Fuck ’em all

I’m not specifically talking about Joe, Kamala, and Bernie but yeah, fuck them too!

I hope everyone’s day is going great because mine isn’t due to some motherfuckers. I know people are dying. Uh, there’s homelessness. People are in cages or centers. In other words, all the usual shit is going on. But’s lets talk about me without really getting into it because I’m too pissed and I have shit to do.

Scorpio Kate would say, don’t complain. However, I know she complains TO HER FRIENDS. Well, I don’t have any friends. Not a complaint. Just stating what some may not know. So yes, I’m going to rant here, Kate…if that’s okay with you.

I have shit to do, and certain people don’t get. I got two sales in the last 24 hours. Glad, I already fulfilled one. Because lord knows when I would have time to do both. I still have to fulfill the other order. Guess I’ll do that tonight even if I lose sleep. Who cares about what I have to do? Always complaining about what YOU have to do. I never talk about all the shit I’m doing. Hint: It’s WAAAAAY more than her.

I work 45+ hours a week, have 2 astrology classes I’m trying to complete, and an online course I need to create by September. I don’t have time to bend to your whims. I don’t have time to explain more. Basically FUCK PEOPLE. I might use this an excuse to book a Getaway. It would be dumb due to finances…pointless to talk about since I can’t pay.

Nope, I shouldn’t have to leave because these fuckers don’t know anything about boundaries.

Fuck them. I have an order to fulfill. No time to fully rant.

I do my own flavor

COUNTDOWN: 3 days until my birthday beach vacation!!

But first, I have so many people I want to go off on. FUCKING JERKS. I’ll be over this in an hour or less. When someone helps you and they show no concern when you have a problem…what a bitch! Bitch is too nice of a word, but it seems appropriate in this case. Sigh. Don’t respond “OK” to a text message, bitch when someone specifically asks for help. I never wanted to call someone the C word before, but that’s how I feel about her right now. Vile, disgusting prick. What a &^%. No wonder you are where you are. I totally get it now.

I was so angry when I first type the above paragraph. But I tapped on it. I never use EFT on anger, because I’m rarely that angry. It worked. I might tap on it again before I go to bed though. I want a clear mind.

Number 2 pales so much in comparison. It’s just a pet peeve. Stop with this, “Spending $5.00 on a cup of coffee a day BS”. People in my family – I can give names and addresses if you like – can’t afford to buy coffee from Starbucks every day. That whole stereotype is reserved for middle-class people who call themselves poor. SO annoying and insulting to poor people in America. Some poor people live in houses, some are homeless. Do middle-class people even know this? They act like no one is REALLY broke. Just because all the people in your nondiverse friend group can afford coffee, doesn’t mean everyone can.

And some people go around saying “I grew up poor” and then you find out both of their parents had decent jobs. No, they weren’t rich, but they had a household income of at least $60,000 a year. That’s not poor. I don’t care if you grew up in San Fran. HAHA. I grew up poor for 10 years of my childhood. I can tell you what poor is. My mom and her 7 siblings slept in a car (not their whole childhood), they can tell you what poor REALLY is. Stop lying. Stop pretending. Stop romanticizing being poor. You didn’t grow up poor. You don’t have any poor friends. That’s why you think EVERYONE can afford a $5 cup of coffee.

/end rant

Look at how different things would be if Stacey Abrams had won in Georgia. No heartbeat abortion bill. But voting doesn’t matter. :/ Anyway, she should run for president. I’ve studied her. I know her record. Someone called her unremarkable. LOL. Do they know what she’s accomplished? She couldn’t do much with all the Republicans in Georgia, but she has a decent resume. Obviously, I want to vote for her. I read about 6 weeks ago that she was going to make a decision in September. Um, nope! She has to be at the debate in June. I know she does her own thing, but I hope she doesn’t wait.

I don’t know what happened with Sandra Bland. Only a few people really know. I was always 50/50 on whether she committed suicide. People are always saying things like, “She had no reason to kill herself. She had a new job”. Or the person was a happy person. He/she would never kill herself. I get why the family and friends would say that. But people (especially strangers) that say things like that clearly know nothing about suicide. Only a low percentage of suicidal people tell people. Was she depressed and being wrongly held in jail the last straw? It’s possible.

