still like hotels, but I think that’ll change


I’m back from my solo getaway. It was nice and relaxing. I stayed at Hilton Hotel and Spa. It was a free night from ย  I’ll start with the drawbacks of the hotel first:

  • no microwave (yet there is a mini fridge)
  • the slamming doors (AHH! Why do some hotels have this issue? I had to be extremely careful and slowly close the door each time or else it would slam. Do you think everyone did that? Really? Whoever decision that was…I could strangle you. So people with small kids or people who have to sleep abnormal hours: stay away)
  • No bathtub would be a drawback for some. The only problem I had with the bathroom was the water in the shower only stayed hot for 5 minutes then it went lukewarm.

I loved the decor. I had breakfast in the hotel. That was better than average. The pool is probably awesome but I wouldn’t know since it was never empty. Even at 6:45AM this morning someone was there working on it. The gym was great. It was empty several times. I used the treadmill once.

So instead of the Hilton, I would recommend people stay at the Sheraton…only because of the slamming doors. I can’t stand that. Obvs. ๐Ÿ˜‰ Note to self: Anytime I think living in an apartment/townhouse might be an option, stay at a hotel for a few nights. That’ll change my mind.


I had a Macy’s gift card from Xmas. Damage was done yesterday.

I'm in love!
I’m in love!

I shouldn’t be saying this in an anonymous blog but I’m wearing this to the spring gathering that I’m being forced to go to. I hope they cancel it. I can wear that blouse anywhere.

I have a couple of options for bottoms:

option 1
option 1
option 2
option 2

Ripped jeans are probably out and I should probably stop shopping in the juniors section but I don’t love the jeans in the women’s section. They’re just okay. blah.

Anyway, I was glad to go to Macy’s -one of my favorite stores- and actually buy stuff. No more new stuff. I hope to go to a thrift store this summer.


Music for the week: Ingrid Michaelson, Ellie Goulding, Lea Michele, Christina Perri, Joan Osborne, Juanes, D’Angelo, Eric Hutchinson

Loving the new Ingrid.

TV for the week: NBA playoffs, Desperate Housewives

Wow, I forgot how much I live for the playoffs. Yesterday was great. Looking forward to another great day of ball today.

Movie of the week: ย 12 Years a Slave

I finally watched it. It was okay. It is not a must see film. I would recommend just reading the book. Everything is identical to the book. The film didn’t add a lot for me. (I started the audio book but didn’t finish it…not because it sucked, I rarely finish audio books).

Books of the week:ย ย ย ย Hiddenย by Catherine McKenzie,ย Die My Loveย by Kathryn Casey,ย Forgiveness: 21 Days to Forgive Everyone for Everythingย by Iyanla Vanzant

I haven’t been doing a lot of reading lately. I’ve been knitting and playing Monopoly (when not working/doing school work). My goal is to finish at least one of these books this week.

Tonight Tonight


President Obama. I doubted him. I always knew he was really for gay marriage but WOW to announce this now…. I’m impressed. Looks like I will be voting for sure in November. (I was 75% for voting prior to this announcement). WOW.

Kudos to the Pres. YOU ROCK OBAMA*!

*Oh, this still does not excuse all your promises you have reneged on. And I’m still bitter at one of his policies.

I’m actually sort of happy about this! YAY. ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚


Um, what did I just do???! I’m staying at the beach for an extra night. I’ve never stayed anywhere for 4,ย  5 or 7 days. Yet 3 nights at the beach felt like a week to me so I figured why not? I don’t know….So I’m heading to the beach Monday afternoon after working a full day. I kept going back and forth about this. I kept thinking about how good it would feel to wake up on Tuesday at the beach instead of driving there on Tuesday.

I hope it is worth it. ๐Ÿ™‚ Another thing is that I’m staying at two different hotels during this trip. I’ve stayed in both hotels before. What I don’t like about the Monday night hotel is the *wait for it* NOISE. That is why even though this hotel is cheaper I chose not to stay there for the other two nights. But for one night, I can deal. Maybe I will have quiet people above me this time? (please! please!)

The last time I stayed there I was in bed watching the end of the late NBA playoff game (around 11:30PM) and the guys above me were watching the hockey playoffs. OMG, they were loud. Cheering for every goal. Blah, blah, blah. I even went on the balcony to avoid them but I think they had their balcony door open because that didn’t help. Anyway, the noise and the sleeper sofa sucks. Everything else is pretty good.

