Are You My Missing Piece?

I was on the wrong medication the whole time. ADD is overdiagnosed in kids. If a kid is hyper and makes bad grades, they are automatically labeled as someone with ADHD. However, adults are underdiagnosed. 

How many adults are on antidepressants when they aren’t depressed? I was depressed in college. But, I haven’t been depressed without reason for at least ten years! I’m not depressed. I have ADHD. 

I wish doctors were more aware of adult ADD and bipolar disease. Being on an antidepressant when you have bipolar is extremely dangerous. It could lead to suicide or a manic episode. 

Anyway, I’m finally on Adderall. It is the medicine I need. It WORKS! It has its downsides, of course. 

It does raise blood pressure and lowers appetite. Not for everyone. Since I’ve been dealing with gastroparesis for 8-9 months, I’m used to eating when I’m not hungry, so I’m doing it now. I have a schedule. You have to eat even though you’re not hungry. People with ADHD can often go hours forgetting to eat, but I’m used to my schedule now.

I am eating less, but my weight was 114 last week. I probably have lost a pound since taking Adderall. As long as it’s not due to gastroparesis, I’m fine. I don’t want to weigh less than 110. 

The blood pressure thing is going to be interesting. I go see a NEW PCP on Tuesday. He may want me off Adderall if my BP is high, but I’m not going off. I have been waiting for most of my life to feel normal. Dude, you can give me a medicine for hypertension, but I’m not going off the Adderall. I just started! AND IT WORKS!

I have less anxiety (until the medicine wears off). I’m content, and I’m less frustrated. I’m working better. I’m able to focus. I think more clearly. Etc. 

I will ask for a higher dose. 10 MG is extremely low. Of course, I don’t know how things will go, but I’m guessing 20 MG twice a day will work for me. I want to try three times a day (I’m taking it twice a day on most days), but I can’t let anything affect my sleep. 

Some people only take meds when they have school or work. But #1. I work almost every day #2. It helps with anxiety, and I’m always anxious, so why would I take a day off? #3. It helps me with my mood. Uh, hell yeah, I want to feel content. 

If I remember, I will take about non drug alternatives to helping with ADHD. I have tried a few things. I will review those later. Maybe next time.

Today is Sunday. I worked from 7 AM to 9 PM yesterday (with a nap in between), so I could take most of today off. I’m only taking one dose today. It does raise my BP, so my body could use a break. 

When I go on my vacation in late October, I might try skipping a day or just taking one dose a day. Or I might take one amount a day.

Speaking of my vacation, I’m so excited!!! I do want new tires before I go. I still have to do that. I think I only need one tire, but I may as well get four new ones since I have to get my car inspected in November. 

I’m buying one new book today that I can’t find in the library. But other than that, I’m not spending any more money on unnecessary stuff until November. I need to focus on getting $5K in my moving savings account, so I feel comfortable moving. I only have $1,100 for my move because I decided to take a vacation, and hey, why not buy some winter clothes?

In my defense, I did buy the winter clothes from ThredUp (an online thrift store – aff. link). However, I don’t go anywhere, so most of these clothes are for when I walk the dog and to wear around the house. I would share pics of all the clothes I ordered, but I ordered the plainest sweaters. I don’t care how I look when I walk around the house or the neighborhood. I wear wrinkle shit all the time. LOL. 

I did buy a few things I will wear when I go to the grocery store and doctor’s appointments. I HATE the cold, so I’m only going grocery shopping once a month starting in November. Anyhow, here are some of the nicer clothes I bought from ThredUP:

This jacket will be used exclusively for dog walking. I hope it will last all winter, but I seriously doubt it. It’s probably not thick enough.
I love cardigans. This is for the rare occasion when I actually go somewhere.
I will be wearing this sweater every time I leave my house this winter.
An example of what I will be wearing around the house. The other clothes are so plain, I’m not going to post them, but for some reason I think this will be comfy to work in. I can’t wait to get this.

This post is getting long, so I’m going to get right to finishing it up with what I consumed this week.

This Week I…

Music of the week: Taylor Swift, Ariana Grande, Jewel, Boyce Avenue, Chris Stapleton, Ellie Goulding, JoJo, Joss Stone

TV of the Week:  Big Brother, Housewives, Elize Matsunga (sp?)