I’ve read a lot of books on cops doing bad things. I haven’t trusted the police or prosecutors Kamala Harris since I started following the legal system. Yes, I do believe the officer (officers?) could have killed her. How sad. It’s sad either way. The family took a 2 million dollar settlement so some things might can’t be legally looked into. I don’t blame the family for taking the settlement. I would have too because how many times do cops get punished?

Weird transition. Um, my beach trip? The weather is supposed to be beautiful. No rain and 80 degrees. Not too hot. Yay. I’m worried about my dog though. It’s a large hotel with about 14 floors. We have a balcony. I usually spend my time when not on the beach on the balcony, but what happens if he hears a dog bark? The horror. He will go off. I’m hoping there aren’t a lot of dogs there. Will he behave on the balcony? I will have him on a leash while he is on the balcony. We have to take the elevator unless we are on one of the lower levels. My dog might go insane. He might bark at strangers…on a tiny elevator. F^5$#.

Speaking of my dog. He is definitely loyal. On Tuesday, two people were walking as my dog, and I were trying to get back home from our daily lunch walk. The guy started talking about my “long legs.” FUCK YOU. No, I didn’t say that. I don’t call people trash. I don’t even think about calling people trash, but now I believe that people that “street harass” people are pretty much trash. Oh, what did my dog do? He went nuts after they kept on talking. LOL. He started barking at them (a man and a woman) and running towards them! Then the guy said something about my dog acting crazy or something.

Yes, I do have long legs. I’m 5’6″ with extremely long legs. Haha. Teachers would tell me that I should be a model! Yes, teachers. You know kids would never say something that could be perceived as friendly. Not that I want to be a model. I think fame sucks in general, but I have always felt worse for the models. Long story. Anyway, I don’t appreciate being talked about. TRASH. Like I said on twitter, no touching, no talking, no whistling, etc. What type of people talk about other people’s bodies within hearing distance? TRASH. People not worth my time.

Election 2020: Wow, Marianne has enough people to support her to participate in the debate. The CNN townhall really helped her. BUT they are going to keep changing the rules because 20+ people are running. So Marianne still might not make it. She’s going to be in DC this weekend. I was going to go, but I have to get ready for my trip. I’ve already seen her live once. And I got a picture with her, and she signed my book! Totally rad. 🙂

Re: Stacey Abrams again. It probably would be better if she and others ran for the Senate. She has a better chance of winning the Senate than winning the presidency. What if all these peeps running for president totally fuck up the Senate? Not that the Dems will take over the Senate anyway. But now they will probably have no chance. Bummer. :/

I’m still watching hardly any news, but I did see an hour or two earlier this week and, all they talked about was how Pete Buttigieg is having a hard time connecting with blacks. I read he was begging the white audience in South Carolina to bring black people. If the majority of blacks are in bed with Biden (HOPE NOT), then everyone else will have a hard time. I read one poll that said older black women really like Biden. That’s all I know. The black women on Twitter know better though. LOL. I’ve been reading some of those tweets and loving them. 😉

This week I…

Music of the week: Tori Kelly, Marren Morris, Aretha Franklin, Ariana Grande, Maggie Rogers, Kesha, Rachel Platten, Kesha

TV of the week:  NBA Playoffs, How to Get Away With Murder, Vanderpump Rules

I’m watching the Rockets vs. Warriors. I feel bad rooting for the Warriors because I almost always root for the underdog. I don’t like either team. I don’t hate them either so…whatevs? If the Rockets win, they’ll be a game 7. So I guess I’m rooting for the Rockets tonight. I can’t wait until my teams do well enough to get to the playoffs (Lakers and Wizards).

Movie of the week: Knock Down the House. It’s a political documentary. It features Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez and 2-3 other women running for the House. It was good. I recommend it to news junkies and recovering news junkies like myself. The way people talked about it, I thought it was only about AOC.

