There’s air in between

I was so excited. I was going to take an in-person astrology class. I’m taking an online written college like astrology course, but that course is intermediate. I get most of it, but I got stuck on something and blah, blah, blah. I’m still going to finish the online course. Anyway, I really wanted to do the local course, but then the thing with the landlord happened. Did I really want to spend $135 on a much needed (lol) astrology course? More importantly, did I want to spend 4 Thursday nights in class? Not really. I have to work the next day. Class is from 7-9 PM.

I found two Udemy courses I really like. The cost of both classes combined was under $25. I consider that a win. I’m sort of bummed about not taking the local astrology course, but if I don’t get something with the Udemy courses, I can take the local course IF they offer it again. I hope people show up and show interest.

Astrology is hard, but I love it. But I like that I have the two Udemy courses. I can watch them over, and over, and over.

I’m worried about my dog (see entries below). I can’t get in touch with the vet as of right now. I don’t think I need to speak to a vet. I just need someone, anyone to tell the lab to do the test. Why do I need a vet for that? If I were to call my doctor’s office, they would let me speak to a nurse. UGH. I feel very reversed Queen of Swords which means I feel frustrated because the receptionist probably didn’t understand that I didn’t need to speak to a vet?? Why did she make that assumption about a vet? I’m so confused.

I finally got in touch with a vet tech. Geez. I emailed them. No response. Spoke with and left a message with a person. No answer. They only hold urine for a few days. The test must be done ASAP. Thank god they finally got that I didn’t need to speak to a vet. All that matters is that my dog is going to be okay. I really hope he isn’t going through kidney failure. 😦

About my ex-landlord, he wants me to pay $400 a month. Okay, fine. Well, that does mess up my debt repayment plan. I won’t get to pay 25% of my debt off this year. One goal ended before it started. Oh, another issue is that he didn’t say how long I have to pay the $400 for. LOL. Um, forever? He said he has to get new carpet (carpet looked fine to me) and of course get the water from under the house. I don’t know if there is anything else. So according to him, that is at least $2500. He might not know the total cost yet because they probably haven’t started the work yet.

So now my goals for quarter one are learning tarot by heart and being an astrology expert. I’m sort of joking about the astrology thing because no one can become an expert in that in just one quarter, but I’m going to try to learn as much as possible. It’s easy to have goals for learning tarot without books/resources, but I don’t even know where to start with astrology. How do I break it down?

I would also like to lose weight, pay more debt off, don’t add to debt and blah, blah, blah. But tarot and astrology are the main goals since they are business related. Speaking of business, I’m burned out. Im thinking of taking a brief (a week or two) break from social media and not promoting anything. I can do that because I can somewhat easily schedule posts in advance.

I might do it the last part of January. On January 15th, my newsletter/eBook comes out so, after that, I’m resting. Yeah, I think I will take a week off from Instagram. That is my main thing. I post to Facebook and Twitter 2-3 times a week. I post to Instagram almost daily.

I want time to study online business building (plus tarot and astrology), and I need time to just clear my mind. Sounds like a plan. No major online work for the last two weeks of January. Woohoo!

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Ariana Grande, Mariah Carey, Lauren Daigle, Tori Kelly, Alessia Cara, Aretha Franklin, Missy Higgins, Maggie Rogers

TV of the week:  basketball, Survivor, The Haunting of Hill House

I think I’m almost done with The Haunting of Hill House. Good concept, but so far I don’t get why people LOVE it so much. It’s a decent show, but not mindblowing.

Movie of the week: None

Podcasts of the week:  Hardball with Chris Matthews, Online Marketing Made Easy, Pod Save America, Pursuit With Purpose, So You Wanna Be a Witch, The Lowe Post, True Crime Garage,

Books of the week: Now reading:

  • White Fragility: Why It’s So Hard for White People to Talk About Racism by Robin DiAngelo – Every person should read this book. Not just white people. Robin DiAngelo is a white woman trying to speak to other white people. It is mostly about black and white relations. I kind of hate to say this, but it’s TRUE. (what a concept!) Black people are considered the least desirable people – not in a sexual way. But in a normal, everyday way. So I’m glad she focused on black and white relations. I have about 40 pages to go before I’m done. I think only white progressives will read this book. Most conservatives whites, won’t even acknowledge that racism exists.
  • Racing to The Finish: My Story by Dale Earnhardt Jr – I love Dale. Not sure I’m going to love the book. I just checked it out from the library because I sort of admire him for being different in NASCAR.

