I’ve got worse problems

If a person can’t find one good thing to say about another person, that says more about that person then the person, they are talking about. Yes, John McCain brings this to mind. But I’m talking about everyone. Dead or alive.

I’m reading another book on Aaron Hernandez. He killed people. I can find good things to say about him. It’s not that hard unless the person has skewed thinking. And that is what I think of people who can’t find ONE THING good to say about John McCain. Why should I listen to anything they have to say? How credible are they if they can only see the bad things?

I admire McCain for staying back in Vietnam when he didn’t have to. I wish he wasn’t beaten and kept in a solitary cell for years. I admire his courage. Simple as that. I only agree with him 20% politically. I don’t remember everything he did. People say he was the one who allowed that dreaded Iraq war. I blame Colin Powell more for saying there were WMDs. But maybe I’m remembering history incorrectly? I know McCain definitely supported the war, but so did Hillary Clinton. So did most of congress…unfortunately.

I look forward to reading McCain’s autobiography although I know there will be a long wait for it at the library. So I won’t be reading it anytime soon. Yes, I’m going to miss McCain. With him, I knew there was a chance he could side with what I believed in (The Affordable Care Act for example). I’m sad for his family and many friends.

To all the people who want to say only negative things: Hey, you have something in common with Trump! Good for you. 😉

I didn’t get any YouTube videos recorded this weekend because I decided to let my mentor read over my scripts. I could really use her feedback. So I guess I’ll be recording them during the week. Ugh. However, I did get a lot of work done on the online course I want to create. Now the issue is, who do I use for hosting? Teachable? Thinkrific? Udemy?

I like Udemy since my course is simple. They will advertise for me. Etc. BUT I will never be able to teach this course somewhere else if I go with Udemy. Hmmm. Since I’m doing the tarot thing, I hate the thought of having to advertise the course from scratch. I don’t have an audience for that. What I’m certified in is so far away from tarot. Well, most things are far away from tarot. Lol.

Anyway, I really have to think about it. I think I’m deciding between Thinkrific and Udemy which probably means I’m going to end up choosing Teachable. Haha. I did just create a Thinkrific school. It’s free to do that. I have my own “school”. How cool. 🙂

I finally got a request for a free tarot reading that didn’t involve love. It was a career reading! Anyone who has visited my site knows that career readings are what I want to do. She gave me five stars, and I was on point. Whew! I haven’t gotten a lot of feedback lately, so I’ve been feeling weird about tarot.

I know my readings are a little short, but I like to just answer the question. I always have at least 3 paragraphs and over 200 words. When I ask a question, I want an answer, not a novel. What a concept! But I did receive a beautiful novel for a question I asked. I have to leave her feedback. It was great. She was only off about the kid thing. LOL. Um, nope. Never. Not happening. I don’t know how she saw that. I am a dog mom, but that’s about it.

Well, I’ve gotta go work on stuff. Talk to you later. Bye! 🙂

shake me from stuff hallucinations

I get a few days off and I become a posting machine. I can’t remember the last time I’ve done this many entries back to back. Anyway, here is a newsflash: I AM NOT A MINIMALIST. Sigh.  I’m just trying to get back to where I was 5 years ago. I didn’t buy stuff just to buy stuff. I put my money in savings. Now I really, really, really need to put money in savings and I’m still spending too much.

Bleh. Perhaps looking at my dream house will help? Maybe I need to look at a pic of it every day. My dream house isn’t extravagant. It is attainable. I have good credit.  I just have to save for a downpayment of $25,000 or less. The house I was just looking at is on 6 acres (privacy!) and I would “only” need to put $18,000 down. 3 bedrooms and 2 full baths. 1,040 sqft. Yeah, it is a little big for me, but I care more about the acres than the number of bedrooms. That should be motivation enough. Maybe it is??? I need to think about this house or any house every single day.

Like I previously posted, I bought a new purse and clothes from Forever 21. That isn’t all. My dry cleaning was $60. I had no idea it would be that high. Those were my designer clothes I was dry cleaning just in case. WTF? That isn’t all. I bought a new planner:

my new planner
my new planner

Before you judge, I’ve been using my Plum Paper Planner for 8 whole months. lol. That is a long time in planner world. This one cost me $14 at Hobby Lobby with a 40% off coupon. So not too bad. But did I need it? NO. It is a planner from Me And My Big Ideas: The Happy Planner. I decided to buy it because I was kind of getting tired of using the PPP. It is an 18-month planner. If I like it, I plan to use it until at least June 2016.