Podcasts of the week:  Pod Save America, True Crime Garage, Fresh Air, The Lowe Post

Books of the week: Now reading – 

Weekend Plans: I got my Hello Fresh meals. I will probably cook the burgers and broccoli this weekend. I might cook the meatloaf and take it with me on the trip. Not sure. I’m working tomorrow and then I have a Skype meeting with S for a tarot class. I guess I should prepare for that tonight. Feeling a little overwhelmed with all I have to do. But I have 75% of my stuff packed.

What else? I’m getting my oil changed on Monday. Then I’m supposed to have a 2-3 hour (!!!) astrology reading, but I haven’t heard back from him in 3 weeks. I’ll email him tonight. I have no idea how organized he is. He seems so laid back. I was shocked to find out he is an Aries. He seems like a Pisces. After the reading, I’m taking my mom out to eat for Mother’s Day. Between my birthday and that, I might gain 3 pounds. I hope not. :/

Thanks for reading. I always feel like I’m leaving a bunch out. LOL. I just had therapy and I can’t even mention it due to the length of this post. I know my entries are long. Maybe I will blog twice a week? Not sure. I know I won’t commit to it. I might do a short blog during my vacation. Anyway, have a great weekend. And enjoy my birthday. ROFL. 🙂 🙂

Head in the clouds

WARNING: Radical opinion alert

I think people who want to become parents should have to have a home study or become certified. That would lower the birth rate. No doubt. People act like it is their right to have kids. Where does that come from? Parenting is serious shit and people just do it like it’s nothing. Does this not blow anyone else’s mind?

Do people not read about child abuse cases? I read them almost every single day. What about the recent case where the toddler thought her name was “idiot” because that’s what her mom’s boyfriend called her? And what about cases where the kid dies? And people think EVERYONE should have kids. Dumb opinion. Yeah, I said it.

I’m not only talking about extreme situations. I know lots of people who should have never had kids. A home study or certification would have taken care of that. I was going to say I wouldn’t have been born if strict laws were in place, but my parents probably would have passed. You can’t catch everything.

What was wrong with one of my parents (won’t say which one – I feel bad), probably wouldn’t have been caught. But today this parent fully admits to doing things that he or she knows would ruin my life. This person is beyond clueless. I’m trying to be nice. 😉  This person is selfish when it comes to money…and I’ll stop. No need to list everything this person has done, but it’s bad.

I had to get this out. I’m sick of human beings acting like they are entitled to have kids. We aren’t entitled to jobs or health care, but entitled to kids? HUH? They do it without even THINKING about it. I think everyone knows someone who has said, “I didn’t think about it (having kids), I just did it.” I know people who have said that to me and I don’t talk to a lot of people.

That’s scary. Buddha or whoever, please help people. Obviously, this makes me angry. I shouldn’t blog about it, but I see so much ignorance on this topic. People are saying everyone should have kids when they know that’s not true.

Forget changing the ‘justice’ system. If I could change one thing, I might change the way we do parenting in the United States. But I know this will never happen because of people’s entitlement issues regarding parenting.

I got most of it out. Every few years, I have to blast parents.Nothing is changing. It might be getting worse, and I feel like no one is doing anything. I’m not really expecting laws to be put in place. That’s absurd. But if people could at least think about parenting in a different way, I think the world would be a better place for our kids.

I wanted to do another rant about Obama and his drone strikes, but this doesn’t feel like the place or time for it. I need to have a more informed opinion about it. All I know is that he approves drone strikes, and that’s bad. Horrible. Hillary and Trump would probably continue the drone strikes. Ugh! And I’m going off on a tangent…

Three posts in 3 days. Go me. I’m on a roll. Pissing people off…one post at a time. Um, that’s not my intention. I just have strange opinions. Apparently.

may never be what you assume

I got the apprenticeship removed from my title! Finally! I haven’t been this happy in weeks. 🙂 All of that work and money counted for something. I can erase that “A” off my resume.

I’m sick of talking to people who have NO CLUE how to get a job. They don’t understand that experience is required most of the time. And when experience isn’t required, they get hundreds of applicants.

Don’t know someone? Harder to get a job.

Have social anxiety? Harder to get a job.

