When did I come undone?

First things first – my dog. Well, I guess he is okay. They didn’t do a test on Friday so I don’t really know. They really think it is just his temperament. He is high strung. He can’t help it. He is a Taurus Sun (like me) and Taurus Moon. Okay, since I don’t know exactly when he was born, I’m not 100% sure on the moon part.

Anyway, the good news is that he has no blood in his urine. The vet thinks it’s just stress. Some people/animals are just naturally anxious. He is so much like his mom. 🙂 I bought him one more expensive bag of food. This will be his last bag. It’s $50 for a medium bag!! He’s going back to his old food as soon as this runs out.

I’m still concerned. I guess only time will tell. For now, I’m choosing to believe he is okay.

My dog is stressed. I’m stressed out about work and money. I did apply for a temp job. I’m pretty sure it was filled by the time they got my resume. However, the lame ass resume I sent her isn’t that impressive. I barely updated it. It pays double what I make now*. That is the only reason I applied. Well, and she contacted me first plus I kind of want to learn something new. The job I applied for was in marketing. LOL. I’ve hated marketing since I took marketing 101 my second year at university. The job would have lasted through mid-May.

*Double what I make now sounds like so much, but I don’t make a lot now.

I think I’m going to seriously start looking for jobs in April unless my current situation drastically changes. Wouldn’t it be nice if my side hustle took off? Expecting it to take off before April is probably asking a lot.

Astrology school update: As of right now, I’m one and done at this school. I don’t like that discussion is 40% of the grade in ALL classes. This shy, introverted person calls bullshit. So, the plan is to finish this class in mid-March and not go back. I’m taking a break until June. That break will be all about my side hustle. Then I plan to either take self-study classes at Astrology University (not a real school) or take a beginner to advanced course from the AFA. I can’t decide. Astrology Uni is awesome. I have bought audio courses from them and webinars. SO GOOD. But the course from the AFA covers everything, but it is all written or online. No videos. How old school. :/

I’ll make a decision after I finish this class. I feel like I’m no longer behind. I’m doing okay, but to be honest, I’m rushing through my assignments. I want to turn in good work, but I care more about learning than doing all this homework.

Politics: Not much to say compared to last week. I hope Fairfax resigns. I 100% believe the first accuser. I haven’t heard anything from the second accuser. I just know one exists. As far as the governor goes…sigh. I don’t like that his nickname was coonman. I can’t get over that. Plus no one will campaign with him for 2020. He’s dead. Herring apologized for wearing blackface. Whatever. Let him be governor. But I don’t think Northam is going to resign. He has to give a speech/talk on race right? What is he going to do? Say nothing and hope all this goes away? I’m sooo over this.

Not much to say about the 2020 folks. A few are announcing their presidential runs this weekend. No one I like. HA! However, I do have one video I want to share for people who don’t know what Marianne Williamson stands for. Oh yeah, Marianne was on CNN! I caught it on YouTube. I was so happy. I took a screenshot and posted it on Instagram. 🙂 I hope she can raise the millions she needs. I have to cancel a bunch of stuff before I can give. If she is still around in April, I’ll donate at least $10 to her campaign.

Here’s the video I wish every democrat and independent would watch:

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Maggie Rogers, Rozzi, Christina Aguilera, Taylor Swift, Ariana Grande, Rachel Platten, Lake Street Drive, Lissie

TV of the week:  Celebrity Big Brother, Nashville

Podcasts of the week: True Crime Garage, Pod Save America, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Why is This Happening?

Books of the week: Now reading – 

Plans for the Weekend: No overtime again. I’m going to the bank on Saturday to deposit a $25 refund check from Verizon before it expires. I could’ve really used that money before now, but since I’ve moved the bank is out of my way so I never got around to it. I’m working on astrology class and my side biz. That’s about it. I put a lot of time into something on my website and the response was lukewarm. I know that happens A LOT to everyone. But I only posted about it on Instagram. Hopefully, when I pin it to Pinterest and link it on Facebook, people will appreciate it. If not, I will continue on. That’s life.