Rooting for Xavier to win BB. He played the best game. He’a a Taurus. The end. Kyland is trash. I always knew that.

Podcasts of the Week: Dateline, Truth and Justice, True Crime Garage, What Should I Read Next?, Court Junkie, The Vanished, Southlake, Murdaugh Murders

Books of the Week: I finished reading two books over these past two weeks. I finished:

All the Things We Never Knew: Chasing the Chaos of Mental Illness by Sheila Hamilton ★★★★★ This is one of the best books I’ve read this year.

Victim F From Crime Victims to Suspects to Survivors by Denise Huskins & Aaron Quinn ★★★★1/2 Great book. If you like true crime or nonfiction, I recommend this. My only complaint is that it is about 50 pages too long.

Goal for Next Week: To not lose my mind. I’m working 60 hours again next week. I have 2 hours off from my day job to go to the doctor. I would like to start reading a new book next week during work breaks. Hopefully, if I do all the exercises in the book, it will lead to me being less confused. I need to figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life because working 60 hours a week sucks. The book is – Pause: Harnessing the Life-Changing Power of Giving Yourself a Break.

Weekend Plans: I’m going to eat lunch and then work on marketing my business a little. Then walk my dog. Nothing too exciting.

Thanks for reading. Have a great week! 🥰 Bye.

I Want Simple Times

I have two things I am very excited about. But, of course, I am worried about how both things could go wrong—typical me.

The thing that made me smile this week is that my psychiatrist prescribed me Adderall. I wanted Vyvanse because my ex-therapist told me that would do wonders for me. Unfortunately, my doctor doesn’t want to deal with the health insurance company. Vyvanse isn’t even that expensive. I would pay for it.

Anyway, I haven’t started Adderall yet. It’s coming through the mail. I probably will have it by Thursday. I’ve been on meds for years. So why haven’t they worked? Uh, because maybe they were treating the wrong thing! I have ADHD first. Everything else is secondary.

What would it be like to be normal? I know the neurodiversity crowd doesn’t like the word ‘normal.’ They don’t want to be normal. I WANT TO BE FUCKING NORMAL. Okay, I don’t want to be boring. But the norms in the United States are based on people being ordinary. To work or make a living, it’s far easier to make money when you are normal.

The Adderall might not work. Some of the side effects are losing weight and GI issues. Well, I already have a severe GI issue. I’m underweight. I just want the med to work. My work is suffering. I have to work so hard to focus during the day.

I’m so thankful to my doctor. I was shocked when he said he treated ADHD! I asked him about eight years ago, and he said that he didn’t prescribe stimulants. So I assumed it was still valid. I’m glad I was wrong.

I’m too scattered to explain how ADHD affects me. Here is a chart that kind of explains what it’s like for me:

FWIW, I’m good at listening. I just can’t follow verbal directions. I need things written down.

Check back for updates on how Adderall works for me. I’m hoping for the best. Even if it works a little, I would consider that a win. I need less chaos.

I booked a 3 night/4 day trip to a private beach at the end of October!!! I’m working SO much. I can’t move, so I’m going to have a little fun. At this point, it will just be my dog and me.

I’m concerned that it might snow. But I looked it up, and it NEVER snows in October, but it’s the last week of October. So I’m still a little nervous. But, I can still get my money back up to October 13. So that makes me feel good in case something comes up.

The house is charming. It’s within walking distance of the beach. It’s going to be cool, so I won’t be spending much time there. I’m planning on spending most of my time in the house. You can see the beach from the windows and deck. That’s good enough for me.

I’m glad I could pay CASH for this trip—no more credit cards for me. Well, I have to have credit because that’s how America runs. But for now, I don’t use credit cards. Eventually, I might want to better my credit score, so I might buy furniture or something with credit. Anyway…

I’m leaving on October 27. Here are some pics of the vacation house.

This is where my dog and I will spend most of our time. I’m not going into the other bedrooms. See that desk? I will be using it. This is probably going to be a working vacation unless I can get everything done in advance.
How close the house is to the beach – walking distance.
The kitchen. I will probably bring prepared food with me, so that I won’t have to cook.
The deck.
The sunroom. It’s added on to the master bedroom where I will spend most of my time.
The living room. Probably will only stay here if I have DVDs. There’s a DVD player in this room.

