We Just Play Pretend

Kind of busier than ever, but kind of not. I’m working extra hours (for free) at my full-time job, so I won’t get laid off very soon. Sigh. Maybe I should just focus on my full-time job? I have one virtual assistant client. BUT I want to learn more and work for others. I want to volunteer my services in exchange for a testimonial.

But I’m kind of stressed at the moment. At this point, I have NO TIME OFF IN APRIL. I will ask for at least one day off in April. My job is extremely stressful right now. I have a week off for my birthday in May. More about my plans for my bday later. Anyway, I’m not sure if I should volunteer to do work. I’m going to pull some tarot cards around it.

I’ve been using tarot now more than ever for work decisions, and so far the cards have always been right.

So basically, I’m stressed from work. I need my full-time job. And I also want virtual assistant skills. Since this climate is bad (the economy), I think it would be easy to find people that want free services, so I will probably do that.

I missed out on a PAID virtual assistant gig because I was working last night at my full-time job. Sigh. I didn’t check my email for four hours, and she needed help QUICK. Btw, I hate when people don’t plan and then they figure out they need a virtual assistant. I work full-time. I can’t just do whatever you want because you didn’t plan. UGH. Anyway, that sucks.

Oh, I’m now officially a travel agent! LOL. Perfect timing, right? More on that later. I can do travel and be a VA. No office required. I just need the internet.

As of right now, I’m going to a cabin for my birthday if they don’t shut the park down. My mom is paying half and I’m paying half. I don’t have my half, so we haven’t booked yet. I would love to get away, and my dog can come! They might close the park because they don’t want to pay the housekeepers or because they see the park as a hazard.

If the cabins get closed, I’m probably not doing anything for my birthday. Before I saw there were cabin vacancies, I had planned to go to the sauna and to a yoga class. Well, I know the yoga studio is closed. I got an email from the sauna, but I didn’t read it. I’m hoping they aren’t closed. That would be more jobs lost and no one needs that!

Even the libraries are closed, but they are allowing people to renew their cards or get new cards by phone.  I have 3 library cards. Two are active. I would have to drive 30 minutes to get the other card renewed. Now I can do it by just calling. Thank g-d. I would prefer to do it online, but whatever. I’m calling them next week.

It’s weird to see people complaining about not going anywhere. I never go anywhere, so not much has changed in my life. I don’t have friends, so I don’t feel isolated. Basically, nothing has changed for me. Well, I do use more hand sanitizer these days.

Welcome to my life. 

Election 2020: Biden has won the nom (pretty much), but where is he? I’m listening to Bernie give online townhalls and Joe is doing nothing in the public. Personally, I don’t need to hear from him, but I think some Democrats might want to hear someone other than Trump.

All the people that said the November election might be postponed are probably right. How did they know? The coronavirus was nowhere when people were saying this. Trump isn’t ever leaving. ::cries::

No election or election. Trump is probably going to have another four years. I’ve accepted that. So whatever.

This week I…

Music of the week: Rachel Platten, Ariana Grande, Carly Rae Jepsen, Taylor Swift, Maggie Rogers, Tori Kelly, Coldplay, Emily James

TV of the week:  Survivor, The Crown

I have stopped watching the news. What’s the point? The numbers they are giving out on the coronavirus are inaccurate because people aren’t getting tested. Besides 70% of people are going to get the virus. I don’t see the point of the news at this point.

Podcasts of the week:  Dateline, Pod Save America, So You Wanna Be a Witch, The Dating Game Killer, Have you Seen This Man?, Unsolved Murders

Books of the week:

Weekend Plans: Working. Grocery store. Walmart has food where I live. I’m going to work on learning more virtual assistant stuff tonight. I might work on my travel site for fun. No one is traveling right now, so I’m just learning more about the industry. My dad is overseas. I think he plans to come back to the US in May. I think it’s safer for him to stay where he is. They don’t have many cases of the virus.

Thanks for reading my ramble. Have a great weekend!

