my fear became my shadow

On the 18th day or so, I have water!!!11!! Unbelievable. I’m so grateful. I thought a pipe might have burst but it doesn’t seem like it. YAY for water!


I’m thinking about cancelling cable. No it isn’t all about cable news (see entry below). It is about money. I’m pretty sure I’m going to do it. The question is when? The NBA season ends in mid to late June. I would like to do it before then. I wish I hadn’t started watching the season this year. It will be hard to not watch the playoffs.

As far as TV goes, I will try to get some channels through an antenna and a converter box. No monthly fees. But I’m not sure I’ll be able to get anything. My house is facing a bunch of trees. (Does that even matter?) I’m not really worried about it. Recently I’ve been having my TV off while I’m working during the day and I’m not missing anything. Watching basketball at night is really my main concern. I gave up football, let me have my basketball! 😉

That money will most likely go to another bill. I wish it could go to savings. So…….as of right now, I’m thinking I’m going to cancel cable TV in June. But I sort of need the money NOW. Hmmm. Still thinking it through. I will still have internet through Verizon. I need internet to do my job so that can’t go anywhere.

Right now I’m just going to have my TV off most of the time just to get use to the idea of no television. I may try Hulu. I don’t know anything about it. I just know it exists and a lot of people use it. But that would be ANOTHER bill so ehh, may not happen. Oooooh I just checked out what they have to offer! They have the ID channel. I might have to check them out. 7.99 a month? I can do that after I cancel cable….maybe.

I’m also thinking about cancelling my gym membership but once again I’m not sure about that. It is $30 a month. I do have access to a free gym through work. But the free gym and the paid for gym offer different things. What I may do is just go to the paid gym more. Get my money’s worth.  Go to water aerobics even though the teacher is a hard ass. (I can’t swim so I can’t do all the stuff and she’s screaming at us. And the floor of the pool is slippery and I’m afraid of falling. etc. etc.) I wish the free gym had a pool but that is never going to happen.

Right now I only use the paid gym for spin class 2-3 times a month. It is too crowded to just go there for the treadmill. And I don’t like lifting weights in front of a bunch of people so that’s out. When it is warm (very soon!), my favorite activity is walking. I cannot wait to take my dog to the park. That should be fun. Lots of walking.


kikki.k planner
kikki.k planner

I DID IT! I put my Plum Paper Planner in my Kikki.K planner. I’m in love. In fact I said “this is my new baby” while holding it and my dog gave me a nasty look. Sorry. It took forever. I did it the slow way. I kept stopping so I don’t know exactly how long it took. I did it over two days. It is so worth it. OMG. Love.

this week so far...
this week so far…

Don’t the gold rings look so much better than that spiral coil? Have I said how much I love, love, love my new planner set up?

UPS update: UPS lost a package of mine. It was a pack of ink pens – Pilot FriXion Ball Erasable Gel Pens, 3-Pack,  I went to the UPS center to pick it up because they kept saying ‘out for delivery’ but I never got a package. It wasn’t there.  I filed a claim so I could get them to investigate. I thought they would give me what the pens are worth since they asked that when I filed the claim.

All I got was a phone call. No apology in the voice mail. “Contact Amazon” was basically all she said. Really? No shit. This is YOUR fault, not Amazon’s. I had already done that and Amazon graciously had already shipped my pens (they came yesterday). UPS could have at least admitted to losing the package. Anyway, all is well now. I partially blame Amazon because they are known for shipping small things in envelopes. 95% of the time that is okay but UPS kept taking the packages on and off the truck because they couldn’t deliver them that day (due to snow or whatever) and the packages were ruined in the process.

Thanks Amazon for sending me another set of pens. They didn’t have to do that but I knew they would.

Reality deferred

*****BREAKING NEWS********* I’m going to open an Etsy shop!  I think I will prefer Etsy to eBay. I’m excited. I know it will be tough with all the competition but I’m going to do it anyway. I have to write out my plans but maybe my shop will open in June? I will also sell at flea markets (different items). I will probably do that once a month starting in May or June until it gets cold.

