What am I supposed to do?

Not only the best Marianne Williamson interview but one of the best interviews by a politician…ever!

I think everyone probably abandoned ship after my last post (partially deleted). That’s okay. I’m fine with that. I’m done jumping through hoops. Going to be me. ALWAYS.

Marianne Williamson for 2020!!!!!!!!!!!!!1!!!!!11!!!!!

When did I come undone?

First things first – my dog. Well, I guess he is okay. They didn’t do a test on Friday so I don’t really know. They really think it is just his temperament. He is high strung. He can’t help it. He is a Taurus Sun (like me) and Taurus Moon. Okay, since I don’t know exactly when he was born, I’m not 100% sure on the moon part.

Anyway, the good news is that he has no blood in his urine. The vet thinks it’s just stress. Some people/animals are just naturally anxious. He is so much like his mom. 🙂 I bought him one more expensive bag of food. This will be his last bag. It’s $50 for a medium bag!! He’s going back to his old food as soon as this runs out.

I’m still concerned. I guess only time will tell. For now, I’m choosing to believe he is okay.

My dog is stressed. I’m stressed out about work and money. I did apply for a temp job. I’m pretty sure it was filled by the time they got my resume. However, the lame ass resume I sent her isn’t that impressive. I barely updated it. It pays double what I make now*. That is the only reason I applied. Well, and she contacted me first plus I kind of want to learn something new. The job I applied for was in marketing. LOL. I’ve hated marketing since I took marketing 101 my second year at university. The job would have lasted through mid-May.

*Double what I make now sounds like so much, but I don’t make a lot now.

I think I’m going to seriously start looking for jobs in April unless my current situation drastically changes. Wouldn’t it be nice if my side hustle took off? Expecting it to take off before April is probably asking a lot.

Astrology school update: As of right now, I’m one and done at this school. I don’t like that discussion is 40% of the grade in ALL classes. This shy, introverted person calls bullshit. So, the plan is to finish this class in mid-March and not go back. I’m taking a break until June. That break will be all about my side hustle. Then I plan to either take self-study classes at Astrology University (not a real school) or take a beginner to advanced course from the AFA. I can’t decide. Astrology Uni is awesome. I have bought audio courses from them and webinars. SO GOOD. But the course from the AFA covers everything, but it is all written or online. No videos. How old school. :/

I’ll make a decision after I finish this class. I feel like I’m no longer behind. I’m doing okay, but to be honest, I’m rushing through my assignments. I want to turn in good work, but I care more about learning than doing all this homework.

Politics: Not much to say compared to last week. I hope Fairfax resigns. I 100% believe the first accuser. I haven’t heard anything from the second accuser. I just know one exists. As far as the governor goes…sigh. I don’t like that his nickname was coonman. I can’t get over that. Plus no one will campaign with him for 2020. He’s dead. Herring apologized for wearing blackface. Whatever. Let him be governor. But I don’t think Northam is going to resign. He has to give a speech/talk on race right? What is he going to do? Say nothing and hope all this goes away? I’m sooo over this.

Not much to say about the 2020 folks. A few are announcing their presidential runs this weekend. No one I like. HA! However, I do have one video I want to share for people who don’t know what Marianne Williamson stands for. Oh yeah, Marianne was on CNN! I caught it on YouTube. I was so happy. I took a screenshot and posted it on Instagram. 🙂 I hope she can raise the millions she needs. I have to cancel a bunch of stuff before I can give. If she is still around in April, I’ll donate at least $10 to her campaign.

Here’s the video I wish every democrat and independent would watch:

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Maggie Rogers, Rozzi, Christina Aguilera, Taylor Swift, Ariana Grande, Rachel Platten, Lake Street Drive, Lissie

TV of the week:  Celebrity Big Brother, Nashville

Podcasts of the week: True Crime Garage, Pod Save America, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Why is This Happening?

Books of the week: Now reading – 

Plans for the Weekend: No overtime again. I’m going to the bank on Saturday to deposit a $25 refund check from Verizon before it expires. I could’ve really used that money before now, but since I’ve moved the bank is out of my way so I never got around to it. I’m working on astrology class and my side biz. That’s about it. I put a lot of time into something on my website and the response was lukewarm. I know that happens A LOT to everyone. But I only posted about it on Instagram. Hopefully, when I pin it to Pinterest and link it on Facebook, people will appreciate it. If not, I will continue on. That’s life.