I can’t complain

Someone is paying me $55 to write a blog or newsletter. (!!) It’s only about 300 words, so I wouldn’t call it either. This is a trial job. If I do well, they will probably keep me. I’m not sure how much work she has. I’m guessing I would be paid $55 a week, which works for me.

I already finished the blog. I thought it would take me ALL weekend. So now I have free time. I will probably turn it in on Saturday night and…hold my breath. LOL. If she wants revisions, I can do it on Sunday. Working full-time and doing virtual assistant work is no joke.

I still have to do the other VA work of podcast pitching. So I’m not completely work free this weekend. Right now, I have 2 clients. I should have time to work on my VA website, VA Instagram, and VA LinkedIn. I never thought I would use LinkedIn, but a LOT of VAs get work from there, so hey, I’ll join in. I sent about 10 semi-personal invites tonight (Friday night), and I only got one person accepted so far. What? Do people have plans on Friday night? 😉 I thought everyone was saying in due to the Coronavirus.

I think my ideal client is a life coach or a psychologist. Yeah, those two are different things, but they both help people. A lot of people seek life coaches for anxiety and maybe depression. I would KILL to work for a psychologist. I’m currently doing my portfolio for a psychologist I have in mind. I will send her my work when I’m done. I thought I had a chance to work with her. However, she just moved from Philly to LA, so I think she probably has help or is getting help. She didn’t move to LA for no reason. She probably has a TV deal.

My full-time job may be gone soon. They let six people go from our small team. Their last day is the last day of March. I somehow made the cut. WHEW. But they will make more cuts. Uh, I hate to be pessimistic, but I don’t see many of us making the next cut. It sucks. I can make money being a virtual assistant BUT I won’t have health insurance. And my VA work is short-term for now (since I’m new), so my income isn’t consistent.

I wish I could get part-time work at a nursery (a garden nursery), but that doesn’t solve the health insurance problem. I don’t want to work full-time for anyone else if I lose this job, so I might have to give up health insurance. I don’t want to because I really like my therapist. I see her online twice a month. I can cut my meds in half, so I would be fine for about 4-6 months since I have 90-day supplies of all my meds.

Oh well. I hope I can keep my job through December 2020. I love doing VA work and I would love more time to work on that, but I don’t want to give up a steady paycheck plus health insurance.

Election 2020: Well, a billionaire can’t buy an election? I still think it’s possible. Don’t be shocked if Jeff Bezos runs in 2024. He is friends with Ivanka and Jared and other Republicans.  But he also donates a lot of money to climate change. So I don’t know which party he would pick. He would probably do like Bloomberg and pick whichever party he thinks he can win.

Anyhow, I voted for the best candidate on Super Tuesday: Elizabeth Warren. Unfortunately, now we are stuck with two lousy candidates. I like Bernie, but he isn’t likable (ha – Hillary is right on this one!). Americans want to vote for someone they like so…Joe isn’t a good candidate because he is clearly suffering from the early stages of dementia. But if he doesn’t have to debate Trump, he might be okay.

My views align with Bernie. I hope he gets the nom. I’m sick of moderates saying they won’t vote for him. We progressives always have to do what THEY WANT. I’m sick of it. They pick safe, lame-ass candidates and wonder why they lose. Sick of their bullshit. That’s why I refuse to call myself a Democrat. They know how to lose. Occasionally they take a chance and win (Obama, for example), but mostly it is a party of losers. Progressives have to do all the organizing. Geez. So sick of moderates. Hate me for caring about winning. I’m okay with that.

The debate between Biden and Sanders should be interesting. Biden rarely lasts two hours, so I feel so bad for him. What is going to happen? Oh god. I don’t want Biden to win the nom (Anita Hill, Iraq War, etc.), but I don’t want him to be embarrassed on a national stage. Well, Biden is the media’s favorite, so they will probably say he won if he says two complete sentences.

