Am I alive?

So far, two people purchased my astrology course. BUT I had to offer it half price to get those sales. Each person paid $20. The last day to purchase is this upcoming Tuesday (debate night!). I’m not expecting more sales. Maybe one more? Hopefully. But I’m thankful for two sales. I did mention that I cut the price because I wanted feedback. I hope these two lovely people give me feedback.

I did get feedback from a person I let see one module. They weren’t my ideal customer because the person knew too much about astrology. They said it was “too beginner.” Well, yes, it is. That’s the point. 🙂

Excited to have students. I’m also terrified. That’s why I pushed the start date from October 14 to October 21. I just couldn’t take it, plus I want to make sure the one worksheet needed for module one is in good shape. The other modules will have more worksheets that I need to get started on after I blog here.

I did apply for a part-time freelance job. It’s a work from home job. I did a test. It took about 2 hours to complete the test. If I don’t pass, I might try one more time with a different email address and my full name. The pay is not great. Some people make $150 a week, but how many hours are they working? I only need about $100 a week (in addition to my full-time job, of course). I just don’t want to spend 40 hours working a PT job to get only $100. How can I do much of anything if I’m working 80 hours a week?

I should hear back by Wednesday about this job. I’m hesitant about trying again because I don’t know if I’m going to be good at this job. I don’t want a stressful PT job. No way. Been there, done that. I might read about others’ experiences more to see if I would like the job before I try again.

I know I need a PT job because I had to cancel my therapy appointment due to a lack of money. 😦 I rescheduled for October 25th. My emotions keep going up and down, so I know I could use therapy.

This week I…

Music of the week: Lauren Daigle, Taylor Swift, Victory, Tori Kelly, Carly Rae Jepsen, Beyonce, Andra Day, Aretha Franklin

TV of the week: The Politician, Survivor

I didn’t think I would like The Politician. I don’t usually watch comedy, but this is a dark comedy. It’s full of sarcasm.  It’s on Netflix. Gwyneth Paltrow is in it, but not too much if you hate her. 😉

Podcasts of the week: True Crime Garage,  So You Wanna Be a Witch, The Astrology Podcast, The Jim Fortin Podcast, Crimelines, Online Marketing Made Easy, The Thing About Pam (overrated, but good)

Books of the week: I finished reading Everything is Figureoutable by Marie Forleo. Best self-help book in the last 5 years! Read this book. It’s everything. I wish I didn’t have the audio version, so I could highlight the important parts. But I’m not buying the Kindle version right now, I might buy it later.

I also finished Super Attractor: Manifesting a Life Beyond Your Wildest Dreams by Gabby Berstein. I listened to this also. I’m currently reading the Kindle version to highlight the parts I want to keep going back to. If you like The Universe Has Your Back by her, you’ll probably like this. Super Attractor is sort of like part two. I have to actually read it before I give my opinion. I was listening to the audio version while working.

Right now, I’m not reading anything new. I might start something soon. It depends on whether I get a PT job.

Weekend Plans: Nothing to do with the weekend, but I was off on Monday and Tuesday. I mostly worked on creating my course. I took my dog to the park on Tuesday and yesterday. I usually don’t like Fall, but this summer was brutal since my room was often over 100 degrees. I’m not off from work again until November 18. I’m off for the first 3 days of that week. I wish I had asked for more time off in December. I only have December 30th off, then I have to work on NYE, and I have New Year’s off. Blah. Oh, I also have Xmas day off, of course.

Today I’m going to work on creating my course. I mostly took yesterday off. I’ve been working my ass off! I deserve one day of just doing nothing. Besides going to the park, I did a bunch of business development stuff, which doesn’t count as work to me.

Thanks for reading. I hope to get back to blogging at least once a week from now on. This is the only way I keep up with my life these days. I have to get back to journaling on paper, or maybe I will try journaling on my computer since I haven’t tried that in years.

Have an excellent week! 🙂

Wish I hated everyone

I didn’t end up going to the psychic festival. 😦 I was so sick with allergies. Now I’m taking Zyrtec every day. Because I can’t swallow pills, I have to take the dissolvable kind which is ridiculously so much more expensive than the regular tablets. Grr!