Thanks for reading! It is now 11:48 PM on Friday night. I did my homework and blogged. I want to get to bed by midnight, so I’ve gotta go. I’m not proofreading tonight. If there are any errors, I’ll fix them tomorrow. Have a great weekend! 🙂

I met Marianne Williamson

And she’s a normal human being! 🙂 I won’t post the pics of her and me together on this blog because this blog is supposed to be anonymous. She was sitting and I was standing next to her. She was smiling and I had a huge smile. lol. I did post the pic on Facebook (which I haven’t posted on in forever!) and on Instagram so if you know where those are, you can see the pic there.

Here is a pic I took as I got closer in line to her:

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It was kind of awkward because I’m very awkward. But I’m not concentrating on that because Marianne meets thousands of people every year. Do you know how many slightly awkward encounters she has? It wasn’t that bad. I forgot she has hearing loss and I talk VERY low and mumble to people I don’t know. So she didn’t understand what I said at first.

I said, “I loved your New Year’s Retreat”. I don’t know if she ever heard what I said (I think so). But she did say, “thank you”. Btw, I had NO IDEA I would be meeting her or getting my book signed. They did not advertise that. I stood in line about 30 minutes. It didn’t seem that long.

The talk was great. She spoke for about 90 minutes and took questions for 45 minutes. It was mostly about America in general. This is the Love America tour after all. It’s hard to explain what she spoke about in a few sentences. Since I’m a devotee, I’d heard most of what she said before, but I still enjoyed hearing it LIVE. Thanks for coming Marianne.

My A Course in Miracles lesson this morning was: I place the future in the hands of God. That’s so hard. I took it to be about my trip to Los Angeles. Don’t worry about stopping in Chicago. I would feel better if I were stopping in Atlanta, but I’m just going to lay it on the altar and not worry about it. Besides, there is nothing I can do now. Hearing about all these planes cancellations isn’t helping.

I still don’t have water in my house. It has been 8 days. No water. Today it was 39 degrees. It’s funny how warm that feels. LOL. Please don’t let this be a plumbing disaster. I can’t afford it. Yes, I would have to pay for it. Not my landlord. He has made that clear. I’m praying for a miracle at this point.

And then there’s the vet and their incompetence. I make mistakes at work so I shouldn’t be hard on them.  I called to board my dog while I’m on my trip. She didn’t seem thrilled about keeping my dog even though she wouldn’t be doing it.  She answers the phone.  Anyway, she knows he’s scared around strangers so she’s asking me all these questions and I’m FREAKING out. What if I can’t leave him at the vet? WTF would I do?

My mom would watch my dog if it were warmer. She doesn’t want to have to take him outside constantly in the cold and what if it snows? There is no way she’s going to want to go out in that. Back to the vet: I did make a boarding appointment but she made the appointment for the wrong dates. :/ Ugh. Now I have to call again. I hate making phone calls. I’m just thankful they agreed to take him. He likes to be around me all the time. He’s scared of everyone else until he knows them.

Normally, I plan trips with my dog in my mind. I want him to come with me! I took him on my birthday trip last year. If I go somewhere this year, I will definitely try to take him. At this point, I will be happy with a week off from work. I don’t need to go anywhere this year. I’m going somewhere in less than 2 weeks!

Justin Timberlake is coming to DC in March. I really want to go. I would go if it weren’t for LA and if I knew how the water situation was going to end up. Sigh. I dunno. I’m not some rich bitch. ROFL. Let’s end on that.

They told you I’m crazy

I was crying in my car because my hands hurt so much. I left my gloves at home. I had to stop to get gas. The rest of my body was fine even though I wasn’t dressed that well for the cold. My hands hurt so much I couldn’t put my wallet back in my purse. I had to wait for about 3 minutes and put my hands in front of the heat for things to be okay.

Imagine being homeless and not having a shelter to go to during the winter. I really hope the temperatures go up. This is not normal for us at all. Not to be insensitive to the homeless people, but I really don’t know what to do with my electric bill. There’s nothing I can do. I just have to wait until March or until the temperature goes back to a normal 40 degrees.

UPDATE: I just saw that on next Monday (a week from today), it will be 45 degrees!!! Woohoo! Please let that be true. Don’t change. I will probably go to the park that day. It’s been way too cold to go to the park. My dog has been trying to lead me there some days.

The Marianne Williamson New Year retreat was okay. I loved some parts more than others. I usually love when she interacts with the audience, but the relationship part was dreadful. It was all “I broke up with my significant other and I can’t go on”. Uh, I can’t relate to that at all. Those whole hours were pointless to me. I’m pretty sure I’m not going to pay for it next year.

