No one loves me like my dog

The people who are upset over Starbucks cups must have great lives. I’m so jealous. I don’t go to Starbucks anyway. Overpriced and overhyped. I only go if they are the only option for something to eat/drink. I tried their egg salad sandwich once and it sucked. 😉

I did my Le Tote YouTube video. I had it public on YT for 24 hours. I’m guessing it probably got anywhere from 5 to 15 views. I would like to apologize to those people. I edited it okay thanks to easy to use editing software called VideoPad. But the sound was horrible and the lighting in some spots was atrocious. I don’t know why I kept it up that long. Since it was my first effort, I’d give myself a C- but compared to other videos, it was a complete fail.

I may do other videos in front of the camera, but I’m not sure what I would do them on. I’m not dying to get it in front of the camera. Trust me. I will still do my planner videos twice a year, but I don’t have to show my face for those. I barely have to edit them.

Every time I want to do a no spend, I give up with my first slip. I don’t want any slip-ups! I’m going to try a no spend December, but because of recent car repair expenses,  I might have to make an exception for buying things for other people. I’m not sure yet.  Unfortunately, I have to buy things like groceries because I don’t have a big enough freezer and some things like unfrozen veggies and yogurt don’t last a full month so I have to buy those.

Monday (my day off) was not good. It could have been A LOT worse for sure. Car repair expenses are never fun. I don’t want to relive that day. I’m also disgusted at myself over some things. Ugh, it is over. Wayne Dyer (and people like him) talk about all these idealistic things like unconditional love etc. I can’t even be human when other people are around. So what a damn minute. Did we skip over something? LOL. I’m only human when I’m alone. (slight exaggeration)

I’m going off on a tangent….

I want to do a slight ease into this no spend. I’m sort of starting now, but I already know what stuff I have to buy. Just no frivolous shit for me. So I might cancel Stitch Fix before I even start. What’s the point? I wanted to do it because it seemed like fun to get things stylists picked for you and it was only $20 a month (unless I decide to keep something). It’s like Xmas. You get a box and you have NO IDEA what’s in it. Fun! 🙂

Who needs that kind of fun?  BREAKING NEWS: I just canceled my Stitch Fix for November 28. Wahh.  That would have been so fun but so consumerist and materialistic too. *Pout*  I don’t need clothes. I wasn’t planning on keeping much but why tempt myself? Don’t spend. I’m also canceling Le Tote but here is the wonderful stuff I got in my last box:

I wore this dress for 9 hours on Monday. I love it, but I’m over it. I thought I would wear it out more than once, but now I’m now not so sure since I’m sending it back in 2 weeks.

maxi dress
maxi dress

I got this Jessica Simpson handbag *brand new*. It still had the plastic wrap and the paper inside. I love this purse!

letote7Nice poncho. I’ve worn this twice.


Love this ring. Used to wear these all the time when I worked in the office. I once overheard people discussing whether my rings were real. hahaha!


I haven’t worn this out yet. I may wear it Friday. I love cardigans.


I wish I could keep my subscription to Le Tote, but it is impractical. I simply don’t go out enough. I try to stay in Monday through Friday, but that doesn’t always work. For example, this Friday I’m going grocery shopping (I’m dreading this) because there is a big event going on and the major roads will be closed on Saturday. On Saturday, I’m going to the free gym near my house. I’m not going to wear the above clothes to workout. I’m staying in on Sunday. That is a typical weekend for me. So I don’t need clothes. It is fun, though.

I’m still debating whether I should have a cheat day for Thanksgiving. I’m probably going to the free gym that day so I will be working a little off but I feel it is too indulgent. I dunno. Still thinking…

No one hears the silent tears


12 days until March Madness/my 4 day vacay from work

67 days until my birthday cabin getaway (5 days of no work)

131 days until I have to pass a mandatory test to keep my certification :/ (also a week off from work)

Ugh. Verizon is going to make it really hard for me to get rid of cable since I have it bundled with internet. Those damn bundles. The good thing is that I don’t have a contract but I want to keep Verizon for internet. Blah. When I tell people what I pay for cable/internet, they tell me I have a good deal BUT I need to cut something and I’ve already cut other things so cable seems like the most logical choice. I don’t know what to do. I NEED the internet for work so I can’t just say “screw everything”. Trust me, I would seriously consider it.

I was getting really excited about cancelling cable and now…SCREAM. I’m sure there is someway to get Verizon internet by itself (but is the price worth it?), I just don’t know how. I looked over the website and I chatted online with a rep. No help. So I may have to make the dreaded phone call. I hate talking on the phone.