Anyway, I don’t know what I’m allergic to. It could be the house, or it could be my dog. I adopted my dog about 8 months after I moved here. So I don’t know which is causing the allergies. I don’t see anything in the house that could cause it. My mom is convinced it is “invisible mold” because when my sister and I were young, we lived in a house where it took a while for the mold to show. My sister was always sick, but they couldn’t figure out why. So I guess it could be “invisible mold” or it could be my dog.

Whatever. If it is the house, I’m moving in less than 2 months and if it’s my dog…oh well. I’m stuck with him. 😉 Speaking of medical things, I’m getting my first flu shot EVER on Tuesday. I better not get sick. I’ve never had the flu. I’m only getting one because I signed up by mistake through work. I meant to just sign up for the checkup so I can save money on my health insurance. I might see if I can get out of it once I get to the appointment.

Let’s talk about more medical things because that’s exciting, right? I ordered more Abilify. I didn’t want to pay the $75 copay (between my dog and me, our meds are expensive!). However, I can’t stop taking Abilify right now. For the past two years, I have stopped around Christmas. I’m not into Xmas or anything. In fact, I hate it, but that’s not the point. I’m getting ready to move and I don’t want to go through the winter depressed and nauseous. I’m already depressed because winter SUCKS. I hate winter! I’m seriously thinking about moving somewhere where there aren’t winters. It won’t be LA because it was cold when I was there. lol.

Anyway, I’m going to TRY to stop taking Abilify in June of 2019. I’m going to the beach for my birthday in May* and then I will try to stop the Abilify. I’m on the lowest possible dose. I only take it 5 days a week. Maybe I should try to take it 4 days a week and see what happens? I think I will start that next week.

*Unfortunately this will be a semi-expensive beach trip. None of the hotels on the beach that I love will accept dogs. 😦 So I will have to get some really fancy place, even though I could care less. I don’t want to leave him at the vet. Besides the money I would spend on boarding almost equal what I’ll end up paying at the expensive hotel. My mom is coming too so I hope I can find a suite. In the cheaper hotel, we always got a suite. But the pet-friendly hotels, already cost too much so I will probably just get a room with 2 queen beds. As long, as the room has a balcony (A MUST!!), I’ll be fine.

Should I talk about moving? Noooooo! I think I’m in denial. I start packing next weekend. I still don’t have a move date. I’m still terrified of notifying my landlord. It doesn’t really matter when I move, I’m still paying for rent and electricity (so the pipes won’t freeze) until at least December 31. But I want to move to my mom’s by Thanksgiving. In case I haven’t mentioned it, I don’t have a lease. I haven’t had a lease in 5 years. Weird, I know.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Mariah Carey, Maggie Rose, Janet Jackson, Christina Aguilera, Carrie Underwood, First Aid Kit, Joan Osborne, Pistol Annies,

TV of the week:  Nashville

I will probably start watching basketball soon. Of course, I’m watching the news since they stopped talking so much about Russia.

Movie of the week: I might watch the RBG documentary on Ruth Bader Ginsburg. I don’t know much about her. All I know is that she is on the Supreme Court.

Podcasts of the week: All In With Chris Hayes, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Online Marketing Made Easy, True Crime Garage, The JJ Redick Podcast, The Bill Simmons Podcast, The Lowe Post, The Rachel Maddow Show, Why is This Happening, What Should I Read Next?

Books of the week: 

Currently reading –

Plans for the weekend: Grocery shopping again. I’m so fun! I want to spend time working on my tarot biz. This is quarter 4. I need to get busy. I need to put myself out there and start making money. I don’t expect a ton of customers. But I will be strategizing this weekend. I already know I’m going to offer 50% off every reading from maybe mid-October to November. Or maybe I should offer it through December. Oooh, what should I do for Black Friday??! I forgot about that. I have to think about it. Anyway, some of my readings are only $5.00 so 50% off is a bargain. I’m going to do a short Youtube video explaining my services and giving away the coupon for 50% off.

