Before you tear it apart

Happy Asexual Awareness Week! (Yes, I made the following graphic…lol)

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I’ve been sick forever with these allergies. But today was really bad, and I don’t get it. I’m using the $149 air purifier. I took allergy medicine this morning. It definitely affected my work production today. I don’t need help with anything making me slow. Right now, I can barely breathe. Whatever. I might come back to this later.

I’m going to link to my tarot website. It is about 80% done. It had a makeover. I might leave this link up for 10 hours or 10 days. It definitely won’t be forever. The most will probably be 2 weeks. HERE IS THE LINK. 🙂 All readers of this blog can use the code SWT65 to receive 65% off any reading. No limits and you don’t have to join my monthly newsletter to get that code.

I think I’m moving on November 10. No, nothing is really prepared. Sigh. This is probably my most stressful move. I’ve moved a lot since I graduated college. None of the moves were really stressful. It sucks because I can’t pack because I’m not feeling well.

Here are my most recent blood pressure readings:

  • 157/92 October 20  1:30 PM (!!!!!!!)
  • 142/93 October 20  1:35 PM
  • 140/95 October 21 1:45 pm
  • 146/97 October 21  6:30 pm
  • 142/97 October 21 6:34 pm
  • 136/86 October 23  5PM 
  • 146/77 October 24  8pm 
  • 129/79 October 24  8:30 pm (after meditation)
  • 132/80 October 25 6:10 pm

As you can see, my readings have been higher since I last posted. The only low reading was after a short meditation. I was listening to Sarah Jenks talk about the full moon in Taurus, and she led a 4-5 minute meditation, and I stopped what I was doing and did it. Then I decided to take my BP again, and it was lower! That’s great, but not necessarily real. I could meditate every morning, and by the afternoon, I’m pretty sure my BP would not be lower. But I will test that theory.  I did meditate this morning. Kind of. My dog is messing up my meditation time. He used to let me have my morning time. ARGH!! Anyway, my BP this evening was 132/80.

I’m so glad someone won that damn lottery. Andrew S. (a radio personality) once said: “The lottery is a tax on the stupid and the poor.” I don’t like calling people stupid. But it is a tax on the poor. I know so many poor people who can barely afford to pay their bills, but they will play the lottery. They play every day, so occasionally they win. The people I know win 3 to 4 times a year, but they don’t make all the money back. So they are either getting even or losing money.

It boggles my mind that people actually believe they are going to win. I wish I were that um, naive? I’m much more pragmatic. I’m not saying I’ve never played the lottery. I’ve bought scratch-offs. I’ve probably put about $28 over my lifetime in the lottery. I played once online, and $20 was the minimum amount to play, so that’s why that number is kind of high.

I can’t breathe. *Whine* I need to work on my website, so I’m going to end this soon. UPDATE: I couldn’t breathe last night so I finally decided to try the diffuser again. I had it on all night. I put peppermint and eucalyptus in it. It worked. I wouldn’t have been able to sleep without it. I have it on now. AMEN! Essential oils work for colds and allergies. Thank the universe!

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Jess Glynne, Ariana Grande, Jason Mraz, Joan Jett and the Blackhearts, Matt Nathanson, Joan Osborne, Miranda Lambert, Britney Spears

TV of the week:  Nashville, The Sinner, basketball

Movie of the week: None

Podcasts of the week: Dirty John,  All In With Chris Hayes, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Bear Brook, Mentally Chill, The Lowe Post

Books of the week: 

Plans for the Weekend: Packing and maybe working overtime at my day job. I hope I feel better so I can get stuff done. I also need to feel better so I can record 8 more YouTube videos for my tarot biz. I was off on Tuesday, and I didn’t record anything due to OTHER PEOPLE TAKING OVER MY TIME (meant to yell), but even if I were home, I couldn’t have recorded because I couldn’t fucking breathe.

Anyway…thanks for reading. Have a great weekend! 🙂


Not having a meltdown

I’ve been taking my blood pressure on two monitors. I had an older one and I recently ordered a new one because it had better ratings. Both of them say the same thing, so both of these are decent monitors: Fanry Blood Pressure Monitor and the HoMedics Blood Pressure Monitor.