I could go on…

DON’T PRETEND LIKE THIS SHIT IS EASY. How lucky are these people who have no idea how hard it is to get a job? Do they know how lucky they are? Geez. Count your blessings and stop telling ME how to get a job. It isn’t the same. Go back to la la land where everything is easy.

Sorry. I’m ranting again, but I swear I’m happy about finally getting someone to listen about how I met the requirements for my certification. Yes! They kept telling me I wasn’t qualified. I wanted to read their website to them.

I spent a couple of hours this afternoon working on my cover letter/resume for a temp agency (for part-time work). I have never done a cover letter for a temp agency. I think my letter could be better, but I really want to get this out tomorrow. Hopefully, I will get a call back by Friday.

Oh god. This morning I had $19.44 in my bank account. Good times. I have to get a PT job. Sigh. I’m going to read and watch the Olympics* before heading to bed. Or I might have a dance party. I’ve been doing a lot of dancing lately.

*Go Michael Phelps (Baltimore, baby!!)

I have to go to the bank tomorrow, and then I have a therapy appointment. My therapist is one of those people who is so CLUELESS when it comes to looking for a job. I would kill to be that clueless.

People who need people

I hate people. I like people who get that statement. Those are my people. I donate to human charities (although last year I probably donated to animal charities more). I care about people. Is that not obvious? Probably not. LOL. I care about people in general. I just don’t want anything to do with them on a daily basis. Once again, my peeps get this.

I don’t go around with hate in my heart. I hope I’m making sense, but some people will never get it.

PEOPLE SUCK!

Telling me that the whole family got together and didn’t invite me doesn’t hurt me*. I’m not that kind of person. There are other ways to hurt me, of course. But being around other people is my hell. A person bragging about their dating life and expecting me to be jealous?? ROFL. They don’t know me. Having a roommate? Sounds like hell to me. Marriage? Sounds like hell to me.

*That did happen. A gathering? Fucking hell!!

When I want to go somewhere, and I don’t have transportation, I call an Uber or use public transportation. I don’t expect Joe to pick me up. When I want things done, I do it myself, OR more often I pay someone to do it. Since I’m not rich, that means a lot of things don’t get done. But I pride myself on not bugging other people.  I wish this were everybody’s definition of pride. That would be nice.

Entitled jerks.

I don’t care what people do when it comes to most things UNLESS it is bothering other people. The neighbor vacuuming at 2 AM? Burn in hell! That happened too. This is part of the reason why I can’t live in apartments anymore.  People suck. This is what I mean. UGH.

/end rant

I should be in a good mood. I’m only working three days (2 more to go) this week. March Madness is here. I’m going to the park with my dog for the first time in months on Thursday. etc. But people won’t leave me the hell alone. Other than that, things are okay. 😉 P.S. I’m going to document my day at the park on Snapchat (username Kat3x5). I might post some pics on Instagram too, but not as many (same username).

I’m going to have a productive and somewhat healthy week (still eating ramen noodles).

I’ve done all my duties, so I’m going to relax and read. I’m reading a 600-page book and it just got interesting on page 90. I don’t think I will be able to finish it before the due date. I hate when that happens. Slow reads.

Some days you gotta dance

What happened to poor Rubio during the debate last night? I guess Chris Christie was right about him. He blew it. I was rooting for him to come in second in New Hampshire. Now that probably won’t happen. I think Christie rattled him. I like Christie (say what??!), but he can be a bully.

The local news is making all this fuss about how Monday is the last day to register to vote in the primary. I heard this at about midnight, so I’m freaking out. Duh! Of course, I’m already registered. I voted last year and the year before that. Etc. I’m fine. I have no idea when a voter has to register again unless the person moves. Anyway, the point is that I’m fine to vote on Super Tuesday. Whew.

Let’s talk race. CONTROVERSIAL. I’m breaking rules here.

It is annoying how now people are saying drug abuse is a disease. ROFL. Now that heroin is affecting so many white people; we must do something to help. WTF? How can people not see how racist that response is? It’s so blatant. Throw the black people in jail for cocaine use. But whites should go to treatment centers. This blows my mind. I know I shouldn’t be shocked. This is the world we live in.