I haven’t mentioned this, but I’m also taking two online courses to make a big move during this time of year since this time is the busiest time for all businesses. One is a group mentorship. We meet LIVE on video once a week. I have to blog about that. LOL. I just had my first meeting on Tuesday. Scary!! And one is a productivity type class. I was doing my homework for that until I got the urge to blog.

Like I said, next weekend I’m focusing on packing. It would be great to make a big dent with that. I don’t have a lot of big things. I have a lot of little things. A lot of it will be going in the trash, but some things I want to keep.

Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend! 🙂

keeping it 100

I finished reading The Power of 100! Kickstart Your Dreams, Build Momentum, and Discover Unlimited Possibility by Shaun King. The following is what I came up with while reading the book. My list is not finished. Btw, this might seem like a bucket list, but it isn’t supposed to be that way. I don’t want to spoil the book, but I will say these are the categories he came up with. I like them so I went with that. As far as the dates in parentheses go, that is a rough idea of when I would like to accomplish each. I have a physical health* problem that I’ve never blogged about (and maybe never will), and that is what makes it so hard to come up with when I want goals done. Some things won’t be able to be done within the next 2-3 years due to that. So I’ve tried to keep that in mind and be pragmatic as possible.  Some things have no dates. Working on it.

*I think my mental health issues are well-documented. 😉


  • Do a charity walk (by 2016)
  • Join Peace Corps (by 2040)
  • Donate 5% of my income to an animal related charity. (by 2016)
  • Donate 5% of my income to a human related charity (by 2016)
  • Help people become responsible citizens after they get out of prison.

Health & Fitness

  • Go to the gym 3x a month. (by  2015)
  • Maintain a healthy BMI (starting now to infinity)
  • Take swimming lessons. (by 2018)
  • Take tennis lessons. (by 2019)
  • Master Pilates (by 2018)
  • Take an online yoga class (2015)
  • Do yoga at least 3 times a week. (2015)

Career & Finance

  • No credit cards or credit card debt. (by 2020)
  • Have a flexible job I like working from home (by 2017)
  • Retire early from full-time work. (by 2035)
  • Have an ER fund of $6000.00 (by 2020)
  • Find a career mentor.
  • Stop working and take a sabbatical for 3 months.
  • Work less, take more time off (2016)
  • Reduce work hours without compromising productivity. (Starting now)
  • Find a career that doesn’t feel like work. (by 2021)
  • Update resume. (2015)
  • Shadow a social worker to learn about that job. (by 2018)
  • Make at least $60,000 a year. (by 2025)

Spirit & Emotion

  • Tap daily in the afternoon (starting now)
  • Meditate each morning (starting now)
  • Read everything I can about minimalism. (by 2015)


  • Do a road trip from where I live to California. (by 2018)
  • Vacation in Bora Bora. (by 2025)
  • Vacation in Puerto Vallarta for a week. (by 2019 )
  • Visit every continent in the world. (by 2035)
  • Visit France.
  • Visit Hawaii.

Friends and Family

  • Go to Vegas with my mom. (by 2018)
  • Be a friend to someone in need.
  • Reconnect with my sister.

Accomplishments and Experience

  • Finish the novel I started (by 2016)
  • Re-learn how to play guitar. (by 2018)
  • See Ellie Goulding in concert (by 2016)
  • Take horseback riding lessons (by 2017)
  • Attend a Spanish immersion school in Oaxaca, Mexico. (by 2021)
  • Go to the U.S Open in NYC (by 2019)
  • Attend the Grammy’s. (by 2020)
  • Buy and/or build my dream house (by 2025)
  • Change the oil myself in my car. (by 2016)
  • Join Toastmasters ( by 2018)

Each year I want to write my main goals in my planner and focus on accomplishing them. At the beginning of the year, I will write action steps to complete the goal. When I finish my list, I’ll add it as a page at the top of this blog. I’m going now. I think I’m working late tonight.

