And it’s only $18 a month. I can cancel at any time.

I took most of today off, which was great. I’m probably going to work a little more after posting this because I don’t want to get behind. My Pinterest job starts on April 27th, so I’m trying to enjoy any free time I have now. If this goes well, I will be working all the time. I shouldn’t have told them I was available for 30 hours a week. ROFL. But at that time I wasn’t working with C.

I registered my business name for $10. I have an EIN from the IRS. Now I’m just waiting to register the actual business. I can’t get a business checking account, so I’m just doing things semi-manually with Quickbooks.

I did not get my $1200. The IRS sent it to my old, CLOSED bank account. I should be receiving a letter soon to tell me what to do. I will probably have to get a paper check. That will take a while to come because of the IRS, plus Trump must sign the check. :/

I took my dog to the park on Friday morning. It was as empty as it usually is on a weekday morning. One person did get closer than 6 feet to me. Ugh. I had my mask on the whole time, even though I was having trouble breathing 30 minutes in.

This week I…

Music of the week: Demi Lovato, Lindsay Lohan, Fiona Apple, Stacie Orrico, Jessica Simpson, Ariana Grande, Ashlee Simpson, Selena Gomez

TV of the week:  The Affair, Survivor

I haven’t watched the news in about 5 weeks. It has helped me sooo much. I was a news junkie. I had cable news muted 24/7. Now I can’t do that.

Podcasts of the week:  Dateline, Pod Save America, So You Wanna Be a Witch, The Forgotten West Memphis 3

Books of the week:

I finished Open Book: A Memoir by Jessica Simpson. Five stars. It is as great as everyone says. I don’t usually read celebrity memoirs because I know they are leaving a ton out, so what’s the point? But Jessica is pretty open.

Now reading:

Weekend Plans: Well, today is Sunday. So I’ll leave this blank.

Thanks for reading! Have a great week. 🙂

In the homestretch of the hard times

I haven’t blogged in so long, I forgot how to start a post. 10,000 people want things from me, but I want to fucking blog.

I have two paying virtual assistant clients. One just paid me $75.00. I am charging her $15 per hour. So yeah, I’m only supposed to be working 5 hours a week for her. Five hours every week…forever, I hope.

Her books are a bit of a mess. I’m trying to fix it for her. I’ve never worked with a product-based service provider before. I’ve never done bookkeeping before.  So I don’t really know what I’m doing. Shhh! I have until next week to figure this shit out if I want to get paid again.

The other job is paying only $10 per hour in the beginning. It’s a Pinterest job. People get paid $25+ per hour to do Pinterest, so I don’t mind starting out at the bottom. I would love to just do Pinterest and get paid $25 an hour.  I did Pinterest for my own biz, and I’ve taken a whole course, so I know Pinterest well. And I think I want to be a Pinterest manager, so I can quit my job and maybe afford health insurance??

Last weekend was scary. I thought I was going to lose my job this past Monday. Instead, she wanted to promote me! No extra money. No extra duties. Thank god. I’m already stressed out. It’s just a title change. So whatever. At least I didn’t get fired, and I still have my health insurance.

I was so stressed, I did Gabby Berstein’s meditative workout outside. It was so nice. Sometimes I just need Gabby. I’m trying to look for more spiritual leaders, but I always come back to her. Plus, I’m in her membership, so I have access to a lot of her stuff.

I have so much stuff to do. It’s 8PM on a Friday night, and I haven’t started anything. Gotta go. But not before….

Election 2020: I don’t know whether I’m voting for president. I do believe we have maybe a senate race on the ballot, so of course, I’ll vote for that. Fuck Trump. I feel bad for Biden. Really bad. I might give him a sympathy vote. I have a while to decide.

FUCK THE GOVERNOR FOR CANCELLING MY BIRTHDAY. Okay, I get. But really?! My birthday should be a national holiday. How dare he cancel it? Trump didn’t cancel my birthday (yet). But the Democratic governor did, and you want to know why I call myself an independent?

