my fear became my shadow

On the 18th day or so, I have water!!!11!! Unbelievable. I’m so grateful. I thought a pipe might have burst but it doesn’t seem like it. YAY for water!


I’m thinking about cancelling cable. No it isn’t all about cable news (see entry below). It is about money. I’m pretty sure I’m going to do it. The question is when? The NBA season ends in mid to late June. I would like to do it before then. I wish I hadn’t started watching the season this year. It will be hard to not watch the playoffs.

As far as TV goes, I will try to get some channels through an antenna and a converter box. No monthly fees. But I’m not sure I’ll be able to get anything. My house is facing a bunch of trees. (Does that even matter?) I’m not really worried about it. Recently I’ve been having my TV off while I’m working during the day and I’m not missing anything. Watching basketball at night is really my main concern. I gave up football, let me have my basketball! 😉

That money will most likely go to another bill. I wish it could go to savings. So…….as of right now, I’m thinking I’m going to cancel cable TV in June. But I sort of need the money NOW. Hmmm. Still thinking it through. I will still have internet through Verizon. I need internet to do my job so that can’t go anywhere.

Right now I’m just going to have my TV off most of the time just to get use to the idea of no television. I may try Hulu. I don’t know anything about it. I just know it exists and a lot of people use it. But that would be ANOTHER bill so ehh, may not happen. Oooooh I just checked out what they have to offer! They have the ID channel. I might have to check them out. 7.99 a month? I can do that after I cancel cable….maybe.

I’m also thinking about cancelling my gym membership but once again I’m not sure about that. It is $30 a month. I do have access to a free gym through work. But the free gym and the paid for gym offer different things. What I may do is just go to the paid gym more. Get my money’s worth.  Go to water aerobics even though the teacher is a hard ass. (I can’t swim so I can’t do all the stuff and she’s screaming at us. And the floor of the pool is slippery and I’m afraid of falling. etc. etc.) I wish the free gym had a pool but that is never going to happen.

Right now I only use the paid gym for spin class 2-3 times a month. It is too crowded to just go there for the treadmill. And I don’t like lifting weights in front of a bunch of people so that’s out. When it is warm (very soon!), my favorite activity is walking. I cannot wait to take my dog to the park. That should be fun. Lots of walking.


kikki.k planner
kikki.k planner

I DID IT! I put my Plum Paper Planner in my Kikki.K planner. I’m in love. In fact I said “this is my new baby” while holding it and my dog gave me a nasty look. Sorry. It took forever. I did it the slow way. I kept stopping so I don’t know exactly how long it took. I did it over two days. It is so worth it. OMG. Love.

this week so far...
this week so far…

Don’t the gold rings look so much better than that spiral coil? Have I said how much I love, love, love my new planner set up?

UPS update: UPS lost a package of mine. It was a pack of ink pens – Pilot FriXion Ball Erasable Gel Pens, 3-Pack,  I went to the UPS center to pick it up because they kept saying ‘out for delivery’ but I never got a package. It wasn’t there.  I filed a claim so I could get them to investigate. I thought they would give me what the pens are worth since they asked that when I filed the claim.

All I got was a phone call. No apology in the voice mail. “Contact Amazon” was basically all she said. Really? No shit. This is YOUR fault, not Amazon’s. I had already done that and Amazon graciously had already shipped my pens (they came yesterday). UPS could have at least admitted to losing the package. Anyway, all is well now. I partially blame Amazon because they are known for shipping small things in envelopes. 95% of the time that is okay but UPS kept taking the packages on and off the truck because they couldn’t deliver them that day (due to snow or whatever) and the packages were ruined in the process.

Thanks Amazon for sending me another set of pens. They didn’t have to do that but I knew they would.

Wake when I wanna, if I wake at all

I’m waiting for my Amazon gift card (coming by mail) and my large planner from kikki.K (AKA A5 Filofax). I did receive my medium planner from  kikki.K. They shipped it express all the way from Australia on January 29th. And I got it on February 3rd. Talk about fast shipping! FREAKING Australia. I’m a little worried about my large planner though. It should have come the next day (Feb 4th). I hope it didn’t get lost. I wish they would provide a tracking number. That would solve my uneasiness.

I also got my Plum Paper Planner! YAY. It took almost 5 weeks to get to me but they do customize the planners. I get to start using it February 23 instead of March 1 because they added extra days. Time for a countdown….

18 days until I get to use my Plum Paper Planner

97 days until I go on my 3 night cabin vacay

Which is more exciting? haha.

Picture time. I have inserted most of my Erin Condren planner into my 3 ring binder. It looks ridiculous because it is so small. But it is useful so far. I’m tracking eBay sales in it. And also keeping a list of what I already have to sell and where I can get things to sell. I have to get rid of a bunch of stuff first. I’m going to a flea market in early spring to make room for inventory of “new” stuff. Whatever doesn’t sell at the flea market gets trashed or donated.

erin condren planner
erin condren planner

Here is my Plum Paper Family Planner:


I used a note to cover my name. I can’t believe they spelled my name right! Everything is perfect. The only thing I don’t love is how the cover is just regular card stock. Couldn’t they use something heavier? The planner does come with a plastic cover (see it?) but I still think the cover should be thicker.