Here are my BP readings for the last couple of days:

  • 147/84 – October 13 HoMedics 11 am
  • 127/91 – October 14  HoMedics 7 am
  • 126/80  – October 14  Fanry 5:45 pm
  • 127/84  – October 14 HoMedics 5:50 pm
  • 125/72 – October 15  Fanry 6:40 PM

So I think my blood pressure is fine. I only had one high reading and that was the first time I used the HoMedics one in about 2 years. My dog was bothering me. My mom was here. etc. Since the two monitors pretty much match, I’m not going to keep doing it twice. I think what happened at the screening is that I was REALLY stressed. I was anxious.

I will probably keep monitoring it, but I’m not worried at all. I went to the doctor in September and it was 130/80.

I wish I could say my allergies were doing okay. It was so bad on Saturday night, I couldn’t breathe so I had to go to my mom’s house to sleep! I would have gone to a hotel if I had money and didn’t have a dog. I like hotels (most of the time). Yes, I’m still using the air purifier and it is helping a little, but not enough.

I’m worried about how much my electricity will cost by having the machine at full speed. Ugh. This sucks. I’m so glad I’m moving soon because I can’t keep living like this. AND the cold air from the purifier is “forcing” me to use my little heater to keep warm, so yes, the electric bill will be higher. 😦

I did my goals/priorities for the rest of the year (and beyond really). Guess what? Tarot didn’t show up in the top 5! That was shocking to me. My top 5 priorities are:

  1. Work (day job only)
  2. Health
  3. Finances
  4. Spirituality
  5. Hobbies

I might break this down more in my next entry. I had my dog on the list, but that is obvious right? Of course, my dog is a priority. I don’t feel I have to list him, but I guess I could remove hobbies and put my dog on the list.

It’s getting late. I’m going to get in the bed and focus on one of my hobbies for a while: reading! See ya later. 🙂

I can hardly breathe

I had to buy a $149 air purifier. Guess who doesn’t have $149? But I had to. This was a NEED, not a want. I just wish the reviews would have said how much cold air it blows out. It is like a fan or a baby AC. Lots of people complained about the loud noise which of course doesn’t bother me. But it is very cold in my house when it’s cold outside because I have no insulation. The last thing I need is an air cleaner or anything blowing out cool air.

But other than that, I think I like it. I was planning on returning it (something I never do) if it didn’t work because $149 is just too much money. I haven’t had to take my allergy medicine since I’ve gotten it. Yeah, I’m moving in 6 weeks or less, but I still had to something. My allergies were SO bad. I have never experienced anything like this. ugh. Oh, and the allergy medicine stopped working. It worked until about a week ago. I did get some relief from peppermint essential oil. But I didn’t want to run my effuser 24/7.

It is so cold, but no allergies! yay!

Allergies? Check. Very high blood pressure? Maybe. On Tuesday my blood pressure was 142 over 100 which is INSANE. I should’ve gone to the doctor immediately. However, I went about a month ago and it was something like 130 over 80. I have my own blood pressure monitor, but I can’t find it. I saw it about 6 weeks ago, so I will probably be able to find it tomorrow while I’m packing. Anyway, I was more nervous at the screening than when I normally go to the doctor so I think that had something to do with it. She only waited 2 minutes before she took my BP again. It went down a little, but not much. I probably needed at least 5 minutes of just being by myself to calm down.

UPDATE: corrected BP numbers. My BP on Tuesday was 142/100. (!!!!). I found my BP monitor today and it was 147/84. FWIW.

So I don’t know. I hope my BP isn’t really that high. That’s horrible!! I don’t understand how it could jump that much in a month, but I guess it is possible. I don’t know how reliable my BP monitor is. It wasn’t expensive, so I’m guessing it isn’t the best. So I will probably monitor my own BP for a week or two and then go to the doctor if it is still that high. I know birth control pills can raise BP. I’ve been on these pills for about 6-8 months. Hmm. I dunno. Both of my parents have high BP so my genes are not good when it comes to this.

It could be stress causing it. I’m so stressed out. Work is killing me. I don’t want to talk about that though.

My cholesterol was great. I don’t have diabetes. My weight is okay. I’m not overweight yet…I do have a plan to lose weight. I’m doing my goals for the last part of the year this weekend. Losing weight is one of the goals. The other 3 will probably be day job and tarot related.