I know what it looks like from the outside

I’m going to stop acting like I’ve already been diagnosed with cancer. What a novel concept! The waiting is the hardest part. I will find out soon enough (early next week – maybe Monday??). I know most people with cancer don’t have symptoms and I only have one (pain). The pain could be due to something else. I just hope that I can get a concrete diagnosis after the ultrasound and mammogram. I don’t want to have to keep going back. I’m taking 2 hours off on Monday to go to the doctor. I don’t want to keep taking time off.

Thanks for any good vibes. I’m terrified of getting a mammogram. I’m scared of the (possible?) pain. I have a feeling the people who say mammograms don’t hurt say the same about pap smears.

I have a bad feeling about all this, but I’m not assuming anything.

Yes, I know some people will judge me for my posts.  (OMG! She is like being totally dramatic!) Those are the same people that judged me before…about social anxiety or not having sex or not being social or whatever. I don’t care. Obvs. 😉 It’s amazing that these people who claim not to judge or gossip, judge and gossip. Well, it isn’t that shocking. People are people. Sorry for the semi-rant. Continuing…

I’ve been thinking about my life as one might do when they think they may get a bad diagnosis. I think I did okay considering all factors. The one thing I wish I had done more is travel. But I do consider it a big win that I left the United States. That was my dream since I turned 15. At one point I thought college might be a way to live overseas by studying abroad. LOL. I had to put some of the cost of school on my credit card so that didn’t work out. After that didn’t happen, I thought I would never get an opportunity to leave.

There are plenty more places I want to go, but I think I did okay with what I have (financially, mentally etc.). I have also been to a lot of concerts. This is so not what normal people think about when they think of their lives. I KNOW, but everyone has different definitions of living.

I loved a lot of animals. 🙂 People? ehhh, not so much. ROFL.

I would like to do a few more things. But right now I’m trying not to think of specific things. If you had a year to live what would you do? That is a hard question. Is money a factor? It would be for me. So I don’t know the answer.


This week I…

Music of the week: Carly Rae Jepsen, Maddie & Tae, Taylor Swift, The Weeknd, Tori Kelly, Nina Simone, Joss Stone

Song of the week: Rachel Platten – Fight Song

TV of the week: Big Brother, Curb Your Enthusiasm, U.S Open

Re: Big Brother – Go, Steve, Go! I would love for him to win. I support the socially awkward. 😉 I think he is playing the second best game. I thought him intentionally losing all those comps was stupid, but he knew what he was doing. Vanessa is the best player this season. I wouldn’t mind her winning or John. Anyone but Austin.

Movies of the week:  I watched 50 minutes of Dear White People. Bleh. It wasn’t interesting enough. I might watch Wild this weekend even though I hated the book.

Books of the week:  I didn’t get a chance to read that much. I’ve been working long hours. Still reading The Power of 100! Kickstart Your Dreams, Build Momentum, and Discover Unlimited Possibility by Shaun King  and  Luther: The Life and Longing of Luther Vandross (55% through) by Craig Seymour and Maybe Someday (on page 185) by Colleen Hoover. I would love to know where I got the idea to read this book. It is not what I normally read. It is borderline romance.

I brought Soul Shifts: Transformative Wisdom for Creating a Life of Authentic Awakening, Emotional Freedom, &  Practical Spirituality by Dr. Barbara De Angelis (WHY ARE TITLES SO LONG THESE DAYS???) It was on sale for 1.99 so I grabbed it. I know it’s crazy, but I’m thinking about starting this one tonight. Not sure. I’m living wild and crazy…with all these books. I heard her on the Hay House radio app. After listening to her for 30 mins, I decided I wanted this book.

I also brought a Wayne Dyer (RIP) 3-book collection. It was on sale for 1.99 also. I read most of one of the books. The others are new to me. Great deals. I don’t know how long they will last. I just know many books are on sale for 1.99 as of Friday.

Planner update:

plans of the week
plans of the week

This weekend I want to mow the lawn, clean and read. In that order. No working this weekend. YAY. 🙂 I really need to read if I want to finish my library books. Most of them are on hold so I can’t renew them.

