No apologies

I made my last car payment today! AHHHHHH. I’m a pessimist (or a realist as I like to say) so I’m not really celebrating. But I can give a quiet “yay.”

No work for me today or tomorrow.  Today I went shopping for December 25th AKA gift exchange day. I’m done! I went to five stores. I never do that in one day. But I really wanted to get this out of the way. I usually shop online, but this year I did most of my shopping in person. The stores were sorta crowded for a Thursday morning and it is only December 1. Can you imagine how worse it will get? This is why I hate this time of year. I’m trying to get my basics and everyone is doing holiday shopping and crowding the damn stores.

I used to feel like I had to spend a lot for gift exchange day and therefore, I dreaded it. But now I just buy people what they ask for and not much more. LOL. It would be nice to just buy nothing, but I always relent. It’s fine because I don’t go all out or feel like I have to buy anyone something special.

All I’m getting for December 25th is ink pens and hopefully an ink pen case.  I would say that is all I want, but I would love planner stickers. Don’t laugh. But no one knows about the whole planner sticker thing, and I won’t even try to explain. SO I went to Michael’s today and purchased my own planner stickers. Three books worth (over 3,500 stickers!!) . They were on sale for 30% off. I figured everyone is getting what they want for Xmas, I can buy myself something too.

I’m not currently eating compulsively, but then I want to spend. It’s a no-win situation. I’m thankful for people who get it. No one’s perfect. I appreciate people with compassion and empathy. I think that is one of the reasons I like to listen to meetings with people who struggle with these things. No judgment (for the most part).

I’m down to 138.2 pounds 🙂  I hate going out like I did today. I was so tempted to grab a burger and fries. But my goal is to be healthy, and I can’t be healthy if I eat that junk weekly. I SURVIVED TODAY with no junk food. I did go to Starbucks to pick up a vanilla iced coffee. Unnecessary calories but I didn’t get a muffin like I normally would.

I’m feeling overwhelmed with my class. I had no idea the last few tests and quizzes are NOT multiple choice. I’ve been doing great on the multiple choice tests. Now they want me to fill in the blank. *SOB* This is going to be so hard. I’ve had a few “practices” with filling in the blank and I suck at it. I made a 65 on the last practicum.  I have to make at least a 70 on each test. Have to or I won’t be able to move on. No pressure there.

The final exam is multiple choice. It consists of 80 questions, and I have a 4-hour limit. I’m planning on taking it on December 24. I’m dropping my dog off at my mom’s even though he probably wouldn’t be a problem if I kept him. I don’t want to take any chances.

I forgot to mention that I picked up my professional photo. OMG. I love it. haha. I gave it to my mom. Thankfully she loves it too. Now I (we?) have to get it framed. I don’t want to deal with that, but I think she expects me to buy the frame. I don’t know anything about frames, but I’ll do it. I guess.

This week I…

Music of the week: Lissie, Miranda Lambert,  A Tribe Called Quest, JoJo, Kate Voegele, Tori Kelly, The Weeknd, Lauren Aquilina

JoJo is coming! JoJo is coming! And I might go see her…if her tickets are NOT general admission. I don’t do general admission concerts. I’m not a huge JoJo fan, but she’s coming here (no travel for me) and the tickets are only $30. That’s cheap for a concert. She’s not coming until April, but the tickets go on sale next week. I think there is a 50% chance I will try to get a ticket. I can’t make up my mind.

TV of the week: Gilmore Girls,  basketball

I know all the smart people love Gilmore Girls. But I think it’s a little too cutesy. I used to occasionally watch it while it was on, but I haven’t seen every episode, so I’m watching the old episodes now.

Movie of the week: none

Books of the week: still reading The Fire Next Time by James Baldwin and  The Binge Eating and Compulsive Eating Workbook by Carolyn Coker Ross

Just started The Universe Has Your Back by Gabrielle Bernstein.