My dog behaves pretty well but I want to be extra careful. So I’m mainly staying in the bedroom and sunroom. I’ll be watching my dog 24/7. He will go everywhere with me – whether he likes it or not. LOL.

This Week I…

Music of the week: Kacey Musgraves, Elle Varner, The Wreckers, Boyce Avenue, Lizzo, Mariah Carey, Caitlyn Smith, Danielle Bradbury

TV of the Week:  Big Brother, Housewives

I hope Tiffany wins BB. She has played the best game.

Podcasts of the Week: Dateline, Truth and Justice, True Crime Garage, What Should I Read Next?, Court Junkie, The Vanished,

Books of the Week: I finished reading The Comfort Book by Matt Haig – ★★★★ I love Matt Haig’s books. I think he is my current favorite author. I’m scared to Google him. What has he done wrong???

Goal for Next Week: I’m working 60 hours again next week. 🤯  BUMMER. My goals include doing good work, not getting overwhelmed and to not be so reactive. Adderall would probably help with all of that. ::crossing fingers::

Weekend Plans: The weekend is almost over. I worked most of yesterday. After I post this, I’m going to walk my dog, take a nap, eat dinner and work.

Thanks for reading. Have a great week! 🥰 

I stand to lose from winning

I’m so confused. I need to blog and listen to Miranda Lambert.

I really need to live alone. I’m happiest that way. I hate all these restrictions on my life. Work, roommate, and government restricitons. I was diagnosed with severe ADHD. Well, guess what? I can’t get medicine for it. And money is NOT the issue.

It’s the stupid laws. I can only get a stimulant drug with an in-person doctor. Well, there are no in-person doctors that are taking new patients. So I’m stuck with some shitty medicine that supposedly treats hyperactivity. Guess what? I have ADD. I’m not hyper.

Fuck. I feel like I have had the worst luck recently when it comes to medical stuff. Who gets gastroparesis? Only me. I think about 10% of the population has it, but unless the person goes through a traumatic event or burns out (me), it doesn’t show up enough to cause problems. I’ve had GP probably all my life. It only affected me when I was working 24/7 (like right now).

So no magic fix for me (a stimulant). I probably won’t take it long. It causes sleepiness. And I quit meds that do that. I can’t afford to be sleepy. I need to PAY ATTENTION. What a fucking concept!

Anyway, I might have a house to rent. The worst thing about the whole thing is that it is 6 hours away from me. Who has time for this shit? Not me. BUT it might be worth it. Another downside is that it is in a small town—less than 1,500 people. LOL.

It would be weird to live there. So I’ll be the person who never leaves their house. S said I could see the house after August 21. The move-in date is September 1. I’m so nervous right now. I can’t even think.

What happens to my current doctors? Do they have good internet? A MUST for work. Will I be able to find someone to mow my lawn until I get a lawnmower? The yard is HUGE. Even if I get a mower, when will I have time? These people are working me to death. What are the utility bills like? I know there isn’t a Walmart there, but how far do I have to go to get to a REAL grocery store.

My car is over ten years old. So, I won’t be able to keep coming back to where I live now. SIGH.

I have so many things to think about. I hate thinking these days. Why do I suddenly seem to have severe ADHD? Well, I’ve had signs all my life. But once I had to quit drinking coffee and Mountain Dew for the caffeine, my life went downhill. Why? Because the stimulant in the caffeine was helping me keep it together.

I’m not supposed to drink soda due to having GP, but I just started back this week realizing that caffeine HELPS me. I haven’t gotten sick. But I do have a little stomach pain. But I’m so freaking desperate. No one will give me the medicine I need, so I’m taking herbs and caffeine. The herbs make me slightly sleepy, so I will stop that if the ADHD medicine makes me sleepy too.

More on all this later. Time for pictures of the house that I MIGHT have. Three bedrooms. Two baths. There is a tenant in there now, so no pics of the inside. I hope if I choose to see it, I like the interior. I’m not picky, but I don’t want something falling apart either.

The view! I LOVE it.
SWOON! I love the outside.
Look at that balcony! You can see a nice view of the town from there.