Some people hated the political stuff but I was fine with that. I’m going to see her speak this Saturday. YAY!  It’ll probably be 70% political and 30% spiritual. I’m taking the only 3D book I have of hers with me. I doubt she’ll sign it because she’s not supposed to be signing books. It’s a worth a try.

I bought this dress from Lyon + Post for Los Angeles:


I paid $5.00 for it because I had credits. It was also on sale. I don’t have that color. Mine is a bluish color. I’m not wearing it as a dress. Whenever I do wear it, I will wear it with black leggings. If I take it to LA, I will probably wear it to see Gabby. But I’m not sure yet. I have lots of clothing options. I love fashion!

I think I’m calling to make an appointment to see a new psychiatrist one day this week. Maybe tomorrow. I’m nervous. But I think my doctor being hurt and people have been saying things that lead me to believe NOW IS THE TIME to change doctors. I really believe the universe is telling me to make an appointment. I hope I can get one before mid-February.

I gotta go work on some financial stuff. ::crossing fingers:: Fun times. Bye!

I did one thing right

I have New Year Eve weekend plans!! Woohoo! I’m attending a weekend retreat by Marianne Williamson. No, I’m not attending live in L.A. I will be in my house viewing via live stream. Laugh if you must. It’s not cheap (unfortunately), and it took a lot of thought. To view it via live stream costs almost the same as being there in person. I’m not sure I agree with the pricing, but I already paid for it.

I don’t do New Year’s resolutions. I hate NYE because of the fireworks. (Where I live now that is not much of a problem. Yay!) I’m almost always in bed before midnight on NYE. 95% of the time. I just don’t get the specialness of it. But this year I’m ready for something magical.

I’m not waiting until New Year’s to start anything new. That doesn’t work for me. Why wait? If I know what I want to accomplish, why not start now? However, I do want 2018 to be different. 2017 was okay. The start was rough, and right now, it is very um, I can’t find the right words. Everything is so average. I feel like I’m flailing a little.

Back to the New Year weekend seminar: It starts on Friday night and ends on NYE (Sunday). I probably still won’t stay up past midnight to view the celebration part live. But I’ll watch it the next day. I decided to buy it when Marianne said that people who “attend” the retreat will have permanent access to the videos. Marianne describes it as –

I invite you to join with me for a celebratory weekend of forgiveness and healing, in which we wipe the slate clean of all the emotional bruises that have accumulated in 2017. Whether you wish to heal from personal sorrows or collective anxieties from the past year, or prepare yourself to manifest your greatest dreams in the year coming up, I will guide you through the principles and processes that lift all things to their highest place.

I know this isn’t magic and ACTION must happen. Why not do it with one of my spiritual teachers? I’m excited about it. I’m just glad to have plans for that weekend. I am taking my mom out to eat for her birthday on that Saturday so I won’t be able to watch everything live. But I will try to take the rest of the weekend off and just be present.

After that, I am seeing Marianne Williamson LIVE in my city on January 6. Tickets range from $35 to $50. We don’t get a private reception like other cities are getting. Strange. Anyway, I’m going to try to get a $50 ticket because those seats are reserved.

Unfortunately, she will be talking politics. 😦 I follow politics very closely, and I don’t need someone to preach to me about it. I prefer her talking about spiritual things, but hey, I get to see her live.

This entry is all about Marianne. Gosh, I wish Gabrielle Berstein would do lives events like Marianne does. I relate to Gabby much more. We have/had some of the same issues. We are around the same age. Etc. I would pay ANYTHING for her. Well, almost anything. I’m still not sure on Kripalu. So expensive.

I’m going to add my planner update here since I’m posting today. I rarely blog on Sundays. Anyhow, here is my first week in my new Get To Work Book:


I can’t wait to start using it daily in 2018.

Can’t nobody tame this raging heart

******BREAKING NEWS******* I just canceled cable. I know I’m late but hallelujah. Amen!


11 days until my vacation (woohoo!)

44 days until my certification exam *gasp*

I get my blood drawn tomorrow for more tests after I get off work. I know my iron will be low because it always is. They are testing for B12 deficiency too. Um, I just started taking a B12 supplement. I don’t know what effect that will have. I’m not taking B12 tomorrow, FWIW. Interested in getting the results.

I used to disregard Marianne Williamson because she talked about God too much, but now it doesn’t bother me at all. She believes in the Christian* God. I’m not there (yet?). I am now listening to all her talks, and she is the best at breaking down A Course in Miracles. I just feel moved to share that she does free live streams every Tuesday at 7:30 EST. This past Tuesday was so great. I watched it twice. She was speaking to what I was going through. It really helped me move on from the situation.