Plans for the Weekend: I’m working overtime on Saturday. Then I’m FREE! So far. I haven’t had much free time lately. I have a tarot reading to do. I would like to finish that on Saturday. I’m going to probably study astrology and plan more of quarter one. I’m going to try to do at least 6 tarotscopes this weekend. Eventually my tarotscopes will have more advanced astrology and they will be so good. 🙂 Just wait for about 3 months. ha.

I hope the government doesn’t shut down. I’m probably going to listen to a few news podcasts tonight. I haven’t been following the news that much due to my new living situation. Long story. Have a great weekend! Thanks for reading. 🙂

Someday I won’t be afraid

Ugh. My landlord and I are doing a walkthrough of the house on December 15th. 😦 I’m scared. WHY???? Fuck.  Unless something happens, my mom will be there too. I’m not going through that crap alone. Oh, he said he would have given me a break on my rent. Whatevs. I needed 3 months rent free to keep living there. Three months every freaking year. Not happening. 

I’m off Monday through Wednesday of next week. I should have taken the whole week off. Too late for that now.  I will make sure the junk (sofas, TVs, and actual junk) is gone by the 15th. I have to take my dog to the vet on Monday and then it would be great if the junk people could come Monday or Tuesday. I’m making the appointment soon.

Sucks. Sucks. Sucks. I just talked to my landlord. I lied to my landlord. Kind of. He always lets his calls from me go to voicemail so I expected that to happen today. NOPE! He picked up the phone. I was shocked. We talked and then he asked, “Is anything wrong with the house?” I almost passed out. I couldn’t talk. I just said, “the water”. And then he went on about the water pressure and blah, blah, blah. 

The point of all this is that now I’m thinking about calling a plumber. The problem is MONEY of course. But there are other issues too. What if they can’t fix it? What if they can’t fix it before December 15th? My walkthrough is December 15th. It has to be before the 15th because I’m returning the keys on that day. 

At this point, I don’t know what to do. Obviously, if I could afford it, I would call a plumber. Well, I did call a plumber, but the fixing of the leak did not fix the water issue. I think I’m going to do it. But I have so much to do over the next 5 days. I’ll go over it in “weekend plans”. So now it looks like I’m paying the junk company and a plumber. 😦

That whole ‘so you can have it all.’ Nope, not at the same time,” Obama said. “That’s a lie. And it’s not always enough to lean in, because that shit doesn’t work all the time.”

I love the part about how leaning in doesn’t work all the time. AMEN! People that act like all people have the same chances, talents, opportunities make me sick. They say that shit to feel better about themselves. They don’t want to see their privilege. Beauty? Privilege. Communication skills? Privilege. Nope, NOT EVERYONE can learn that. Most people can. Money from mom and dad? Privilege. From what I’ve seen most people have no clue about their privileges. The more I interact with people online, the more I see how clueless people are. 

Anyway, about having it all? It depends on what you want. I don’t want kids, to climb a corporate ladder, a husband, or a white picket fence. I want an eight-foot privacy fence, a big bathroom in a smallish house with at least 2 acres of land, to be able to work from anywhere and my dog. That’s doable for a lot of people. So maybe I can have it all. I don’t know. I’m working on it now. 

As far as the whole kids’ thing goes, I know people who had their kids when they were either really young or much older. They got to live their own life prior to having kids or afterward. So kids aren’t necessarily a prison sentence. LOL. I know for some people their kids are their life (is it rude to gag?). I know people that rely on their kids for their happiness. I think it’s sad, but some (most?) of these people seem okay so who am I to judge? 

Some people claim to have it all. I’ve seen people say it online. I think 50% of these people are telling the truth. 😉 It just depends on what people want. Everyone doesn’t want the same thing! If people could comprehend that, that would be great. 

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Alessia Cara, Maggie Rose, Ariana Grande, Carrie Underwood, Halsey, Matt Nathanson, Missy Higgins

TV of the week:  basketball, House of Cards, The Haunting of Hill House

I finished House of Cards. It ended the way it should have. I guess. We all knew it would end that way. I think I’m going to re-watch House of Cards from season 1 soon. 

Movie of the week: None

Podcasts of the week:  Fresh Air, The Mental Illness Happy Hour, True Crime Garage, Pod Save America, So You Wanna Be a Witch?, Where Should We Begin?, Tarot for the Wild Soul

Books of the week: Now reading:

Plans for the weekend: Groan. How can I complain when I’m off until Thursday? But I have so much to do. *whine* I’m probably calling the junk company and plumber tomorrow. 

I should be doing an astrology/tarot reading right now instead of blogging. I have never done one of these readings before, so I’m nervous. I’m also excited. I just don’t know how long it will take. She gave me her astrology info and her boyfriend’s info, so I have to merge all of it into a cohesive reading. I’m going to try my best to finish this reading tomorrow even though I’m going to be out most of the day.