I’m a Filofax/Kikki.K girl so this will take some getting used to. I swore off coiled or disc bound planners. There aren’t any folders in the planner. Where do I put my stuff? haha. (I know some can be purchased…). I did purchase extra note pages because a planner ain’t a planner without note pages. It will take a while to see if I like it.

Here is a walk through of the planner. I also have some of the accessories she has (the extra covers, note pages and stickers).

This is my confession. I suck at money. This is sort of a new struggle for me. I did put some money in savings but geez. I have to see that buying stuff is useless and won’t get me near my goals of travel and a house in the middle of nowhere. I know becoming a minimalist takes time for most people. I did declutter (not completely yet). I will give myself some credit. I don’t have a huge problem throwing stuff away and donating stuff.

New Rules

  • No more clothes/purses/shoes through May 2016.
  • No more planner related items through January 2016 (so, so, so hard).
  • Keep grocery bill under $115 every 3 weeks.
  • No credit card use.
  • Declutter until I’m done weekly. Fill donation bags and trash can every week.

I should probably add stop watching non-minimalists on YouTube. But I’m thinking I can watch YouTubers I’m subscribed to and not get caught up. I feel like I should be able to. And no, YouTubers aren’t to blame. Our society encourages people to buy. Being a minimalist is against everything we are taught in the Western world. MORE MORE MORE. You don’t want MORE? What is wrong with you? Are you settling? Uh, no. I just don’t desire the same things as everyone else. #DifferentDefintionsOfLiving

Besides most of  the people on YouTube make twice what I make or the younger ones have well-off parents.  They can afford to spend what they spend. I’m not in their boat.


I now weigh 123! I stopped Nutrisystem, have cheat days and I lose weight. Interesting. My next cheat days are going to be the two days of Thanksgiving. I have never sat for a Thanksgiving dinner. Ever. Thank Buddha. But sometimes my mom will cook and I take the food home. So I’m going all out for those two days. Cake, pizza, cornish hen, stuffing, bread etc. That’s the plan. TWO cheat days next month. YAY. 🙂 But until then I will be on my 1,200 – 1,500 calorie “diet”.

When I went to my health screening, the nurse told me if I lose any more weight, I will be underweight. I’m not concerned about that. I was chronically underweight 5-6 years ago. I don’t think that will happen again. I’m otherwise healthy. However, I wish my blood pressure were lower. It isn’t too high, but I could see it going there. She saw how nervous I was and thought it might be due to that. But nah, my BP has been that way for about 6 months.

Nutrisystem and stuff.

Let me start with something random. O told me I live “such an adventurous life”.  Most people wouldn’t think that. Hello? If my life was so awesome, my blog would be full of my adventures and um, yeah. LOL. Adventure is in the eye of the beholder. And warning: this is a long entry.

I went to Duke University. Yes, I did…on Friday afternoon for about 45 minutes. I finally visited Duke! 🙂 Big campus. I only had one hour before my car would be ticketed or towed so I just walked around and hoped I wouldn’t get too lost. I went into one building. I wish I would’ve had time to visit the museum and the gardens. I was geeking out when I saw the Welcome to North Carolina sign and any sign related to Duke which is really sad because I don’t live that far.

The stuff I picked up from the estate sell was totally worth the 3 hour drive to Cary, NC. 6 hours in a car in one day. I’m glad that’s over. I’m going to do my sale in early June and guess what? My mom is coming with! She can do the fake social stuff better than me so that is sort of a win. The only downside is that we will be selling our stuff together so it will be difficult to keep up with who buys what if they buy more than one thing. I’m going to try to track it as best as I can. #SideHustle

I have so many purses to sell (new & used). I thought jewelry was going to be my number 1 thing but it’s not. I’m glad about that because I feel like jewelry is harder to sell. I think my biggest money makers will be purses and luggage. I can’t wait to sell. I have so much STUFF and I live in a small space. P.S. I got some Anne Klein shoes mixed in with other random shoes. OMG. So comfy. I’m thinking about keeping them. I know. I know. Bad girl. They are worth at least $50 but…I shouldn’t have tried them on.

