They always say I don’t fit in

Ha! The letter to the landlord worked. Kind of. He still wants me to pay $1500, and then I’m done!! At first, he wanted me to pay $14,000. LOL. What happened to that amount? He knew he was wrong. He knew that wasn’t legal. I didn’t even mention I had a lawyer in my letter to him even though people told me to. I didn’t say that because I didn’t want to be dishonest. Anyhow, I “only” have to pay him $400 a month until I pay off the $1500. Some people would tell me not to pay that, but I will. It’s not worth hiring a lawyer to fight $1500.

Woohoo! I was so scared he was going to take me to court and then I would have to hire a lawyer. I would have tried to settle versus going to court. But I still would have to had to pay the lawyer. I’m so grateful to the people who told me to fight this. Sometimes people are awesome. 😉 Too bad I was paying to talk to both of those people. I don’t have friends, so I get nothing for free.

18 people ended up signing up for my free astrology email course. Not bad. I just wish I knew if they liked it. I can’t control that, but what’s the point if everyone hated it? I know I like to teach astrology, but that doesn’t make me a good teacher. I’m doing another free course at the end of this month. This time it will be a free VIDEO course. I hope I can get more than 18 people to sign up for it since the topic is better and it’s video. I’m supposed to be working on that now. And my big NOT FREE course will start around October 14th. I still don’t know the price. I think I’m going to price it at $47. Not sure. Asking people to spend money makes me uncomfortable. I’m fine with charging under $20. But there’s no way, I’m going to sell an astrology 101 course with five modules for $20. People won’t buy it because it is priced too low.

Election 2020: Anyone who supports Joe at this point is hmmm, what’s a nice word? Uninformed? He is clearly suffering from dementia. It’s sad. I wonder what would happen if he were president. I think the chances of that happening are low, but what if? I think we would rarely see him. He would have to resign and let his VP step in. When Biden was going on about record players, almost everyone was looking down uncomfortably. Kamala looked embarrassed. Warren looked like she just wanted it to be over.

Sigh. At least Booker said something later on CNN about how Biden might not be the best candidate if he can’t speak coherently. He wasn’t that blunt, of course. I think it is irresponsible of the media to let this go on. Thank god for Twitter where a few brave souls called what Biden said racist (it was) and said he had a meltdown. I hate to say calling it racist is a distraction, BUT the point is, he isn’t mentally healthy. Most people (black, white, brown) aren’t going to believe Biden is a racist. I knew he wouldn’t last 3 hours. Someone with mental decline can’t stand up for 3 hours in that situation. He needed a long break. He’s probably fine in the mornings after sleep.

As far as Biden on race, he has always been bad on race. He’s been saying racist things for at least 40 years. Look at his policies too. It’s not just what he says.

Oh, and Joe was wrong when he said the Obama administration didn’t keep children in cages. But who cares? JOE FOR AMERICA!!!11!!!1!!

About Castro, it was a low blow because he kept going on and on and spoke over Biden. If he had just made a comment about “what you said 2 minutes ago” and stopped, I probably wouldn’t call it a low blow.  I still support Castro for VP. 🙂 Too bad this will probably hurt him. He has made the October debate, so maybe he can redeem himself. Anyhow, I don’t think what he said was mean because this is politics. Anything goes (unfortunately). Trump would kill Biden. I don’t even want to think about it. The Republicans probably want Biden to be the nominee so bad because they know they’ll win against him.

This week I…

Music of the week: Ma Muse, Ayla Nereo, Aretha Franklin, Beyonce, Rising Appalachia, Ariana Grande, Lykke Li, Missy Higgins

An article just came out about how people are listening to less music. I hope this doesn’t affect people from releasing music. I’ve been listening to less music because I’ve been concentrating on listening to astrology business-related stuff. I still listen to music about 5 days a week, but I used to listen to music every single day.

TV of the week: Big Brother, Mindhunter

Podcasts of the week: True Crime Garage, Hell and Gone, Pod Save America, So You Wanna Be a Witch, The Astrology Podcast, The Jim Fortin Podcast

Books of the week: 

Weekend Plans: I was off Friday. I’ve been sleeping until 9AM!! I never do that. It is 100% due to the new meds I’m taking. I have stuff to do. I can’t sleep until 9. That’s not okay. I’m working on creating astrology content. That’s my number 1 priority. I have to go create Instagram content now. Fun times.

Have a great weekend. 🙂 Thanks for reading!

