What if I’ve always been good enough?

I’m not a Fergie fanatic. I don’t keep up with her.  She can sing, and I like one of her solo songs. I like her songs with Wild Orchid better. I didn’t think her rendition of the National Anthem was terrible. It was DIFFERENT. Gasp! How dare she sing a jazzy version of the Anthem? (It has been done before, btw). I liked it. Whatever. I feel like I’m living on a different planet for liking it. I didn’t love it, but it was decent. Geez. Why all the bashing and hate? Because that is how people are. 

I got my Fitbit…on a Sunday. Thank you, USPS. They did something right. The Fitbit gods knew how much I wanted my Fitbit and now I have it. Of course, I love having a Fitbit again and blah, blah. BUT the app doesn’t work with my phone. I’m using the app on my laptop which isn’t convenient at all. If I want to see my stats on the go, I can’t because I don’t carry my laptop around.  I rarely travel with my laptop. In fact, I try not to use my laptop much at all. (I want it to last as long as possible). A lot of people on the Fitbit discussion board returned it when they found out it didn’t work with their Samsung Galaxy J7.

I’m keeping my Fitbit Flex until I can get something with a screen. I’m not going to run out and buy one now because I just bought this. Another thing I don’t like about it is the charging situation. Unless I’m staying in a hotel like the one in LA with USB ports, I won’t have a way to charge my Fitbit on longer trips. The hotels at the beach I go to do not have USB ports for charging. The state park I often go to definitely doesn’t have USB ports. But other than these two things, I love my Fitbit. 😉

In case anyone is wondering, I don’t really like the Samsung Galaxy J7, but I refuse to pay a lot for a phone. I never have. But maybe I should? The phone runs kind of slow even though I have an SD card and put as much as possible on it instead of putting it on the phone itself.  I would love a phone with a better camera. And I  would love more space because most of the apps can’t be installed on an SD card. I love my apps, and unfortunately, I’ve had to delete a bunch of them recently due to lack of space. I just deleted Uber on Sunday even though I didn’t want to in case Lyft isn’t available. Not that I use car services a lot, but anything could happen.

I went to my second cycling class on Sunday. I wasn’t the worst in the class the whole time! I was only the worst for 55 minutes out of 60. LOL. I suck. I think I don’t have the right form for cycling. Maybe it is because I’ve never been on a real bike before? I only burned 259 calories. The average is probably about 500 calories. This seals it. I’m not paying for cycling classes. But I do have 2 more classes left on my Groupon, so I am going two more times.

The sauna was good, but not as great as last time because I was worried about my Fitbit. I know that’s lame. :/ But I got a text saying it had been delivered right before I got into the building and then I texted my mom to see if it was at her house. She said no. Sigh. So half of the time in the sauna, I was worried about my package. Did it get delivered to the wrong address? Etc. Anyway, it was there. The mail carrier did a good job by hiding it.

I think I’m going to plan on buying a package for the sauna only during the winter. That’s when I need the sauna. It’s pretty much spring here, so I don’t feel like I need it until next January/February. I really love meditating in the sauna. There’s nothing like it.

Work and training are kicking my ass! Today is only my second day of training. I’m just hoping for the best. People that said, “Act like you are starting a new job when you start training” weren’t lying. AHHHHH.

I hope I get to the park today. It will be near 80 degrees. I have to work overtime so I won’t be able to go to the park until near 4PM. Um, even the thought of how crowded the park will be makes me nervous. Gotta go get my brain ready for this long day. 🙂

Update: The park was excellent today. We (my dog and I) arrived around 3:45 and stayed for 35 minutes. We barely saw any dogs OR people. When I think it’s going to be a nightmare, it’s not. I need to stop trying to predict how many people will be at the park. I’m almost always wrong. I’m such a control freak. Anyway, tomorrow I have to work “late” too so I’ll probably go to the park at the same time. Watch tomorrow will be a total nightmare! Hahaha. I can’t stop trying to predict and control.

