The good ones always break

Someone just went off on all vegans on Insta! It was great. LOL. I’ve been getting tired of their self-righteous attitude. Not all vegans have that attitude. Obvs. I’m talking about the ones that go on and on about it and have the holier than thou attitude. No one wants to hear from their privileged ass about being vegan. Fucking awesome! I admit I loved it a little too much. I want to thank the person for finally saying what I’ve been thinking for years.

YAY for LeBron being a Laker. I’ve been a Laker fan since I was eight years old. I’ve been ambivalent towards LeBron since he came into the league. Now I might kind of love him. 🙂


I started off June so well. I did do well with my groceries. But I ordered twice needlessly from Amazon (total of $70.00). I hired a mentor. I enrolled in Gabby Bernstein’s Spirit Junkie Masterclass (!!). So it was a fail for the second half of June.  I’m going to try to do better in July. I really need to.

Here are some of my July budget categories:

  • charity – 10.00
  • emergency fund – 25.00
  • electricity – 95.00
  • trash – 30.00
  • groceries – 120.00
  • clothing – 25.00
  • gas – 30.00
  • doctor bills – 50.00
  • toiletries – 23.00
  • subscriptions – 46.00
  • pet stuff – 44.00

I’m leaving my debts off again because no one should have to see that. It’s quite scary. However, I did write down every single debt for myself.

Therapy isn’t going well. She doesn’t give a shit. So I may quit. I’m giving her two or three more chances to see if she cares. I think I have 2 more free visits left. She thinks I’m married?? Can’t she remember anything from the last session? Why isn’t she trying? Would this happen in 3D therapy AKA real therapy? Sigh. I’m almost over her. Some of it is probably on me. I hate that she changed from having Sunday hours. After work, I don’t want to talk. I’m tired. *whine*

I hate to say I’m so busy, but dammit, I’m so fucking busy right now. That’s a good thing in a way, but it is also keeping me from reading leisurely, finishing my self-study astrology course*, and just relaxing.

*The astrology course is kind of for my business, but I LOVE astrology so I would do it even if it weren’t for that. I’m obsessed. Astrology is so fun. I’m a geek that way. It’s been one of my interest for years. This course is like a graduate level course. Here is a link to Benebel’s astrology course.  It is very deep, and I may have to delay getting further into it until my mentorship is over.

It was so fun interpreting Trump’s and Obama’s birth charts. They were spot on! OMG. Amazing. Yes, I’m a nerd. I must blog more about their charts when I’m back into astrology again. I haven’t even looked at Hillary’s yet. Ooh. I bet that would be interesting. 🙂

Instagram business update: I have two pictures on my biz Instagram page! It wasn’t that hard to figure out what to write, but now I need to do more random shit. For example, I happen to be reading a bunch of Tarot books right now. I should take a pic of those books and post it. I need to post stuff that has nothing to do with my website.

I’m so tired all the time. That is not helping me get work done. I woke up 1 hour after my alarm went off!!! I never do that. I got up at 5:47 AM and still made it to work on time. Yay, for working from home. (Start time for me is 6 AM). But I didn’t get to meditate, pray, do ACIM, or eat breakfast. At least I made it on time.

Gotta go.

work work work work work

The OA sponsor thing didn’t work out. We talked on the phone on Monday. She only takes calls at 10 AM, and that doesn’t work for me. I would want to take daily calls at  6:30 PM or later. That is the only time that works daily.

I don’t think I’m going to look for a sponsor anytime soon. Having to make four calls a day (including the sponsor) is too much for me right now. I’m working two jobs; I’m taking a class plus I have a somewhat high maintenance dog. I have to rearrange my schedule around my dog so yes, that is a big deal.

I’ve never had so much to do in my life…and I’m grateful! I do get a nap in just about every day so it can’t be that bad. There is no way I could function if I didn’t nap after my day job. Napping rests my brain and allows me to focus on my PT job or school work. As of right now, calling the second job a part-time is a joke. I’m so slow (since I know so little), it takes me forever to finish work, and I feel like I have two full-time jobs. I hope I get faster soon.

The certification course is on a back burner. I don’t even have time to think about it.

It looks like I am going to the Washington Wizards practice on Friday afternoon even though I should be working at my part-time job. I need a break and to get out of the house.

Doesn’t hurt any less

I have never been so busy and tired in my life and I haven’t even started really working the PT job yet. I’m just doing training. I will be starting  actual work (very slowly) soon.

This PT job is taking over my life. Even when I’m working my FT job, I’m thinking about it and listening to training videos. It is affecting my work a little. That’s not smart, but I feel overwhelmed by all I have to learn and I don’t know what to do.

I haven’t worked on my certification class since Monday. I don’t know if I’ll be able to finish within 3 months.

I would like to take some time each week and write about Overeaters Anonymous and/or Debtors Anonymous.

  • We admitted we were powerless over food – that our lives had become unmanageable.

That is step#1 of Overeaters Anonymous. 90% of the time, I don’t feel my life is unmanageable due to food. I am powerless over sweets/sugar. So I should probably just abstain, right? I don’t keep sweets in my house that often because I know myself. I just need to accept that I can’t control myself around sweets. I need to stop eating sugar. I don’t know when I’m going to do this.

Am I denial about my life being unmanageable? I don’t know. Sometimes I do use next to my last dime for a sweet. That’s why I say 90% of the time I don’t feel my life is unmanageable. I shouldn’t spend money on foolish food.

It’s not just about sweets. Sometimes I just want takeout or delivery. That is wasting money. I’ll go through the other steps soon.


This week I…

Music of the week: Britney Spears, Lauren Aquilina, Ingrid Michaelson, Shura, Little Mix, Mariah Carey, Ariana Grande, Carly Rae Jepsen

TV of the week:  Big Brother, Survivor

Movie of the week: none

Books of the week: I know it’s silly to say  Sex Object by Jessica Valenti has too much sex talk, but it does. I don’t want to read about penises. Other than that, the book is fine. 😉 I’m also reading You’re a Badass by Jen Sincero.

Plans for the Weekend: I’m either working on part-time work or I’m doing training for PT work. I’m waiting on an email so I’m not sure what I’m doing.

TWO people used my Lyon + Post referral link so I have $60 credit. I ordered a few things and I’m picking up my package from my mom’s house on Saturday. I picked out 4 items, but I’m only keeping one thing. Thanks so much for using my referral link. If you want $30 off, feel free to use my link. I’ll open it on Snapchat and I might do an entry on it if I have time. Doubtful.

Busy weekend. Have a great one! 🙂