Ready to be free

Brief Nutrisystem update: I weigh 134. I haven’t lost weight in a week or two? Ugh. I went to a private NS facebook group and someone is having the same issue except she weighs 136. Well everyone (including nutritionists) seems to be in agreement: HAVE A CHEAT DAY! So guess what? I’m ordering Italian food today..with dessert. hahahaha. I haven’t cheated one day while on NS. This will be my first and only cheat day…unless I get stuck again and it actually works.  I’m so looking forward to later this afternoon. Yes I will cheat my ass off. 🙂 🙂 Hello, red velvet cake!


A business (see entry below where I referred to them as “snarky bitches”) has been treating me unfairly. I’m not sure how to deal with it. I can tell you what I’m NOT doing. I’m not obsessing over it anymore. I only think about them when I’m on my way to see them. Why am I mentioning it now? Because I just saw them this week and I will see them twice next week. Should I stop doing business with them? I am giving them my money and they are treating me like shit. BUT, I am getting a service for my money…I’m just proud of myself for not being as offended as I used to be. A change in perspective due to all this REAL bad stuff happening , I guess. (Not bad stuff happening to me – terrible stuff in general happening to others).

Btw, the other customers were flabbergasted by the way I was being treated. She was explaining to them, “I usually try to help new people”. Keep explaining.  I just did my business, walked on by and out the door quietly. Later, I had to LOL at her having to explain her behavior.


I called my PCP (general doctor) on Wednesday to get an appointment in July. The earliest she had was July 28!! How ridiculous is that? The only reason I’m going is because I haven’t seen a doctor in 3+ years. No, I don’t see a OB/GYN either. blah, blah, blah. I know I should. Anyhow, I just want to make sure that Nutrisystem isn’t affecting my health negatively. It really doesn’t matter because once August is here, I will be almost out of NS food. And I won’t be getting anymore.

So yeah, I made a doctor’s appointment because I’m curious about NS. Otherwise I would just keep not going to a doctor. Last time she told me to take a vitamin. Oops! I did for a while and then I quit. That is exactly what I will tell her if she brings it up. It’s been 3 years, she has to give me a break for that. But..the vegetables I’m eating daily -I can’t believe I eat 3-4 servings of veggies a day now!!- might diminish the need for the vitamin. I have no idea. I’m not an expert when it comes to health. I have a lot to learn.

I’m not taking the whole day off since my vacation time is right before that. I’m only taking 2 hours off. I was hoping to go to the doctor during my vacation time. Now I will probably go to the laundromat that day. Fun times. 😉 I also might get some clothes tailored. My life is so exciting! :/ I already had my little trip so no major plans for my week off.

Today is my day off. What did I do? Mow the back lawn. (I mowed the front Wednesday evening). And I ran errands. I also read and repriced items for my upcoming yard sale.

Oh! I did the estate sale. I get to pick up my stuff on Monday. I can’t wait to see the clothes again. Call me a label whore. I have clothes from Nina Ricci, Carolina Herrera, Yves Saint Laurent and more! YAY. I will (hopefully) sell some of these clothes at the yard sale. But I’m definitely keeping a few things. I didn’t get all the clothes I wanted. But I’m happy with what I paid. I did get one vintage purse. Unfortunately it is white and I don’t do white  (cause I can’t take care of it) so I will probably officially open my Etsy shop with that item. Or I may do eBay. I haven’t decided. eBay has been good to me recently. I actually made a profit off of my last two sales.

About the yard sale, I’m leaning towards putting an ad in the newspaper. I’m worried about rain since it is sorta, kinda hurricane season. If a storm is coming or near by on Tuesday, then I won’t bother with the ad because it will most likely be raining during the day (rain is common in the evenings where I live). I have no idea when the deadline is. I’m posting about the sale on free sites at the beginning of next week. I’m pretty much taking pictures of everything this weekend.

This week I…

Music of the week:  Lea Michele, Lissie, Kelly Clarkson, Mariah Carey, Kendrick Lamar, Kina Grannis, Florence + the Machine, Imagine Dragons

Video of the week – Bitch, I’m Madonna (the best. song. evah. despite Nicki Minaj being involved.)

Watched: NBA Finals, Grey’s Anatomy, James Holmes trial

Movie of the week: I’m planning on watching Gone Girl this weekend! I’m sooo excited. I read the book over a year ago so I should be able to enjoy the movie. Unfortunately, I watched the trailer today (whyyyy?)  and now I think I remember more than I wanted to. I hate reading a book and then watching the movie right after. I need at least a year in between.

Books of the week: I finished Eyes on You: A novel of suspense by Kate White. I gave it 3.5 stars out of 5. It was a page turner but it wasn’t great. It’s worth reading if you like suspense and want a quick read.