I love putting prices on things. What is with that? It is so fun. I’m a dork. It energizes me. I will be pricing stuff for a couple of hours today. (It takes me a while to figure out the exact right price). I’m going to use that to take my mind off food because…….

Today is my first day on Nutrisystem!

Background: I’m doing the My Way plan. I want to lose 15lbs overall. Weigh in on start day (today) is: 142.0 (!). What happened to 139? I weigh myself in the mornings to try to get a true weight but who knows? I think 142 is accurate, FWIW.

I don’t think NS should recommend everyone do the Fast 5 as in “lose 5 pounds fast”. Everyone doesn’t need to lose 5 pounds in one week to stay motivated. People who do heavy lifting or walk around a lot should not do the Fast 5. A NS counselor will tell you that…if you call. (Most people don’t according to the message boards). But they don’t ask when you sign up. They just give you the Fast 5 and most people just do it until they feel lightheaded or whatever. I’m slightly worried about how I will do on vacation. I will be out in the hot sun. I’ll be walking more than usual. As of right now, I plan on doing the Fast 5 even though I know I don’t have to. I would probably be fine if I were just working this week but I’m going to be in the woods, at a state park for most of the week.

So the food I’m showing today, on day 1, isn’t really NS. It is ONLY THE FIRST WEEK. NS calls it “weight loss boot camp”. I may repeat that if I post again on this during the week. I don’t want people thinking NS is a starvation program. A person gets to have a normal -or what should be normal- amount of food after the first week. Well here’s another thing: you can always have as many vegetables as you want. So I don’t think I will starve. I LOVE broccoli, cucumbers and tomatoes so those will be my go to. I like string beans. And that’s about it.

That is my disclaimer.

For breakfast at 8AM, I had only a NS blueberry muffin and coffee. I could have added veggies but I didn’t want veggies that early. :/ I meant to take a pic of the muffin but I forgot. It was really good. I used to have blueberry muffins for breakfast at least once a week when I worked in the office. This muffin is 1-2 sizes smaller. It would be a much better breakfast with a boiled egg (next week, baby!).

At 11AM, I had my NS energizing shake. (shakes are only for the 1st week).  My freezer won’t freeze liquid so I couldn’t add the ice to the shake which I hear is a big part of getting the shake to taste better. It’s funny…I do have an ice maker but the thought of hooking it up….I moved some food in my freezer around. I think I will have ice for the evening shake. Anyway, the shake was pretty good or I was hungry. ha. It tasted like a very lite chocolate milkshake. Tasty. I’m shocked some people don’t like this shake.

mid morning shake
mid morning shake

12PM – feeling a little lightheaded and nauseous. The energizing shake probably has caffeine and my stomach doesn’t like caffeine without food. I took my OTC nausea medication. I was definitely a little hungry at this time. Not starving. I just could have ate something but decided not to. I drank water instead. Not feeling so great. :/ I don’t think the heat is helping. I probably shouldn’t have gone for that walk earlier. I definitely could not have mowed the lawn today. Wait, how do people mow the lawn during fast 5? It’s impossible. Now I’m really worried about my trip. It is going to be so hot and I want to walk around. That is the whole point! I may have to do regular NS and say “screw fast five”.

1PM –  I had to eat something to try to get rid of the nausea. I was planning on eating lunch at 2PM.  Lunch was NS Three Cheese Chicken (chicken, rotini- style pasta and broccoli in a cheesy sauce) and a small tomato. I liked the NS entree. I get to pick what food I want next month. I may get 2 or 3 of these. It wasn’t very filling but I haven’t tried the other lunches so I don’t know. Maybe all the lunches aren’t filling. I don’t know what to do now. I have to walk my dog but it is so hot and I don’t want to faint.


2PM – So far I’ve only had 16oz of water. That may be part of the problem. Walked my dog. Did not faint. I don’t feel as nauseous. Lightheaded? Maybe.  Nap time.

4PM – feeling pretty good. Well, I did just wake up from a nap. I didn’t nap for two whole hours. I wish! I kind of want to have dinner now.