Oh yeah, CHEAT DAY tomorrow (Saturday)! I haven’t lost a pound in a week so why not? I’m stuck at 125. I may not lose anymore and that’s fine with me. I only have two more weeks of Nutrisystem food left. 😦

I do it for the love

I booked my 3 day/night birthday vacay! woohoo! I was so worried someone would book it before I had the money. The last and first time I went to this state park was in 2013. I’m staying in a 1 bedroom cabin. It is really nice and most of all the quietest place in the world! That is why I’m going. Without TV or the internet, I will miss keeping up with the news. I already told my mom to text me if something important happens. I will be telling her again before I go. Of course her idea of important and my idea of important are not the same. (The New England Patriots did what???!)

I ordered my plum paper planner two weeks and one day ago. They said it could take 3-4 weeks. Why am I still obsessively checking my email to see if it shipped? Besides I can’t start using it until March anyway. Some people get theirs quickly. I customized mine PLUS I said don’t start it until March so why should they rush it? That makes business sense. But I still want to hold it in my hands.  I’ll have it by February 10th and then I’ll be complaining about not being able to use it until March. (WHY DID I START IT IN MARCH?)  The Bloom Planner is working out fine but without the sections, everything is so messy.

I’m thinking about skipping spin class tomorrow. I don’t want to use the New Year people as an excuse but that is part of the reason. Last week the class was full for the first time since I started going. All the regulars know they have to get there even earlier to get a bike they like. I have a test I really need to take so…yeah I’m staying in tomorrow to work on that. I don’t know how long the class will stay full. I have to go back eventually.

This Week I…

Music for the week: Paloma Faith, Ella Henderson, Mary Lambert, Jazmine Sullivan, Jessie J, D’Angelo, Carrie Underwood, Sam Smith

Song of the week: Ellie Goulding – Love Me Like You Do (from the Fifty Shades of Grey soundtrack)

TV for the week: Transparent

Way too much sex on this show! Besides that, I don’t really give a damn about any of the characters. Okay, I kind of care what happens to the main character but the grown kids? Who gives a damn? It could be compelling but they screwed it up. I don’t get the appeal of this show. I’m on episode 7 or 8. I probably will finish the season but I won’t be watching the next season…if there is one.

Movie of the week: none

Books of the week: I finished Coming Clean: A Memoir by Kimberly Rae Miller. I could really relate to Kimberly…especially after she revealed how shy she is (or was???). Good book. Now I’m reading Get Rich, Lucky Bitch!: Release Your Money Blocks and Live a First Class Life (love the title. haha) and Training the Best Dog Ever: A 5-week Program Using the Power of Positive Reinforcement. I already feel like I’m being pretty positive around him. I only bitch about him in this blog. 😉

Knitting projects of the week: Will I ever finish the purple cowl? That is the only thing I worked on this week. I haven’t been knitting much. I’m trying to finish a course by January 27.

All of this energy, been bottled for way too long

The last time I posted about Ferguson, I think I lost ALL my readers. And I didn’t even say anything controversial!! I just said don’t loot because it hurts innocent people and we don’t know exactly what happened. But that isn’t going to stop me from blabbing again. I had to stop watching the news this week. In fact, my TV has been off for most of the week. This has really brought out the worst in people. If you agree with the grand jury, you are a racist. If you don’t agree, you’re…I don’t know what. A police hater?  A dumb liberal? A person who plays the race card? (<—hate that term). People are just saying the most hate filled things, especially on Twitter and Facebook.

My opinion is almost the same as last time. No reason to burn down buildings. Some people have no job to go to now. That sucks….especially when you are living paycheck to paycheck. Eyewitnesses are unreliable. I said that last time. I don’t think we will ever know what really happened after the incident in the police car.


Onto much lighter subjects:

Even though I spent Thanksgiving alone, that doesn’t mean I didn’t overindulge. I will definitely be going to spin class on Sunday. Yesterday and today I worked 5 hours each day. Tomorrow I fear will be a much longer work day. Can’t explain. Can’t complain.

Since I passed the board exam, I have to pay annual dues, earn CEUs and guess what? TAKE ANOTHER TEST. The horror! Fear not, this is only a one time thing and it is given online. I can take it at home. Yay! I have a year to take it and I must pass it to stay certified. No pressure. I have no idea when I will take it.  I’m mentioning this now because I am currently taking a class to help me prepare to pass this test. Guess who isn’t all that motivated? I’d rather be knitting, sleeping, or reading etc. So there’s that.


