Been a prisoner of the past


130 days until I go on my “Escape from DC” weekend getaway

It’s never too early to start a countdown. 🙂  If you didn’t see my update, I did book the trip for my dog and me. I will blog more my concerns later this week. Doesn’t everyone need an escape from DC? I’m so sick of hearing about Russia. I haven’t watched the news in a week. I want to watch the news, but I find the Russia stuff so boring. I just don’t care. Yes, they interfered with the election. Trump knew about it. How much can the media talk about this? I’m so annoyed.

Cycling class went well. Everyone was really nice! They even put my name on my locker with a welcome sign. Wow. They do that with all the newbies. I only burned 262 calories during the class. That’s low but, it is more than I burn when I go to the park or when I get on my treadmill (most of the time). I think my performance was so bad when compared to everyone else because 1.) I’m rusty and 2.) I don’t have the cycling technique down.

Now my goal is to burn more than 262 calories next time. They rank all the users in the class with usernames, and I was the worst all throughout the class! ROFL. Btw, that is a choice. It isn’t mandatory. I chose to pick a username and have my stats against all others in the class. I’m not competing with them though. I’m competing with myself. I want to get better each time.  I don’t know if I’ll ever be good at cycling. I just know that I’m glad to burn that many calories in an hour.

There are two things that might keep me back from being a regular after I’m done with my Groupon – 1.) THE SHOES. Omg. I cannot figure out how to get the cycling shoes on OR off the bike. In the past when I did cycling, I would just wear my tennis shoes. I really wish we could do that at this place. I don’t want to be the person who ALWAYS needs help with her shoes. It’s embarrassing!

2.) The price. $22 for a drop in class is the best option for me. I can go once a month if I want. Their packages involve too much commitment, and they are expensive.  I didn’t like how the woman at the front desk asked me whether I wanted to sign up for a package on the way out. Um, Hello?? I still have 3 classes left on my Groupon. Why would I sign up for a package now? Next time I will say I’m just doing drop-ins.

Overall, it was a really nice experience. But I hate the damn cycling shoes. Oh, I forgot to mention one thing I LOVE about these classes is that they also do strength training with weights during the cycling class! I’m so in love with this place.

The cycling place gave me a 2 for $35 sauna pass. I’m totally using that! Once I found out it can help with seasonal affective disorder, I was all in. It also has other benefits like pain and stress relief, burning up to 600 calories (just by sitting there!!!), and skin purification. I think I’m going on Wednesday morning for my first session. BUT I might have my period* and I also have nothing to wear. I own one bathing suit. I’ll see if I can find it. I barely have any shorts.

*My freaking OB/GYN gave me the birth control pills that give me a period about every 25 days. I could strangle her for that. So unnecessary. I will talk to her about it next time I’m there. Or maybe my period will disappear while I’m on BC like it does for some lucky women.

Screw the critics! You know what I’m going to talk about now. Like New Kids on the Block said, “Who gives a damn about what critics say”. Like I tweeted, the Justin Timberlake album is not bad. Yeah, that’s not glowing praise. To be blunt, the lyrics are bad overall. But the music is decent/good. I don’t think this is going to be album of the year material (I hope not!!!), but I enjoy it for what it is. Flannel is still my favorite song on the album.

After listening to the album, I think I would enjoy seeing him on tour. I bet the songs live will be so good. His band is awesome. But I’m not going because I booked my Getaway from DC. No more fun for me. I’m content with the plans I have. I think…

As far as his Super Bowl performance goes, it was very blah. Maybe he was trying too hard to be entertaining? All he had to do is what he does on tour. That’s it. I loved that he did Mirrors because that is one of the best pop songs ever. I’m just glad that the New England Patriots lost. I really hate them. 🙂

In case anyone missed my LA posts. Here are the links:

Gotta go. See ya later!

I can’t pretend anymore

I have a problem. Anyone reading this is probably saying, “no shit”. Anyway, at night time all of my anxiety goes away…unless people (or noise) is around. That sounds like a good thing, right? But a little anxiety is good for you. I participated in small business Saturday without meaning to. WTF was I thinking? I “only” spent $34 but that money could go to a lot of things.

At night, I’m free. I’m not as anxious about money as I am during the day. KEEP ME AWAY from online stores at night. I usually don’t have that problem because I’m not usually surfing the net at night. But when I do…trouble! Sigh. What did I buy? Knitting stuff, of course. Knitting is getting me into all sorts of trouble. I’d rather knit than study. I’m spending waaaaay too much money on it and I’m not even buying the expensive yarn.