Okay, seriously. The governor closed the state until May 30th 2+ weeks ago. BEFORE NEW YORK DID. My birthday plan was to go to the state park and stay for three nights. The cabins and camping grounds are closed, so I can’t do that. The park is still open, but I’m not driving 90 minutes to visit the state park. It’s not that great. I go for mostly for the cabin.

I have a week off for my birthday and nowhere to go. I will go to the local park unless they close that too. I doubt it. The playgrounds are closed, of course. I’m off April 16 and 17th, so I will take my dog to the park and see how crowded the park is then. I will wear a mask.

I really have to go. My dog’s birthday has been canceled too. His birthday is around April 26. Yes, I’m a bad mom for not knowing his birthday. All I know is that he is a Taurus, just like his mom.

This week I…

Music of the week: Ellie Goulding, Tori Kelly, Jillette Johnson, Maren Morris, Pia Toscano, Rachel Platten, Aretha Franklin, Ariana Grande

TV of the week:  The Affair

Podcasts of the week:  Dateline, Pod Save America, Someone Knows Something

Books of the week:

Weekend Plans: Working.

Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend. 🙂

 

Remove All the Thoughts

I had two days off from my full-time job. So needed! My next day off is Super Tuesday (March 3). Not too bad. Today I took my dog to the park despite it only being 38 degrees.

corgi mix

Here is my dog being a typical pup:

I hope I get to stay in all weekend, but I never know when other people have plans with MY time.

The local virtual assistant job is over. Thank god. I don’t think I will be taking a local PT job for a while. I only want 100% remote. The other VA job is going okay. The only part that sucks is that she wants me to cold call places. BTW, that is not a typical VA task, plus she didn’t advertise it. I wouldn’t have applied if she mentioned that. I have social anxiety online. I DON’T DO PHONE CALLS…especially calling random people. Hell, no.

So I don’t know what’s going to happen with this position. She isn’t paying, but I’m getting GOOD coaching from her. She deserves work from me. I’m working on the other tasks, it’s just the calling that leaves me anxious and unable to act.

Praying for a miracle.

Election 2020: So many people (19 million) watched the debate this week. They got to see how much Bloomberg sucks, and how Warren can eviscerate anyone. Bernie did well or okay. He wasn’t attacked too much. Amy and Bloomberg had bad nights. Pete was Pete. Biden kind of had more energy, but he wasn’t 100% clear. Biden is doing better in debates than he did 3 months ago.

Warren raised a ton of money after the debate. Bloomberg fell in the polls (YAY!). But there is another debate for South Carolina. I expect Bloomberg to be a little better. To be fair, this was his first time on a presidential debate stage. But he is still a racist, sexist fuck. 😉 He funds some Democratic things like climate change. But he was a Republican. He supported George W. Bush. He’s a conservative, and I don’t vote for conservatives just because they throw their money at a few progressive issues.

I’m voting for Warren on Super Tuesday. I was going to vote for Sanders, but I have a tradition of always voting for my FIRST CHOICE in the primary. I voted for Howard Dean in the primary, even though he had no shot of winning. Sanders is my 2nd choice. I’m going to try not to vote for Sanders. That would be a strategic vote. I want to vote with my heart because, unlike Bloomberg, I have one. #Dig

This week I…

Music of the week: Nina Simone, Taylor Swift, Joni Mitchell, Maggie Rogers, Miranda Lambert, Tori Kelly, Alessia Cara, Ariana Grande

I need to listen to more Nina Simone. I took a 2-year break for some reason.

TV of the week:  Survivor, Vanderpump Rules, I Am a Killer, The Mind of Aaron Hernandez

I resubscribed to Netflix because I can afford it for now. I’m on the cheapest plan. No HD.

Podcasts of the week:  Crimelines, Dateline, True Crime Garage,  Pod Save America, So You Wanna Be a Witch

Books of the week:

Weekend Plans: Hopefully relaxing a little and working on virtual assistant stuff. I have a website for my VA services now. I need more examples of my work. I really need to figure out what I want to focus on. I thought it was going to be Podcast management, but I did a little of that and I was bored. Plus, it’s hard. LOL. I might focus on Pinterest since everyone wants a Pinterest manager. I got Pinterest to work for MY website, but I’ve never done it for anyone else.

