All I’ve got is time

******BREAKING NEWS*************

I ¬†ORDERED A TREADMILL. lol. I’m so nuts/sad/mad. I have all these crazed emotions because I don’t know whether I got the promotional financing or not. I tried everything to find out. I called, I chatted. No answers. I NEED that financing. Without it, I’m doomed.

I bought the LifeSpan TR200 Compact Treadmill. It is already assembled. (!!) Yes, that is the main reason I picked that one. I was worried about all the extra time I will have (see below), but now that I’m getting a treadmill on Wednesday, I will have something to do. lol.

If I didn’t get the financing… Oh boy. I’m going to try my best to cancel my order. First, I will try to straighten it out. But who knows whether they will let me? The not knowing is driving me crazy.

I went to the free gym today. I thought there might be a bunch of New Year’s people there. Nope. I was alone for 1.5 of my miles. Then a woman came in. But it is getting cold. And I don’t like leaving my house ever, but especially when it is cold. Besides with a treadmill, I will be able to easily use it every day.

I’m hoping exercising daily will help with anxiety, weight maintenance, and my prehypertension.

Now back to what I was blogging before I ordered the treadmill:

I don’t have my practicum to do anymore. ūüė¶ I didn’t know I had a year to complete it. And they also did some unethical stuff I won’t get into. So now I’m looking for something to do with that time. I don’t want a hobby like knitting because then I would have to spend money on yarn. So I’m looking for something free to do. It’ll probably be a part time job if I can find a nonsocial one.

I’m trying to work fewer hours at my full-time job. And now I don’t have the practicum to do. That means I have TIME. How many people have this problem? lol. Everyone else is busy, busy, busy. Oh well. I will find something to do. For now, I will probably work more. That is so pathetic and not at all what I planned to do. ARGH.

I will definitely read more. I read 25 books last year. I don’t know. I need something meaningful and free to do. That is what I’m looking for. Volunteering would be an option, but first I want to be sure I don’t need a part-time job. I’ve gotten into trouble before with volunteering somewhere when I needed work.

I would consider getting my Master’s, but the company I worked for changed its policy and will only pay for three types of Bachelor’s degrees. All involve management. I have NO INTEREST in management. I hate business. I only majored in it during undergrad because I didn’t know what to major in. So I changed to psychology. (I ended up with a degree in psychology with a minor in business).

So school’s out. Not that I have anything against getting another Bachelor’s. I just want it to be what I’m interested in. Hell, I would get an associate’s¬†degree. Oh well.

Now I’m going to freak out over the whole treadmill financing¬†situation. I will probably listen to a podcast and then go to bed. ¬†I may update this entry with the results. I have to stop freaking out. But I just bought a treadmill!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I should be more cynical

The next time someone says, “I don’t have time for that” in a condescending way, I’m just going to say “Yeah, that is why I don’t wear makeup” or “that is why I don’t have kids”. It’s true. I have no interest in those things and I would rather spend my time doing something else. They can do whatever with their time. I don’t care.

This is silly, but there are people who say “I don’t have time for ‘pretty planning’. Btw, I don’t consider what I do pretty planning because it isn’t that¬†pretty. I use my planner to keep me organized. I write down my to-dos first and then on the weekend, I’ll take 30 minutes and decorate the page. 30 whole minutes! Anyway, these same people spend god knows how long putting on makeup or doing (fill in the blank), yet they claim they don’t have time for something.

Please. It’s all about priorities. I prioritize¬†fun stuff. I could take the time to put on makeup, but I don’t care about it. Makeup is probably fun for some people. I have to do something fun everyday to destress. ¬†(More than one thing whenever possible). I don’t even think about it or plan it. It is necessary.

Anyway, decorating my planner is fun and very relaxing. It’s called a hobby. HOBBY. What a concept! People do stuff they like for fun? WOW. If it ever stops being fun, I’ll stop. Obvs.

Oops. I think that was a rant? Is that allowed? Damn, I keep breaking the rules. ūüėČ

Looks like I’m also working on Xmas. None of this overtime is written in stone. So I shouldn’t celebrate too much. But I am a little excited. With any extra money, I’m going to get my car fixed and I might go to Asheville for my vacation in May. That is still up in the air.

Looking forward to my cheat day on Thursday. I’m buying food in advance tomorrow. ūüôā

This week I…

Music of the week:  Ellie Goulding, Justin Bieber, Alessia Cara, Sam Smith, Alanis Morissette, A Great Big World, Borns, The Weeknd

song of the week: Alessia Cara – I’m Yours

TV of the week:  Lost (season 6), basketball, news as usual

I have to stop leaving my TV on cable news before going to sleep. I keep doing it. I wake up to breaking news at 3AM.

Movies of the week:  none.

Books of the week:¬† I finished reading¬†I Feel Like Going On: Life, Game & Glory by Ray Lewis and Daniel Paisner. Good book. Not too much football talk for nonfans. Quick read. It was nice reliving the football seasons. It made me miss football. #BoycottFootball because it kills people. Anyhow, I’m a huge Ray Lewis fan. (Baltimore, baby!)

Working on finishing these 3 library books:

Planner update:  


I’m going to eat dinner, work late and then watch college basketball. Tonight won’t be a late night like most Friday nights. Gotta work in the morning.