4:30PM  (dinner) – I had NS thick crust pizza. The crust was a little too tough. I might have microwaved it too long.  I also had a medium salad on the side with just greens and cucumbers. I am allowed to add 2 tbsp. of any kind of salad dressing so I added that amount of caesar dressing. Most people put veggies on the pizza but I just ate it plain. I’m scared to do anything involving standing because I might feel like crap again. So far I’ve had 765 calories (thanks to the NS website) which is not enough for my body but I’m still not “starving”.

pizza for dinner
pizza for dinner
salad with dinnner
salad with dinnner

At 8PM, I had the NS cravings crusher shake (with ice) and NS milk chocolate flavored pretzels YES I HAD A SNACK DURING THE FIRST WEEK. I’m done with the “fast 5”. I think it’s BS. Btw, the pretzels were awesome.

That was today. I had approximately 1,250 calories today. I don’t do calories but I think that constitutes a diet.  I don’t think springs/summers where I live are made for “fast 5”. Can anyone survive on fast 5? Hunger isn’t the issue for me, I just felt weak sometimes.

I cannot overstate how absurd I think “fast 5” is. However, I will not knock the whole NS program over one silly idea. It “only” lasts a week…if you can take it.  I think fast 5 is relatively new and they may come up with something different in the future. I guess I won’t be a NS spokesperson. 🙂 I will continue with the NS regular program. I’m optimistic about the program.

I’m going to eventually do an entry on what happens after NS. I’ve already learned a ton and I have only been eating the food for one day but I’ve been a member for over 10 days and I have devoured a  lot of info from the website and message boards. I’m envious of the people that get to stay on NS forever or even 6 months. That’s not me. Too expensive. I already have ideas on what I will eat once NS is over for me. Hint: Small portions, lots of veggies, and eat something every 3-4 hours. Also, drink water. I didn’t do that great with water today. I know. I know.

I know this seems like a long ramble but I hope it helps someone who is curious about NS.

Well, I probably won’t post anymore until I get back from my birthday/cabin vacay with my buddy (my dog). I’ll be back next week.


Talkers gonna talk

OKAY. NO FUCKING JOKE. I have always hated using the word “haters” (especially after T. Swift made the word so common) but OMG. I have HATERS after me. And there’s nothing I can do about it. I did nothing wrong. I just got lucky and they can’t stand it. They don’t think I deserve it. And what they say goes right? Who says they are the king of anything? Who says they are right? What a bunch of egos. They are trying to get rid of me. This sucks. It really does. 😦

I wouldn’t try to mess with someone’s livelihood so I really don’t understand it.


aw, what a cutie!
aw, what a cutie!

Anyways….I’m excited because I just got stuff from my first “successful” estate sale. I have enough stuff to sell right now. But of course I am still looking for things. So far I have:

  • purses (brand new and used)
  • jewelry (brand new and used)
  • dolls
  • stuffed animals
  • office supplies
  • books
  • shoes
  • curtains (new in package)
  • decorations
  • baskets

I just want variety and I think I kind of have it but I could do better.

I brought 3 porcelain dolls for about $3 (total). Here’s the other:


I did buy one thing for myself at the estate sell. I could not resist. This was a bidding war! But I won. I got a cabinet to put my crafting stuff in. It retails for $79 on Amazon PLUS you have to assemble it. I brought it already assembled for $32.

craft cart
craft cart

Then on May 8th, I’m going to North Carolina for another estate sale. I’m working half the day then heading to Cary, NC. Never heard of it but it is kinda near Duke University so I’m hoping I get to stop by. I may have to board my dog for the night. :/ It will be worth it if I can get the stuff I really want (THE LUGGAGE) but otherwise…I can’t believe I’m going to North Carolina for a sale. I’ve never been. Well, I been through there on my way to Vegas. And I got to see the Duke University merch at the gift shop. Can you tell that I’m a Duke fan?

Honestly after driving 35 minutes to get to the estate sell today, I’m kind of dreading driving 2 1/2 hours to Cary, NC. I know I need to get over it. But today just reminded me that I don’t love driving. I used to drive back and forth from college town (3 1/2 hour drive) with no problems. Now I’m just over it.

I definitely have enough stuff to sell. I don’t think I need much else. I will definitely NOT be driving 2 1/2 hours for anything else.

Well I’m going to find somewhere to put my cart and then put all my crafting supplies in it. I swear I’m going to bed early tonight. Today has been a long day. Up since 5AM. #hustle

I feel a surge coming over me

Warning: long entry

I haven’t had water for so long…I don’t even know how long it has been. ( 8 or 9 days?) I would love to be able to shower when I want. Or to be able to wash my food so I can cook it. I had to go to my mom’s house to shower today.  Forget water (not really), MY JURY DUTY WAS CANCELLED! Woohoo! It doesn’t mean it is over. I’m still on call until early March. I was thrilled to get that call…but I had to work on Thursday. LOL. I was actually looking a little forward to a 4 day vacay from work.  At least I’m off today. 3 day vacay!