I also want to work at my day job for at least 3 hours during my vacay. Imagine my horror when I found today that I was behind! Oops.  I hope I can find 3 hours since I have to take my dog to the vet, and I will be spending a lot of time at my old house with no internet so I can’t work. I NEED to find the time to work so I won’t get more behind. I will find the time. It is necessary. I really hope it doesn’t snow.  That could mess up most of my plans, but I would probably get to focus on my day job. Yipee. :/

Well, I gotta go. It’s Friday night and it’s a little late to start something, but I might start the astrology part of her reading. Or I might journal. Or just do a tarot reading for me. ha. I’m so fun!! 

Thanks for reading. Have a great weekend! 🙂 

The way things could’ve gone

How do people, like, deal with people? I hate whoever came up with giving gifts at Christmas. It could be somewhat enjoyable if it weren’t for the whole greedy ass people who want multiple gifts. And some people don’t even see a problem with this whole charade. UGH?! It’s nauseating. The whole damn thing. 

Okay, had to get all that out. Now I’m better.  Work is going uh, I wish I knew. We now have a computer monitoring everything we do. But the computer isn’t exactly accurate so, I have no idea how I’m doing. I look at the report, and it’s like a language I don’t understand. I think I have a meeting with my manager within 2 weeks, so I’ll know for sure then. I guess if I’m doing horrible, she’ll email me before then. 

I’m working overtime this weekend. I haven’t worked on the old system in a month. I hope things go smoothly. 

I have big goals for 2019. Well, most I’m starting now except the first one listed.  I’m taking a course on using tarot to help with goals and it so SO GOOD. As of right now, my top goals are:

  • Pay off 25% of my credit card debt by January 1, 2020 
  • Learn tarot “by heart” so I can do live, online readings by the end of April
  • finish the astrology course by the end of February 
  • Get 30 people on my email list by the end of April (hopefully more)
  • Decide whether I want to do tarot and/or astrology anymore by June
  • Lose 20 pounds by April
  • Get to goal at my day job by mid- December 2018 

I will probably have more goals, but I like the idea of fewer goals. I have to break down each goal, of course. I already have a plan for the debt. Once I pay off most of my debt, I’m going to start saving for a downpayment on my dream house. That probably won’t happen until 3 years from now. 

Unfortunately, to accomplish these goals, I’m going to have to change things. No shit! The number 1 thing I’m sad about is reading fewer books. I will probably try to read one book a month. That means no more hoarding library books. 😦 I might try listening to audiobooks more. Not sure.

I’m also going to have to exercise more. I don’t have a problem exercising when it’s warm.  I do have access to my mom’s treadmill, but since my dad is living here, I don’t feel comfortable using it. I don’t know when he’s sleeping and blah, blah, blah. I was planning on doing Kundalini yoga twice a month starting in January. I will probably still do it. However, that kind of yoga isn’t much of a calorie burner. It’s great for my spirit, but not for losing weight. Hmmm, I have to come up with something. Just wait for my dad to leave in 6 weeks or so? Maybe.

That’s enough for now. I may do an updated list of goals, but I doubt it. I think that’s final. 

Oh, I almost forgot to mention my landlord got my letter about me moving. He left me a voice message. He said he was sad to see me go. I always paid my rent early and I never complained (lol). What I’m terrified about is the walkthrough. Why do I have to? *whine* The main issue (and maybe only issue) is the water. But that might be huge to him. FUCK. Sorry.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Missy Higgins, Christina Aguilera, Mariah Carey, Halsey, Jason Mraz, Ariana Grande, Florence + the Machine, Lauren Daigle

I probably will only do a top 5 albums of 2018. Not a top 18 or 20 list. So much good music was released this year. Anyway, an album I’m rediscovering is Christina’s album. I didn’t love the first two singles so I kind of slept on the album, but songs have been coming up on randomly when I listen to all my music and this week I finally decided to give the album another chance. It’s so much better than I thought. 

TV of the week:  basketball, House of Cards, Survivor

I canceled Hulu so I don’t get to finish binge-watching Nashville. Bummer. I was on the last season and was really enjoying it. I finished watching Making a Murderer season two. I don’t have a ton of thoughts. I can see why people still believe Avery may be innocent. I do think one of his family member’s had something to do with the murder AND I think Avery knew after the fact. 

Movie of the week: None

Podcasts of the week:  True Crime Garage, Pod Save America, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Sword and Scale, The Lively Show, Why is This Happening? 

Books of the week: Now reading –

Yep, I’m already cutting down my reading list.