Also reading: Everyday I fight by Stuart Scott on page 225 I’m trying to finish this book over the weekend. I like his outlook on life. He hated small talk so he practically told people not to do it with him. OTOH, I am just standoffish so people won’t try that crap with me. Anyway, I kind of don’t want it to end. I’m scared of the ending even though I know the ending but what will he say about it? 😦

I should be getting Yes Please by Amy Poehler any day now…but until I get it from the library, I’m going to start Not Fade Away: A Memoir of Senses Lost and Found by Rebecca Alexander.

Article of the week: The True Destructive Force of Your Anxiety – from Scientific American via Salon.

…. This further supports the idea that anxiety, more so than anger or disgust, blinds people to others’ experiences.

Planner update and maybe a movie update later this weekend.

unapologetic bitch

woohoo! People are viewing my planner YouTube video. I refuse to check stats (for now) but I know people are viewing it because they are clicking on my links like crazy. Awesome. I’m thrilled…even though the video is definitely not my best work.

It looks like I will be going to the Jehovah Witness meeting. Bummer. She didn’t ask me like I thought she would so I didn’t get to use the “I’m not a believer” line. Now that I think about it, I don’t think I could have said that to her face. If we were friends? Perhaps. I can be brutally honest.

It isn’t like I have plans at 7PM on a Friday night. Last Friday I had a movie night. Yesterday I worked on my practicum at 7. So I guess I can go….What do I wear? Since I don’t work in an office, I only have one dress unpacked and that is my interview dress. Well I have another dress but it is kind of racy. 😉 I love that dress. I wore it in Vegas a lot. I will probably end up buying a cheap but cute dress somewhere. The event takes place on April 3rd.

I just got back from the free gym. I walked 1.77 miles on the treadmill. Only 3 people were in the gym including me. Note to self: Saturday at 11:30AM is not a bad time to go to the gym. I weighed myself. I weigh 142.2 pounds. 😦 Actually, I was quite relieved.  I thought I might be on my way to 150! During February, I hibernated. I did not work out at all. My goal weight used to be 120lbs. ROFLMAO Really??? So not happening. Dream deferred. Now my goal weight is 130-135 pounds by June or July.

This Week I…

Music for the week:  Kelly Clarkson, Madonna, Brandi Carlile, Christina Aguilera, Sam Smith, Ariana Grande, Meghan Trainor, Ella Henderson

Song of the week: Bitch I’m Madonna

THIS IS THE BEST SONG EVER.  (slight exaggeration) Okay, I am not even a Madonna fanatic but this song is the shit. If you can’t groove to this song, oh dear. It’s perfect. This should be the next single but how do they get around the word “bitch” on the radio? It is kind of important to the song. Anyone could say anything to her and she can say: “bitch, I’m Madonna” and she wins. I love it. I love it. I love it.

TV for the week: House of Cards, basketball, The Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt

I finished House of Cards. I loved the finale. The rest of the season was average. I didn’t think I would like Kimmy Schmidt. I’m really picky when it comes to comedies. I hate most sitcoms. I like my comedies to be like Veep (so behind with this show), Parks N’ Rec, 30 Rock, Curb Your Enthusiasm (the best!) and Desperate Housewives. So far it is okay. I’m not in love with it.

Movie of the week: none

Books of the week: 

Etsy 101: Sell Your Crafts on Etsy, the DIY Marketplace for Handmade, Vintage and Crafting Supplies by Steve Weber (40% through)

I Don’t Want To, I Don’t Feel Like It: How Resistance Controls Your Life and What to Do About It by Cheri Huber (on page 50) – not my favorite book by her.

The Shopping Addiction: A Cure for Compulsive Shopping and Spending to Free Yourself from Addiction! by  Jeffrey Powell (12% through)

My goal in life is to own a house in the country. I can’t do that buying frivolous things. Well, my short term goal is to have an emergency fund. I want the country house to happen in 5 years. I used to be so frugal. Now I need to be and I’m not. ugh.

Speaking of books, Amazon has a deal where you can try Audible and get two free audiobooks. I got 3 free books with my deal. I don’t know why I picked a Stephen King book. Like I will listen to all of that! I’m behind on listening to my audio books. I no longer have Audible. I just signed up for the free trial. Too expensive for me since I don’t listen to the books.

Knitting Projects of the week:  I have lost my knitting mojo. When people would talk about that, I’d think “I doubt that ever happens to me”. ROFL. I just can’t be bothered right now. I will finish my scarf while watching March Madness. I only have about 30 minutes to go.

Walked:  The record for the week is today. I walked 8,209 steps. I don’t think I will ever reach 10,000 steps. If it doesn’t rain on Thursday, I’m taking my dog to the park. I’m off that day (March Madness, baby!) so there will be no rush. I will try to show him the whole park although I hear dogs are not allowed in the rose bush or something? I have been to that park several times and I have no idea what area they are talking about. I hope I don’t break any rules.

Planner update:

weekly layout
weekly layout