Thanks for reading! It is now 11:48 PM on Friday night. I did my homework and blogged. I want to get to bed by midnight, so I’ve gotta go. I’m not proofreading tonight. If there are any errors, I’ll fix them tomorrow. Have a great weekend! 🙂

Thought I was gonna break

I’m blogging today because I may not feel like blogging later. Tomorrow I take my dog to the vet for Xrays. $$$ Sorry, yes I care about his health, but I feel like X-rays won’t solve the problem. I feel like he has kidney failure. 😦 There isn’t a cure for that. But being optimistic – they will do x-rays while he is sedated and then they’ll do surgery on another day if he needs it.

I’m thinking there will be no surgery because of what I said above. I’m working for one hour and then dropping him off. I should have just asked to go to work at 8:30. Oh well. I HOPE HE NEEDS SURGERY! That is a cure. No one wants their dog to go under anesthesia, but the other alternative is unthinkable. Well, I think about it a lot.

UPDATE: I updated Instagram, but forgot to blog here. Basically, I won’t know anything for 2 weeks. He doesn’t have kidney stones, so no surgery is needed. Like I said above, I would rather him have kidney stones because that’s curable. Kidney failure IS NOT. Anyway, the total cost was $460 for x-rays that proved nothing. Just like I thought. Sigh. I have to give him expensive food for the next two weeks and some medication. Then I guess they will check his urine again. Hoping for the best, but still extremely worried. :/

I won’t go back to the park we used to go to if he is no longer here. It will hurt too much. Will I get another dog? I’ve had dogs since I was 17. I’ve only had two dogs. My last dog lived for 17 years. My current dog is 4 1/2 years old. He says “almost 5”. 😉 Anyway, I probably will get another dog one day. I can’t imagine a life without a dog.

I’ve cried enough over this and something else. No more tears until tomorrow. LOL.

Astrology class is kicking my ass this week. This is where I got stuck when I tried to study on my own. I’m a little frustrated that I’m getting stuck in an online class, BUT we haven’t had our meeting yet. That occurs on Sunday. If I still don’t get it after Sunday, I’m going to be exasperated. And people think astrology is easy. Ha!

I’m bummed I don’t get it because I’m excited about next week’s homework. I wanted to be ahead and do it tonight. We get to choose a celebrity couple and analyze a small part of their chart. I’m thinking about choosing Bill and Hillary. How original, right? I’ve never studied Bill’s chart and I only looked briefly at Hillary’s. I don’t know who else I’m that interested in…If someone else chooses them first (we have to post it on the discussion board), I’ll choose someone else. I wish I could choose Amelia Earhart, but she wasn’t in a famous couple. I was obsessed with Amelia for years.

Nutrisystem update: I’ve lost a total of 10 pounds in about 25 days. I guess the weight loss is stalling now. I want to lose at least another 10 pounds.

I got a horary astrology reading. I wanted to know if I would become a successful astrologer, but that question doesn’t work because one year I might be successful and then the next year, not so successful. So I asked if I would make $1,000 in revenue within the next year (not counting expenses). Basically, the answer was I do great work, but I need better marketing and branding. And it will be tough to make a thousand dollars this year. I knew that prior to asking the question. I think it’s interesting he picked up on the branding/marketing issue just from looking at a chart!

He also told me it is hard to make a middle class living being an astrologer. I forget that sometimes because all the astrologers I know probably make at least $50,000 a year. They teach, write books, and give speeches. That’s how they make money NOT by doing readings. I know I’m not going to make much doing tarot and astrology. However, I’m not money hungry. I don’t need to make the most to feel successful. Money doesn’t motivate me. I wish it did! But I do want to travel a little, so I can’t be broke…

Anyway, my plan for 2019 is to create at least one course about tarot or astrology. Leaning towards very, very basic astrology. That can be passive income if I can market myself right and do a great job. Marketing. Hate that word. :/

WORK. Sigh. I can’t say much because I do believe one of them (which means all of them) may be reading. I don’t understand why people make a big deal out of little things that mean nothing. There are so many problems in the world. I used to say I wish these people had problems so they wouldn’t nitpick, but I know they have problems! That’s just that person’s personality. Nothing to do with me.