I have an official name for my Etsy shop. I just added “Miss” to my dream title. It’s brilliant, I know. (sarcasm). I registered it. Now I just have to list stuff to sell. ha.

I got my $150 worth of stuff from Amazon.* In case anyone missed it: I won a gift card for that amount. I didn’t just buy this stuff with MY money. I love stuff but not this much. 😉 And the haters at work are gonna hate. WOW. Being a lucky bitch can bring out the worst in some people…or most people. Or ALL people. 😉

Back to the stuff. *I got most of my stuff. One of my packages is missing. Amazon split my order into 6 packages. (thx amazon!) UPS was not ready for the snow. They were understaffed. I had to go pick up my stuff because it was never going to come. I drove 25 minutes to get to the UPS center.  Most of my packages were in horrible shape BUT the stuff inside was  surprisingly okay. And my Pilot FriXion Erasable Gel Pens, 3-Pack are MIA. I’m not really worried about it. I will probably contact Amazon in a week and they will send me a replacement.  They have really good customer service or maybe UPS will get back on their feet and deliver my stuff but after hearing and seeing how chaotic everything is  there, I don’t think they are going to find that tiny package. The flimsy envelope (thanks again Amazon!) is probably sitting somewhere destroyed. And I bet someone just took the pens for themselves.

Picture time:

FIRST let me post what I brought today with my Macy’s Xmas gift card:

Nine West Hadley Tote
Nine West Hadley Tote

The black one looks so much better but I would have had to pay more out of my pocket. So I decided to go with the silver. I love silver….just not when it comes to bags. It is a Nine West bag. I used to be a loyal Nine West handbag person for YEARS. Then I started buying other brands.

Anyhow, this Hadley tote bag retails at $79. All the bags (except silver) are on sale today at Macy’s for $46. There was one silver left and it was cheaper than the black bags because someone returned it so I decided to go with it. I blame Organized Like Jen for me buying this bag. She recently posted about a big $150 Cuyana bag she brought and I had to have one like that after I saw hers.  So thanks Jen! 🙂 This bag is so large, I will only use it for getaways or when I have to have a bunch of stuff with me (like today).

Now onto Amazon’s things. Here is my new Epson XP-310 Wireless Color Photo Printer:

sleek looking printer
sleek looking printer

It is already being a pain in the ass. LOL. But I read the reviews first and I knew what would probably happen. I’m going to try to fix everything by tomorrow. At least the wireless is set up and it prints.

OMG. People were so right about Staedtler Triplus Fineliner Pens! They are awesome. I didn’t know what to expect. People raved about the Flair pens too but I’m going to give mine away in gift bags and RAKs (random acts of kindness).  The Flair pens are like markers. I don’t want to write with freaking markers in my planners or anywhere! But the Staedtler pens – drool. I’m thinking about asking for the 20 pack for my birthday. How nerdy is that? Try the Staedtler pens. You won’t reget it.

I can’t say enough good things about Project Life Kit, Mini, Gold Foil. I didn’t think I liked gold until I saw this:

Heidi Swapp gold kit
Heidi Swapp gold kit

I’m going to play around with this tonight and make some stuff for my planners. There are duplicates so I will give some of this kit away in RAKs.

What else can I blab about? One last thing. No picture for this. Omron HJ-203 Pedometer with Activity Tracker I will be using this everyday starting tomorrow. I need some motivation since it is so cold so I’m hoping this will help. I can’t wait until March/April when I can take my dog to the park during my lunch break (once a week).

Should I add “weekly” to this entry? This is the longest. entry. evah. I have to end the week this way…since I watched TWO movies this week. Yes, I have turned into a cinephile. No, not really.

This Week I…

Music for the week:  Imagine Dragons, Sam Smith, Carrie Underwood, Paloma Faith, Brandy Clark, Fifth Harmony, Whitney Houston, Butterfly Boucher

This entry is too long for me to go on about how good the new Imagine Dragons album is. (full of angst!)

TV for the week: My 6oo lb life, basketball

I’m watching a NBA game right now and that is why it took so, so, so long for me to type out this entry. side tracked.