The weather doesn’t look great. It will be warm during the day and around 60 degrees at night. That isn’t the issue. It is supposed to rain on my birthday! ๐Ÿ˜ฆ hehe. I’m sure I will still enjoy being there anyways. But now I have to pack more than maxi dresses.


I really need to stop selling Avon. I don’t want to because I have 2 consistent customers. For some reason I got 4 calls and 1 email from new people wanting Avon. I was freaked out. Guess what I did. I “lost” my cell phone for 5 days. I didn’t try to find it. I didn’t check my voice mails. How do you spell “avoidance”?ย  Nope, I didn’t call any of those people back. (am I supposed to feel bad? I do but I don’t do phones).

However I did email the one person who emailed me…5 days later. And now I’m scared to check my email.

I suck at this. ugh.


in my dreams I’m waking up to roses

I interrupt this gloomy blog to say: This hotel is awesome!!! ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ˜‰ I made it to NOVA (aka Northern Virginia) around 5PM yesterday.

The only downside is that their is a surcharge for internet access. Normally I would never book a hotel that doesn’t have free internet access. I’m not sure why I did…but I’m glad to be here. I have internet until 7:45 tonight. I only paid for 24 hours. I’m leaving tomorrow (Sunday) so that’s fine.

I could live here. This place is like an apartment. THERE IS A (free) BREAKFAST BUFFET with real food. You don’t have to make your own waffles. I don’t even eat waffles but I had one today. The many chairs and bed is so comfy. I love it. They even offer free drinks (alcohol). When I found this out I said a little too loudly:

Let’s get wasted!!!

The hotel security looked at me suspiciously. LOL. I don’t even drink. However, it is free and I might try a drink tonight. I don’t know.

I just drove my mom to her business meeting. I don’t know what to do now. Oh, I’m so glad the Redskins are playing out of town. We would never be able to get home. Yesterday I was freaking out because I the obsessed sports fan, completely forgot that the Redskins play here…on Sundays. Eventually I found out they are on the road. YAY! The last thing I want to run into is that traffic. I would never get home.

Back to the hotel: The lobby looks like a 5 star place. It has this gorgeous waterfall. If I can’t be at the beach, that is the next best thing. ๐Ÿ™‚ People get married here. I totally get why. I really need to stop gushing and figure out what I’m going to do today.

It’s raining a little. At 3PM, I’m going to the mall. But I have about 6 hours to kill. I may go to the park – yeah in the rain. What else is there to do? If I were a Redskin fan, I would drive by there and take pictures but um, I sorta hate the organization (versus the players – it is hard to hate them when I see them on TV constantly).

(I have taken pictures of the hotel but I don’t know when I’m going to post them. I lost my camera cable. In fact, I have a ton of pics to post but I can’t until I find the cord).

Oh well.

Set Fire to the Rain

OMG, I want to give up on the regular dose of Abilify….after I told you not to. This sucks. I was on 2.5mg. I had to go without for about 3 days; I ran out of samples. Now I’m on 5mg. That is the normal dose for depression. I’m on my 5th day of 5mg and I’m so freakin exhausted. Not just tired but very sleepy. My muscles are also sore but not as bad as it was on the lower dose. I had gotten used to having energy and now it is gone.

I’m too cynical to say, “I know this is temporary”. I will say I am less than a week away from going back to the low dose. I guess having energy is a good thing? heh. I don’t want to go back to the old me.

Today is my birthday. I have the day off. I went to the one time crochet class. I was the only one there. That was not what I expected. They used to cancel if they only had one person. I think I was on too much medicine to really freak out but I did have butterflies. Forgetting the actual crocheting for a second, the class went okay. I didn’t suck like I normally do socially. (Say yes to drugs?). But by the end, I was getting so sleepy. I wanted to run out of that room….or at least yawn. I was so glad to get out of there! I went home and went straight to bed for a nap.

I may have messed up when I asked her if she knew of any good DVDs for crocheting (she didn’t). I didn’t mean to imply that she wasn’t enough. It is just ONE class. I’m a geek. I need supplements, dude! She got quiet after that; however, it may have been because she wanted to know if I had questions about the project. I am a borderline aspie so I always misunderstand (?) what people say. If you ask me, “do you have any questions” and I don’t have any on that topic, I tend to go to a question I DO HAVE.

The crocheting itself. ugh. That shit is hard. One of my problems is that I learned the simple stuff the wrong way. For years I had no idea I was holding the hook and yarn wrong since the results looked normal. I had a hard time trying to do it the normal way. It would have been better if I’d never touched a crochet hook before.