Election 2020. No, I don’t feel like I’m being too hard on Kamala Harris. Don’t call yourself a progressive Democrat when you aren’t. Simple as that. Now she says she’s against the death penalty. Whatever. She’s better than the current president. I’ll give her that. woofreakinghoo! I’m not saying the candidate has to be perfect but don’t paint yourself as a progressive when you’re really not. I take offense to that and so do other people.

She pushed for programs that helped people find jobs instead of putting them in prison, but also fought to keep people in prison even after they were proved innocent. She refused to pursue the death penalty against a man who killed a police officer, but also defended California’s death penalty system in court. She implemented training programs to address police officers’ racial biases, but also resisted calls to get her office to investigate certain police shootings

https://www.vox.com/future-perfect/2019/1/23/18184192/kamala-harris-president-campaign-criminal-justice-record

Fighting to keep people in prison even after they were proved innocent is typical “justice system” BS. I will not vote for her. Enough of bashing her. Should I move on to the other fake progressives in the Democratic party? No. I don’t have enough time. Maybe later. 😉 All these “progressives” running around. Interesting. It’s cool to be progressive now. Good to know.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Maggie Rogers, Rozzi, Kesha, Lissie, Rachel Platten, Lake Street Drive, Ariana Grande, Taylor Swift

TV of the week:  basketball, You

I’m 10 minutes into episode one of Conversations with a Killer: The Ted Bundy Tapes. I read the Ted Bundy book by Ann Rule years ago – Stranger Beside Me. I’ve forgotten a lot so this should be interesting. I love true crime.

Podcasts of the week: True Crime Garage, Pod Save America, The Astrology Podcast, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Tarot for the Wild Soul (sooo good!), Generation Why

Books of the week: 

I’m surprised I’ve never read a book on crystals. But now I know why! It makes me want more. In fact, I ordered about 6 crystals today. Oops. One was to replace a lost one and one got wet in the rain and got cracked. Right now I have 14 crystals. Can’t wait to add the new ones to my collection. I did go about 8 months without buying a crystal so, c’mon it was time. 😉

Plans for the Weekend: Well, it depends on whether my dog needs surgery. I have a feeling it won’t happen this weekend. So I’m working overtime, doing a free tarot reading and school work.

I feel like this entry is crap. I feel a little down about not only my dog. Other crap is going on too. I’ll probably post an update at the top of this entry when I find out something about my dog.

As always, thanks for reading! Have a great weekend. 🙂

Hurts like hell

It sucks to write about this. I think my dog is in the beginning stages of kidney failure. He is only 4 1/2 years old. I thought we had at least a DECADE more together. 😦 I’m taking him to the vet on Monday. I will probably know for sure on Wednesday or Thursday once the lab results come back. I yell at him a lot, but he is my only friend.

Speaking of yelling at my dog. UGH! He ate my Nutrisystem chicken breast tonight!! &$%^ I am still pissed. I usually put my main dinner on one plate and have a plate for my salad, but tonight I had it all on one plate, so I had to throw my awesome looking salad away. And I only had two bites of my chicken breast. ARGH! Yes, I screamed at him. :/

I’ve lost a total of 7 to 8 pounds in seventeen days. Not bad considering I’m not exercising because I hate winter. 😉

I had my first hardcore cravings on Tuesday and Wednesday of this week. I wanted to cheat so bad. What did I want? On Wednesday, I would have eaten anything bad. On Tuesday, I wanted pork. I wanted to order from the Jimmy Dean restaurant. I would have ordered sausages and pancakes. Yum! I didn’t cheat because of money. How foolish would it be to spend so much on Nutrisystem and then ruin it by eating out? That was about 90% of it. The other 10% was about me feeling like a failure. I didn’t want to cheat and feel like shit afterward.

I hope I can keep my cravings at bay. I didn’t crave anything “bad” today. Sometimes I think it has to do with the stress of work plus being hungry. That’s what happened on Tuesday. I was so frustrated about work. Then Jimmy Dean sausages sounded so good. Okay, I’ll stop.

I have the week of my birthday off. So far it looks like I’m going to the beach for 4 days and 3 nights. Well, I really don’t know. I want to pay by February 20, but it depends on money. I have a lot of points from Capital One so the hotel bill won’t be that high. Thank Buddha! But the hotel is still expensive since I’m booking one that allows dogs. I’m so glad I have points. I’ll post pics of the suite after I book. It’s really nice. Full kitchen. I could stay on Nutrisystem while I’m there, but that’s probably not happening.