About Joe Biden Again

haha. Okay. He is an excellent choice for moderates, Obama loving folks, and non-thinking people. They can think. They just don’t want to. “There are too many people running so I’ll just stick with the safe choice.” You know how people are. They won’t bother to research Booker, Beto and who the hell is Marianne Williamson or Yang? They don’t even know! 

I have a lot more to say about election 2020, but I had to get this out. Right now. 🙂 Elizabeth Warren is crushing it. Too bad no one cares.

I’m probably going to mention in almost every post that the version of my site will probably work forever. But I’m not 100% sure. Haven’t had time to research it. I hope to research it this weekend and I will probably redo this site.

About Joe Biden

UPDATE: I’ve changed my mind. I think this behavior should disqualify him from running OR let him run and let America decide. Of course people don’t care how a woman doesn’t want to be kissed or touched so it won’t matter to the majority of people. Sigh. He should be smart enough not to run.


As I’ve said 100 times before, I’m not interested in voting for Biden due to his policies. But about him kissing women…um, I’m SHOCKED that so many people are giving him a pass.

I consider that a violation. I don’t like being touched. Everyone is different. A person can’t go around kissing and touching people. Who the fuck are these people that think this is okay??? WTF?

Flores might have ulterior motives. Whatever. But she is well within her rights to feel violated. I would feel the same. NO ONE BETTER KISS ME WITHOUT PERMISSION. That is not okay!!!! Don’t touch me either. Okay?

With that being said, I don’t know how I feel about this coming out now. I don’t want him to be president, but I also don’t want him to not run because of this. Does that make sense? I’m conflicted about that. I would love for him to NOT run (because he might win) but I don’t want this to be the reason he loses.

Just a few thoughts.

P.S Don’t fucking touch me. Ever…even Joe Biden.

people aren’t bad?

*Lunch date*

Like I said on twitter, it wasn’t that bad. I had to fill the silences though. If it was silent for more than 5 minutes I just threw a question out there. Even lame stuff like, “Are you a sports fan?” No she wasn’t. LOL. In the past I would have just waited for her to say stuff. I guess I’m not as bad as I thought. Well I know I’m better one on one.

When we first left the building it was bumpy. There was another person there leaving at the same time we were. They talked. I said nothing. I looked down, no eye contact. I was thinking, ‘SAVE ME’. At that point I thought, “this could be a total disaster’. Luckily the other person went on her way. I suck at groups…even when it is just 3 people!

So my social anxiety is still in effect. I just freeze in groups.

One dramatic thing did happen. She freaked out because she thought I might be an atheist! She asked me if I went to church. I said “no”…probably too wearily. Then she started going off on “I’m with an atheist!” ROFL. It was so weird. Too strange. I’m thinking people in the office may think I’m an atheist. I have identified that way for brief periods of my life but not now. Buddhist aren’t atheists, right??? How can any spiritual person be an atheist?

No, I don’t believe in the god that Christians worship. I choose not to. I have to point out that I did have a quote on my desk by Buddha. She probably never saw it but I know people talk. So I’m guessing that my melancholy nature plus my Buddha quote might lead my coworkers to believe that I don’t believe in a God. I don’t believe in the god they do but I believe in the universe. Is that atheist? IMO, no. Any spiritual person believes there is something bigger than them. Some people call it god, I don’t.

Anyway I’m pleased with the way it went. She said she was too but that is the polite thing to say. I don’t feel I can tell my therapist though because she wants me to have friends. ugh. So she will try to push me to ask her to do stuff. etc. I’m just cool with having an acquaintance at work.

Project organization was officially started yesterday. My mom was a god and cleaned my kitchen while I worked on the living room. I actually threw away 4 pieces of clothing!!! All from the thrift store, of course. I’ve been saying I wanted to donate the clothes to a homeless shelter but the stuff I threw away yesterday was beyond repair. What keeps me from donating (or even selling on Ebay) is having to have the clothes dry cleaned first. Yes horrible excuse. I hate dry cleaning clothes.

I still have a lot to do. I brought a clothes rack that I have to put together. But I also have a bio test tomorrow night so I have to balance things.
Random: Sometimes I feel bad for Joe Biden. It’s clear that Obama and Biden are opposites. To be in that administration he must feel like “I can’t be myself”. Clearly I’m projecting. He is probably not a feeler (Obama allegedly is though) Why am I thinking this nonsense right now? I’m watching “Meet the Press”. I miss Tim. 😦