Plans for the weekend: Working OT on Saturday. I’m going grocery shopping on Sunday. I’m working on breaking down my goals for the year.  I need to work on a PDF or mini eBook for my email list. I should be doing that now. I want to release it by mid-December. I have 2 pages done. It needs to be 13-14 pages. 

Thanks for reading. Have an excellent weekend! 🙂

Not having a meltdown

I’ve been taking my blood pressure on two monitors. I had an older one and I recently ordered a new one because it had better ratings. Both of them say the same thing, so both of these are decent monitors: Fanry Blood Pressure Monitor and the HoMedics Blood Pressure Monitor.

Here are my BP readings for the last couple of days:

  • 147/84 – October 13 HoMedics 11 am
  • 127/91 – October 14  HoMedics 7 am
  • 126/80  – October 14  Fanry 5:45 pm
  • 127/84  – October 14 HoMedics 5:50 pm
  • 125/72 – October 15  Fanry 6:40 PM

So I think my blood pressure is fine. I only had one high reading and that was the first time I used the HoMedics one in about 2 years. My dog was bothering me. My mom was here. etc. Since the two monitors pretty much match, I’m not going to keep doing it twice. I think what happened at the screening is that I was REALLY stressed. I was anxious.

I will probably keep monitoring it, but I’m not worried at all. I went to the doctor in September and it was 130/80.

I wish I could say my allergies were doing okay. It was so bad on Saturday night, I couldn’t breathe so I had to go to my mom’s house to sleep! I would have gone to a hotel if I had money and didn’t have a dog. I like hotels (most of the time). Yes, I’m still using the air purifier and it is helping a little, but not enough.

I’m worried about how much my electricity will cost by having the machine at full speed. Ugh. This sucks. I’m so glad I’m moving soon because I can’t keep living like this. AND the cold air from the purifier is “forcing” me to use my little heater to keep warm, so yes, the electric bill will be higher. 😦

I did my goals/priorities for the rest of the year (and beyond really). Guess what? Tarot didn’t show up in the top 5! That was shocking to me. My top 5 priorities are:

  1. Work (day job only)
  2. Health
  3. Finances
  4. Spirituality
  5. Hobbies

I might break this down more in my next entry. I had my dog on the list, but that is obvious right? Of course, my dog is a priority. I don’t feel I have to list him, but I guess I could remove hobbies and put my dog on the list.

It’s getting late. I’m going to get in the bed and focus on one of my hobbies for a while: reading! See ya later. 🙂

I thought I was flying

I would start this entry off with a breaking news alert, but I already knew this was coming. The part-time people “let me go”…a long time ago probably. LOL. I knew it, but no one said anything. Then I got an email on Tuesday about them not getting my laptop. You didn’t get my laptop because you never asked for it.  I received no reason which is fine. I would rather not really know the real reason. Okay, I know why they got rid of me. All I got is a UPS label for their laptop.

Maybe the Tarot reading I got was referring to me losing my part-time job? I dunno. Losing that is NOTHING compared to losing my full-time job. It doesn’t even compare. I don’t want to be in that field anymore. (The field my PT job is in). If I’m not good at something, I have no desire to do it. If I suck at Tarot, I’m not going to do it just because I invested in it. It’s okay to change your mind. I don’t want to do that anymore.

With that being said, I will keep my 2 certifications for at least 3 years. Unfortunately, I have to pay dues and get CEUs every year to keep the certifications. It isn’t cheap, but it isn’t too expensive. I hate to let my certifications go, but I’m not going to be chained to something I no longer want to do. I might need it to fall back on. That is the only reason why I’m not completely cutting the cord.

UPDATE: I just received some news about my full-time job that leads me to believe my position could possibly be gone in a year or two so I will not be completely cutting the cord. It’s possible I could find another job within my company, but then I may not work from home. So…sigh. Anyway, I will probably keep my certifications for at least 5 years.

The part-time people hired me with NO job experience. So…whatevs. I’m over it. I hadn’t worked since December. It doesn’t sting like the temp jobs I mentioned a couple of entries ago.

Live and learn and never regret it.

I decided to do a few goals for the new moon year. I’m not posting all of them here because I would like to keep some things private. This list isn’t even complete. I haven’t had time to really think about what I would like to accomplish in the next 365 days. But I will list the few things I came up with. When I set my mind to something, I usually do it. 90% of the time.

Goals I would like to accomplish prior to April 17, 2019

  • Buy a domain through Squarespace by November.
  • Learn the Tarot thoroughly.
  • Do readings for my mom. (first one in May 2018 – next month!) 
  • Learn my Oracle cards.
  • Finish A Course In Miracles lessons by September. 
  • Have a place in my home to do Tarot readings by October.
  • Have my website up by January 15.
  • Get back on my treadmill weekly.
  • Buy a storm door by October 1.
  • Have a website drawn out by September.
  • Offer a stranger a free reading in exchange for something by February.