Astrology class. What can I say? I hate that discussion is 40% of our grade. If anything stops me from continuing there, it might be that. As of right now, I’m definitely skipping spring semester. I’m thinking about going during the summer. I LOVE THIS STUFF. I want to know everything…now! I would love to get a diploma* from their school, but the discussion in class and online might kill the fun.

*They used to offer a Bachelor’s in Astrology, but some uneducated snobs decided astrology wasn’t worth a degree, so their program ended about a decade ago. They are a “real” college that has all kind of degrees, but I can only get a certificate or diploma in astrology. As long as I learn something, it is worth it.

Election 2020 talk. Kamala Harris…NOPE! I knew she was a prosecutor. That doesn’t automatically make her a bad person. LOL. But she denied a look into police behavior while she was a prosecutor. I’m done with her. I’m so sick of all these fakes running around calling themselves progressives. Fuck that. I’m not voting for these people!!! I will stay home on primary day if all I have to choose from are LIARS. Yes, I’m pissed.

Marianne Williamson seems bothered by the lack of press coverage. 😦 I feel bad for her, but she’s not giving up. She knows she has a long road ahead. Damn, I feel like I don’t have many options. What are the chances I will get to vote for someone that believes in 85% of what I believe? The last time that happened was when I voted for Howard Dean. I knew he wouldn’t win by that point, but I still voted for him in the primary.

Too bad Beto O’Rourke is untrustworthy, and Bernie is well, Bernie. Sigh. No one for me. I’ll guess I’ll be stuck with whatever fake ass Democrat half of America selects. I hate fakeness if that’s not obvious. I keep forgetting about Elizabeth Warren. I guess I’ll vote for her in the primary if Marianne isn’t on the ballot. Oh, I have to mention that I don’t know enough about Julian Castro to even mention him. That’ll change by next week. 😉

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Kari Jobe, Taylor Swift, Carrie Underwood, First Aid Kit, Kacey Musgraves, Lissie, Maggie Rose, Aretha Franklin

TV of the week:  basketball, You, Nashville

I’m so excited for Duke vs. UVA this Saturday. I have it written down in my planner. I’m a fan of both schools, but needless to say I’m rooting for UVA this weekend. You is a creepy show on Netflix. I don’t know whether I like it yet. I’m only on episode 2. I only started watching because I’m a Penn Badgley fan.

Update: Oh You was on Lifetime and it didn’t do well. I can see why. It seems very Netflix-ish. I wonder what that means for a season 2 if season 1 didn’t do well. It’s doing great on Netflix. I think I love the show now that I’m on episode three. So creepy. I love stuff like this. Give me slow horror.

Podcasts of the week: True Crime Garage, Pod Save America, All In with Chris Hayes, The Bill Simmons Podcast

Books of the week: I’m mostly focusing on astrology books. I’m doing a list of the top astrology books for beginners soon for my other website. The book I’m reading now is awesome but not for beginners. It’s called How to Co-Create using the Secret Language of the Universe : Using Astrology for your Empowerment by Pam Gregory. The Kindle version (which is what I have) is on sale for $3.99. Insane value for that price. Also reading:

Planner Spread for the week: I didn’t do a full bullet journal spread this week. I just used my regular planner. However, I do have my spread from last week:

Plans for the Weekend: I’m working overtime on Saturday. My paycheck will look decent next week. I worked more OT than usual. woohoo! I have to go grocery shopping on Sunday.

The most important thing is SCHOOL. I’ve been doing well. I’m ahead of schedule, but today I blogged here and worked on my tarot and astrology website instead of doing homework. Lame. But I feel like I have to work on my business. I can’t just sit here and do nothing. Since I’m not advanced enough yet, I’m thinking about getting an astrologer to tell me WHEN and IF it is a good time for me to start a business. If he or she says ‘never’. Fine. I will just do tarot and astrology for fun. I really, really, really, want to be an astrologer so I will be disappointed if that’s not on my path. I don’t want to force it. I have a lot of interests. That doesn’t mean all my hobbies should be a business.