The hand movements….I suck. I’m not giving up but I’m definitely deflated.

Wowza (say no to drugs?)

I went to a hotel just to get away. The hotel is new, less than 3 years old. The decor was modern (minus the carpet) and I love it. Not to sound nitpicky, but the modern light switches I. do. not. like. I would not have those in my home. I hate them. I took pics of the modern stuff because I loved it so much:

nice art for a hotel
I want the lamp
modern look

My only other complaints had to do with the noise and lack of hot water. I took a warm shower. If someone wants to get away from noise, I probably wouldn’t recommend this hotel. Maybe it is quieter during the week. I don’t know….

What did I get for my birthday?

free breakfast
music (Adele, Amos Lee, Burlesque soundtrack)
souvenirs from Trinidad and Tobago
a sandwich maker
a portable DVD player (I have a tendency to break these…or do they just not last? I’m glad I have a DVD player besides the one on my computer though).

I’m going to go “cook” now.

Unrequited Love

It’s 1AM, why not blog? Chaz Bono is hot! I’ve thought this for the past couple years but now…WOW. ๐Ÿ™‚ I can’t keep it in any longer. Meow! I’m not old enough to remember Chaz as a young girl so I don’t think of him in that way. Of course, I’ve seen tv clips and pictures but that isn’t the same thing.

(I feel like I have to post a pic. This is one of the first ones I found. I’m not going to spend time searching for the best picture – which would be a current pic).

I feel weird admitting this because I’ve read so many derogatory comments about him online. I’m like, “Uh, he is kinda hot….” I don’t care what others say. I find Chaz attractive. And he isn’t brunette. Weird.

Seriously, I’m glad he finally came into himself even if it took 40 years. There is hope for the rest of us. I have no idea how hard it must be to be transgender without the money to get one’s breasts remove etc. That’s a blog topic for when I’m awake.
Last year on my birthday I was in NYC. This year…not so much. My birthday is Monday. Tomorrow (well today – Saturday) I’m going to the library and then I sorta fell in love with this Vegas like hotel and on a whim made a reservation. So right after the trip to the library onto the hotel. Then Sunday I’m coming back to my house. On my birthday I’m going to a chain restaurant to have breakfast with my mom and then I have my crochet class. Afterwards I may go to Victoria Secret to buy myself something with my $10 VS birthday gift card.

What fun! (<—sarcasm) I’m not complaining, just saying this is not a trip to New York. This is sort of like my birthdays before I had a full-time job. It's not a big deal but it just different. I'm going to post my own pics of the suite. But here are pics from the king's suite via the website:

The living room of the suite. What is up with the decor?? Why do hotels do this?

The “bedroom” is a little better.

The suite was cheaper than the doubles room on I got a good deal. I hope I get to use the gym. The hotel only has three machines in the gym! I went to the gym at work once this week. I would like to go twice a week and then maybe up to four times a week eventually.

I’m on the regular dose of abilify: 5mg. I still don’t know the cost since I’m on physician samples for another month. No generic exists since Abilify is relatively new. A generic probably won’t exist for another 4-5 years which really sucks for a lot of people. I read about one person with bipolar who had to stop taking Abilify because her insurance would not pay for a NON-generic for more than 6 months. So here is this person who finds something that works and then she has to quit taking it. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

That is just sad. It is hard to find a medicine that works for mental health issues.

I don’t know what I expect to happen on the full dose. I wish it would help me focus more. I’m not doing too bad with my attention span. I spent over an hour making a bracelet. I’m still not done. My brain stopped working so I decided to post a blog. It is almost 2AM. Gotta go. Adios.

I Need Some Fine Wine And You, You Need To Be Nicer

Parents and entitlement. Maybe it isn’t just parents. I guess brothers, sisters, mother-in-laws, cousins can act like this too. This is a repeat. My dad has announced he will be coming in October or November. NO HE DIDN’T ASK. He mentioned his room? WTF? My cat has a room and I have my bedroom. 2 fucking rooms. You don’t have one. What an asshole. Heh. I so want to go off on him. Instead I’m going ignore his email for about 48 hours. Then I will respond with probably “okay”. Since asking how long he will stay will not get me an honest answer.