Yes, I moved the purchase of my website back because I don’t see the point of purchasing a domain if I’m not going to work on the site. I feel like that’s wasting money. The domain name will be there in November. I also don’t want people visiting the site until it is the way I truly want it to be. Is that perfectionism or just smart?

I’ve been saying I want a storm door for the past 3 years. Money has stopped me (lame excuse), and I have to figure out how to get it installed and delivered. I want it all to happen in one day. They want to deliver it and then come by two days later to install it. Not going to work. I also have to figure out measurements. Sigh. I just don’t want to do the work, but I need a storm door. I’m not going to tell anyone about this goal because I might flake out again. 😉

Update: My mom took an online Enneagram test. She’s a 6 (and a 5)! Like I said in my last entry, if she wasn’t a 2, she’s definitely a 6. She’s a 6 because she’s paranoid and she depends on others for everything. I’m independent, so that drives me a little nuts. I will blog more about this next week. If I had read the basic fears of a 6, I would have pegged her for that over a 2.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): First Aid Kit, Florence + The Machine, Pink, Camilla Cabello, Kacey Musgraves, Lissie, Justin Timberlake, Cardi B

Ariana Grande has new music coming out tomorrow! I hope she releases a good album. She has never released a good, cohesive album. I usually love 4-5 songs on each of her releases. Her last album is probably her best, but it still isn’t great.  I think that is what separates her from other big stars in pop music. But then again, I don’t think Beyonce has released a good album…ever. And people love her. She’s on my mind because she was at Coachella.

TV of the week: NBA playoffs,  Survivor, How to Get Away With Murder

Movie of the week: none

Podcasts of the week: The Lively Show, Fresh Air, The Lowe Post

Books of the week: I finished reading This Messy Magnificent Life by Geneen Roth. Great book and I don’t usually like essay books. I can relate to this book so much. I can say that for all her books. 4 stars.

Now reading –

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Get to Work Book


Plans for the Weekend: Working, returning my laptop to the UPS store, going to the post office, getting gas for the lawnmower. Fun stuff, I know. That is all happening on Saturday. On Sunday, I hope to just chill and read.

I’m very nervous right now. In less than 2 hours, I have my meet and greet with the Advanced Tarot Class. I haven’t written out what I plan to say when I introduce myself. As soon as I hit publish on this post, that is what I’m going to do. I’m going to keep it very short. What a shocker!

Um, I just found out she’s using Zoom and we’re going to be on camera!! Oh god, now I have to get dressed. 😦 I was dressed to take my dog to the park. I get right back in my comfy PJs whenever I get the chance. I have to use my Mac because guess what? I can’t get on the internet on my PC. I’m glad I have the Mac. Btw, I hope to be able to fix my PC laptop. I haven’t tried everything yet. Now I’m much more nervous! AHHHHHHHH!

UPDATE: This class is serious. OMG! I went second (by chance) in the meet and greet. And people probably could tell I was reading a little. I didn’t read it word for word. But I had pointers. FUCK! In the coaching calls, we are going to be paired with another person and doing READINGS. Double fuck! Our cameras are on the whole time. How can I do a reading when my dog is right beside me? My “office” space is small. More on this later. I thought I would do an update when I’m freaking out. Why not? LOL. OMG. I’m going to bed now.

Have a wonderful weekend. Thanks for reading! 🙂

time to change the record

I have to make some changes. LOTS of changes. But I’m only focusing on two things for now: finances and diet.

I’ve been spending too much money and having more than one cheat day a week. I’m paying for my financial irresponsibility big time. As far as my eating goes, I weigh 126 pounds when I should weigh a little less. Not a big deal, but I don’t want to get back up to 130.

I spent an absurd amount at ThredUp last night (an online thrift store – amazing and so addictive!). That’s when I knew it was time to get my shit together. I’m not going to say no more clothes…yet. I still may get a birthday fix (from Stitch Fix). But I’m not going crazy anymore. I have enough clothes.

I’m still going to continue to blog about the clothes (Stitch Fix, LeTote*, etc.) and things I get on this blog; there is no reason for me to start a separate blog for that since I’m not doing it that often anymore. This is just a one-time thing where I got a lot of stuff. In two months, I probably won’t have any of these hauls or review type posts.

*I just did an unboxing of my LeTote box on snap chat. (userename: kat3x5). The snaps will stay up until Wednesday afternoon. I will do a blog post on what I got whenever I just need to unwind or when I have the time. Whichever comes first.