Planner Update: Plans in my neutral Erin Condren planner –


Plans for the Weekend: Studying and taking a quiz and a test. I should have more work from my part-time job soon. I’m still waiting for the email. I’m getting paid $465 for November’s work. Not bad, but I wanted more. We ran out of work so I couldn’t make more. I’ve been enjoying my time off. Lots of dance parties. 😉

Tomorrow is clean up day. But my main priority is this class.  And hopefully I’ll get work, but I’m really enjoying the break.

Thanks for reading!!

Somebody once broke me

My official weight is 139.4. 😦 If I  When I start my new food plan tomorrow and stop compulsively eating; my weight will go down. I am exercising on most days. I average about 20 days out of the month. Yes, I could do better.

There is a 5% chance I might go to Vegas for my birthday instead of the state park. As you can see that is a very low percentage. I’m not counting on it. But I am thinking about it. I would only go so I can take my mom. My mom has never been out west so that would be fun. Last time I went by myself in October. It was so hot. What is May like there? It’s probably worse…right? ugh. I need to go during February.


I went to Bath and Body Works today (Black Friday). Instead of going to the “dead mall,” I decided to go to the outdoor mall near me. It wasn’t crowded at all. That was great because it gave me time to smell “new to me” scents. I’m not that familiar with Bath and Body Works fragrances. I didn’t go to the other mall because I didn’t want to be tempted by Victoria’s Secret. I could use a new bra or two.

Anyhow, the special was buy 3, get 3 free.  Here is what I purchased (all full sized) –

  • Warm Vanilla Sugar body lotion (for my mom’s bday or Xmas)
  • Japanese Cherry Blossom body lotion (definitely for me – my fave)
  • Moon Light Path body lotion (new to me. fell in love with in the store)
  • Moon Light Path shower gel
  • Hello Beautiful shower gel (new to me. I love floral scents. obvs).
  • Vanilla Bean Noel body lotion (smells SO good. want to keep but will give to my  mom for bday or Xmas)


They gave me a $10 off a $30 purchase coupon and I already have plans for that. I want a Vanilla Bean Noel lotion for myself (Why didn’t I purchase TWO? ugh!) . It looks like it is just around for Christmas so I will go back there soon and pick up a bottle along with other items once I know what I love.

This week I…

Music of the week: Miranda Lambert, Rihanna, Little Mix, Lori McKenna, Solange, A Tribe Called Quest, Bruno Mars, JoJo

I started working on my top 16 albums of 2016. I know thousands are waiting for this list. 😉 As of right now, I know what my #1 will be. But there might be one more release before the end of the year.

TV of the week: The Crown,  basketball

I’ve been watching a lot of basketball (mostly college) recently. But let’s talk about The Crown! No spoilers.  What a good series and a good history lesson. I don’t keep up with royalty…at all. I don’t watch the weddings or read the gossip or even look at pictures. This show taught me a lot. I had no idea the Queen had so much to do with the Prime Minister. Who knew??! This show is so interesting. It isn’t the best show ever, but it is good, and I would recommend it.

The only thing I did know is that the Queen loves corgis. As a corgi lover, I adore that. My last dog (RIP) was a corgi mix, and my current dog is a corgi mix. They are the sweetest dogs. I LOVE CORGIS.

Movie of the week: none

Book of the week: The Fire Next Time by James Baldwin is a quick read. I’m about 40% through it. I’ve wanted to read this book forever, and it was finally available as an ebook from my library. I know I’m late.

Also reading The Binge Eating and Compulsive Eating Workbook by Carolyn Coker Ross. I’m on the part about food plans. I’m going grocery shopping on Sunday, and I’m using this book as inspiration. I’m so glad this book was available at my library at the right time.

Planner Update: This week’s plans in my neutral Erin Condren planner:


Plans for the Weekend: Work. I’m glad to work this weekend because this will probably be my last weekend to work on this particular project. I thought it would last until mid-December. I read the numbers wrong. This is ending very soon, and now I’m worried I won’t be able to make as much money as I wanted. I just wanted to make at least $475 (like last month). But I’m not sure that is going to happen. My paycheck will be over $300 which is what I need, so I’ll be okay.