When I look at these pictures, I get excited but when I think of really moving. SIGH. I don’t usually mind moving. I don’t even have much to move (no sofas or dining room tables etc). But moving anything 6 hours will be expensive. Bummer.

This Week I…

Music of the week: Miranda Lambert, Joss Stone, Lindsay Lohan, Marren Morris, Rachel Platten, Robyn, Taylor Swift, Tracy Chapman

TV of the week:  Big Brother, Housewives

Podcasts of the week: Dateline, Truth and Justice, So You Wanna Be a Witch,Generation Why, True Crime Garage, Crimelines, What Should I Read Next?, Court Junkie, Dear Gabby, Sword and Scale

Books of the Week: Currently reading –

Delivered from Distraction: Getting the Most out of Life with Attention Deficit Disorder by Drs. Edward M. Hallowell and John J. Ratey

Back in the Burbs by Avery Flynn and Tracy Wolff

Goal for Next Week: Survive! I forgot to mention that I have two days off next week. I would say that I wish I would have saved those days for the potential move BUT NO, I’m so freaking exhausted. I’m working about 60 hours this week!  

Weekend Plans: Mostly working. I might take my dog to the park on Sunday. I was going to take him on Tuesday (my day off) but it’s going to rain. I’ve worked 10 hours today. I’m out of it. There’s so much more to say. But I think I said enough for now.

Have a great week! Thanks for reading. 🙂

Fruits of My Labor

I’m so tired. Why are Sundays always like this? Last weekend, I was supposed to take my dog to the park, but everything ached, and I was fatigued. So, we didn’t go.

Yesterday was great! I worked all day (for my day job for one hour, and the rest was business stuff). I even felt a little optimistic. I rarely feel that way, especially since I’ve had gastroparesis.

I did leave the house today. I’m looking at houses to rent. Today I realized that I can’t do this. I don’t have time to look at a bunch of places. I work 50 hours a week (minimum). Plus, I’m tired and achy. I just can’t. So I don’t know what to do. Maybe wait until I have time off to search for houses? But what if I miss my dream house???

Anyway, the house I saw today was pretty good. I didn’t get to go inside—long story. I hate that I wouldn’t be able to walk my dog if I lived there. There are no sidewalks. I would have to walk on the narrow road. I would have to get in my car and drive to walk him. Um, sorry, I’m too tired for that, and I don’t have time.

The person one house over has a blue lives matter flag on his mailbox. And I saw an “All Lives Matter” sign on a church. LOL. I guess this is a white neighborhood. I didn’t see many people, but everyone I saw was white. The ‘blue lives matter’ folks don’t bother me. I think the All Lives Matter people are ignorant.

Would I still live there? YES. I don’t talk to neighbors. As long as they don’t bother my car, my dog, myself, or the house, I don’t care. It was quiet, but it was also a Sunday morning. I saw a basketball hoop in a person’s yard. UGH. I hate the sound of a bouncing basketball. Been there. Hated that.

Nice house. I would have to hire someone to mow the lawn because there is nowhere to store a lawnmower. I just emailed the guy back. I expressed interest, but I don’t expect much from this.

The last time I weighed myself, I was 109 pounds. That’s decent. I have a follow-up appointment with the GI on August 16. The only medicine I take for gastroparesis is an anti-nausea medicine (Zofran). I had to take it three times this week. I usually go weeks without needing it.

O, GOD. The guy with the house already emailed me back. I don’t know if I trust him. Hmmm. I’m still thinking about how I won’t be able to walk my dog, and he wants to do it month to month. I did that once and lived in the house for five years so…

ARGH. But I really want to move. Oh, and there is nothing nearby except gas stations. I did see a Mexican restaurant and a church with a Spanish sign, so it might be a Hispanic/white neighborhood. But there is nothing there. I want a park or maybe a store. Something.

I still have to investigate this guy. I was able to look inside through some of the windows. I was impressed. It was fixed up. There is new carpet etc. Three bedrooms. Two bathrooms.

Here are some pics of the house I’m probably NOT getting:

living room

I’ve been working. I’m waiting on a new client to sign a contract. They* are supposed to pay me $350 a month. I think they got cold feet. I have to go. I still have more work to do before I get into bed.