Thanks for reading! Have a great week. 🙂

So I can finally breathe

I’m working as a virtual assistant for only one person now. I finished the other person’s project. I did her social media graphics for a month. (!!) She gave me a GREAT review/testimonial. I have it on my VA website and on Facebook.

She’s a business coach, and she’s about to leave her full-time job to do coaching full-time. She doesn’t live far from me. She’s in DC. Anyway, it was nice to get good feedback. I enjoyed doing it too! I’ve been doing my own social media graphics for two years, but I didn’t take it seriously when doing it for myself.

I’m still working for client A. It’s going okay BUT she wants me to call local businesses in addition to what I’m supposed to be doing. I suck on the phone especially when cold calling people!! This is challenging for me. I have to get over it. I’ve only called two companies so far. Over the next two weeks, I feel the pressure to get results.

Overall, I’m enjoying it. But I also have to work full-time and I just don’t feel like I have time to get everything in. One other person wants me to work for her, and she encouraged me to ask for more money! If I valued myself more, I would contact her NOW since I’m only working for one other person. If I get more organized, I would probably be able to work for her. I’ll give myself two weeks to see if I get results for client A. If I don’t get results, there’s no way I’m going to volunteer to work for someone else doing the same thing.

That’s that.

I’ve been eating like crap. That sort of changes today. I still have leftover “bad” food. I’m not throwing the food away. Of course not! Some of it could go to my mom. I can’t donate it because it’s not canned food. However, that’s not the point. The point is that FOOD is MONEY. I can’t just throw food away and start anew. That costs money.

It’s not about weight. It’s about wanting to feel better.  The last time I weighed myself I was 133 lbs. I was shocked and glad. That was about 6 weeks ago. I know I weigh more now. I’m probably about 136 because I’ve been eating crap.

Client A is coaching me. She wants me to eat organic. Of course! I just went to the store today to test prices, and it’s cheaper to eat processed food than to even eat chicken! Okay, it’s not that much more, but it is more. Now I’m back to eating chicken for dinner every day.

I don’t cook. I just baked a week’s worth of chicken today, and I hated every second of it. LOL. I used to bake chicken every week about a year ago. I hated it back then even though it’s easy. I just hate cooking. Now I need to add vegetables. I don’t eat beans or rice. So I guess it’s vegetables. But I need a new crockpot. Sigh.

Election 2020: It looks like Pete Buttigieg is going to be the one moderates go for. Ugh. Well, I don’t like any of the moderates. If I had to pick a moderate, it would probably be Pete. So…at least it’s not Biden? Yet. He may win South Carolina and some deluded people will think he’s electable. Whatever.

I’m planning to vote for Warren in the primary. If Biden is #1 or #2 in the state, I may have to vote for Sanders or whoever is in second place. I’ll do whatever it takes so Biden won’t win. It depends on the local polls. We vote on Super Tuesday (March 3).

I don’t know why people made such a big deal out of Iowa. If anything, it sucks for the voters and the politicians because they dumped a bunch of money in Iowa. But overall, it’s just one state. Sanders or Pete won. Warren came in 3rd. Biden came in 4th. Next! Onto New Hampshire.

This week I…

Music of the week: Victory, Halsey, Leon, Maggie Rogers, James Arthur, Jillette Johnson, Taylor Swift, Tori Kelly

The Halsey album is good if you’re a fan of her past music. I almost didn’t listen to it because I’m not a huge Halsey fan.

TV of the week:  Disappeared, Vanderpump Rules

Podcasts of the week:  All in With Chris Hayes,  Crimelines, Dateline, True Crime Garage,  Pod Save America, So You Wanna Be a Witch, The Beat with Ari Melber

Books of the week:

It’s taking me forever to read, so my new plan is to listen to an audiobook for at least 30 minutes a day.

Weekend Plans: Today is Sunday – my day off. I’m working on my virtual assistant portfolio. I don’t have time to work on that during the week. From now on, I will try to take all Sundays off from any real work. I kind of had to take Friday night off because we didn’t have internet all evening.

Thanks for reading! 🙂 Have a good week.