I need an intervention but no one is going to do one. LOL. So I must do it myself. I just spend money and then feel guilty. 😦 I will stop because I do hate debt and I like having a savings…but sometimes when I make extra money, things get a little nuts. This knitting obsession has to go away eventually. ?? I don’t know. I feel like I have accomplished something when I knit (or read, or study or DO anything). But knitting can cost money. However, it does not have to be expensive. AT ALL.

With all this being said, I will post pics of my new stuff on the blog. Cause it pertains to knitting and I’m excited about it. I love this stuff…help me!

In knitting news, I finished my chunky scarf (yay!) and I made progress on my afghan. Pics coming later this week.


Spin class: I went back for the 3rd time. I’m finally getting the hang of it. Some of the instructor’s snarky comments are getting on my nerves though. Look woman, I’m new at this (and she knows this). You are an instructor. You are supposed to be excellent at it. BUT I’m trying this new thing of not giving a shit about what other people think or say. Step #1: Go to spin class. Do it wrong. Who cares? I’m still burning calories and sweating. That’s the point.  I’ve never even been on a real bike! Whatevs. Just keep spinning.


Missing Ohio State football player found dead. He committed suicide. He also had a history of concussions. Please consider not supporting football until the NFL and NCAA do the right thing. (I don’t even know what the right thing is at this point. Perhaps football is just too violent).


I meant to post the following in my last post but I could not find it. I was googling “Brian Williams”. His name is Benjamin Watson. Anyhow, this is almost exactly how I feel about Ferguson.

At some point while I was playing or preparing to play Monday Night Football, the news broke about the Ferguson Decision. After trying to figure out how I felt, I decided to write it down. Here are my thoughts:

I’M ANGRY because the stories of injustice that have been passed down for generations seem to be continuing before our very eyes.

I’M FRUSTRATED, because pop culture, music and movies glorify these types of police citizen altercations and promote an invincible attitude that continues to get young men killed in real life, away from safety movie sets and music studios.

I’M FEARFUL because in the back of my mind I know that although I’m a law abiding citizen I could still be looked upon as a “threat” to those who don’t know me. So I will continue to have to go the extra mile to earn the benefit of the doubt.

I’M EMBARRASSED because the looting, violent protests, and law breaking only confirm, and in the minds of many, validate, the stereotypes and thus the inferior treatment.

I’M SAD, because another young life was lost from his family, the racial divide has widened, a community is in shambles, accusations, insensitivity hurt and hatred are boiling over, and we may never know the truth about what happened that day.

I’M SYMPATHETIC, because I wasn’t there so I don’t know exactly what happened. Maybe Darren Wilson acted within his rights and duty as an officer of the law and killed Michael Brown in self defense like any of us would in the circumstance. Now he has to fear the backlash against himself and his loved ones when he was only doing his job. What a horrible thing to endure. OR maybe he provoked Michael and ignited the series of events that led to him eventually murdering the young man to prove a point.

I’M OFFENDED, because of the insulting comments I’ve seen that are not only insensitive but dismissive to the painful experiences of others.

I’M CONFUSED, because I don’t know why it’s so hard to obey a policeman. You will not win!!! And I don’t know why some policeman (sic) abuse their power. Power is a responsibility, not a weapon to brandish and lord over the populace.

I’M INTROSPECTIVE, because sometimes I want to take “our” side without looking at the facts in situations like these. Sometimes I feel like it’s us against them. Sometimes I’m just as prejudiced as people I point fingers at. And that’s not right. How can I look at white skin and make assumptions but not want assumptions made about me? That’s not right.

I’M HOPELESS, because I’ve lived long enough to expect things like this to continue to happen. I’m not surprised and at some point my little children are going to inherit the weight of being a minority and all that it entails.

I’M HOPEFUL, because I know that while we still have race issues in America, we enjoy a much different normal than those of our parents and grandparents. I see it in my personal relationships with teammates, friends and mentors. And it’s a beautiful thing.

I’M ENCOURAGED, because ultimately the problem is not a SKIN problem, it is a SIN problem. SIN is the reason we rebel against authority. SIN is the reason we abuse our authority. SIN is the reason we are racist, prejudiced and lie to cover for our own. SIN is the reason we riot, loot and burn. BUT I’M ENCOURAGED because God has provided a solution for sin through the his son Jesus and with it, a transformed heart and mind. One that’s capable of looking past the outward and seeing what’s truly important in every human being. The cure for the Michael Brown, Trayvon Martin, Tamir Rice and Eric Garner tragedies is not education or exposure. It’s the Gospel. So, finally, I’M ENCOURAGED because the Gospel gives mankind hope.

The only thing I don’t agree with is the whole last paragraph. I guess he is a Christian. But I thought I would post the whole thing. These are my last words on the issue. He said what I wanted to say much more eloquently.