This week I…

Music of the week: Ariana Grande, Amos Lee, Ellie Goulding, Jillette Johnson, Maggie Rogers, Marren Morris, Patty Griffin, Rachel Platten

TV of the week:  Survivor, The Crown

Podcasts of the week:  Crimelines, Dateline,  Pod Save America, So You Wanna Be a Witch, The Rachel Maddow Show, The Dating Game Killer

Books of the week:

I finished reading Murder Beyond the Grave by James Patterson. 4 stars. True Crime. There are two stories in this book. The first one is perfect and the second one sucks. It’s one that I’ve watched documentaries on and Dateline on. Please stop talking about this case! However, the first story is so good, it still deserves 4 stars. I’m on the library waitlist for part two of the series.

Now reading –

Weekend Plans: Staying in. I will be working 50% of the time on VA stuff. I don’t know how people with a FT job balance it. I don’t want to take on too much work, but I want experience and money so….For example, I thought it was going to take me all weekend to finalize the blog. I will edit it tomorrow when my brain is clear, but I’m pretty much done with it. It took less than two hours. So I have extra time unless she hates it. Ugh.

Have a great weekend! Thanks for reading. 🙂

Remove All the Thoughts

I had two days off from my full-time job. So needed! My next day off is Super Tuesday (March 3). Not too bad. Today I took my dog to the park despite it only being 38 degrees.

corgi mix

Here is my dog being a typical pup:

I hope I get to stay in all weekend, but I never know when other people have plans with MY time.

The local virtual assistant job is over. Thank god. I don’t think I will be taking a local PT job for a while. I only want 100% remote. The other VA job is going okay. The only part that sucks is that she wants me to cold call places. BTW, that is not a typical VA task, plus she didn’t advertise it. I wouldn’t have applied if she mentioned that. I have social anxiety online. I DON’T DO PHONE CALLS…especially calling random people. Hell, no.

So I don’t know what’s going to happen with this position. She isn’t paying, but I’m getting GOOD coaching from her. She deserves work from me. I’m working on the other tasks, it’s just the calling that leaves me anxious and unable to act.

Praying for a miracle.

Election 2020: So many people (19 million) watched the debate this week. They got to see how much Bloomberg sucks, and how Warren can eviscerate anyone. Bernie did well or okay. He wasn’t attacked too much. Amy and Bloomberg had bad nights. Pete was Pete. Biden kind of had more energy, but he wasn’t 100% clear. Biden is doing better in debates than he did 3 months ago.

Warren raised a ton of money after the debate. Bloomberg fell in the polls (YAY!). But there is another debate for South Carolina. I expect Bloomberg to be a little better. To be fair, this was his first time on a presidential debate stage. But he is still a racist, sexist fuck. 😉 He funds some Democratic things like climate change. But he was a Republican. He supported George W. Bush. He’s a conservative, and I don’t vote for conservatives just because they throw their money at a few progressive issues.

I’m voting for Warren on Super Tuesday. I was going to vote for Sanders, but I have a tradition of always voting for my FIRST CHOICE in the primary. I voted for Howard Dean in the primary, even though he had no shot of winning. Sanders is my 2nd choice. I’m going to try not to vote for Sanders. That would be a strategic vote. I want to vote with my heart because, unlike Bloomberg, I have one. #Dig

This week I…

Music of the week: Nina Simone, Taylor Swift, Joni Mitchell, Maggie Rogers, Miranda Lambert, Tori Kelly, Alessia Cara, Ariana Grande

I need to listen to more Nina Simone. I took a 2-year break for some reason.

TV of the week:  Survivor, Vanderpump Rules, I Am a Killer, The Mind of Aaron Hernandez

I resubscribed to Netflix because I can afford it for now. I’m on the cheapest plan. No HD.

Podcasts of the week:  Crimelines, Dateline, True Crime Garage,  Pod Save America, So You Wanna Be a Witch

Books of the week:

Weekend Plans: Hopefully relaxing a little and working on virtual assistant stuff. I have a website for my VA services now. I need more examples of my work. I really need to figure out what I want to focus on. I thought it was going to be Podcast management, but I did a little of that and I was bored. Plus, it’s hard. LOL. I might focus on Pinterest since everyone wants a Pinterest manager. I got Pinterest to work for MY website, but I’ve never done it for anyone else.

