I can’t resist it no more

I dreamed about Tillerson and Trump in two separate dreams! I’m not even watching the news much right now so that can’t be the reason. I’m watching basketball and occasionally reading the newspaper. I had a one on one dealing with Trump, and I think I was watching Tillerson give a speech. Wierd.

I took my dog to the vet on Friday and I was reading Add More Ing to Your Life: A Hip Guide to Happiness by Gabrielle Bernstein. I was reading the 3D version, not the ebook. The receptionist asked me what I was reading.

ARGH. I hate that question for so many reasons. I feel like other readers should get it. Maybe it depends on what kind of books the person reads? I’m beginning to think this is the case. What if I were reading a book called “How to have sex for the first time in your 30s”. Or something like that. lol. Who would want to admit to reading that? STOP asking people what they are reading. It could be personal. I understand if the person is your best friend. That’s different. But asking a stranger what they are reading? WTF??

I just said “a self-help book” because I have the inability to lie (unless my life is on the line). I wasn’t going to say “Add More Ing to Your Life” because what the fuck does even mean to 95% of people? haha. No one would get that.

This is why I was so glad when Kindles came out. People could no longer tell what you were reading. AND people do lots of things on Kindles/phones/iPads so who even knows if you are actually reading.  No one asks anymore. I love this. Too bad I’m reading a lot of “real” books right now.

Sorry, just a little rant. This experience just brought back all the memories of people asking me what I was reading a decade ago. Hated it then and I still hate it now.

I’m about to do something crazy! Totally nuts. I’m getting out of my comfort zone and I’m….growing sunflowers! hahaha. 😉 Blame Gabby Bernstein. Everything I do these days is her fault. She’s the one to blame for me wanting to get back to yoga at a yoga studio. I’m waiting for my period to be almost completely over (forever) before I start yoga, btw.

Back to the sunflowers: I LOVE gardening, but I’m not that great at it. I have only grown cucumbers in the past. The problem now is that I have deer in my yard. I just saw 3 deer in my front yard a week ago. Unfortunately, they will eat my sunflowers. 😦 I’m not going to cover up the plants or do anything special. I’m just going to go for it and see what happens. Maybe I will get lucky. I’ve been wanting to grow sunflowers for years.

I’m going to plant regular sunflowers directly in the ground. I’m also ordering some miniature sunflowers to plant in containers to put on my front porch.  I’m excited to do this. I hope no animals attack them. I know it sounds like I live in the wild. I live in the suburbs, but it is very secluded, and I live in a forest like area.

I’ll post pics of the sunflowers I order, once I order them. I could order them now, but I’m trying to be financially responsible.

video games

Wow, my last post was my 500th post! In other news regarding me, 😉 I am happy to report I will be doing something fun on my summer vacation. I will be going to my favorite spot: the beach! I have 3 days off for my birthday. I will stay at the beach for two nights and 3 days. So excited. In the back of my mind I’m thinking I should be saving all my money for school and fixing up my house. But most of the serene moments I’ve had, have been at the beach. I have to go this year.

Sad news: My Kindle Keyboard has a new crack on the border (versus on the screen). I don’t think it will get any bigger or that it means anything but my kindle is hurt. 😦 I sleep with both Kindles. NO WE HAVEN’T HAD SEX. We just cuddle. Anyway, sometimes I forget to put the screen down on my KK. I guess that is what made a small crack in the screen. I just feel so negligent. I suck.

It has been less than 30 days since I’ve had the Kindle Fire and I already feel like I’ve gotten my money’s worth. Everything else is a bonus. I’m going to do a mini review of the best Fire apps one day. My favorite new thing is playing Scrabble against the computer. I didn’t think I would even use the app since I have the game on my computer. Everything is more fun on the Fire.


I listened to Rachel Maddow’s Fresh Air interview. (It is probably on npr.org and iTunes) First I must say that I love that she has a new book out because she is doing so much press! Yes, I’m a big fan. I wish I could go to one of her book signings. I would just faint…Anyway, Rachel talked about having depression. I can’t imagine doing what she does every night and dealing with that. She said she is a highly functioning depressive.