My ‘No Spend’ for March is going horribly. It doesn’t help that I’m getting a bonus from work next week. I’m still going to use most of the money for paying off debt. But I did pre-order a  gold faux leather personal sized planner for $35. (I don’t feel bad about collecting planners because they are easy to resell. If they are sold out, you will get more than you paid for it). But buying stuff for my planners has to stop. Ordering  take-out food or just buying expensive food has to stop.

The only good thing is that I’m more aware of where my money goes. I’m writing down every dime spent in my planners.

This Week I…

Music for the week:  Kelly Clarkson, Brandi Carlile, Ellie Goulding, Mariah Carey, Sam Smith, Brooke Fraser, Brandy Clark, D’Angelo

TV for the week: House of Cards, basketball

House of Cards. The following is only a spoiler if you haven’t seen season two: I don’t know what people expected to happen when Underwood became president. I knew it would be different. The president can’t get away with the same things as a person in the House can.  I think they are trying to make the show a little realistic. That is one reason I was shocked they let his character become president so soon. I thought “this show is over” but then I found out they were doing a season three.

I like this season better than season 2 so far. It isn’t much different than The West Wing. (I liked that show, didn’t love it). I think I have 2-3 episodes left.

Movie of the week: Blue Ruin. I miss watching thrillers . I’m so sick of romantic movies.  With that being said, Blue Ruin was just okay. It was definitely different.

Books of the week: . Etsy 101: Sell Your Crafts on Etsy, the DIY Marketplace for Handmade, Vintage and Crafting Supplies by Steve Weber (21% through) and I Don’t Want To, I Don’t Feel Like It: How Resistance Controls Your Life and What to Do About It by Cheri Huber (on page 40)

The Etsy book is very interesting. I also watched an Etsy 101 class on Creative Live this week. It is definitely something I want to pursue BUT I’m still thinking about product. Should I make my own inspirational notebooks/mugs/bookmarks/whatever or just sell supplies? When I say “make my own”, I mean outsource it. LOL. I don’t make anything except jewelry (on rare occasions- not a passion). I want to get started in June so I better think harder. 😉 Btw, outsourcing it is cheaper than making them myself. But the quality would be more Etsy-ish if I made them myself. By June I will probably come up with something totally different. My goal is to have a shop filled with things I would want to buy.

Knitting Projects of the week: I messed my cowl up at the car dealership! Wahhh! The guy told me my car was ready (oil change) and I jumped up and guess what? My cowl is messed up. So I’m finishing up my scarf. It is long enough to take off the needles now but I want to use all the yarn so I will keep knitting. A pic when I’m done.

Walked: I walked the most on Saturday: 7,563 steps! I still haven’t hit the magic number of 10,000.

Planner update: This past week’s layout:

weekly layout
weekly layout

I’m sort of prepared to do one of my planner videos. I still haven’t gotten my dividers from Finland so one video  is on hold until they arrive. I brought purple nail polish. My hands are ready. Now if only my voice and mind would catch up. I’m probably going to shoot the video tomorrow. I may upload the video tomorrow also. ::scared:: People do make money from YouTube videos. I’m not saying I will but people say do what you love and the money will follow. Okay………….

went through hell to prove I’m not insane

I’m starting my #NoSpend NOW. It is a must, not a want. This will be hard for me because there is an item I want that will probably sell out within days or weeks. The release date is March 2nd. It isn’t even that expensive but no can do. (total cost without shipping is $59 for 3 things). I am testing my willpower. I hope it doesn’t sell out. lol. I will buy nothing other than groceries through March 31st.

I still don’t have water. THIS SUCKS! I can’t even blog about it. It just sucks. It was 50 degrees on Sunday. Did I get water for one second? NO. ugh. :/

I’m stepping out of my comfort zone soon. I’m recording at least one video (probably two) and uploading it to YouTube. Of course the videos will be all about my planners. I’m 90% done with my Kikki.K planner. I’m waiting on dividers from Finland*. Then I will be ready to record. I already did a practice video and it came out okay. It will probably be about 5 minutes long. I talk really fast and don’t want it to lag. The video would be 10 minutes for the average non-shy person.

(*Of course I have to have dividers from Finland.  I couldn’t find any I liked from the U.S).