Other than that, I’m going to pick up my professional photo on Sunday. Nervous.

Have a nice weekend. 🙂

I keep the engine running

I’m thankful I don’t have to sit around a table and give thanks. HAHAHA. I’ve never been to a Thanksgiving dinner. Ever. I’m so thankful for that. ROFL. I crack myself up. 🙂

Anyway…Last year I read how Black Friday at the malls is mostly dead. Well, if that is true, isn’t that the perfect time for me to go to the mall? They still have deals. I’m thinking about it. I want to go to Bath & Bodyworks. My sister got me hooked on their Japenese Cherry Blossom lotion. That is now my fragrance. (I don’t wear perfume). So I want to try their shower gel while it will probably be on sale.

What if people are into shopping more this year than last? People keep saying Black Friday is dead. Well, that sounds good to me. Let me buy what no one wants. I would also go to Victoria’s Secret. I have nothing in mind I want to buy there, but if there is a sale, I’ll look around. That would probably be it for me. I would probably be too scared to go to J.C. Penny. Even at that dead mall, that store will have more people than usual on Black Friday. JCP will have bath towels on sale for $2.99! I want. 😉

Oh, and then there is Forever 21! Should I stop listing stores? I just want to look at their purses.  WTF is wrong with me? (don’t answer). For the record, I’ve never purchased a purse from F21, but I have drooled over one or two.

So I don’t know what I’m gonna do. I don’t think I’ve ever gone to a store on Black Friday. I’ve always been too scared of the crowds. I see nothing morally wrong with it since I don’t celebrate Thanksgiving and I think holidays are dumb. I hope most of the people working are making more than they usually make and maybe they want to get away from family??? That’s just me hoping.

Since I stopped therapy, I rarely leave the house these days. (sad, but true). So an outing to an unpopular mall sounds good. I can still work at my PT job before and after the mall. I’ll probably be gone for less than an hour. Yep, I think the mall and me have a date on Friday. I won’t spend more than $50.

I was going to do something stupid regarding food tonight. I didn’t do it. Good for me. I was so tempted.  Oh! I got the binge/compulsive eating workbook from the library. It is awesome so far. In fact, I’m going to get my journal and read the book right now. I’ll link the workbook in my next blog post.


Fall/winter ThredUp Haul

I was supposed to wait until September to do this fall/winter haul, but I saw some great deals and couldn’t resist. This is my best ThredUp haul to date. It takes a while to get used to the site, so the first few were only semi-good. I also get my Erin Condren planner on Wednesday. I will be unboxing all this on Snapchat on Wednesday or Thursday (kat3x5). hahaha.  To get $10 off your first ThredUp order, please consider using my link. Okay, here we go:

Brand/name: Liz & Co turtleneck sweater

Price: 9.49 (sale)


Brand/name: NY Collection sleeveless tank

Price: 7.99

(not exactly a winter item)


Brand/name: Forever 21 jeans (NWT)

Price: 7.49


Brand/name: Juicy Couture velour pants

Price: 4.49 (sale)


Brand/name: Tommy Hilfiger pullover sweater

Price: 3.99 (sale)


Brand/name: BeBe faux leather pants

Price: 27.99


Brand/name: Free People jeans

Price: 21.99


Brand/name: Lauren Jeans Co.

Price: 2.49 (sale)


Brand/name: Fenn Wright Mason wool cardigan

Price: 19.99 (sale)


Brand/name: Michael Kors jeans

Price: 18.99


Brand/name: Free People jeggings

Price: 17.99


Brand/name: Hot in Hollywood overalls ( NWT)

Price: 17.99


Brand/name: Papermoon cardigan

Price: 15.49


Brand/name: The Limited pullover sweater

Price: $14.99


Brand/name: Calvin Klein Jeans pullover sweater

Price: 10.49 (sale)


Brand/name: Old Navy sweatshirt

Price: 8.49


Brand/name: AB Studio top

Price: 7.49

(I already have this top in blue).


