Saved me from my inner strife

At least I know why my breasts always hurt! I have so many little cysts in each breast. They offered to drain them (probably not today). But I said no because they probably would reappear and I don’t want to go back to another doctor for a procedure. PLUS, I don’t know if the procedure hurts. So I’d rather live with my breast pain than get some weird draining procedure. The pain is not that bad. It’s just annoying.

However, the 3D mammogram hurt! WTF? I had a 3D one in 2015, and it didn’t hurt at all. I took pain medicine before the one in 2015. I did not take any pain meds this time. How dumb of me!! I thought mammograms didn’t hurt so I said, “I’ll just try it without the pain meds.” Um, not the right decision. Next time I will take pain meds.

Well, I’m glad that’s over. I shouldn’t have to get another mammogram for a few years unless my GYN sends me to get another one. Please stop sending me! I just have cysts! A lot of little, painful cysts. The end!

I have been eating badly these past 3 weeks. I’m afraid to weigh myself. The last time I weighed myself was just before I started eating horribly. I weighed 138. I guess I weigh more now. I did walk a LOT on my vacation, so maybe that helped. I think the most I walked was 6 miles on one of the days. (No foot pain!)

I can’t easily use my treadmill because I have to always watch my dog. Sad, but true. So I end up leaving him outside for 15 minutes while I get on the treadmill. That’s a problem because he barks the whole time. (Scared to use a bark collar on him for various reasons). I don’t have really close neighbors, but the ones I do have can hear my dog. That must be so annoying.

So I don’t get on my treadmill when 1.) I have my period 2.) when it’s raining, and I can’t leave my dog outside and 3.) when I don’t want to annoy my neighbors with my barking dog. That pretty much leaves NO days to get on my treadmill. lol. I did get on the treadmill on Thursday evening while leaving my dog outside. If I could get on every other day, I would be happy.

When it gets consistently warm (and stops raining!), I will do yoga outside. My dog doesn’t usually bark when I’m out there with him, so that’s not an issue. But I consider yoga relaxation and not exercise. I know it can be both. Since I think my period is over, I might go to yoga on Saturday. No promises. 😉

This week I…

Music of the week: Mary J. Blige, Michelle Branch, Rascal Flatts, Lea Michele, Nelly Furtado, Ingrid Michaelson, Joseph

TV of the week:  Survivor, House of Cards

How do sports fans live without cable?? I’m dying. I know there are options. I’m not paying money just to watch sports (that’s what I’m saying now). I also miss cable news, but not as much as I miss sports, of course. There are tons of ways to watch the news. I miss cable already. 😦 I guess it will take time to get used to it.

Movie of the week: None

Books of the week: 
Still reading  A Course in Weight Loss: 21 Spiritual Lessons for Surrendering Your Weight Forever by Marianne Williamson,  A Course in Miracles and  A Course in Miracles Made Easy: Mastering the Journey From Fear to Love by Alan Cohen.

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren


Plans for the Weekend: Nothing special planned for the 3 day weekend. I plan to study more than ever. My certification test is on June 17 at 7:30 AM. I know how hard this test is and how few people passed on the first try because this is a relatively new certification, so there aren’t a lot of study guides out there. I just have to take it to see what’s on it. Of course, I hope I know enough to pass on the first try.

I might go to yoga on Saturday. I hope my sunflower blooms so I can post pics of it. I want to be a proud sunflower mama. haha. I planted two sunflowers, but I think one got eaten by an animal which is not surprising. So I have all my hope in this one flower.

So yeah, I’m just studying, and I have to return my cable equipment through UPS. Exciting life. Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend. 🙂

she’s here!


Sorry for the crappy picture. I misplaced my camera, and I had to use my phone to get that pic.  That is my first 5 minutes on my new treadmill!!1!!! I burned 24 calories. haha.

Not to brag (since this has nothing to do with me) but this treadmill won 2010 Treadmill Doctor “Best Buy” Award and 2010 Fitness Professor “Best Treadmill Under $1,000” Award.

The hardest part was getting it in. I even called a moving company. LOL. They had a minimum of $80 to move the treadmill, so I said screw that. I was going to leave it outdoors overnight and post for help on Craigslist tomorrow.

Then I said, “Fuck it”. Fuck help. And the lack thereof. I’m going to do this all by myself. That’s the norm for me. I somehow got all 119 pounds of it in. It isn’t placed exactly where I want it, but for now, it will do. At least, I can use it.

It’s so lovely. Now I have to make sure my dog doesn’t bother it. sigh. I need to figure out how to stand it up.

I’m probably going to be sore tomorrow from lifting the treadmill. I can feel it coming on now.

No late night of work tonight and I’ve got a treadmill. #Winning 🙂

All I’ve got is time

******BREAKING NEWS*************

I  ORDERED A TREADMILL. lol. I’m so nuts/sad/mad. I have all these crazed emotions because I don’t know whether I got the promotional financing or not. I tried everything to find out. I called, I chatted. No answers. I NEED that financing. Without it, I’m doomed.

I bought the LifeSpan TR200 Compact Treadmill. It is already assembled. (!!) Yes, that is the main reason I picked that one. I was worried about all the extra time I will have (see below), but now that I’m getting a treadmill on Wednesday, I will have something to do. lol.

If I didn’t get the financing… Oh boy. I’m going to try my best to cancel my order. First, I will try to straighten it out. But who knows whether they will let me? The not knowing is driving me crazy.

I went to the free gym today. I thought there might be a bunch of New Year’s people there. Nope. I was alone for 1.5 of my miles. Then a woman came in. But it is getting cold. And I don’t like leaving my house ever, but especially when it is cold. Besides with a treadmill, I will be able to easily use it every day.

I’m hoping exercising daily will help with anxiety, weight maintenance, and my prehypertension.

Now back to what I was blogging before I ordered the treadmill:

I don’t have my practicum to do anymore. 😦 I didn’t know I had a year to complete it. And they also did some unethical stuff I won’t get into. So now I’m looking for something to do with that time. I don’t want a hobby like knitting because then I would have to spend money on yarn. So I’m looking for something free to do. It’ll probably be a part time job if I can find a nonsocial one.

I’m trying to work fewer hours at my full-time job. And now I don’t have the practicum to do. That means I have TIME. How many people have this problem? lol. Everyone else is busy, busy, busy. Oh well. I will find something to do. For now, I will probably work more. That is so pathetic and not at all what I planned to do. ARGH.

I will definitely read more. I read 25 books last year. I don’t know. I need something meaningful and free to do. That is what I’m looking for. Volunteering would be an option, but first I want to be sure I don’t need a part-time job. I’ve gotten into trouble before with volunteering somewhere when I needed work.

I would consider getting my Master’s, but the company I worked for changed its policy and will only pay for three types of Bachelor’s degrees. All involve management. I have NO INTEREST in management. I hate business. I only majored in it during undergrad because I didn’t know what to major in. So I changed to psychology. (I ended up with a degree in psychology with a minor in business).

So school’s out. Not that I have anything against getting another Bachelor’s. I just want it to be what I’m interested in. Hell, I would get an associate’s degree. Oh well.

Now I’m going to freak out over the whole treadmill financing situation. I will probably listen to a podcast and then go to bed.  I may update this entry with the results. I have to stop freaking out. But I just bought a treadmill!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!