Movies of the week: I wasn’t that impressed with In Your Eyes. I thought it was going to be more sci-fi instead it was more romantic comedy. I give it 3.5 stars out of 5. I only watched Labor Day because I really like Kate Winslet. What a surprise. It is a good movie. I enjoyed it more than most people who rated it. It probably is because of Kate. I only took forever to watch it because the reviews weren’t that good. 4 out of 5 stars. Now I want to read the book.

Books of the week: Get Rich, Lucky Bitch!: Release Your Money Blocks and Live a First Class Life by Denise Thomas – on page 241. Almost done. This book is probably too woo-woo for most people. I’ll do a review once I’m done.

Knitting Projects of the week: I only knitted one day this week – today while I was waiting for my oil to be changed. I worked on my purple cowl.

This is my longest entry ever! I think. Does it count as an entry if no one reads it? Does this count as a blog if no one reads it? ROFL. 😉 😉 😉 Now I can watch basketball with all my attention. Go Wizards!

We’re chasing down tomorrow

I hope we don’t get hit with the snow storm…or maybe I do. If it will cancel jury duty then that’s great but I have somewhere to go the next day. I prefer not to drive on icy roads. But that’s just me. It is so cold. I don’t have water. 😦 I’m going to have to go to my mom’s house to shower for jury duty.

Rumor has it that a Kikki.K store will open in New York soon! I’ve been looking for a reason to do a quick trip to NYC. I will probably only stay one night or just a day. It’ll be nice to buy some planner accessories and stationery without having to sign for the package. That is my biggest complaint with Kikki.K. I had a $10 off coupon that expired because I didn’t want to have to deal with the post office again. It is only a rumor at this point. I couldn’t find anything concrete about a store opening.

Like I previously stated, I received my $150 Amazon.com gift card. How awesome.  I guess I can sort of say where I got it from. I won it from being picked out of a ton of people at work. I can’t reveal anymore than that.

ANYWAYS….Here is what I ordered from Amazon:

  1. Epson XP-310 Wireless Color Photo Printer with Scanner and Copier – The first thing I thought of when I won was a printer. I have been living without one for a few months. I do have doubts about how long the ink will last but I try not to print a lot. I have never tried an Epson printer before.
  2. Grey’s Anatomy: Season 1 – I only brought this DVD to have something to watch while I’m at the cabin for 3 days in May. I won’t have internet or TV…I  want something to watch just in case it rains. I hope to eventually own the whole series but it isn’t a life goal or anything.
  3. Post-it Flags with On-the-Go Dispenser – I’m so exciting. Post-it flags. I will use this for work and my planners.
  4. Omron HJ-203 Pedometer with Activity Tracker  – So excited to get this. I was going to get a more expensive one but all I really want is a pedometer that automatically resets each day and something that count steps. That’s it. This one also tracks calories burned which is a bonus for me.
  5. The Rawhide Express Assorted Flavors Strips/Chips Dog Chew, 1-Pound – For my baby B! He LOVES these. Well he only loves the brown ones. The majority of them are brown so I figure it is worth the price. I usually give these to him while I’m working and don’t want to be bothered or when he is bored. Sometimes he can chew on these for about an hour. I definitely recommend these.
  6. Project Life Kit, Mini, Heidi Swapp, Gold Foil – I mainly brought this for my planner but I will also use this for Project Life. This kit is gorgeous. I tried to find it in stores so I could use a coupon but no dice.
  7. I Don’t Want To, I Don’t Feel Like It: How Resistance Controls Your Life and What to Do About It by Cheri Huber. I had to buy at least one book…right? Her books aren’t on the Kindle so I had to buy the paperback version.
  8. Pilot FriXion Ball Erasable Gel Pens, Fine Point, 3-Pack, Black Ink  –  I love these pens. So far these are my favorite pens to write with. I have them in all colors. What is better than quality erasable ink pens?
  9. Staedtler Triplus Fineliner Pens 10 color Pack – More pens! Everyone in the planner community raves about these so I thought I would try them.