I already started the tarot and astrology thing so…oh well. If it’s not meant to be. I’ll do it for free and spend a whole lot less time dedicated to it. In addition to law and accounting, my chart also says I should be a teacher (nice – there are lots of ways to teach) and an interior decorator. I love looking at nice spaces. Love it, but doing it is so not me. One day I will do a ‘report’ on exactly what my birth chart says. 95% of it is accurate. That’s why I believe in astrology.

Well, I have to go now. I’ve rambled long enough. I have my homework done for the discussion board, but I’m scared to post it. It’s not due until Tuesday. Hmmm. I will probably post of it over the weekend. Why am I still rambling?!

Thanks for reading! Have an excellent weekend. 🙂

Feeling fine and free

I was going to sign my dog up for training classes. I thought it would be a fun, get out of the house type of thing to do. All I do is go to the park every day. Other than that, I pretty much stay home Monday through Friday. Plus, I was supposed to do this 2 years ago to build my dog’s confidence. I just never did it.

However, my dog barks at other dogs he sees at the park. So how could he be in a training class with other dogs? I emailed a training school just to make sure. She said private training was best. That’s what I’m doing. Someone is coming to my house on Tuesday (election day) to do a free consultation. I’m nervous because my dog doesn’t like strangers on his territory. He will bark the whole time. So how are we supposed to talk? I might have to leave him outside during parts of the consultation.

My dog is well behaved at some places like the vet or Petsmart, but he will not tolerate people in the yard or in his my house. And like I’ve already mentioned he misbehaves around other dogs at the park. I’m nervous about the cost. Private training in my house??? Uh, that could be expensive. I would rather go someplace than have the trainer come here, but they don’t do that.

Private training for 1 hour at a place near me is $60 per hour. That is the cost of going to the location. That place doesn’t do in-house training. So I’m assuming that is the least it will cost. The place I choose says they can train a dog to walk properly in 2 hours. I’m hoping 1.) it will work and 2.) it won’t be terribly expensive. If it is too expensive, I will probably try the $60 place near me.

SO…I probably won’t go after Demi Lovato tickets tomorrow. Private dog training, Demi concert and I would like to still go to Kripalu*. I have to cut something, and it will probably be Demi. If I can get a ticket in the first 8 rows, I probably will purchase it. The chances of that happening are very slim. I love Demi, but she’s not one of my top 10 favorite musicians or anything. I just thought it would be fun to go see Demi in DC.

If I do get a ticket, I will update this entry.

*About Kripalu, I have no idea whether Gabby Berstein will hold her workshop there next summer. It is 8 months away. Right now she is focusing on her new book that I’ve already preordered. The book comes out January 2. Anyway, I don’t know whether I can afford to go. I’ve added up everything and the price is almost what it cost me to go to Mexico! sigh. The issue is that I will only go if I have a private room which costs a ton. If I’m going to be around people all day at the workshop and in the cafeteria, I want my own private room to decompress.

I still want to go, but I want to be financially smart too.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8): Kelly Clarkson, Demi Lovato, Pink, Marren Morris, Carrie Underwood, Michelle Branch, Mariah Carey, Ariana Grande

The new Pink album is really good. I also like the new Kelly Clarkson, but Pink tops that.

TV of the week: basketball, news, RHONJ

Movie of the week: None

Podcasts of the week: Accused, Mental Illness Happy Hour, Missing Maura Murray

I have listened to the Mental Illness Happy Hour for years. I usually listen to it on Friday nights as I fall asleep.  I just started listening to Accused (#late). I’m not sure I like it. I like my true crime recent. I don’t like cold cases as much. I will probably give it one more episode before I give up.

Books of the week: I finished reading The Goddess: A Novel by Swan Huntley. Um, I gave it 3 stars. That is the lowest rating I have given a book this year. I usually don’t finish 3-star books because I have so many books I want to read, so why waste time on an average book?  The book starts off great, but I guessed the ending very early on. I dunno. It was okay enough for me to finish.