Thanks for reading! Have a great week. 🙂

Fools, idiots, and Republicans

This won’t be my typical weekly type of entry. It’ll be short and sweet. I’m off on Thursday and Friday, so I might post then.

Oh, I did get a part-time short term LOCAL virtual assistant job. Um, I’m trying my hardest to get this over with on Tuesday. It involves an hour’s drive to the courthouse. My car’s brakes are now making noise. I don’t want to keep driving out there. I would just bail, but this is on a site with reviews, so that wouldn’t be good. She knows I work ALL day. And then she wants me to go to the courthouse each day after work for an hour, INSTEAD of me just going on my day off. Fuck.

Anyway, I’m here to talk about these Bloomberg idiots. Forget that he is racist, sexist, and a horrible human being. It’s not about only that. It sets a bad precedent. If he is the nominee, it will be a billionaire after billionaire buying elections. That would suck. I would stop voting for president. What would be the point? I would probably still vote for other things.

Like I said on Twitter, Bloomberg supporters are fools, idiots, or Republicans. The end. Some are getting paid to support him. But not all these fools on social media. They aren’t getting a dime, yet they are still supporting him.

I should have done this post when I was really angry with these people. LOL. Now I’m like, “They’re just stupid or low informed or maybe a moderate.” Whatever.

If Bloomberg is the nominee, I will not vote for him. The Dems and all Americans will deserve four more years of Trump. I don’t believe Bloomberg will be much different than Trump. Kids were in cages under Obama and Trump, and that will probably continue under a Bloomberg presidency.

I live in a semi-swing state (Virginia), so my vote matters. The Dems should listen to the progressive side just a little. Don’t nominate Bloomberg, or you will lose.

So if Bloomberg is the Dem nominee, I might get to stay home! I don’t think we have anything important on the ballot in November. It’s just the President. I will vote if they add something I want to vote on. I will just leave the presidency blank. I’m not voting for the Green party or anyone else.

Nominate Bloomberg if you don’t want Virginia’s support. I’ll be back later. Have a great week! 😉

 

So I can finally breathe

I’m working as a virtual assistant for only one person now. I finished the other person’s project. I did her social media graphics for a month. (!!) She gave me a GREAT review/testimonial. I have it on my VA website and on Facebook.

She’s a business coach, and she’s about to leave her full-time job to do coaching full-time. She doesn’t live far from me. She’s in DC. Anyway, it was nice to get good feedback. I enjoyed doing it too! I’ve been doing my own social media graphics for two years, but I didn’t take it seriously when doing it for myself.

I’m still working for client A. It’s going okay BUT she wants me to call local businesses in addition to what I’m supposed to be doing. I suck on the phone especially when cold calling people!! This is challenging for me. I have to get over it. I’ve only called two companies so far. Over the next two weeks, I feel the pressure to get results.

Overall, I’m enjoying it. But I also have to work full-time and I just don’t feel like I have time to get everything in. One other person wants me to work for her, and she encouraged me to ask for more money! If I valued myself more, I would contact her NOW since I’m only working for one other person. If I get more organized, I would probably be able to work for her. I’ll give myself two weeks to see if I get results for client A. If I don’t get results, there’s no way I’m going to volunteer to work for someone else doing the same thing.

That’s that.

I’ve been eating like crap. That sort of changes today. I still have leftover “bad” food. I’m not throwing the food away. Of course not! Some of it could go to my mom. I can’t donate it because it’s not canned food. However, that’s not the point. The point is that FOOD is MONEY. I can’t just throw food away and start anew. That costs money.

It’s not about weight. It’s about wanting to feel better.  The last time I weighed myself I was 133 lbs. I was shocked and glad. That was about 6 weeks ago. I know I weigh more now. I’m probably about 136 because I’ve been eating crap.

Client A is coaching me. She wants me to eat organic. Of course! I just went to the store today to test prices, and it’s cheaper to eat processed food than to even eat chicken! Okay, it’s not that much more, but it is more. Now I’m back to eating chicken for dinner every day.

I don’t cook. I just baked a week’s worth of chicken today, and I hated every second of it. LOL. I used to bake chicken every week about a year ago. I hated it back then even though it’s easy. I just hate cooking. Now I need to add vegetables. I don’t eat beans or rice. So I guess it’s vegetables. But I need a new crockpot. Sigh.