So yes, my HUGE haul from ThredUp will be coming in about ten days. I love doing these kinds of posts, but I can’t continue if I’m not getting anything. Obvs.

I’m talking more about finances than diet because that is more important. And my diet (way of eating) doesn’t feel as out of control at the moment. But I definitely want to focus on both.


I have to scream about DC and the parking situation. The Tori Kelly concert is this Saturday. Now I’m planning on going straight to Arlington, VA for a couple of hours and then head to DC an hour before the show starts. I’m not sure what I’m going to do in Arlington. Not to sound disrespectful, but I’ve been to Arlington National Cemetery SEVERAL times so I probably won’t do that. I may just hang out around the Pentagon or go to the (fashion) mall. If I go to the mall, I can grab something to eat. That is what I will probably end up doing.

I don’t have much time to figure it out so I better make a decision.

Of course, my car’s engine light is on. Perfect timing. Hopefully, it will go off today. If I have to take the bus to DC, I will…even though I already paid $25 for parking. As of right now, I’m driving to Washington with the engine light on. It’s not that far.

This is one of my busiest weeks ever. And that doesn’t include work. My planner is nuts. I haven’t had it this full in a while. I’m taking off May 4th for a mental health day. ROFL. I need a day off now. Why did I wait until May? What sense does that make? Well, I didn’t want to be behind. The company doesn’t give a shit about me, but I care about not getting behind.

shake me from stuff hallucinations

I get a few days off and I become a posting machine. I can’t remember the last time I’ve done this many entries back to back. Anyway, here is a newsflash: I AM NOT A MINIMALIST. Sigh.  I’m just trying to get back to where I was 5 years ago. I didn’t buy stuff just to buy stuff. I put my money in savings. Now I really, really, really need to put money in savings and I’m still spending too much.

Bleh. Perhaps looking at my dream house will help? Maybe I need to look at a pic of it every day. My dream house isn’t extravagant. It is attainable. I have good credit.  I just have to save for a downpayment of $25,000 or less. The house I was just looking at is on 6 acres (privacy!) and I would “only” need to put $18,000 down. 3 bedrooms and 2 full baths. 1,040 sqft. Yeah, it is a little big for me, but I care more about the acres than the number of bedrooms. That should be motivation enough. Maybe it is??? I need to think about this house or any house every single day.

Like I previously posted, I bought a new purse and clothes from Forever 21. That isn’t all. My dry cleaning was $60. I had no idea it would be that high. Those were my designer clothes I was dry cleaning just in case. WTF? That isn’t all. I bought a new planner:

my new planner

my new planner

Before you judge, I’ve been using my Plum Paper Planner for 8 whole months. lol. That is a long time in planner world. This one cost me $14 at Hobby Lobby with a 40% off coupon. So not too bad. But did I need it? NO. It is a planner from Me And My Big Ideas: The Happy Planner. I decided to buy it because I was kind of getting tired of using the PPP. It is an 18-month planner. If I like it, I plan to use it until at least June 2016.

I’m a Filofax/Kikki.K girl so this will take some getting used to. I swore off coiled or disc bound planners. There aren’t any folders in the planner. Where do I put my stuff? haha. (I know some can be purchased…). I did purchase extra note pages because a planner ain’t a planner without note pages. It will take a while to see if I like it.

Here is a walk through of the planner. I also have some of the accessories she has (the extra covers, note pages and stickers).

This is my confession. I suck at money. This is sort of a new struggle for me. I did put some money in savings but geez. I have to see that buying stuff is useless and won’t get me near my goals of travel and a house in the middle of nowhere. I know becoming a minimalist takes time for most people. I did declutter (not completely yet). I will give myself some credit. I don’t have a huge problem throwing stuff away and donating stuff.

New Rules

  • No more clothes/purses/shoes through May 2016.
  • No more planner related items through January 2016 (so, so, so hard).
  • Keep grocery bill under $115 every 3 weeks.
  • No credit card use.
  • Declutter until I’m done weekly. Fill donation bags and trash can every week.

I should probably add stop watching non-minimalists on YouTube. But I’m thinking I can watch YouTubers I’m subscribed to and not get caught up. I feel like I should be able to. And no, YouTubers aren’t to blame. Our society encourages people to buy. Being a minimalist is against everything we are taught in the Western world. MORE MORE MORE. You don’t want MORE? What is wrong with you? Are you settling? Uh, no. I just don’t desire the same things as everyone else. #DifferentDefintionsOfLiving

Besides most of  the people on YouTube make twice what I make or the younger ones have well-off parents.  They can afford to spend what they spend. I’m not in their boat.