What will I sell on Etsy? Craft supplies, of course. I have a name but I’m not really in love with it. My first choice is taken. Anyway, I’m still in the planning phase.


kikki.K planner
kikki.K planner

I love kikki.K! They have to open a store in America. Imagine being able to go into their store and just pick up whatever stationary or planner you want. (!!) If I have to go all the way to Australia or Singapore, I will.  My large (A5) kikki.K planner came yesterday. It is so gorgeous.


Once again the rings are perfect BUT there is a small nick in the leather. It is undated. I have no plans to use this during 2015. It will set on my bookshelf. That sort of makes me sad. 😦 But that is the good thing about ‘Filofaxes’, you can use them any year you want. This planner should last for over a decade. Sure it will show some wear and tear (if I ever take it off the bookshelf) but I can use this FOREVER.

I have thought about selling it…if I have to. Currently it is sold out but it will be back in stock. I will keep the box it came in and keep it new as possible for a while. I’ll take it off the shelf and look at it from time to time but using it? Not this year. Does that make me weird? 😉

In the meantime, I’m having fun making inserts for my medium planner. No printer necessary. All I did was buy a $1.50 notepad from Michael’s and used scissors and a hole punch. I love these planners. Before I was all about the spiral bound planners but now I like both for different reasons. Here are the inserts I made:

homemade inserts
homemade inserts

They are just for random notes. It’s nothing special. They are just so easy to make. I have to get better looking notepads in the future.


Many “coincidences” and synchronicities will occur and the how takes care of itself. People will start to call YOU a lucky bitch.

– Denise Thomas

Or don’t take her word for it:

Don’t simply dismiss a coincidence and let it drift away. Life is totally interconnected. These unusual ‘things’ are simply connections that surprise you because you aren’t used to seeing life except in fragments. Now it is beginning to piece itself together.

-Deepak Chopra


This Week I…

Music for the week: Brooke Fraser, Ella Henderson, Carrie Underwood, D’Angelo, Paloma Faith, Ani DiFranco,  Butterfly Boucher, Taylor Swift.

D’Angelo’s performances on SNL were THE BEST I have ever seen on that show. Here is “The Charade”:

TV for the week: The Twilight Zone, basketball

I wish the Grammys weren’t coming on tonight. I have a career related webinar I need to attend. It is worth 1 CEU so I will only be half watching the Grammys. I hope Sam Smith wins something.

Movie of the week: none

Books of the week: Get Rich, Lucky Bitch!: Release Your Money Blocks and Live a First Class Life by Denise Thomas – on page 103

Knitting Projects of the week: I only knitted one day this week. Too much other stuff I have to do. I have a lot of deadlines in 2015. No pressure.

Wake when I wanna, if I wake at all

I’m waiting for my Amazon gift card (coming by mail) and my large planner from kikki.K (AKA A5 Filofax). I did receive my medium planner from  kikki.K. They shipped it express all the way from Australia on January 29th. And I got it on February 3rd. Talk about fast shipping! FREAKING Australia. I’m a little worried about my large planner though. It should have come the next day (Feb 4th). I hope it didn’t get lost. I wish they would provide a tracking number. That would solve my uneasiness.

I also got my Plum Paper Planner! YAY. It took almost 5 weeks to get to me but they do customize the planners. I get to start using it February 23 instead of March 1 because they added extra days. Time for a countdown….

18 days until I get to use my Plum Paper Planner

97 days until I go on my 3 night cabin vacay

Which is more exciting? haha.

Picture time. I have inserted most of my Erin Condren planner into my 3 ring binder. It looks ridiculous because it is so small. But it is useful so far. I’m tracking eBay sales in it. And also keeping a list of what I already have to sell and where I can get things to sell. I have to get rid of a bunch of stuff first. I’m going to a flea market in early spring to make room for inventory of “new” stuff. Whatever doesn’t sell at the flea market gets trashed or donated.

erin condren planner
erin condren planner

Here is my Plum Paper Family Planner:


I used a note to cover my name. I can’t believe they spelled my name right! Everything is perfect. The only thing I don’t love is how the cover is just regular card stock. Couldn’t they use something heavier? The planner does come with a plastic cover (see it?) but I still think the cover should be thicker.