Now focusing on reading:

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren

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I have a new planner! I’m using the Get To Work Book for a couple of weeks in 2017 and all of 2018. That means no more stickers. 😦  I love planning with stickers. It is my only creative outlet these days (sad, but true). And it relaxes me. I will still post my planner here and on Instagram, but it will look pretty boring. I’ve been eyeing the GTWB since it has been on the market and I finally decided that is all I need. I’m not spending any more money on stickers even though I use mostly printable stickers so I’m not spending a ton. I can easily go back to my Erin Condren if I want to use stickers for a week or two.

Plans for the Weekend: This isn’t really weekend related but I’m off from work on Tuesday and Thursday of next week. Tuesday is election day, and the day the dog trainer is coming to my house. This weekend I will clean up for the trainer. I don’t have a lot to clean up since I’ve been trying to tidy up as I go, but I hate cleaning.

I’m going grocery shopping on Saturday, and I have a test on Sunday morning. That is all I have planned. I get to play in my new planner!!  🙂 I’m so excited to get it on Saturday. It is at my mom’s house. I send all my bigger packages there.

I gotta go cook food for the rest of this week and next week. Thanks for reading! Have a nice weekend. 🙂

not lonely, just alone

A pic of my dog from one of our daily visits to the park. It wasn’t this week because this week was rainy. (We still went to the park every damn day, though. ha!)

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He hates having his pic taken which makes it hard to get good pics, but oh well.

I just finished splitting a few of my Abilify pills in half. I do it in advance, so I don’t have to do it daily. I guess that means I won’t be quitting within the next two weeks. I feel this undercurrent of depression in me. I’m scared as hell to stop Abilify right now. I would rather stop when I’m not feeling any kind of sadness or overwhelmed.

I’ve been going on and on about Harvey Weinstein in this blog. I was a big fan of Miramax and The Weinstein Company, so this is a huge story to me. I’ve always known he was a jerk, but I didn’t know about the harassment. I just want to say that I know he isn’t the only one in Hollywood sexually harassing people. Also, I know it happens in other industries.

Quick Depo-Provera update: I haven’t bled as of 10/11/17. I hope that doesn’t change.

Quick stalker update: I haven’t seen him on his moped all week. That is probably because I was able to go to the park at 11:30 instead of after I got off from work. The week isn’t over…

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8): Demi Lovato, Shania Twain, Jasmine Thompson, Jillette Johnson, Lana Del Rey, Sam Smith, Justin Timberlake, Broods

I didn’t expect to like the new Shania. I must admit that I thought she was over once her ex-husband stopped writing with her. (How sexist!) But her new album is decent.

TV of the week: Grey’s Anatomy, Big Little Lies

Big Little Lies is so good! Reese Witherspoon kills it. Everyone is good. Don’t watch season one of BLL and think the book is good. It’s not. Don’t bother. I might be a little bitter because I spent $8 on the Kindle edition of the book. Ugh. What a waste. Anyhow, I can’t wait for season 2. I don’t have HBO, so I don’t know when I’ll be able to see it. I might get the digital version or DVD. So good (when compared to the book).

Movie of the week: I saw Hidden Figures. Very good movie. It’s based on a true story. Janelle Monae is really something. Once again, everyone was good in it. I would recommend this movie to everyone. It was better than Big Little Lies. lol.

Podcast of the week: True Crime Garage. Love that podcast. I usually listen to at least two different podcasts a week. I will start listing those in this section. I’m obsessed with true crime. I can’t get enough of it. I went through a period where I only read true crime.

Books of the week: Ugh, I’m so disappointed. There’s no way I can finish the Vietnam book in less than 2 weeks. 😦 I will still probably read it over the weekend, but then I’ll stop because it is just wasting time to try to read a book I know I’m not going to finish. I hope they put the PBS special the book is based on on Netflix, or maybe I can catch it on PBS. I think it was on over the weekend. I would just buy the book, but at last check, it was $25. I’m not spending that much on a Kindle book.

Currently reading:

I have more library books I could read, but now I’m just trying to finish The Handmaid’s Tale. I always get a bunch of library books at one time. ugh. Too many books, not enough time.

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren

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Plans for the Weekend: Staying in for the most part. I have to mail one thing. I don’t even have to go inside the post office. yay. I rarely get to stay in all weekend. I’m going to work at my part-time job and work on my school course.