That’s it. I only had to add $1.80 to this order. I spent about 8 days figuring out what I wanted off my wish list. I kept adding and deleting things.  The only sure thing was the printer. Everything should be here by Wednesday. I can’t wait to play with my new things. 🙂

taking chances

It hasn’t happened yet but I’m 99% sure I am putting my dog to sleep this weekend. 😦 She just had her 17th or 18th birthday (have to look it up). I’m losing my best friend. 😦 So sad. I’ve been having trouble sleeping. I’m so not looking forward to Saturday when I will lose my baby, my only friend. 😦 😦 😦


Warning: long entry with a few  pics

I went to the free gym on Wednesday because I figured I wouldn’t feel like going to spin class after taking my dog to the vet on Saturday. It was semi-crowded. I have never seen that many people at that gym when it isn’t January. Note to self: Don’t go to the gym at 3:45PM on a weekday. (Nah, I’ll probably try again).  I only walked a little over a mile on the treadmill. Fitness gurus would say that that is nothing. I understand but it is better than nothing. Besides I want to speed up my metabolism. I figure exercising is the best way to go even if it isn’t much.

I guess my SAD hasn’t kicked in yet. Normally during this time of year, I would never voluntarily go to the gym. I’m just at my normal level of depression. I think it is because it isn’t that cold yet. It was 70 degrees recently!

“Business” – Ebay sent me an email saying they went over my site and wanted me as an affiliate. I had no idea they even had an affiliate program. So if you don’t hate me, please consider using my Ebay link (also on blogroll) when you shop there. I use ebay about 5 times a year. I buy 90% of my knitting needles from there. I also like using it for gifts. I’ve been using Ebay so long  that I have a common one word name with no numbers behind it. I used to do all my shopping there. I’ve sold stuff on there too.

Currently my favorite ebay store is Cherrysky90 (clothes, knit, crochet) but it really depends on what I’m interested in at the moment. Guilty Pleasure: I love buying jewelry on ebay. I don’t wear it as much anymore but when I did, I got a bunch of cheap nice looking stuff. 😉 Lots of compliments. If they only knew…

Pictures of STUFF time. I was a bad girl and brought knitting stuff. Stuff isn’t bad on it’s own. But I’m #1 having financial issues and #2 obviously using stuff to fill a void.

All of the yarn was on sale from Craftsy. I’m used to acrylic yarn for the most part so I’m very excited to add these skeins to my stash. I’ll start with my favorite:

Lorna's Laces  100% superwash merino
Lorna’s Laces 100% superwash merino

Isn’t that beautiful? It is called jeans and it is for a lace scarflette I plan to make. Hand dyed.

Cascade Heritage 75% merino 25%  nylon
Cascade Heritage 75% merino 25% nylon

I have no plans for the yarn above. I just brought it because I love purple.

Lorna's Laces 55% merino wool 15% nylon 30% viscose
Lorna’s Laces 55% merino wool 15% nylon 30% viscose

The yarn above is called “The L”. I brought it for a lace scarf. It is hard to make due to all the lace so I won’t be starting that project anytime soon.  Hand dyed yarn.

Rowan fine lace. 80% alpaca 20% fine merino wool
Rowan fine lace. 80% alpaca 20% fine merino wool

No plans for the above yarn.

Just for fun, here is a pic of my yarn stash:

messy messy
messy messy

I have 2  project bags on the way (more  STUFF). They seem to be stuck in Florida. Pics of those next week.


Music for the week: Sharon Van Etten, Magic!, Lucy Hale, Mary J. Blige, FKA twigs, Tristan Prettyman, Ani DiFranco, Ariana Grande

I haven’t had much time to listen to the new Mary J album but so far I love it. No shock there. I’m a huge Mary J. fan.

TV for the week: Pretty Little Liars

I’m going to start a House of Cards marathon in January. See, I do have plans for the new year. 😉 Season 3 starts in February.

Movie of the week:  none

Books of the week: I have a hold for a library book I really want to read. Until then I’m just browsing various books like Knitting: Amazing Patterns that Everyone Can Knit by Kathy Wilson <– great patterns

Knitting projects of the week: More pics. I finished my final chunky garter scarf:


I got to the place in my afghan where I changed colors. This is my first time changing colors with knitting. I think I did okay. The back is very messy though.


Finally, here is a gauge swatch for my cardigan. Yes, the swatch is too small. I should have ripped it out and started a bigger one. Anyway, I wish I had stuck with my first color choice: brown. I think I’m sick of burgundy after doing the scarf. But oh well. It is my first sweater. It’ll be amazing if it comes out close to decent.

guage swatch for cardigan
gauge swatch for cardigan 20% wool 80% acrylic

Crochet projects of the week: none really. chains, chains, chains. I hope to have something here…in a month maybe.