I now weigh 123! I stopped Nutrisystem, have cheat days and I lose weight. Interesting. My next cheat days are going to be the two days of Thanksgiving. I have never sat for a Thanksgiving dinner. Ever. Thank Buddha. But sometimes my mom will cook and I take the food home. So I’m going all out for those two days. Cake, pizza, cornish hen, stuffing, bread etc. That’s the plan. TWO cheat days next month. YAY. 🙂 But until then I will be on my 1,200 – 1,500 calorie “diet”.

When I went to my health screening, the nurse told me if I lose any more weight, I will be underweight. I’m not concerned about that. I was chronically underweight 5-6 years ago. I don’t think that will happen again. I’m otherwise healthy. However, I wish my blood pressure were lower. It isn’t too high, but I could see it going there. She saw how nervous I was and thought it might be due to that. But nah, my BP has been that way for about 6 months.

keeping it 100

I finished reading The Power of 100! Kickstart Your Dreams, Build Momentum, and Discover Unlimited Possibility by Shaun King. The following is what I came up with while reading the book. My list is not finished. Btw, this might seem like a bucket list, but it isn’t supposed to be that way. I don’t want to spoil the book, but I will say these are the categories he came up with. I like them so I went with that. As far as the dates in parentheses go, that is a rough idea of when I would like to accomplish each. I have a physical health* problem that I’ve never blogged about (and maybe never will), and that is what makes it so hard to come up with when I want goals done. Some things won’t be able to be done within the next 2-3 years due to that. So I’ve tried to keep that in mind and be pragmatic as possible.  Some things have no dates. Working on it.

*I think my mental health issues are well-documented. 😉


  • Do a charity walk (by 2016)
  • Join Peace Corps (by 2040)
  • Donate 5% of my income to an animal related charity. (by 2016)
  • Donate 5% of my income to a human related charity (by 2016)
  • Help people become responsible citizens after they get out of prison.

Health & Fitness

  • Go to the gym 3x a month. (by  2015)
  • Maintain a healthy BMI (starting now to infinity)
  • Take swimming lessons. (by 2018)
  • Take tennis lessons. (by 2019)
  • Master Pilates (by 2018)
  • Take an online yoga class (2015)
  • Do yoga at least 3 times a week. (2015)

Career & Finance

  • No credit cards or credit card debt. (by 2020)
  • Have a flexible job I like working from home (by 2017)
  • Retire early from full-time work. (by 2035)
  • Have an ER fund of $6000.00 (by 2020)
  • Find a career mentor.
  • Stop working and take a sabbatical for 3 months.
  • Work less, take more time off (2016)
  • Reduce work hours without compromising productivity. (Starting now)
  • Find a career that doesn’t feel like work. (by 2021)
  • Update resume. (2015)
  • Shadow a social worker to learn about that job. (by 2018)
  • Make at least $60,000 a year. (by 2025)

Spirit & Emotion

  • Tap daily in the afternoon (starting now)
  • Meditate each morning (starting now)
  • Read everything I can about minimalism. (by 2015)


  • Do a road trip from where I live to California. (by 2018)
  • Vacation in Bora Bora. (by 2025)
  • Vacation in Puerto Vallarta for a week. (by 2019 )
  • Visit every continent in the world. (by 2035)
  • Visit France.
  • Visit Hawaii.

Friends and Family

  • Go to Vegas with my mom. (by 2018)
  • Be a friend to someone in need.
  • Reconnect with my sister.

Accomplishments and Experience

  • Finish the novel I started (by 2016)
  • Re-learn how to play guitar. (by 2018)
  • See Ellie Goulding in concert (by 2016)
  • Take horseback riding lessons (by 2017)
  • Attend a Spanish immersion school in Oaxaca, Mexico. (by 2021)
  • Go to the U.S Open in NYC (by 2019)
  • Attend the Grammy’s. (by 2020)
  • Buy and/or build my dream house (by 2025)
  • Change the oil myself in my car. (by 2016)
  • Join Toastmasters ( by 2018)

Each year I want to write my main goals in my planner and focus on accomplishing them. At the beginning of the year, I will write action steps to complete the goal. When I finish my list, I’ll add it as a page at the top of this blog. I’m going now. I think I’m working late tonight.

never my intention to brag

I did a September goals post, but it got deleted by WordPress. Thanks a lot! I think I’m done with monthly goals or at least posting them here. I’m more focused on my long term goals. My long term goals are simple. In order to achieve them, I need to pay off debt and have a decent amount in savings. I’m currently underwater. So I need to focus on the more important things first.

And I need to make decisions on some things. Do I really want my Master’s when all the jobs I might want require experience in the field? Also, I’m still not sure I want to even enter that field. I could stay on track with what I’m doing now. That requires a lot of learning, but I like the challenge. I’m currently leaning towards NO on the Master’s. But ask me in 5 years.