Brand/name: AB Studio top

Price: 4.99 (sale)


Brand/name: AB Studio sweater dress (NWT)

Price: 19.49


Brand/name: AB studio sweater dress

Price: 15.99



Brand/name: AB Studio sweater dress

Price: 15.99


I’m the most excited for the BeBe faux leather leggings. I got a chance to try a pair on, and I loved them. I rocked them. 😉 I love that they only have faux leather on the front so the pants won’t be too hot. So this is it. I’m not planning on ordering from ThredUp again for a couple of months. I just wanted to get fall and winter clothes.

ThredUp Haul #2

Here is my final (for a while) ThredUp haul. Get $10 off your first order by clicking on my referral link. The first part of my haul is here. And my LeTote giveaway is still going on. Check that out here.

Brand/name: Easy Spirit Wedges

Price: $19.49


Brand/name: Splendid cardigan

Price: 25.99


Brand/name: Cache cardigan

Price: 26.99


Brand/name: Talbots cardigan

Price: 16.49

I love this cardigan. Lightweight.


Brand/name: American Eagle Outfitters cardigan

Price: 10.49


Brand/name: Chelsea Suite dress

Price: 10.49

I don’t know why I couldn’t see this when I ordered it but it is a little too long. I like either maxi dresses or right above the knee.


Brand/name: Active by Old Navy t-shirt

Price: 9.99

So comfy.


Brand/Name: Calvin Klein jumpsuit (NWT)

Price: 22.49

If I remember correctly, this is too long. I probably have to wear my wedges with this. (I don’t do heels).


Brand/name: Adriano Goldschmied jeggings

Price: 25.99


Brand/name: Crocs wedges (NWT)

Price: 14.99

UGH! These are the wrong size. They are marked at least one size too small. No wonder the person got rid of them NWT. I thought I could stretch them, so I decided against returning them. I cut off the tag to walk around outside so I couldn’t return them. I donated these shoes to The Purple Heart.


Brand/name: Joe’s Jeans

Price: 32.99


Brand/name: Divided by H&M kimono

Price: 9.49


Brand/name: Dress Barn dress

Price: 15.49

This is gorgeous!


Brand/name: Merona maxi skirt

Price: 5.99


Brand/name:  Saint Tropez sleeveless blouse

Price: 13.99

In love with this.


Brand/name: Steve Madden tote

Price: 41.49

I love quilted bags.


Brand/name: Rebecca Minkoff Velvet Love Crossbody (NWT)

Price: 135.49

This bag might be NWT, but I can tell the person stored this for a while. IOW, she didn’t recently buy this bag.Who knows when she bought it. It is out of stock everywhere right now. Nothing is wrong with it, though. I need two pics for this beauty:



Brand/name: Dorothy Perkins 3/4 sleeve top

Price: 6.99


Brand/name: New York & Company blouse

Price: 4.99


Brand/name: Express blouse

Price: 14.49


Brand/name: New York & Company top

Price: 10.49


That’s the end!! I’ve officially built my wardrobe back. I moved around a lot and let other people keep my clothes. Who knows what happened to my things? I sure don’t have my stuff anymore.  It doesn’t matter now because now I have stuff that somewhat flatters my body and stuff I LOVE.

Trunk Club review (#1)

Trunk Club is a styling service for men and women. If you live near a Trunk Club office, you can go in person and get styled, or you can have the clothes delivered to you. I had the clothes delivered to me. They have offices in Chicago, Dallas, LA, NYC, and DC. I’m planning to go to their office in DC to get personally styled. But I want to have enough money to splurge, so that is on hold. You keep and pay for what you like and send the rest back (free shipping both ways). There isn’t a styling fee.  All of my clothes came from Nordstrom, but I think they can pull clothes from other places as well.

I asked for a low price point and a casual maxi dress or skirt. I also told her I work from home and that I dress conservatively. Here is what my stylist (Brooke) sent me:


Brand: Love, Fire

Cost: $52

Verdict:  I’m keeping this. I love maxi dresses, and this one fits. Love the color.