*They are nonbinary. I have never mentioned this, but I’ve been nonbinary before everyone knew what it meant. I still use she/her pronouns, though. I need to blog about this one day. My gender (just like sex) is not important to me so I rarely think about it.

Music of the week – Boyce Avenue, Ariana Grande, Jack Ingram, Jewel, Rachel Platten, Taylor Swift, Bethany Dillon, Carly Rae Jepsen

I really have to go if I want to go to bed on time. Thanks for reading. Have a great week! 🙂

Had a great bday vacay

Here are a few pics:

The beach AKA The Potomac River
My dog on the porch at the cabin

The outside of the cabin

Some of the steps we had to climb to get from the beach to the cabin. We were hiking! My body ached, but it was a good time.

Thanks for looking. Have a great week! 🙂

Been looking behind, bridge burned

It’s so fucking hot! I’m in the attic, and I have no AC. It’s about 120 degrees in here. It’s only 99 degrees outside. FUCK. That’s all I got. The main problem is when I get heat exhaustion, and I have to work, but my brain isn’t there, so I can’t work. I HATE THAT.

What else? Oh, I went back to the doctor. She has no answers as to why I’m so tired. She didn’t even mention chronic fatigue syndrome, which is a thing. Anyway, she referred me to a sleep specialist. I might go one day next week. I already contacted them and told them I wanted an appointment.

Guess what? She thinks it might be sleep apnea! Even though I weigh 135 pounds and am otherwise healthy. Yes, it is possible, but I think that’s a stretch. I don’t know whether I snore. Anyways, if I can take the test at home, I’ll do it. I’d rather not stay overnight at the sleep center and leave my dog alone. But if I do the test at the center, I would have AC. 😉

Not much going on. I have work stress and heat stress.

I was off on Thursday and Friday. I took my dog to a mostly empty park:

Politics/Current Events 2020: I don’t have much to say here either. I’m saddened by John Lewis’ death. He was just walking around in DC around June 10th. What else? The United States is a capitalistic shit of a country. That was known before COVID, but now it is so apparent.

This week I…

Music of the week: Ellie Goulding, Mariah Carey, Coldplay, Stacie Orrico, The Chicks, Rachel Platten, Robyn, Beyonce

TV of the week:  Unsolved Mysteries

Podcasts of the week:  Truth & Justice, Dateline, Someone Knows Something, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Serve Scale Soar, Abraham Hicks, Sword & Scale

Books of the week: Untamed by Glennon Doyle

Weekend Plans: Today is Sunday. All I’ve done is work. I have at least one more thing to do for a client today. So I’m going to do that before my brain turns to mush tonight.

Have a lovely week! Thanks for reading.

I’m not crazy or anything

Since I’m not going back to the park until March, I thought I would share some pics from our (my dog and me) recent visits to the park:


I usually only post pics to Insta. I keep forgetting to post them here. And here is one video of my dog running on the soccer field, which is probably illegal. 😉

So much is going on. I don’t know where to start. Blah. I’m mostly working on my online biz. I’m 100% committed to that for having a part-time income. I probably need to focus on one thing at a time. I have so many ideas. I’m definitely what people call a visionary. I hate details, but I can see the big picture.

Anyway, sigh. I think I’ll post some “private” entries soon. I feel all over the place. I don’t know what to say right now. Oh, my dad is coming back to living with us. He should be here soon. He was overseas. He doesn’t understand boundaries. NO, I’m not taking you anywhere during the week after I’ve worked and then I still have to work on my online biz for at least 3 hours a day.

This week I…

Music of the week: Ellie Goulding, James Arthur, Miranda Lambert, Andra Day, Ashley McBryde, Beyonce, Bryn Cartelli, Caitlyn Smith

TV of the week:  Survivor, RHoP

Podcasts of the week: Don’t Talk to Strangers, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Crimelines, Why is This Happening, Mental Illness Happy Hour

Books of the week: I finished reading Her One Mistake by Heidi Parks. The ending wasn’t great. I predicted what would happen too early. But it’s still okay if you like thrillers or Big Little Lies.

Now reading –

Weekend Plans: I really am enjoying having four days off! My next days off are at the end of December. I have 3 days off then. I’m nervous about my dad coming back. Then I have to have my dog upstairs at all times. :/ I don’t mind him, of course. But I feel bad my dog has to be stuck with me. That’s not fair to anyone.