In 5 years or less, I will have no debt. (be bold!) I will start saving for a downpayment on a house IF I am 100% sure of where I want to live. Otherwise, I will probably rent somewhere and use the money for travel. G-d I’m so jealous of people who can live in apartments. So jealous. Yes, that makes me envious of 99% of the population. lol.

Congrats (insert my name) You Reached Your Goal!

You’ve lost 18 lbs in 118 days, we knew you could do it!

It took 118 days to see 125 lbs on the scale. But I did it! I’m 100% sure this is my last month on Nutrisystem because I can no longer afford it. I think that’s a good thing because I’m worried about the sodium, sugar and the carbs. My diet after NS will have all those things but in a lesser amount. The sodium and sugar will decrease the most. I’m not looking forward to “cooking” again. But I have to do what I have to do. And my grocery bill will also decrease. That is definitely a win.

I see the GYN on Thursday. Good vibes. Good vibes. OMG. So scary. I may never go back, but I figure I should probably go at least once since this is what females are supposed to do.

I have about $250 worth of stuff to sell. I am the queen of avoidance and procrastination. One would think money would be a motivator, but it is not for me. Never has been. I’m going to pick a date in September and just sell all of it.

different definitions of living

*****BREAKING NEWS****** I made an appointment with an OB/GYN. This will be my first time seeing one. This must be some kind of record. Where is my prize? I won’t be seeing her until early September. I have time to freak out later on.

I took a break from selling but now I have to get my sell back on. Hopefully I will be shipping a ton of stuff next week.

I have a lot of ideas percolating. I don’t know what to make of it all. That is why I haven’t done an August goals list. I’m not sure where I want to go, what I want to do etc. Nothing major will probably happen this month (at least on MY part – lol). I’m thinking long term. Where do I want to live? Do I want to get my Masters? Do I want to do home ownership again?  How much money do I want to save before I travel?  None of this stuff is happening within the next 5 years. Sure, I may go to Vegas (again) or Asheville, NC next May but I want to go out of the country for a while.

Goals. Goals. Goals.

I probably will buy a house one day. I’m  not going to get a predatory loan like I did last time. I hope those don’t exist anymore. I don’t want other people to fall victim to them.  I think I know where I want to live, but it is so far from everywhere. I’ll be living the rural life. I’ve always been a city girl, but now I know I need peace and quiet. I may rent where I want to live and then try to buy, but renting is expensive. I’ve already looked into it. Right now I’m sort of living the rural life in the city and I love it! But the rent it too high. I can’t save when all my money is going to rent.

If I do decide to get my Masters, it will be after I’m mostly debt free and have enough money saved for a downpayment on a house. Yeah, that won’t be happening soon. I have no plans to make that decision in the next 5 years. If I do decide to do it, it will probably happen in 10-15 years. After I go on one big trip.

Travel is my favorite thing. For now I will go on small trips like I’ve been doing. My mom has never been to Vegas and she really wants to go so the plan is to go back with her. I have no idea how I will deal with my foot pain, though. She isn’t very understanding about it. She doesn’t get that I could barely walk AT ALL on my 3rd day there. I could only walk short distances. We would have to take taxis or buses just to get to places on the strip. Next year for my birthday, I want to go to Asheville, NC and stay in a cabin. Those are the only “small” trips I’m counting on. (Vegas isn’t all that small now that I think about it but splitting the hotel cost with my mom helps).

Eventually, I want to travel all over the world. There are so many places I want to go. Now I’m thankful I took the opportunity to go to Oaxaca, Mexico when I did because I don’t know when I’m leaving the United States again. This may be a 7-10 year goal. I want to have a lot of money in savings before I really travel.

So that’s what’s been going on my mind. I’m thinking long term. The main goal is to save money. I’m not doing a good job of that now because I’m doing another month of Nutrisystem (!!). I know…so horrible. But it is so convenient. I love it. Too bad my wallet is hating it. :/

This week I…

Music of the week: Joss Stone, Tori Kelly, Nina Simone, Boyce Avenue, John Mayer, Natalie Imbruglia, Juanes, Paramore

Watched: Big Brother, Dexter, James Holmes trial

Movies of the week:  none

Books of the week: I’m reading the same 3 books I was reading last week:

Luther: The Life and Longing of Luther Vandross by Craig Seymour

Between The World and Me by Ta-Nehisi Coates.

Big Little Lies by Liane Moriarty

Planner update:

plans of the week

plans of the week

I’m proud of myself for getting most of my to-dos done. Last week was a major fail in that department.