The difference between a regular planner and a family planner is the 7 sections you get to customize. Here are my sections:


My sections are Today (AKA to-do), work, money and fitness. I left 3 sections blank. If I decide to get this next year, I will probably label the sections differently. I did this in a rush. I’m okay with it plus I can easily cover up the sections names I don’t use with a label or washi tape.

I added note pages to the end of each month and a bill tracker to every month. The total cost with shipping was $47.00. That is still cheaper than an Erin Condren planner. Something else I would do differently is add note pages to the end of the planner. I didn’t do it this year because I thought it would be too bulky. argh. My one regret.

I can’t wait to start using it.

Here is my kikki.K medium lilac and gold planner:


I don’t have a problem with the rings (like many people do). The only issue I have is that it won’t lay flat. That isn’t a problem for me but I have noticed that most people don’t have this issue. Maybe with use, it will lay flat?

inside my planner
inside my planner

Like my Target ink pen? 😉 It is so pretty and new. I don’t want to write in it which is silly, I know.

That’s it for now. I’m all planner this, planner that. But that is mostly what is going on right now. I’m trying to figure out what works. The planner(s) are helping during the week. But my weekends are still a mess. I waste too much time…especially on Sundays. I like to do something in the morning (workout, chores, whatevs) and then get back in the bed for a couple of hours. My dog does not like that. He will pull on the covers until I get out of bed. Bad boy!

It will take a while to come up with a system. But I am very pleased with how tracking my time is working on week days. However, it doesn’t help with work at all. I don’t know what I need for that…magic.

Just a little piece of your heart

I went on and ordered a Plum Paper Planner! I put it on my credit card because I don’t have enough cash. How silly/dumb is that? But I’m so excited to get it. I have it starting in March 2015. It won’t arrive until around February 10 (if I’m lucky). I love it because it can be personalized. I brought the family planner (with extras) even though I don’t have a traditional family. I just have a dog and 2 guinea pigs….Anyway, I have the days divided into: work, today, money and fitness. I have 3 blank sections.

Here is a  video of an overview of the Plum Paper Planner:  (She has the regular planner NOT the family planner so mine will be a little different)

I’m not an affiliate. I just love these planners! BTW, I did consider the Erin Condren Life Planner but I don’t divide my days into morning, evening and night so that planner wouldn’t work at all for me.

About the Desire Map planner: I haven’t received it yet. I ordered it on January 3 and it still says packaging. I’m very disappointed since they claim to ship in two days.  I would have expected a note with my confirmation email if there was a delay for any reason. #FirstWorldIssues I may keep the planner or sell it on eBay. I could use one planner for documenting (plum planner) and one for goals (desire map). I dunno. I have to get it and look through it first.

Edit: OMG. I emailed Danielle LaPorte’s company to cancel my Desire Map Planner since they weren’t planning on shipping it anytime soon. They are going to cancel it! LOL. So I ordered a Bloom Planner (much cheaper but still good) to use until I get my Plum Paper Planner. Uh, thanks. 🙂 Wow is all I have to say. Is that good customer service or….I’m so confused. Anyhow, the Bloom Planner will be here on Tuesday.

I will show both planners on the blog. No worries about that. 😉 lol


I feel bad about how I blogged about my dog even though everything I said at the time was how I felt. I’m his person. He picked me. He is shy around everyone BUT me. I don’t know why that is. I do feel blessed to have this little guy in my life…even though things are far from perfect. For example, he was pretty good all week but today…SCREAM. I was trying to work. Keyword: trying. He has his first vet appointment on January 19. I hope everything goes okay.


My therapist. Another SCREAM. She doesn’t get it. I see her about once a month so maybe that is why she has a memory problem. I don’t yearn for friends. How hard is that to understand? Yes, I do consider dealing with people a hassle. I had to spell it out for her. I AM A LONER. etc. etc. This is not new info. I have told her all this before. Sigh. Maybe it is time for therapy to end. ???



Music for the week: India.Arie, Mary J. Blige, Whitney Houston, Carrie Underwood, Sam Smith, D’Angelo, Butterfly Boucher, Taylor Swift

TV for the week: House of Cards, basketball

Movie of the week: none

Book of the week: Coming Clean: A Memoir by Kimberly Rae Miller

Knitting projects of the week:

I started a ribbed cowl –

ribbed cowl
ribbed cowl

Here is my purple cowl. I will never do another cowl with this type of yarn. It takes too long.

purple cowl
purple cowl

And here is my scarf. It is almost done.


No more big yarn purchases for me. I’m on a strict budget these days. I will be using my stash for a while.


I didn’t go to spin last week, not because it was the first week of January but because I was out all day on Saturday. I am planning on going this Sunday…if I have water. I didn’t have water all day yesterday and this morning. That is nothing compared to last year. Last January I probably had water for less than 10 days. It was so cold last winter. Here’s hoping this winter isn’t as cold.