*I’m not sure I should call it the Christian God. She’s Jewish. But you know what I mean, right? 😉

People are throwing out names of Democrats who might run for president in 2020. I’d vote for Marianne Williamson. She’s the only person I would GLADLY vote for. I can’t think of any Dem I want to run (maybe Elizabeth Warren is ok- not sure). Marianne ran for Senate in 2014 and lost. Barack Obama lost his first Senate race too. But Marianne isn’t interested in running. At all. 😦 I would donate money to her. Volunteer for her. etc.

Why her? She’s very knowledgeable. She cares about my #1 domestic issue (mass incarceration)  She’s just fabulous. She knows everything, and we agree on almost everything. She’s a real progressive. She is sort of like Bernie Sanders EXCEPT she knows way more about race relations in the US than he does. Plus, she is a student of A Course in Miracles. She would use that to make decisions on policy. (The Course isn’t a religion, so it’s okay).

I bought myself a dress for my birthday. I had a $5.59 credit for selling my clothes to ThredUp, so I didn’t have to pay full price. The dress only cost $13.99. Here it is:


Purple is my favorite color, so I’m in love with this dress. I hope I can wear it. It is a size small, and I can usually wear a small, but it depends on the brand. When ordering online, I usually order mediums just to be safe because I hate sending items back. I don’t think I would trust a small from a store like Forever 21. Anyhow, I’m planning on wearing this dress when we go out to the beach and out to eat on my birthday. I found an amazing restaurant while browsing the net to go to.

P.S. If you are a new customer to ThredUp, please use my link to get $10 off your first order. And THANK YOU so much to all of you who have used my Lyon and Post link. Use that link to get $30 off. That’s a great deal.

My part-time job gave me a $20 Target gift card for my birthday!! Awww. How nice and very surprising. I was so nervous to open the letter. I did just sign another contract with them, but I had no idea what to expect. Now if only I were working. lol.  I’ll be patient. Eventually, I’ll be complaining about how I have no free time because I’m working all the damn time.

This week I…

Music of the week: India.Arie, Lea Michele, Mary J. Blige, John Mayer, Robyn, Ellie Goulding, Michelle Branch, Nelly Furtado

TV of the week: NBA Playoffs, Survivor, Pretty Little Liars

PLL is finally ending. Yay! I’m still devasted over the Washington Wizards lost on Tuesday night. Isaiah Thomas is amazing. I feel so bad for him. I can’t even be that mad they are beating the Wizards.

Movie of the week: none

Books of the week: I don’t know if this is politically correct to say, but I’m obsessed with Holocaust survivor stories. I decided to start reading Night by Elie Wiesel. I’m surprised I haven’t already read it. I also started A Course in Weight Loss: 21 Spiritual Lessons for Surrendering Your Weight Forever by Marianne Williamson. I’m not trying to lose weight right now, but I don’t want to gain weight either. I think this book will be interesting because it focuses on the spiritual aspect of food.

I’m browsing A Course in Miracles. I wanted to buy my own paperback version, but Amazon doesn’t have it in stock. My copy of the book isn’t due back at the library until May 24th. But I already see things I want to highlight. I’m kind of frustrated that I can’t highlight. Maybe I should just buy the Kindle version to highlight passages until I can own the book. I don’t mind having more than one copy. We’ll see.

I’m still reading  May Cause Miracles: A 40-Day Guidebook of Subtle Shifts for Radical Change and Unlimited Happiness by Gabrielle Berstein (on day 32). Almost done.

I finished reading Love Warrior: A Memoir by Glennon Doyle Melton. OMG. Best book ever. (slight exaggeration) Her story is my story. Well, minus the husband drama. I love how she found yoga. Great book. I love honest memoirs.

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren


Plans for the Weekend: I’m going to go out to eat at Ocharleys with my mom. I will probably have the salmon again because it was so good. But the burger is much cheaper, so I don’t know. lol.

I’m taking my final practice exam before I have the certification test on Sunday morning. I always get so anxious about these tests! They’re just practice. But I made an 82 last time, and I want to make at least an 82 this time. No pressure. I feel like I’ve been slacking when it comes to studying for my certification exam. I’m committed to taking it seriously. I need to spend more time studying and less time procrastinating.

Yeah, that’s about it for this weekend. Thanks for reading. Have a great one. 🙂