The difference between a regular planner and a family planner is the 7 sections you get to customize. Here are my sections:


My sections are Today (AKA to-do), work, money and fitness. I left 3 sections blank. If I decide to get this next year, I will probably label the sections differently. I did this in a rush. I’m okay with it plus I can easily cover up the sections names I don’t use with a label or washi tape.

I added note pages to the end of each month and a bill tracker to every month. The total cost with shipping was $47.00. That is still cheaper than an Erin Condren planner. Something else I would do differently is add note pages to the end of the planner. I didn’t do it this year because I thought it would be too bulky. argh. My one regret.

I can’t wait to start using it.

Here is my kikki.K medium lilac and gold planner:


I don’t have a problem with the rings (like many people do). The only issue I have is that it won’t lay flat. That isn’t a problem for me but I have noticed that most people don’t have this issue. Maybe with use, it will lay flat?

inside my planner
inside my planner

Like my Target ink pen? 😉 It is so pretty and new. I don’t want to write in it which is silly, I know.

That’s it for now. I’m all planner this, planner that. But that is mostly what is going on right now. I’m trying to figure out what works. The planner(s) are helping during the week. But my weekends are still a mess. I waste too much time…especially on Sundays. I like to do something in the morning (workout, chores, whatevs) and then get back in the bed for a couple of hours. My dog does not like that. He will pull on the covers until I get out of bed. Bad boy!

It will take a while to come up with a system. But I am very pleased with how tracking my time is working on week days. However, it doesn’t help with work at all. I don’t know what I need for that…magic.

Wait For It Ladies

I’ve died and gone to planner heaven…or hell. I got a 2015 Erin Condren Planner from eBay for $12 (including shipping!). It is dated from Feb. 2015 to Dec. 2015.  Here’s the catch: It is uncoiled. That is why it was so cheap. Not many people want a bunch of uncoiled pages but I do. I’m going to cut off the edges and hole punch it to fit into a 3-ring binder.  (I will post a video from Youtube on how to do this once I get my planner). It will take a loooong time to do. I hate binders because they are so big but it is the cheapest option. This planner will rarely leave the house.

The Erin Condren Life Planner (ECLP fom now on) will be for my eBay business only. Yes, I’m going to start (or continue) selling on eBay. I can’t make anything sell worthy. I have no social skills. I’m not talented. What else am I supposed to do? This is my only option. The good thing is, I like selling. But I’d rather sell at flea markets. Since I don’t enjoy being around people, that is kind of weird. Sell in person??! Anyway, eBay will do.

My point is that I will use my ECLP for everything related to my new hustle. Nothing personal will be in it. I will have plans for going to yard sales/flea markets, when auctions start and end, expenses etc. etc. I have an auction going on now. I thought I would start slow and get back into the flow of selling.

(To get $10 off a Erin Condren Planner you can use my link).

That’s not it. NO. I also got….wait for it. A Kikki.K planner! AHHHHHHHHHHHH! I wanted the big one so bad but I had no real use for it so I got the medium. It will replace my wallet. I got it for 50% off. It just happens to be the latest version which is purple. My favorite color is purple. (OMG – Like are u serious??!!1) Kikki.K is an Australian based company but their shipping is affordable worldwide.

Here is a video of the planner: (Skip to around the 4 minute mark to just see the planner)

I know she had a few negative things to say about the planner but at 50% off I decided it was worth it. Besides, isn’t it gorgeous?

I doubt I use this planner for planning. Shocking, I know. It will be a wallet and what I pull out at doctor’s appointments. I’ll keep track of the major things in there, of course. It will go with me everywhere. The Plum Planner (will it ever ship?) and ECLP will mostly stay home.

So in summary….My Plum Paper Family Planner is my personal planner. Everything (except ebay??) will go in there. My ECLP will be for eBay only. My Kikki.K is basically a fancy wallet. A grown up wallet. You should see the purple (!) $10 wallet I have now. It is pretty but it looks cheap. Obviously I don’t care about looks because I brought it 6 months ago and use it everyday. It will be nice to have something fancier.

I know some people don’t get why people need more than one planner but I kind of explained my reasoning in the last paragraph. Well I don’t need it but youknowwhatImean.

Planner heaven or hell? I don’t know. I haven’t gotten anything yet! My ECLP should arrive first – Friday or Saturday. Can’t wait. 🙂 Pics of the planners once they come.