Brand: Splendid

Cost: $178

Verdict:  Sending back. Um, vertical stripes?? NO. I don’t like this dress at all. It’s a little too dressy and definitely too pricey.


Brand: Splendid

Cost: $68

Verdict: Sending back. Not my style and $68 for a t-shirt? It also hangs a little too low.


Brand: Caslon

Cost: $68

Verdict: Sending back. I was so excited to receive this, but the fabric is too thin. Not worth it.


Brand: Stem

Cost: $41 (on sale)

Verdict: Sending back. Way too long. I like it, but it drags on the floor.


Brand: Halogen

Cost: $68

Verdict: Keeping. I didn’t want to like this dress, but I do. I hate showing my legs, but I will wear pantyhose and a tall pair of boots. Winner.


Brand: Nordstrom

Cost: $28

Verdict: Sending back. Just a pair of simple leggings. Nothing special. See below.


Brand: Two by Vince Camuto

Cost: $49

Verdict: Sending back. I LOVE these, but they are too big. She sent a medium; I need a small. Maybe she will resend these to me? Or I may buy them straight from Nordstroms if my stylist isn’t responsive. They are so nice. They are called leggings but they are more like slacks. I don’t have a pair of black slacks.

Update: Brooke is sending me the above leggings in a size small. I’m not getting another trunk for now.

Overall, I’m pleased with the items. I’m only keeping 2 out of 7, but I liked 3 out of 7. One is a sizing issue. I hear they expect you to keep at least 1-2 items per trunk so not bad.


Most trunks come with 15 items, but since I asked for items below $75, she sent what she called a “small trunk.” I would NOT recommend going that low. I would ask for items below $125-$150 if I had to do it again. The stylist will tell you that Trunk Club is a premium clothing service and blah, blah. So don’t ask for clothes under $75 even though they do have clothes under that price point, they clearly don’t like being asked for that. (Not based only on my experience, but also reading the experience of others).

From all the research I’ve done, I feel confident Trunk Club is a good company. However, it is all about the stylist. There are a few bad apples out there. They don’t respond to emails or on the app. Brooke will call you as soon as you sign up. That’s what she did with me a few months ago. She responds quickly to messages and will treat you with respect. I recommend her. I haven’t heard one bad word about her.

I will update this post if Brooke decides to send a follow-up trunk like many stylists do.

I’m getting my first Stitch Fix on April 14th. I’m excited to try them. Their clothes cost less than Trunk Club.  I will do a short entry on SF when I get my first box. Thanks for reading!

I feel a surge coming over me

Warning: long entry

I haven’t had water for so long…I don’t even know how long it has been. ( 8 or 9 days?) I would love to be able to shower when I want. Or to be able to wash my food so I can cook it. I had to go to my mom’s house to shower today.  Forget water (not really), MY JURY DUTY WAS CANCELLED! Woohoo! It doesn’t mean it is over. I’m still on call until early March. I was thrilled to get that call…but I had to work on Thursday. LOL. I was actually looking a little forward to a 4 day vacay from work.  At least I’m off today. 3 day vacay!

I have an official name for my Etsy shop. I just added “Miss” to my dream title. It’s brilliant, I know. (sarcasm). I registered it. Now I just have to list stuff to sell. ha.

I got my $150 worth of stuff from Amazon.* In case anyone missed it: I won a gift card for that amount. I didn’t just buy this stuff with MY money. I love stuff but not this much. 😉 And the haters at work are gonna hate. WOW. Being a lucky bitch can bring out the worst in some people…or most people. Or ALL people. 😉

Back to the stuff. *I got most of my stuff. One of my packages is missing. Amazon split my order into 6 packages. (thx amazon!) UPS was not ready for the snow. They were understaffed. I had to go pick up my stuff because it was never going to come. I drove 25 minutes to get to the UPS center.  Most of my packages were in horrible shape BUT the stuff inside was  surprisingly okay. And my Pilot FriXion Erasable Gel Pens, 3-Pack are MIA. I’m not really worried about it. I will probably contact Amazon in a week and they will send me a replacement.  They have really good customer service or maybe UPS will get back on their feet and deliver my stuff but after hearing and seeing how chaotic everything is  there, I don’t think they are going to find that tiny package. The flimsy envelope (thanks again Amazon!) is probably sitting somewhere destroyed. And I bet someone just took the pens for themselves.