Election 2020: It looks like Pete Buttigieg is going to be the one moderates go for. Ugh. Well, I don’t like any of the moderates. If I had to pick a moderate, it would probably be Pete. So…at least it’s not Biden? Yet. He may win South Carolina and some deluded people will think he’s electable. Whatever.

I’m planning to vote for Warren in the primary. If Biden is #1 or #2 in the state, I may have to vote for Sanders or whoever is in second place. I’ll do whatever it takes so Biden won’t win. It depends on the local polls. We vote on Super Tuesday (March 3).

I don’t know why people made such a big deal out of Iowa. If anything, it sucks for the voters and the politicians because they dumped a bunch of money in Iowa. But overall, it’s just one state. Sanders or Pete won. Warren came in 3rd. Biden came in 4th. Next! Onto New Hampshire.

This week I…

Music of the week: Victory, Halsey, Leon, Maggie Rogers, James Arthur, Jillette Johnson, Taylor Swift, Tori Kelly

The Halsey album is good if you’re a fan of her past music. I almost didn’t listen to it because I’m not a huge Halsey fan.

TV of the week:  Disappeared, Vanderpump Rules

Podcasts of the week:  All in With Chris Hayes,  Crimelines, Dateline, True Crime Garage,  Pod Save America, So You Wanna Be a Witch, The Beat with Ari Melber

Books of the week:

It’s taking me forever to read, so my new plan is to listen to an audiobook for at least 30 minutes a day.

Weekend Plans: Today is Sunday – my day off. I’m working on my virtual assistant portfolio. I don’t have time to work on that during the week. From now on, I will try to take all Sundays off from any real work. I kind of had to take Friday night off because we didn’t have internet all evening.

Thanks for reading! 🙂 Have a good week.

Always walking in my shadows

I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing.

Well, starting March 1, I will no longer be doing astrology/tarot as a business. I only made about $300 in revenue in 2019. I worked hard for that, and it’s not worth it.

I am now a virtual assistant. I have TWO clients. That’s a lot of work…well, it is a lot of work for someone with a full-time job. One client is giving me in-depth coaching in return for me basically selling her services. I need the coaching, so fair trade.

The other I’m designing Instagram graphics for. I love it, but I don’t know if it’s a fair trade. I get a Facebook review on my business page from her once the work is done. That’s a big deal. But originally I told her I could do one hour a week and now I’m doing more. THIS IS MY FAULT!

Anyway, either of these could turn into paid assignments. So I feel the extra pressure to do an excellent job PLUS always be working. Sigh. I could really use a day off from my day job. I have Feb 20 and 21 off. That’s too far away. LOL.

I will have more to say about these assignments later. I’ve been doing stuff all day. It’s 10PM and my brain is fried.

I still can’t believe Kobe is dead. I read those words a lot. But to hear people SAY it…it’s not real to me. I’ve always been critical of Kobe. He raped a woman. I used to say, “I’m a Laker fan, not a Kobe fan”. But that’s crap. He was with the Lakers for 20 YEARS. It’s impossible to like the Lakers and not see Kobe. Kobe = Laker.

I admired his work ethic more than anything. He worked harder than 90% of the NBA players out there. I didn’t know him much as a dad/family man like those that knew him. I know him as a basketball player. Sigh. God.

Iowa votes on Monday. Sorry for the weird transition. I think/hope Sanders will win. Of course, I would prefer Warren winning, but that’s probably not happening. Speaking of voting, I have Super Tuesday off! 🙂 Anyway, Iowa should be fun. I guess.

Bloomberg sucks. Why are people falling for that crap? He’s worse than Biden.

This week I…

Music of the week: Taylor Swift, Halsey, Ariana Grande, Christina Aguilera, Rachel Platten, Rachel Kerr, Simran & GuruPrem, Amos Lee

TV of the week:  Disappeared, Vanderpump Rules

I’m addicted to Disappeared (true crime). I miss having Netflix. I probably will get it back in April.