This week off was pretty good. Only one bad thing happened: I lost power for almost 5 hours on Wednesday morning. I could’ve worked at my part-time job. I lost 5 whole hours! I would like to think I’m over it now, but I dunno. 😉 I had everything all planned out and then that happened.

Have an amazing weekend. Thanks for reading! 🙂

Don’t let me hit the ground

BEARS!
BEARS!

I got two 10 lb bears….by mistake. Nutrisystem sends a bear for each 10lbs lost. The next bear is the 20lb pound bear, but I won’t be getting that because I’m not getting any more NS food after next week. 😦 It is due to financial reasons not because I don’t love NS. But I wouldn’t want to stay on it forever either. My mom says I shouldn’t lose anymore weight. I don’t care what she or anyone else thinks.

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Don’t say you don’t want to sound harsh before saying what you have to say. It only makes what you’re saying sound harsh. Unless, your intent is to sound harsh. Either way it might lead to tears if you care about that kind of thing.

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The vet assistants wanted me to put a muzzle on my dog* because they were scared! WTF! Now I realize that I was so scared because if he did act very aggressive, I would lose faith in my best friend. It wasn’t just about being bitten. Even though I do have an irrational fear of being attacked by animals. That is why volunteering at the animal shelter wasn’t a good fit for me. Some dogs were sweet, but some dogs scared me. It’s funny if I see a dog while I’m walking alone, I’m 100% fine but in other situations I get scared…including with my own pets.

*I know owners put muzzles on their dogs all the time. But 1.) Their dog isn’t my dog. 2.) They aren’t me. The end.

Anyhow, he did get his nails trimmed. Finally. I think they gave him treats to trim his nails. I didn’t think that would work. Since we walk on the (hard) road a lot, I hope that will keep his nails trimmed for at least 4 months. I do not want to go back there any sooner. The whole situation is very uncomfortable.

EDIT: After reading this section, it seems like I’m saying my dog ALWAYS needs to be muzzled. NO. It is only when he is having his nails trimmed. He is sooooo scared and will scream the whole time. He was shaking as soon as we got inside the building. 😦

This week I…

Music of the week:  Tori Kelly, Ed Sheeran, Nina Simone, Bea Miller, Raquel Sofia, Indigo Girls, Crystal Lewis, Miguel

Song of the Week: Bea Miller – Fire N Gold

Sometimes I go through phases where I’m cynical about new music…especially music from young artists. I don’t want to hear anything new. I think I’m done with that phase now. I updated my music blog for the first time in about 2 years. I’m excited about new music again. I want to share unknown artists. I will share here too. I already know next week’s song of the week. It’s sublime. Better than Bea Miller. 😉 I just posted this because her album finally came out this week. This isn’t the best song on the album. I wouldn’t put it in the top 5. Surprised it got picked as a single.

Watched: Big Brother, The Affair, Dexter

Movies of the week: Iverson the Movie

I finally got to see it! It came out on my birthday but I don’t have Showtime and I was on vacay so I couldn’t see it. I loved it but it didn’t tell me much of anything new. I’m a big Iverson fan. I know almost everything. (including the bad stuff). I saw Iverson play in person for a charity event. One of my best memories. I heart him.

Books of the week:  Something Must Be Done About Prince Edward County: A Family, a Virginia Town, a Civil Rights Battle by Kristen Green. Good book but too long. For people who already know about Brown v The Board of Education and other cases, there is a lot of stuff you can skip. I’m mainly interested in Prince Edward County. I know what happened everywhere else she mentioned. I’m 55% through. I’m not sure I’m going to finish.

Planner update:

this week's plans
this week’s plans

In case anyone is wondering….I have a Plum Paper Planner inside a Kikki.K planner. I recommend both! I didn’t get as much as I wanted done this week. Work was more time consuming than I’d plan.

Don’t tell your mother

Update to add: AHHHHHHHHHH! Just like I thought my manager and I will have a meeting on Monday. No, it doesn’t necessarily mean I’m fired. BUT it could mean that I have to work in the office or it could be just a warning (doubtful). Talking isn’t one of my skills. I really don’t know what to say. If she can’t see the truth than LOL. I have one sentence I can say. That’s it. It isn’t like I can google an answer to this unique situation.