I might be back mid-week with “private” entries. I have to clean up those entries before I post. I use names too much.

Thanks for reading! Have a good weekend and week. 🙂

Day 2 in LA – Part one

I’m breaking day 2 into two parts. Gabby deserves her own entry. 🙂

I woke up around 4 PST. I showered and watched the news until Starbucks opened at 5:30. Starbucks is located in the lobby of the hotel. I ordered a grande iced vanilla coffee and a blueberry muffin since they were out of coffee cake.

Then I watched PLL on Netflix for a while because it was still early. Long story, but the hotel tricked me with the internet. They said I wouldn’t have to pay for it. But I did end up paying $12.95 a day for Wi-fi. Whatever. If I stayed longer, I would have raised hell, but it was a short trip, so I didn’t mind paying.


At 9:50, I got a Lyft to downtown so I could go to the Grammy Museum. If it had been warmer, I would have gone to Manhatten Beach instead. But it was only 60 degrees. I felt like after day 1, I really needed a serene place to be.  Anyhow, I’m glad I went to the Grammy Museum. It is a must for music lovers. It focuses more on the history of music. My only complaint is that it is only 3 small floors. There is so much one can do with music and the Grammy’s. There isn’t enough there.


Barry White’s Grammy

I did some really awesome things like playing the drums for the first time! And I sang along to a song which escapes me right now. Don’t worry. No one else could hear. I was in a studio like room.  I think it was a song from the 80s. So fun. I stayed about 90 minutes. Then I walked over to the Staples Center. I had to. I’m a big Lakers fan so that was nice.

The Staples Center

The Staples Center

I wanted to stay out until 2PM so I could go straight to Gabby’s event without going back to the hotel. I thought about walking to Olvera Street. I really wanted to go there, but it was a 49-minute walk. It was VERY windy. So I decided to get something to eat to waste time. There were so many options. I googled almost of all the restaurants and decided to go to Ford Filling Station. 

The first thing a worker said to me was, “You came in here to get out of the cold?” Uh, YES! 60 degrees and windy is cold even for this east coast chick. I wanted lunch, but they were still serving breakfast. I had french toast, sausages, and orange juice. The OJ was $8.00!! I don’t know what I was thinking. LOL. Those sausages were sooo good! I don’t eat pork when I’m at home. But when I’m out, I’ll occasionally treat myself to pork.

After that, I still had hours to waste. There are no stores in that part of downtown. (!!) It’s just restaurants, the Grammy Museum and The Staples Center. A movie theater is nearby, and I thought about stopping in and wasting two hours. I wanted to see The Post, but I thought, what are the chances that the movie is starting right now? I should have checked.

Anyway, I caught a Lyft and went back to the hotel to wait for Gabby’s event. I watched the news and got into bed which ended up being a mistake…Part 3 coming soon.

Random pics:

Taylor swift

Taylor Swift’s lyrics to “22”


older design of the Grammy

Whitney Houston

Whitney exhibit

Day 1 in LA – Lyft for Life

I have so much to say. I will probably do two entries on Los Angeles, and both will be lengthy.

First, I’ll talk about the two flights to LA. I didn’t get to take any 3D books because my carry on purse was too heavy. So no A Course in Miracles with my highlighters. I was so disappointed. I did buy the electronic version, and I read some of that on the plane. Podcasts didn’t work for me on the plane. I couldn’t hear anyway. My ears were popping and aching. And I didn’t want to play it loudly because what if my neighbors could hear? So from now on I probably won’t bother downloading podcasts for travel.

What did work? BOOKS. Kindle books, specifically. I read a lot. I did watch about an hour of The King’s Speech with closed caption, so I didn’t have to worry about sound. I slept on the plane!!! I never thought I would be able to do that. I’ve been on about 10 planes prior to LA and not once have I slept! That saved me. Flying from home to Chicago was so quick. I read and slept. Wonderful!

All of my flights were on time. In fact, I think all of my flights were about 20 minutes early. No cancellations. O’Hare was the busiest airport. I thought LAX would be crazy. It was so chill. I was shocked.