Nah, I’ll say something like, “As soon as you know exactly when, can you let me know?” Does that sound bitchy? TO HIM, I think it would. And I’m not trying to sound that way. I want to tell him: You can’t just come into someone’s life and fuck it up. Who do you think you are? Do you have a conscious? I really wish I hadn’t taken that furniture. That would make this much easier if I had the room, I use to have. Having furniture sucks. I’ve always leaved without it but when someone says “two free sofas”. Ugh, I should have said NO.

Ugh. I do have to respond with something other than “okay”. I really don’t want to think about this now. I go with the whole “entitlement” thing because people always say when you don’t have kids, “Who is going to take care of you when you are older?” Hello? Do you really want to be a burden to your kids? Is that all there is? Wow, the nerve. I’m the kind of person who never asks anyone for anything so this concept is mind boggling to me. The “kids” didn’t ask to be born. Leave ’em alone!

Ha. How cold blooded does that sound? I just don’t like when it is expected. You know, taken for granted. This isn’t the case with my dad, btw. Totally different situation.
Let’s go Ravens! I love this early start of Monday Night Football. The ravens keep turning the ball over. *groan*

I’m leaving for the beach on Saturday. I’ll be back on Monday. I’m off from work Monday & Tuesday. I’m very grateful for that. The hotel we (my mom and I) are staying at is too expensive for May-August. There is no reason to pay about $100+ a night when you get can a perfectly nice hotel on the beach for less. All of the hotels are oceanfront with patios so why pay more? Every time I walk by the more expensive hotels, I always wonder what is inside. lol. What makes it sooo special. I’m guessing nothing makes it worth the extra money but I’ll see on Saturday.

I don’t get this at the other hotel:

Guestrooms offer fully equipped kitchens, including stoves, toasters, microwaves, refrigerators, coffeemakers, cookware, and dishes. Separate sitting areas have sofa beds and oceanfront balconies. TVs come with premium cable channels. Wireless Internet access is complimentary.

This is the sofa I will be sleeping on. Some people get king beds. ๐Ÿ˜‰ But it’s okay when “some people” are paying. lol

sleeper sofa

I made it!

I was rushing so much that I left my paper journal at home! So I guess I’m going to do a little incoherent (as always) blabbing here.

I LOVE this hotel. It has a fridge, coffee maker, wireless etc. The only thing it doesn’t have is a microwave. One is probably in the lobby. I got this room @ a great rate due to it being NYE (and winter). During the summer this place can get crowded. I saw the Liz Claiborne outlet shop. I have to go there after check out!! (I’m becoming Kim Kardashian with the exclamation marks and talks of shopping, no offense doll!) ๐Ÿ˜‰

Still feeling sick. I just want to take some generic Target medicine, get in the bed & watch a little of the Chick-Fil-A bowl. That is the one bowl game I watch almost every year. Mostly because Virginia Tech usually is in that game but it feels like a NYE tradition.

I may go to the jacuzzi if no one is in that area. I have my camera but it says the battery is low. I was only able to take 3 pics and none of the room. Oh well. Life is meant for living, not reminiscing with photos. Ugh, can’t believe I left my journal. Well time to get some rest.


I was productive @ work despite having an iffy morning. yay. I have to get organized about how I do my work. This is the kind of stuff I hash out in my paper journal but oh well.


I’m feeling really off today. Maybe it is because I ate blueberry muffins for breakfast. WTF is wrong with me? I have zero energy. Part of it is probably due to it being winter. (S.A.D) I hope this is temporary. It probably doesn’t help that I only use ‘green’ light bulbs in my house. I actually had a good day at work on Friday (productivity wise) and all three of my items are selling on Ebay. lol. Still depressed.

I booked a hotel for New Year’s Eve…for the 1st time ever. I thought it would be too expensive but it was a great deal. I guess not a lot of people want to spend NYE in Williamsburg, VA. ๐Ÿ˜‰ I have to work that day but since check-in is 3PM, it doesn’t matter. Ideally I would like to stay more than one night but it’s winter and one night is better than nothing.

I hate the new year. Hate it, I’ve had so many bad NYE that I refuse to acknowledge it. I will probably be sleep by midnight. That is how I like it. And that is why I can’t stay @ home. These ppl go nuts. I can’t take it. And that is why I’m leaving.

me don't swim

I hope I get a chance to get into that pool. I can’t swim but whenever I’m near an inside pool I like to stand in the water……if it is heated. They also have a jacuzzi I would love to get in to. But what are the chances of that being empty for 20 minutes. I only need 20 minutes.