Music for the week: Jessie J,  Taylor Swift, Tristan Prettyman, Lucy Hale, A Great Big World, Amy Ray, Toni Braxton, Mary Lambert

TV for the week: Big Brother Australia, Army Wives, Pretty Little Liars

Big Brother Australia is over. 😦 I might start watching the Canadian version next. I dunno. The Australian version is the best of all of them. Are Australians just more interesting or do they do a great job casting? hmmm. I said I would have a movie marathon on Thursday. Instead I started watching PLL again. I must have seen season 1 at least 5 times. lol. Can’t get enough. Did you know my two guinea pigs are named after characters on that show? Ezra and Toby. Obsessed, much?

Movie of the week:  none

Books of the week:  I’m 44% through What are You Hungry For?: The Chopra Solution to Permanent Weight Loss, Well-Being and Lightness of Soul by Deepak Chopra.  I’m 99% sure I’m not going to finish it. I don’t need to read this book.  I think I need You Can Buy Happiness (and it’s cheap) : How One Woman Radically Changed Her Life and How You Can Too by Tammy Strobel. It is about not buying STUFF.

Knitting projects of the week: I didn’t knit that much this week. I worked on my shawl. Excuse the knitting jargon that will follow. I’ve been working on how to do lace with the Craftsy class and a little help from Youtube. I finally know how to SSK (slip, slip, knit). I used to avoid patterns with ssk in it. Now I can do it! Awesome.

Knitting may just seem like some tiny hobby. But to me it is much more. I’ve been wanting to learn to knit since I was 10. I had so many knitting books but I could never learn. I thought I was doomed. What’s wrong with me? Why can’t I knit? Other people can do it. NOW I CAN…and that amazes me. In case it isn’t obvious, I love learning new stuff.

Crochet projects of the week: I’m just working on chains. I feel like I don’t have enough hours in the day to do everything I want to do.

Pics next week…if I get to work on my projects. :/

What if you never said anything?

This entry is full of random.


4 months and 12 days until Vegas 🙂

1 month 17 days until my board exam :/

20 days until the work picnic 😦 😦

May is usually my favorite month of the year but this year, the whole Vegas thing started on May 1! DRAMA. I hope June goes a little more smoothly.

Something recently occurred to me: What if my coworkers expect me to talk just because I show up? They don’t expect me to have a brain implant, right? (I would if I could). I will be meeting new coworkers along with the old. Not counting my manager, I think I will feel more relaxed around the new people. Not sure. My manager is a different story. I will be wondering if she hates me. Unfortunately her opinion matters.

I now know how to say things like “Nice to meet you”. I know normal people already know this stuff. They are way ahead of me. Social folks…sigh. I need to learn new sayings but my anxious brain can only remember so much.

I took a practice exam for the board exam yesterday. I got 66% right. Not too shabby considering by the end, I just wanted to get it done so I could get the answers. I was also rushing to get it done in under two hours. I need to get 70% right on the board exam to pass but this test was easier than the real exam will be so I can’t judge my performance by that.

I saw Frozen this weekend. Um. I trusted this would be good because adults liked it. It was okay. A little too far fetched for me. lol. It wasn’t terrible and now the soundtrack makes sense to me. At least not all of the main characters fell in love at the end. *gag*

Moving on…No NBA until Thursday. What are people doing without basketball? Oh, other people manage to get by? Interesting. I will somehow make it. More studying and knitting might get done.

After work, I studied a bit. Now I’m going to take a nap, study some more and then I might start knitting a child’s hat. I doubt it will be good enough to give someone. It is just practice. Why not start with a small size?

I have to take my dog to the vet tomorrow for routine vaccinations. I hope everything goes well.

I’m not cool

Day 5 without water. ARGH! This sucks.

I left my house yesterday to run errands. It was freezing! I thought my house was cold. Um, no. I haven’t been that cold since the 90s. :/#StayInTheHouse. I know I am privileged to work at home and not really have to leave.