Picture time:

FIRST let me post what I brought today with my Macy’s Xmas gift card:

Nine West Hadley Tote
Nine West Hadley Tote

The black one looks so much better but I would have had to pay more out of my pocket. So I decided to go with the silver. I love silver….just not when it comes to bags. It is a Nine West bag. I used to be a loyal Nine West handbag person for YEARS. Then I started buying other brands.

Anyhow, this Hadley tote bag retails at $79. All the bags (except silver) are on sale today at Macy’s for $46. There was one silver left and it was cheaper than the black bags because someone returned it so I decided to go with it. I blame Organized Like Jen for me buying this bag. She recently posted about a big $150 Cuyana bag she brought and I had to have one like that after I saw hers.  So thanks Jen! 🙂 This bag is so large, I will only use it for getaways or when I have to have a bunch of stuff with me (like today).

Now onto Amazon’s things. Here is my new Epson XP-310 Wireless Color Photo Printer:

sleek looking printer
sleek looking printer

It is already being a pain in the ass. LOL. But I read the reviews first and I knew what would probably happen. I’m going to try to fix everything by tomorrow. At least the wireless is set up and it prints.

OMG. People were so right about Staedtler Triplus Fineliner Pens! They are awesome. I didn’t know what to expect. People raved about the Flair pens too but I’m going to give mine away in gift bags and RAKs (random acts of kindness).  The Flair pens are like markers. I don’t want to write with freaking markers in my planners or anywhere! But the Staedtler pens – drool. I’m thinking about asking for the 20 pack for my birthday. How nerdy is that? Try the Staedtler pens. You won’t reget it.

I can’t say enough good things about Project Life Kit, Mini, Gold Foil. I didn’t think I liked gold until I saw this:

Heidi Swapp gold kit
Heidi Swapp gold kit

I’m going to play around with this tonight and make some stuff for my planners. There are duplicates so I will give some of this kit away in RAKs.

What else can I blab about? One last thing. No picture for this. Omron HJ-203 Pedometer with Activity Tracker I will be using this everyday starting tomorrow. I need some motivation since it is so cold so I’m hoping this will help. I can’t wait until March/April when I can take my dog to the park during my lunch break (once a week).

Should I add “weekly” to this entry? This is the longest. entry. evah. I have to end the week this way…since I watched TWO movies this week. Yes, I have turned into a cinephile. No, not really.

This Week I…

Music for the week:  Imagine Dragons, Sam Smith, Carrie Underwood, Paloma Faith, Brandy Clark, Fifth Harmony, Whitney Houston, Butterfly Boucher

This entry is too long for me to go on about how good the new Imagine Dragons album is. (full of angst!)

TV for the week: My 6oo lb life, basketball

I’m watching a NBA game right now and that is why it took so, so, so long for me to type out this entry. side tracked.

Movies of the week: I wasn’t that impressed with In Your Eyes. I thought it was going to be more sci-fi instead it was more romantic comedy. I give it 3.5 stars out of 5. I only watched Labor Day because I really like Kate Winslet. What a surprise. It is a good movie. I enjoyed it more than most people who rated it. It probably is because of Kate. I only took forever to watch it because the reviews weren’t that good. 4 out of 5 stars. Now I want to read the book.

Books of the week: Get Rich, Lucky Bitch!: Release Your Money Blocks and Live a First Class Life by Denise Thomas – on page 241. Almost done. This book is probably too woo-woo for most people. I’ll do a review once I’m done.

Knitting Projects of the week: I only knitted one day this week – today while I was waiting for my oil to be changed. I worked on my purple cowl.

This is my longest entry ever! I think. Does it count as an entry if no one reads it? Does this count as a blog if no one reads it? ROFL. 😉 😉 😉 Now I can watch basketball with all my attention. Go Wizards!