This is huge for obvious reasons. I’m not showing my face. No reason for that. 😉  But I will be talking *gasp* and showing only my hands. I won’t embed the video on this blog because this blog is supposed to be anonymous but I will post pictures of my planner. And I’m sure some people already know my youtube handle so you can go there and see it.

My biggest fear is reading responses…and having to respond. How many rude people will post? Hopefully not many. These videos are VERY popular so I expect at least 200-500 views within a month. I’d rather get an “unlike” any day before I get a rude response. Once I get my dividers, I’ll be ready to record. I’m definitely excited to produce my very own youtube content. But I’m also scared.

The other video will be on my Plum Paper Planner. That planner isn’t ready. I have only been using it since Monday and I’m just figuring things out. I will probably be ready for a video on that in April…if the Kikki.K one doesn’t scare me into hiding!

Here is an example of the kind of video I would like to do:

It is just a flip through of the planner. It is amazing how many people love these videos. Her video has been up less than 2 months and has over 30,000 views!

I finished reading  Get Rich, Lucky Bitch!: Release Your Money Blocks and Live a First Class Life by Denise Duffield-Thomas. This book is for people who believe in the Universe and manifesting. Simple as that. I wouldn’t recommend it to people who aren’t into those things. There are plenty of other financial books for more um, practical people. Actually I consider myself a pragmatist BUT I have seen this stuff work in real life so how can I not believe?

She isn’t just about sitting around dreaming. She believes in doing. That is how she got where she is. But she also believes in manifesting your own luck. Check out her website. I’m definitely a lucky bitch or I’m trying to be one. 🙂

Living inside a dream

Edited to add: I GOT MY $150 GIFTCARD FROM AMAZON TODAY!!! Happy Valentines Day to me. (I totally mean to yell cuz this is exciting shit).


Ugh! I have jury duty on Thursday. What do I do with my dog all day? And I’m off on Friday. I have a long overdue oil change scheduled. I hope I don’t get picked so I won’t have to cancel that. It would suck to be at the court on my day off. I’ve been “on call” for jury duty since January. I was hoping they forgot about me. Oh well. My main concern is my dog. It would probably be best to leave him at home and see how he does. If he and my mother got along (lol), I would drop him off with her.

I just don’t want him stressed in his crate and coming back to a mess. I could drop him off at daycare but if I have training at work or something, he will have to learn to stay by himself for long periods of time. I refuse to spend money on daycare daily!

Edited to add: I left him alone on Feb. 14 for almost 5 hours and everything went fine. He probably would not agree. He was stressed out.

Speaking of money, I’m doing a no spend for 30 days. I’m starting on March 1st. There will be exceptions like groceries (of course!) and maybe obedience school for my dog. I really need to do this. I’m currently keeping up with every dime I spend in my planner. I need to stop visiting Panera Bread and buying things for my planners.


10 days until I can use my Plum Paper Planner (squeal!!!)

16 days until my #NoSpend

89 days until my cabin vacation

To be honest things are going so well with my Kikki.K planner, I don’t really feel the NEED for using my Plum Planner. But I will use it. I want to know what to get for 2016. I have a feeling I won’t be buying anything because I can use both of my Kikki.K planners next year. No need for a spiral bound…unless I fall in love with it. I won’t know until I start using it.

Writing things down really works for me. If I write it down, I do it more often than not. I have my evenings scheduled. I even schedule a time for knitting and reading! It isn’t perfect yet. I’m still working on it.

This Week I…

Music for the week: Brooke Fraser, Ella Henderson, Brandy Clark, D’Angelo, Sam Smith, Ellie Goulding, Ariana Grande, Ed Sheeran

Sam Smith’s birthday is 3 days after mine. That makes him a Taurus! Say what you will about that zodiac sign but I have never met a Taurus who wasn’t extremely passionate. When we love something, we really love it. Extreme passion is a good thing…most of the time. Oh, and I’m so glad he won 4 Grammys and performed with Mary J. Blige (again).

TV for the week: The Twilight Zone, basketball

Movie of the week: none…yet. I’m thinking about scheduling a movie in. 🙂

Books of the week: Get Rich, Lucky Bitch!: Release Your Money Blocks and Live a First Class Life by Denise Thomas – on page 154 I’m doing all the exercises every night so this will be sort of a slow read.

Knitting Projects of the week: There was no knitting this week. I had planned to knit on Tuesday night but my mom called. The only good thing about jury duty is that while we wait, I’ll be allowed to knit. So I’m taking my cowl and a paperback book. (No electronics allowed!)