More medical stuff because this is so thrilling! 😉 I got my first flu shot this past Tuesday. I’m still here so I might get one again. If I get the flu this year, I swear I’m never getting another flu shot again. I’m glad I did end up getting the shot because since my BP was so high, I didn’t get that discount. I did get the $100 discount on my health insurance premium for the flu shot. So I ended up getting $500 off my health insurance. I got a discount for my weight, the flu shot, and not smoking. I would have gotten a $700 discount if my BP were okay. Oh well.

I hired an assistant to help with my tarot biz. I really need help during quarter four. Here he is the first day on the job:


This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Maggie Rose, Jess Glynne, Taylor Swift, Matt Nathanson, Lauren Daigle, Ariana Grande, Camila Cabello, James Bay

Maggie Rose is a gift from the gods and the new Jess Glynne album is everything.

TV of the week:  Nashville

Movie of the week: None

Podcasts of the week: All In With Chris Hayes, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Dr. Death, Serial, The Lowe Post, The Lively Show, True Crime Garage

I had been resisting Dr. Death because everyone else was listening to it. LOL No, really it was because I’ve read so many stories and about doctors killing patients. I thought, why should I listen to this? But it is good and definitely worth a listen. I’m listening to it as I type this.

Books of the week: 

Currently reading –

Plans for the weekend: PACKING!! This should be interesting. I’m doing the bedroom and my mom is doing half of the living room tomorrow. I really want to get so much packed. Half of me wants to move so bad (the half with allergies) and the other half of me will really miss living here. It’s quiet, in walking distance to a great park etc.

I’ve finally been working on my astrology course this week. I really want to get good at astrology because I want to offer more astrology services along with tarot. One day, I might do only astrology. I LOVE astrology. It is so fascinating. Not that tarot isn’t. It’s just that there’s so much science behind astrology. In fact, I’m going to stop blogging soon and work more on my course tonight. I know how to party on a Friday night.

Have a marvelous weekend! Thanks for reading. 🙂


Wish I hated everyone

I didn’t end up going to the psychic festival. 😦 I was so sick with allergies. Now I’m taking Zyrtec every day. Because I can’t swallow pills, I have to take the dissolvable kind which is ridiculously so much more expensive than the regular tablets. Grr!

Anyway, I don’t know what I’m allergic to. It could be the house, or it could be my dog. I adopted my dog about 8 months after I moved here. So I don’t know which is causing the allergies. I don’t see anything in the house that could cause it. My mom is convinced it is “invisible mold” because when my sister and I were young, we lived in a house where it took a while for the mold to show. My sister was always sick, but they couldn’t figure out why. So I guess it could be “invisible mold” or it could be my dog.

Whatever. If it is the house, I’m moving in less than 2 months and if it’s my dog…oh well. I’m stuck with him. 😉 Speaking of medical things, I’m getting my first flu shot EVER on Tuesday. I better not get sick. I’ve never had the flu. I’m only getting one because I signed up by mistake through work. I meant to just sign up for the checkup so I can save money on my health insurance. I might see if I can get out of it once I get to the appointment.

Let’s talk about more medical things because that’s exciting, right? I ordered more Abilify. I didn’t want to pay the $75 copay (between my dog and me, our meds are expensive!). However, I can’t stop taking Abilify right now. For the past two years, I have stopped around Christmas. I’m not into Xmas or anything. In fact, I hate it, but that’s not the point. I’m getting ready to move and I don’t want to go through the winter depressed and nauseous. I’m already depressed because winter SUCKS. I hate winter! I’m seriously thinking about moving somewhere where there aren’t winters. It won’t be LA because it was cold when I was there. lol.

Anyway, I’m going to TRY to stop taking Abilify in June of 2019. I’m going to the beach for my birthday in May* and then I will try to stop the Abilify. I’m on the lowest possible dose. I only take it 5 days a week. Maybe I should try to take it 4 days a week and see what happens? I think I will start that next week.

*Unfortunately this will be a semi-expensive beach trip. None of the hotels on the beach that I love will accept dogs. 😦 So I will have to get some really fancy place, even though I could care less. I don’t want to leave him at the vet. Besides the money I would spend on boarding almost equal what I’ll end up paying at the expensive hotel. My mom is coming too so I hope I can find a suite. In the cheaper hotel, we always got a suite. But the pet-friendly hotels, already cost too much so I will probably just get a room with 2 queen beds. As long, as the room has a balcony (A MUST!!), I’ll be fine.