I’m a moderately functioning depressive. I’ve read about people who literally cannot get out of bed so I know I must be at least moderately functioning. What really resonated with me is her inability to concentrate when she is going through a cycle of depression. She has to read books in one day for her job. When she is depressed, she can’t do that. That is the story of my life right now. I love to read but my lack of concentration makes me sad. 😦 It takes me forever to read these days. I’ve read a lot since I’ve had my KK and thank Buddha for that. Without it, I think I would have given up reading a variety of topics. I would only read the books that really interest me (narrow selection).

I must admit that I enjoy hoarding collecting books more than I do reading the actual books. Concentrating is so hard. I end up getting frustrated. Another plus of the KK is that it can read to you! So while I’m working sometimes I will have that feature on. Of course I like to collect/highlight quotes so I try not to do that with nonfiction books.


One more thing before I go: I would like to thank the kids next door for constantly bouncing that basketball. It reminds me that I cannot take a chance and buy something in the city. Who knows what I will get? music, nonstop barking dogs, bouncing balls etc. Thank you. Thank you. Country, here I come. And here I thought I was a city girl. How things change…..

Another world

Since I received my Kindle something strange has happened. I’m reading again! Well I never really stopped but I have read THREE books in 2012….so far.  I haven’t read that much since high school. I love the comfort of being still and just holding the Kindle with one hand. So relaxing. Also it is easier to read anytime, anywhere. Love it. Love it. Love it.

The only thing I don’t like is the non-renewal of library books. Okay fine don’t let us renew but can we keep the book for 21 days instead of 14? The problem is with the “holds”. I already had a book checked out and then a popular book that I had a hold on became available last night so I had to grab it…or risk not getting it for a while. So now I have to read two books in 14 days. That doesn’t seem like a bad problem to have. But I really hate starting a book and not being able to finish. So I will be doing a lot of reading for the next two weeks.

When school starts back up (in Mid-May) I know I won’t read for enjoyment as much. I already have it planned out how I will use my Kindle as a study aid. I will type my notes (as I always do) and then place the notes on my kindle so I can study anywhere. So I better enjoying my  leisure reading now. It won’t last.

To reiterate – I love how I read like I’m a teenager again. You know how you feel a hobby isn’t what it used to be? That is how I felt with reading. I never stopped loving it but I would do other things (like surf the net) over reading.


AVON (All I have been doing is cleaning my house, working, reading and Avon). So I met with the woman I mentioned in my  last entry, OMG. She put the F in friendly.Needless to say that I didn’t match up to her. I’m sure I came off standoffish. SIGH.

I was tired from working all day and in shock when she asked me to sit down. I had no idea we were going to uh, TALK. I just thought I would hand her the brochure and leave. Well no. She was so excited. Don’t get me wrong, I loooooove seeing people passionate about something…even Avon. It makes me happy. But I was so  not prepared for her. 😉

I don’t know if she will order. She wanted one of  everything. So she may…Of course I may have turned off with my “shyness”. Then came the questions:

Are you married?

Do you have a boyfriend?

Do you go out? (to clubs, I guess)

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! no. no and no. Dear god, please don’t make me talk about that. I have no desire to do any of those things. I’m in love with music, sports (sometimes) and my Kindle. That is all I need.

She was watching Kim and  Koutney Take New York which gave her extra points in my book. 🙂 That reminds me that I am at  least two episodes behind. I need to catch the marathon at the right time.

If she orders, I will be shocked. She seems really interested in selling. I wouldn’t mind getting her set up with that.

I have two consistent customers. One spends about $200 a month on Avon. The other anywhere from $10 – $20 a month. I’m fine with that.

So this pretty much covers what I have been doing. Oh yeah, tonight I may cook chicken parmarsen again, using the same recipe. I do want to try different things but I really love how it came out so why not do it at least once more?