I’m still hanging on

Woohoo! I’m going to a cycling class this Sunday. Yeah, it’s kind of like SoulCycle. I’ve never been to a cycling studio before. I usually just go to the regular gym and take a cycling class. The class is usually only 45 minutes, but they are doing a Superbowl special. It will be 60 minutes. More calories burned!

I like that they let people reserve what bike they want online. The only problem for newbies is that you might not know which bike you like until you get there. I picked a bike with not too many bikes around it, of course.  Another issue for me is that I’ve NEVER been on a real bike so I’m not good at cycling. But I always sweat, so it is still a workout even if I don’t have the best technique.

I have 3 more classes left after this Sunday. After that, I may not go back. The classes are pretty expensive. More expensive than most yoga classes!

Work news: It looks like I can’t take a real vacation until after August. Um, is that even legal? LOL. I will find out soon if I’m in the next training class for the new system. I always go on a birthday vacation. This year I might not even get my birthday off. All I know is that I’m not working all day on my birthday. I’ll take only 2 hours off if I have to.

Too bad because I found a cute basement like studio apartment thingy. (I don’t know what to call it). It is 4 short blocks from the beach. My dog could come! It could be great. I was going to spend 3 nights there with my mom and my dog since we haven’t had a real beach vacation in a while. Not happening because I won’t be able to take 4 days off from work in May even if I don’t get picked for training this time.

SO here’s the new plan: You have to promise not to tell ANYONE. It is going to be a secret vacation. Only my dog and I are going. Shhhhhh! It is called,  “Escape from DC.” It is a tiny house in the woods, and I think it’ll be great. I would invite my mom if the tiny house were a little bigger. But two people and a dog in a tiny space with no separate rooms doesn’t sound like a vacation to me.

It’s going to cost about $350 for a weekend in June with dog fees. They don’t tell you where it is. But it is an “escape from DC” so I’m guessing it is in or near Northern Virginia. It would probably bother some people not to know exactly where it is, but I don’t mind. I’ll know a week beforehand.

What does bother me is that there probably won’t be any cell service according to the website. I have to text my mom once a day, or she’ll think something terrible happened. I guess I could just drive 20 minutes out and find someplace with cell service just so I can text my mom. That’s annoying, but I have to text her or she might call the police. (She doesn’t drive so she can’t just stop by my house). I could just tell her where I’m going. What a concept! But I’ve already recently been on a solo trip. I don’t want to act like I NEED another one because I don’t. If the tiny house were bigger or made differently, she would be more than welcomed to come along.

I hope nothing comes up. “Emergency! Can you take me (where ever) or call me”?  That would suck. My dad will probably be back in the States in June too. (He’s coming back in late February, but I don’t know how long he is staying). So anything could come up. I have two people to worry about! Lol. Ugh, I hate not having cell service. If people knew where I was, then I would just tell them I won’t have cell service so don’t bother trying to contact me. But it’s a secret.

Other than that, I don’t mind a vacation “off the grid.” I’ll be with my dog, and we’ll explore, and I also have my electronics with me with stuff downloaded so I’ll be fine.

In summary, if I get to take a week-long vacation, I’m going to the beach with my mom and dog for my birthday. If I’m going to be in training, I’m going on my secret “get away from DC” vacay with just my dog in June for a weekend. I have to book something soon, or all options might sell out.

I really can’t believe they expect me to work all through the spring and summer. The only good thing is that there might be overtime opportunities because someone has to work while we are being trained. So I will probably sign up for that.

I have an appointment with my “old” psychiatrist. It was impossible to get an appointment with someone new. I really wanted a female this time, and that was probably the issue. Unfortunately, I won’t be able to see my doctor until March 12. I will run out of my anti-depressant before than. Oh well. I’ll just cut them in half or something. I might have a prescription around here somewhere, but it’s been 4 months since I’ve been to the doctor and I don’t know where anything is from that long ago.

More on all this later. Bye! 🙂

I Speak Because I Can

I’m always saying I represent for Baltimore because that is where I was born and lived for a few years (off and on). I have family there. I haven’t been back in over 20 years!! And I don’t even live that far. I loved that city. There was always so many things to do. But this isn’t about that. I wanted to talk about the looting, of course. I just want all the people who are taking up for the rioters to acknowledge that some people are opportunists. I know what anger feels like. I know what it feels like not to be able to express it. I know how it feels to let it fester. HOWEVER, some people aren’t all that angry. They may be apathetic. Yet they are still looting and rioting. Why? Because this is an opportunity to get and do stuff.

That’s just pathetic. Trust me, I get anger. Take my word for it. And who is advising the mayor? Geez. I’m not going off on that tangent.

Baltimore, be safe. I love you.


I keep going back and forth on taking my dog with me to the cabin. Yesterday morning was a definite NO and now I have changed my mind again. He’s my (only) friend. I kind of want him to tag along. On the other hand, I also want a vacation from everything. This dog is no vacation. But I’m going to spend most of my time walking in nature and then relaxing in the cabin. That is a perfect trip for my dog. He likes to chill and I like to chill. We love walking around nature. LOL. We’re a match!

I still have concerns about things like the furniture. I let him get on my sofa. Well I’m going to have to bring something to cover their sofa. (more stuff? ugh!) What if he knocks their beautiful lamp down like he knocked my laptop down? I’d be so screwed. Not only would I have to pay, I would probably never be able to come back. How embarrassing. So I’m going to try to dog proof the place to the best of my ability.

Yeah, I guess he is coming with me. :/ He better behave.


The James Holmes trial (Colorado movie shooter) just started and I’m watching the whole thing. The prosecutor keeps mentioning Holmes’ social anxiety as if to say YES he has social anxiety but he doesn’t have schizoid personality disorder. Social anxiety might make ya angry but a mass murderer?? No. I think it is very possible he has some schizoid thing going on but do I think he was insane at the time of the crime? NO FREAKING WAY. He planned it for months and knew exactly what he was doing. Did his social anxiety (and all the grief that goes with that) play into it? Probably.

Summary of schizoid personality disorder:

Schizoid personality disorder is one of a group of conditions called “Cluster ‘A’ ” or eccentric personality disorders. People with these disorders often appear odd or peculiar. People with schizoid personality disorder also tend to be distant, detached, and indifferent to social relationships. They generally are loners who prefer solitary activities and rarely express strong emotion. Although their names sound alike and they might have some similar symptoms, schizoid personality disorder is not the same thing as schizophrenia. Many people with schizoid personality disorder are able to function fairly well, although they tend to choose jobs that allow them to work alone, such as night security officers, library, or lab workers.