If she doesn’t think I’m taking this seriously, she could not be wronger. I’m a single person. No significant other to help pay bills. No parents to help with much of anything. I could eventually live with my mom to have a roof over my head, but she has no money because she stopped working to take care of her mom. It’s all on me. I have to work. So YES, I am taking this very seriously. That’s all I can say….and I don’t think that is good enough.

Monday is the day. Nervous. Will my coworkers get want they want? Time will tell.

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I don’t know what’s going on. I couldn’t nap much this week. Napping is my favorite thing. 🙂  Was it because I was worried about my job? Or do I nap because my job is so exhausting that when I do work, I feel so tired that I have to nap? I don’t know, but I do know that my dog hated having the weekend schedule during the week. He was confused. Why aren’t you sitting at the computer and working mom? Why aren’t we eating dinner at 5? Uh, because we woke up later…remember?

Overall, I had a good week off. It was very relaxing.

park
park

I took my dog to the park on Wednesday. Surprisingly it was fun. I finally found the walking trail but by the time I found it, we had been there about an hour and I didn’t feel like walking the whole trail. We ended up taking a shortcut through the woods which was awesome. I love wooded areas. So that was cool. My dog wouldn’t let me sit down. I wanted to read a book by the lake, but that didn’t happen. We went around 10 AM and it wasn’t crowded at all.

On Thursday, I took my dog to get groomed while I went to the gym and ran errands. I took a spin class. Less than 10 people were in the class. Gotta love a morning class on a weekday. I went to the consignment shop but, they weren’t taking clothes that day. They do state on their website to call first but since I was already out, I decided to just go. Oh well. Another day.

The grooming didn’t go well. I expected that. He wouldn’t let them trim his nails. She told me to take him to the vet for that. LOL. The vet doesn’t want to do it either. But I will try there in early August. They have to cut his nails or I can’t keep him. What are the other alternatives? Anyway, he didn’t like the bath or being dried either. Oh well. I guess that will be the last time I go there.  I will do everything at the vet which costs more. Grrr!

Then my mom and I went to Red Lobster. Thank god I did spin and burned 400+ calories. Otherwise, I would be in trouble. I ate TWO biscuits. Plus I had the caesar salad. 😦  But I didn’t eat the croutons in the salad. I forgot a salad came with the meal. The broiled flounder was awesome! I skipped two meals (1 snack and dessert) so in the end it all evens out. She wants to go back to Red Lobster in August. argh. This time I will try not to eat any bread. lol. And just eat the salad and the meal.

Here is a pic of the salad. I forgot to take a pic of the main meal which would have been great food porn.

salad
salad

I saw 130.4 on the scale on Tuesday. It was only ONE day so I’m not celebrating yet. Today I’m back to 131.

This week I…

Music of the week:  Tori Kelly, Raquel Sofia, Crystal Lewis, Ed Sheeran, Nina Simone, Florence + the Machine, Mariah Carey, Shelby Lynne

Watched: Big Brother, Preachers’ Daughters

Movies of the week: Does watching a Lifetime movie count? 😉

Books of the week:  I finished reading Not Fade Away: A Memoir of Senses Lost and Found by Rebecca Alexander. Great book. One of the best memoirs I’ve ever read and I read a lot of memoirs. Moving.

Now reading: Something Must Be Done About Prince Edward County: A Family, a Virginia Town, a Civil Rights Battle by Kristen Green. I live 80 minutes away from Prince Edward County. I didn’t know the history of that county. I never really thought much about Prince Edward County prior to reading this book.  The author used to live where I live now. She talks about how racially segregated it is. I tell people online that that is true. But the way she puts it makes it really sad. It is like people are living in two different cities. The haves and the have nots.

I have a free Audible credit. I’m thinking about getting Ta-Nehisi Coates new book. I dunno. Is it better to read it or is it okay to listen to it? I don’t know why I mess with Audible. I don’t love audio books. I used to listen to them when I worked in the office because that helped pass the time, but now I can barely finish an audio book. I have to use my free credit by August. I need to get something…Every book I want to read I usually come to the conclusion that I want to READ it, not listen to it.

Planner update:

plans of the week
plans of the week

As usual, the weekend isn’t filled in yet.