Don’t go knockin’ on my door

This guy on Instagram is annoying me. He has been DMing me with heart emojis. He wants to “get to know me better.” Please. Go away. Should I just tell him I’m asexual? That would be the truth.  I’ve been ignoring him. This isn’t the first time this has happened. If this happens to me, I’m sure pretty girls get all kind of advances on social media. That must be irritating.

Yes, I’m on social media. But I have NO DESIRE TO BE SOCIAL. It’s not my fault they call it social media. Stupid name. I just want to share pics once a week. I don’t care about likes or whatever. I’m just sharing. Like I’m sharing here. Is this social media too? Why does everything have to be social? Ugh.

I was supposed to start this entry off with my first sauna experience. It was divine! I was in a private room. All the rooms are private, but you can bring people with you if you want. People said they take their Kindles with them in the sauna, so I thought, “Why not take mine in the sauna with me?” I didn’t need it. I meditated and did breath work for the whole 40 minutes!

I could get used to this. 😉 What do I do? Cycling class or go to the sauna? Cycling is a little cheaper, and I like the feeling of working out. Hmmm. I dunno. Just due to me being able to easily meditate, it makes me want to choose the sauna. I have to use my 2nd sauna session within the next two weeks, or I lose it. I will definitely use it. I found my bathing suit. I had it on completely in the beginning, but it got so hot (it was about 130 degrees!), I took my top off. TMI? LOL.

I might go next time after I go to cycling class. I hear going to a sauna is great after a workout. The woman asked me if I sweated and I said kind of incredulously, “YES!” She said that some people don’t sweat their first time which shocks me. I have never sweated that much not even in cycling class. It’s 130+ degrees. How can people not sweat? Interesting how the body works.

My paycheck is $25 more due to the tax reform bill that recently passed. I’m not convinced that I won’t have to pay more in taxes when my taxes are due in 2019. But I’ll take the extra money for now. I really need it. AND my 401k repayment loan also just ended. So overall, my paycheck is $72 more. Thank God.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8): Justin Timberlake, Kesha, Shania Twain, Anna Nalick, Demi Lovato, Taylor Swift, Camilla Cabello, Paramore

TV of the week: Celebrity BB, PLL, Olympics, basketball

Should I boycott the Olympics? How much did they know? Who knew? Did everyone know? If they did, I believe the Olympics should be boycotted. Larry Nassar’s crimes disgusted me. I tried not to keep up with too much of it so now I don’t know whether I should boycott. I need to read more about it. I’m pleading ignorance for now.

Movie of the week: none

Podcasts of the week: Joel Osteen, The Lively Show, All In With Chris Hayes, True Crime Garage, Fresh Air

Books of the week: I finished The Four Tendencies: The Indispensable Personality Profiles That Reveal How to Make Your Life Better (and Other People’s Lives Better Too) by Gretchen Rubin. 4 stars. I did NOT finish Fire and Fury: Inside the Trump White House by Micahel Wolff. It was too much talk of his staff and Russia. You know how I feel about Russia.

Now reading –

Recently I’ve been having a hard time focusing on leisurely reading. That’s why I wanted to take my Kindle into the sauna room. I thought I would make a big dent in my reading. I’m going to have to force myself to read before I get tired and I should stop reading in bed. It makes me fall asleep.

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren planner –



Plans for the Weekend: I’m dropping off my taxes this weekend. I hope I get a nice refund. Please. 😉 I’m also finally taking my test. And that’s about it. I’m enjoying my 3 days off from work. Training starts on February 19. I wish it were starting next week, but I can’t control that. I’m glad I checked my work emails this morning. If I hadn’t, I would have missed an opportunity to sign up for overtime for this whole month! I said I wasn’t going to check my emails because off from work means no work. Anyway, I was able to sign up, and now I’m working OT almost every day after the 17th. I so need the extra money. I don’t know when I will have part-time work.

Thanks so much for reading. Have a marvelous weekend! 🙂