Podcasts of the week:  So You Wanna Be a Witch, Crimelines, Dateline, True Crime Garage, Being Boss, Pod Save America, The Jim Fortin Podcast, The Lowe Post, Why is This Happening?

I’m listening to a bunch of business podcasts for a client. OMG, I forgot how much Being Boss sucks. It’s so vanilla.

Books of the week:

Who the fuck has time to read?

Weekend Plans: Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, and grocery shopping.

Thanks for reading! Have a great week. 🙂 I got to take a break to do this post and guess what? I feel guilty.

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I have an intern. Okay, she’s only doing one 1,200 blog post for me, but that’s one less thing I have to worry about it. She says she willing to do one more post, but of course, she wants to get paid, and I will only say yes if I can afford to pay her a fair wage. If she lives in the US, I doubt I even consider it.

1,200 words are essential to get a high ranking on Google. I blog a lot, but my posts are about 300 words because I don’t have time. It takes time to research etc. I can easily do long posts here because I’m just talking about my exciting life. 😉

OMG! My intern just messaged me. She wants to go over 1,200 words!! Why can’t I be her? Yes, please go over. Do 2,000 words. Rock it!

I did an astrology related guest post. It is my first guest post. It went up today.  She is a new business coach, so I’m not getting a ton of hits from her…yet.

Tomorrow my new class is being released. I’m surprised I’m not more nervous. I think, no, I KNOW I will be more nervous if/when a purchase comes in.

I don’t have to work tomorrow. That’s a new policy. I think it’s only been a few years since we’ve had MLK day off. However, I will be working for FREE just like I worked on Saturday for FREE for 3 hours. Sigh. Work has been full of pressure and just a headache.

That’s why I enrolled in a virtual assistant internship program. It provides a lot of practice and internships. That’s an affiliate link. Enrollment closes in about 3 weeks. I’m currently working on my portfolio. I have my FB setup and my free website. They have mentors go over ALL homework for the portfolio. I think it’s the best program on the market.

If anyone is interested in working for themselves from home and you don’t want to pay, here is a link to the free class. This class made me sure that I wanted to sign up for the program. Well, really it was the bonuses, plus getting to know her. She’s awesome and the real deal.

I no longer have to pay my landlord, so that’s how I was able to enroll in the VA program. My money will still be tight, but barring an emergency everything should be fine. I only have two more payments for the program. Most programs cost $1,000+, so I jumped on this deal. I need to quit my day job before I pull all my hair out.

I had an interview for a virtual assistant position on Wednesday. It didn’t go well. LOL. She saw my website. She helps entrepreneurs who want to make money while working a full-time job. So she just wanted to take me on as a fucking client. It was a disaster. I’m talking about working for her and she’s not interested. It was so confusing. Ugh.

So I’m thinking about just working as an intern so I can get more experience. I have a little experience. I’ve run my own biz for about 2 years. I’ve created an online course. I have a decent website. etc.

Right now is not a good time because I’m working for FREE at my day job. Sigh. I’m so tired. Overworked. Burned out. I need more interns. 🙂

I have to get back to work on my homework for the VA program. I have a 1,000-word blog post to do. I have 500 words. I’m such a slow writer.  If someone were paying me, I’m sure I would write faster.

This week I…

Music of the week: Selena Gomez, Taylor Swift, Ariana Grande, H.E.R, Maggie Rogers, Rachel Platten, Victory, Aretha Franklin

TV of the week:  Disappeared, DNC Debate

This debate was boring. No one stood out. Blah.

Podcasts of the week:  The Water Trio, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Crimelines, Dateline, True Crime Garage, Rituals for Liberation, The Rachel Maddow Show

Dateline deciding to do a podcast was the best decision ever.

Books of the week:

Weekend Plans: The weekend is almost over. I’ve been working my ass off. I’m going to continue working. Rest is a privilege, I guess. I do still take daily naps. So I do break. I go to bed most nights listening to the Dateline podcast. No one would probably recommend that. haha.

Thanks for reading! Gotta go. Have a nice weekend. 🙂