I have to get ready for C to come over. C is a Jehovah Witness who swears she is not trying to convert me. She just wants to “tell me what the real truth is”. Her truth is what is in the Bible. Everything was fine until she dissed science. :/

Can’t Say No

I didn’t do a thing yesterday (besides library & gas station). Nothing. I don’t know how I feel about this. After working Mon-Fri, a day off while vegging out doesn’t seem like the worst thing ever but I do have things I have to do. So far today I’ve worked on my résumé. I’m pleased with the results but the one I created from scratch 3 years ago looked better. Now I’m working with a template from the book I brought (link below). What else? I filled my recycle bin. And I’ve organized my laundry.

However none of those things is complete. This is very typical of me. I start working on all my projects at once and then I finish them throughout the week or when I HAVE to. I’d like to change that but that isn’t my biggest problem. LOL. I do need to get organized though. Organization = less stress (for me).

I’m also conflicted with how Avon doesn’t fit into my life goals very much. I’m never going to stop being a rep as long as I have incoming income because it only costs 4.00 to stay “active”. And if I have to stop, I can start back up as long as I have good credit. But buying STUFF is not where I am. I used to buy 70% of my clothes/books/music used. I still rarely buy books and music. I get both used for the most part. But this past year I spent more on new clothes than I have in 5 years! So that must stop.

Back to Avon: I wanted to become a rep because I thought it might help with my social anxiety/ social ineptness etc. I wanted to have the option of hosting an Avon/Mark. party because what other kind of party will I EVER host? I have never had a birthday party. I don’t do parties so I do think for now that I should keep that option open. I’m more into Mark than Avon. (If you sell Avon, you can sell Mark too). Mark is geared towards teenagers and 20-somethings. That is what I know. I don’t dress like a fashionista but I know all the brands, the trends etc.

A couple of weeks ago, I was thinking about setting up a Mark party. It wouldn’t be a real party because I wasn’t going to have products. Of course I didn’t follow through for several reasons. Normal social people are having a problem finding Mark helpers (helpers sell for you – they get paid or a discount). Do I want to invest time into that right now? Nah. But I did want to see how I would interact with the teen crowd. Is it easier now? I couldn’t do it as a teen but I’m older now.

I’m not about stuff so yeah, “selling” Avon/Mark does seem hypocritical. The good thing is that I don’t have a lot of customers. So I’m not taking money. One woman at work buys $20 a month of Avon from me. She is my most consistent customer. Also Avon is cheap. Uh, Mark not so much (to me anyways).

I’ve stopped buying Avon for myself. No more jewelry…ever! I stopped that in April. I buy one pair of boots from Avon a year. That is worth it because the boots I like are in the $100-250 range, so Avon satisfies that itch much, much cheaper. Plus I get a discount. The only thing I allow myself to buy these days is deodorant and shower gels. And only when those things are on sale. I would buy their make up because it is good but I don’t wear it much. I only wear foundation on special occasions (last time: John Mayer concert). I would consider wearing it to work every once in a while but I never take it off before bed. And then my face breaks out. Instead of washing my face before bed I just don’t wear make up. LOL.

This entry wasn’t supposed to be about Avon, I swear. But I’m not done. Recently my Avon blog stats have gone up. And I’m thinking, “Well what am I supposed to do with this?” Since I’m not really into it, do I just stop the website? What if I could get a potential customer that way? I just know that I don’t want to be a promoter of stuff. Yet, I have an Avon blog….ummmm. Since I’m not making money, I don’t feel guilty or that conflicted. The only time when I feel unease is when I think, “Shouldn’t I be updating my blog? Shouldn’t I be trying to be successful at it?” In other words, WTF am I doing? Am I a total slacker at it or do I not care? And if I don’t care, why do I have an Avon/Mark blog plus a facebook page for it?

Also what is the difference between “selling” Avon and selling say, handmade jewelry? * Keep in mind, I’m not really selling anything because I don’t have customers. I used to sell handmade jewelry but my stuff sucked and I have to start all over again. (People did buy it, and I got compliments but that’s because it wasn’t expensive.) I’ve forgotten almost everything I’ve learned.

*Well the obvious difference is that the handmade jewelry is mine and somewhat unique but that’s not my point.

Just thinking aloud. Obviously….and no conclusion.