Should I talk about moving? Noooooo! I think I’m in denial. I start packing next weekend. I still don’t have a move date. I’m still terrified of notifying my landlord. It doesn’t really matter when I move, I’m still paying for rent and electricity (so the pipes won’t freeze) until at least December 31. But I want to move to my mom’s by Thanksgiving. In case I haven’t mentioned it, I don’t have a lease. I haven’t had a lease in 5 years. Weird, I know.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Mariah Carey, Maggie Rose, Janet Jackson, Christina Aguilera, Carrie Underwood, First Aid Kit, Joan Osborne, Pistol Annies,

TV of the week:  Nashville

I will probably start watching basketball soon. Of course, I’m watching the news since they stopped talking so much about Russia.

Movie of the week: I might watch the RBG documentary on Ruth Bader Ginsburg. I don’t know much about her. All I know is that she is on the Supreme Court.

Podcasts of the week: All In With Chris Hayes, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Online Marketing Made Easy, True Crime Garage, The JJ Redick Podcast, The Bill Simmons Podcast, The Lowe Post, The Rachel Maddow Show, Why is This Happening, What Should I Read Next?

Books of the week: 

Currently reading –

Plans for the weekend: Grocery shopping again. I’m so fun! I want to spend time working on my tarot biz. This is quarter 4. I need to get busy. I need to put myself out there and start making money. I don’t expect a ton of customers. But I will be strategizing this weekend. I already know I’m going to offer 50% off every reading from maybe mid-October to November. Or maybe I should offer it through December. Oooh, what should I do for Black Friday??! I forgot about that. I have to think about it. Anyway, some of my readings are only $5.00 so 50% off is a bargain. I’m going to do a short Youtube video explaining my services and giving away the coupon for 50% off.

I haven’t mentioned this, but I’m also taking two online courses to make a big move during this time of year since this time is the busiest time for all businesses. One is a group mentorship. We meet LIVE on video once a week. I have to blog about that. LOL. I just had my first meeting on Tuesday. Scary!! And one is a productivity type class. I was doing my homework for that until I got the urge to blog.

Like I said, next weekend I’m focusing on packing. It would be great to make a big dent with that. I don’t have a lot of big things. I have a lot of little things. A lot of it will be going in the trash, but some things I want to keep.

Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend! 🙂

student for life

I put some Benadryl cream on my hands/arms. I also took one dose of Benadryl. No change yet. I suppose there is a less of an urge to scratch. I took my mom’s advice and brought a different kind of soap and deodorant. I know this should not be a big deal – compared to other issues I have. But I’m actually sad. At least I have a reason to never wear makeup (I just started!) and perfumed lotion. I will save money this way. I used to love shower gel. I guess that is out too.

Maybe one day I will see a dermatologist but I’d rather go to the dentist. One dermatologist visit would cost me $70 w/insurance. I just got the dental plan and the price of that depends on what is necessary. A cleaning is affordable anything else may hurt my pocket.

Now I’m allergic to citrus, dairy and everything skin related. I’ve never been good with dairy products. When I was about 2, I had to start drinking apple juice instead of milk. To this day, the smell of milk makes me gag. I still eat yogurt and cheese from time to time (or at least I used to).

I’m redoing my notes for work. Things change so much in one year that 50% of my notes are useless. I’m getting trained in something brand new in a week. I’m so nervous. Ack. I have been reading anything I can find. This job is good for someone who likes to do research and take notes. I’m a perpetual student so I enjoy it…but it is like taking an 18 credit semester. I’m sooo glad I’m not in school this semester. Otherwise I would be freaking out more. Tomorrow I’m going to work just to gather as much info as I can.

The problem with this job (besides the people, of course – sorry could not resist) is that they want you to do a lot of research but they do not give you enough time to do the research. If everyone did the research, no one would get any work done. I guess it is pointless to try to explain when I won’t say what my job is.

I’m definitely eating better. I’m still staying away from sweets and dairy. I haven’t brewed coffee in two weeks!! However, I have had instant coffee during the past week. In 2010, I wanted to stop eating sweets. Done. I was not planning on stopping coffee too. I haven’t had any withdrawal. I only drank 1 cup a day at work.

Well I have a lot of typing to do if I want my notes redone by Monday…adios.

Edited to add: two hours later…Oh dear, redoing my notes could take forever. But since I’ve started I can’t stop. Is it even possible to finish this by Monday? *gaaaah* Going to be a late night.