Overall, day 1 wasn’t good. I don’t know whether it was LA, or jet lag or what. Day 2 was much, much better, but I still don’t like LA. 😉 I don’t see myself going back. LA made me realize how lucky I am to live where I live. I don’t like big cities (NYC is an exception).

The hotel was awesome! The shower was great, the bed was great. I loved it. If you go to LA, stay at the Sheraton Gateway Hotel. You’ll love it. Well, you will need a car to go everywhere. That can be a problem. I’m so glad I didn’t rent a car because people in LA drive like fucking maniacs. I wouldn’t have lasted a second with a rental car.

This is a pic of the hotel after I put my mess all over the room:


After I explored the hotel, I tried to sleep. I couldn’t even though I was really tired so I took a shower and then took an Uber to the Griffith Observatory.  With a tip that was about a $38 drive. Ouch. I didn’t like the Observatory. I think I would have enjoyed it if I paid for a show or two, but at that point, I was just not feeling LA at all, and I wanted to go back to the hotel. The original plan was to enjoy the Observatory and then hike the trails at Griffith Park, but it was freezing! It was so cold, I had to buy a $40 sweatshirt to put on immediately. I adore the sweatshirt, but I didn’t want to pay that much for it. The only thing I got out of going to the Observatory was taking a pic of the Hollywood sign:

DSCN0635 (2)

I stayed there for about 30 minutes and then left and TRIED to get an Uber. Okay, I eventually got one, but there was so much drama. I will never use Uber again. I’m using Lyft from now on. I downloaded the app as soon as I got back to the hotel. I used Lyft all of day 2. Back to the Uber driver: He claimed he canceled the ride 3 times because I wasn’t standing out there! Uh, hello? I was standing there. I looked at every car that passed because I was cold and so desperate for a ride.

Not only did he accuse me of lying about being there, prior to that when I came up to his door he tried to drive away!! Trust me, I didn’t want to ride with him, but he was my ONLY choice. Uber couldn’t find another driver willing to come out there. I was so desperate. After he accused me of not being there, he was nice the rest of the long way back to the hotel. I didn’t tip him.

After that, I gladly went back to my excellent hotel room. I ordered room service. Pricey. I ordered fries and a pepperoni pizza, but the pizza was spicy, so I didn’t eat much of it. Who makes a pepperoni pizza spicy? Bummer. I ate all the fries though. 😉

Then I got into the bed around 7 PST. I stayed on east coast time the whole trip. I had  Showtime on all night. I tried watching Girl on the Train because I loved the book. The movie didn’t seem good at all, but I kept falling asleep during the movie. I’ll give it another chance later on.

I was just relieved I had the hotel to go back to. I was homesick. I have never missed my city like that before, and I’ve traveled a bit. I love to travel. I never get homesick. On Friday, I HATED LA. That’s why I retweeted Halsey’s tweet about the people of LA. But I may have just run into tourists. I don’t know who was from LA and who wasn’t but the people I ran into…ugh. An introvert’s nightmare on day 1. Day 2 was much better.

I even texted my mom on Friday about living in the best city in America (my hometown). LOL. She’s not happy that I’m not in love with LA because she wants to go back with me. Uh, I’m probably never going back to LA. I felt inadequate in every way on Friday.

Stay tuned for day 2. That entry will probably be much longer. Here are some more random pics from day 1:


My favorite spot (besides the bed and shower – lol) in the hotel:

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I don’t even know what to say

The store just emailed me about scheduling an interview! AHHH! Scary. I can’t even think about that right now. I haven’t had power since Thursday night. We had a bad storm. Today is Sunday and I’m at my mom’s house because game 7 of the NBA finals are on. I couldn’t miss the game.

Even though I’ve been napping a lot (and reading), I’m still tired. The tree in my front yard split. I’m very lucky that it didn’t hit my car. It did hit the house, but the damage isn’t a big deal. It just tore the screen of the window.

Here is how the tree split:


My front yard:


The damage to the house:


I called the landlord and he was very nice, but he doesn’t seem interested in cleaning up the yard. So I’m not that interested. It’s not my house and if he doesn’t care. Whatevs.

I have to go. I will probably call the store tomorrow to set up an interview. I haven’t had an interview in about 2 years. I’m very rusty and I probably won’t do much to prepare. Just being honest. If it were a full-time job, I would be much more stressed. I just want electricity.