Good news: I did not have to report to jury duty at all!  I will receive the next summons in 5, 4, 3……


Music for the week:  A Great Big World, Jillette Johnson, Jennifer Nettles,  Kris Allen, Britney Spears, Julie Roberts, Nelly Furtado, Miguel,

TV for the week: Sister Wives (I’m obsessed with polygamy), basketball

Movie of the weekLee Daniels’ The Butler (Better than I thought it was going to be).

Book of the week: The Witness Wore Red: The 19th Wife Who Brought Polygamous Cult Leaders to Justice by Rebecca Musser

Goals for next week: All I want is water. I want to invest in passing my boards but I can’t do anything without knowing what the water problem is. Trying to pass the boards could get really expensive.

So I guess I’ll remain the same

AHHHH! I won another book from Goodreads. Two days in a row. I guess it really is random. 🙂 This time I will get You Herd Me!: I’ll Say It If Nobody Else Will by Colin Cowherd. He is a sports radio show host. I used to listen to him every work day. He is socially liberal but financially conservative. He shares opinions on everything, not just sports. I know this book will be interesting. The only thing that bugs me about him is his whole “pull yourself up by your bootstraps” mentality. To me that lacks a sense of empathy. Call me back when everyone has bootstraps!

The book won’t be released until November 19. I hope I get my copy before that…not that that will guarantee I read it before then. I think doing a review for this book  will be easy. As you can see I already have a ton of thoughts on Cowherd. I could go on.

More good news: I got my money back from the maid service! YAY. I will probably never try that again.


I’m really having problems with this leaving the house thing. Tomorrow and Sunday I have to leave so I will. It is just when I don’t have to go out…


Music for the week:  Cassadee Pope, Maria Mena, Lissie,  Ariana Grande, Diane Birch,  Mariah Carey, Katy Perry, Sara Bareilles, Christina Aguilera,

TV for the week: Breaking Bad, Big Brother Australia, news, NBA

Movie of the week: The Other Woman

Books of the week: Your Sacred Self by Wayne Dyer (rereading),  Wishes Fulfilled: Mastering the Art of Manifesting by Wayne Dyer, Holler If You Hear Me by Michael Eric Dyson (Tupac biography)

Goals for next week: LEAVE THE HOUSE AFTER WORK.

I swear that it is mockingly. WTF?

******BREAKING NEWS***** I ate half of a biscuit. I also had lasagna. I went to Subway. I’m a naughty girl. Yep, you guessed it: I am no longer wheat/gluten free. I don’t know how I feel about it. This is the first “diet” (way of eating) that I’ve ever tried. I don’t do diets. But I liked the discipline involved. I didn’t like the lack of options. I finally got fed up when I noticed that the chicken salad and cole slaw had wheat in it. I’m so done!

I did learn a ton though.  (Wheat is not good for you!) And I won’t eat certain foods that I know are bad for me. That kind of includes pasta. Pasta makes me feel icky after I eat it. Anyhow, I will be eating healthier than I was before. No regrets. I don’t want to blame my decision on the cost of going gluten free but that didn’t help. It was more about options.

I won a book from Goodreads. YAY!  I won Something Pretty Something Beautiful by Eric Barnes It’s funny, 95% of the giveaways I enter are nonfiction. What do I win? a fiction book! That only matters because I feel obligated to do a review for the book since I’m getting it for free. I don’t like doing reviews at all but I am especially bad at doing reviews of fiction. I have no idea what to say…super glad I won though.

I also won a $20 Amazon gift card (not from Goodreads). I don’t know what I’m going to do with that. I’m scheming. #WINNING

*****Breaking News pt. 2******* My shrink took me off Abilify. Just ignore my depression. There is no withdrawal. I can start taking it again at anytime. When I started using it, about 3 years ago, I was suicidal. I’m glad to not have to get the prescription filled. I hope it works but since I’m already a little depressed, I’m a little concerned.

A year ago at this time I was in Oaxaca, Mexico. I miss it. 😦 I want to do a post on that later this week.