For the record, I have always believed that drug abusers should go to treatment centers and not jails. That’s so obvious; I shouldn’t even have to say it.

When HIV was mostly affecting white males, it was an epidemic. Now that it is mostly affecting black people, nobody talks about it. It’s a damn shame.

But there aren’t any race issues in America. Barack Obama is president! America is color blind. 😉 Ugh, why can’t I find that quote MLK Jr. said about America being a racist nation? It’s like it doesn’t exist, but he did say it. I have a book with that quote in it, but it is a paper book and it would take me forever to find it. People don’t like to acknowledge he said that. They would rather quote other things. Nice things. The whitewashing of MLK Jr. (No, she didn’t!)

/end rant

Who else should I offend? I’ve got stuff for days. There is stuff I want to say about a book club reading Roxane Gay’s Bad Feminist, but it feels like gossip so I won’t go there.

Speaking of books…I’ve never been so excited about starting a fiction book! I just got And Then There Were None by Agatha Christie from the library. I can’t wait to start it this afternoon. I have a feeling I will go on an Agatha Christie bender if I really like this book. I have other stuff to do too. Sigh. I’ve got to work on my practicum and cook. Fun stuff.

I’m getting off the internet for the rest of the day. I don’t want to follow all the SuperBowl talk. #BoycottFootball

Gotta go. I’m enjoying politics more than sports right now. Politics can get tiring, but it is oh, so fun! Nerd alert. I’m really going now.

 

I should be more cynical

The next time someone says, “I don’t have time for that” in a condescending way, I’m just going to say “Yeah, that is why I don’t wear makeup” or “that is why I don’t have kids”. It’s true. I have no interest in those things and I would rather spend my time doing something else. They can do whatever with their time. I don’t care.

This is silly, but there are people who say “I don’t have time for ‘pretty planning’. Btw, I don’t consider what I do pretty planning because it isn’t that pretty. I use my planner to keep me organized. I write down my to-dos first and then on the weekend, I’ll take 30 minutes and decorate the page. 30 whole minutes! Anyway, these same people spend god knows how long putting on makeup or doing (fill in the blank), yet they claim they don’t have time for something.

Please. It’s all about priorities. I prioritize fun stuff. I could take the time to put on makeup, but I don’t care about it. Makeup is probably fun for some people. I have to do something fun everyday to destress.  (More than one thing whenever possible). I don’t even think about it or plan it. It is necessary.

Anyway, decorating my planner is fun and very relaxing. It’s called a hobby. HOBBY. What a concept! People do stuff they like for fun? WOW. If it ever stops being fun, I’ll stop. Obvs.

Oops. I think that was a rant? Is that allowed? Damn, I keep breaking the rules. 😉

Looks like I’m also working on Xmas. None of this overtime is written in stone. So I shouldn’t celebrate too much. But I am a little excited. With any extra money, I’m going to get my car fixed and I might go to Asheville for my vacation in May. That is still up in the air.

Looking forward to my cheat day on Thursday. I’m buying food in advance tomorrow. 🙂

This week I…

Music of the week:  Ellie Goulding, Justin Bieber, Alessia Cara, Sam Smith, Alanis Morissette, A Great Big World, Borns, The Weeknd

song of the week: Alessia Cara – I’m Yours

TV of the week:  Lost (season 6), basketball, news as usual

I have to stop leaving my TV on cable news before going to sleep. I keep doing it. I wake up to breaking news at 3AM.

Movies of the week:  none.

Books of the week:  I finished reading I Feel Like Going On: Life, Game & Glory by Ray Lewis and Daniel Paisner. Good book. Not too much football talk for nonfans. Quick read. It was nice reliving the football seasons. It made me miss football. #BoycottFootball because it kills people. Anyhow, I’m a huge Ray Lewis fan. (Baltimore, baby!)

Working on finishing these 3 library books:

Planner update:  

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I’m going to eat dinner, work late and then watch college basketball. Tonight won’t be a late night like most Friday nights. Gotta work in the morning.