There’s Danger in Being Myself

Ugh. So much going on. First, I have to pay state and federal taxes today. Why did I do this to myself? I meant to pay one last week and the other today. But now I’m stuck paying both on the same day. Blah. 

Oh fuck. I just realized I might have to mail my state taxes in. I hope not. My printer is not working. And it’s winter, so I don’t leave the house in my car. Anyway, I won’t worry about it. I think the state taxes that are due in April is what I HAVE TO print and mail in.

I’ve been so busy. I’m taking most of today off. But unfortunately, I woke up at 9:30 AM. I feel like the day is gone. It’s good to get rest, though. 

Long story. The smoke detector did that beeping thing it does when the battery dies. It started at 3:30 AM on Saturday. Guess who didn’t get any sleep? Me and my dog. My dog is terrified of all smoke detectors and most beeping. At one point, he put his paw on my neck, and I thought he was trying to kill me. 

Luckily, the landlords (husband and wife) came on Saturday at noon to inspect the house. It was supposed to be a full inspection, but they only checked the smoke detectors since I moved in two months ago. No more beeping. If it were my house, I would just change the battery (if I had one) or just take the battery out. I have taken the battery out of so many smoke detectors. I can’t stand the noise. Yes, I know it’s not safe.  

What else? I’m being tested for autism in March. I was just expected to be put on the waitlist for April, but they had one opening, so I grabbed it. It’s near my hometown. And it’s three visits. Two days of testing and one to give results. (If she thinks I don’t have autism, I’m going to be pissed if I have to pay to be told I don’t have autism. What a waste of a visit!) 

I will probably take 4 to 5 hours off for the first two visits. And the giving results visits shouldn’t take long. I might take 2 hours off for that. This is the problem with going back to my hometown for everything. I have to take more time off and leave my dog alone. 

Eventually, I will get doctors here. Maybe? My car is old, and I don’t want to keep driving back and forth. If something happens to my car, I will see doctors around here. The bus system here is much better than in my hometown, but I’m not familiar with it, so I will take an Uber if I have the money.

I was supposed to get a mammogram in March. ARGH. I’ve been putting off this mammogram for two years. My OB/GYN found lumps in my breast, so I’m supposed to go every year. Anyway, in 2020, I was sick (gastroparesis). In 2021, I was going back and forth to doctors for gastroparesis. So now I have to go. But it probably won’t be in March due to all the autism testing visits. If I weren’t worried about snow, I would go in February even though I wanted not to take any time off to have more time off. 

I’m definitely getting a mammogram before May. Oh, and I want to go back to my hometown because they have all my records. I have a lot of cysts in my breasts. But can’t they forward my records to a place here? It would be much easier and quicker to go somewhere around here. I might consider that. 

Time off for doctor’s visits is boring. 

I haven’t had any significant incidents with the neighbor across the street. I think his family member or whoever watches him hates me. Okay. A lot of people hate me. I don’t even keep a list anymore, but she can add herself. 

Oh! I bought a new computer. The Samsung Book Go is great for students and authors. But I do simple work, and I can’t even work on it. So I’m going to sell the Samsung laptop on eBay. Unfortunately, I can’t sell it until February because HP is stupid and slow. Who makes laptops on demand? WTF? My HP Pavillion won’t be here until after February 9th. I hope nothing happens to Samsung. I’m going to sell it for $240 (including shipping). It should go quick. 

I hope the HP laptop lasts for at least 4 to 5 years. Unfortunately, I usually don’t have that kind of luck. I ordered this computer, I upgraded the memory. I didn’t get the touch screen. My mom has a touch screen desktop, and whenever I had to help with something, it was always so annoying to touch the screen by mistake. 

TMI: Fuck Pfizer and the CDC. I have worked so hard not to get my period, and that damn booster bought it the fuck back! I’m so pissed. I will NOT be getting another booster—Eff that shit. I have put YEARS into not getting a period, and then this? I got my booster on December 31, and I have my period right now. I’m so pissed. 

I have a lot to say. I haven’t blogged in a while. But this is getting long. If I keep taking Sundays off, I will have more time to blog. 

This Week I…

Music of the week: Jewel, India.Arie, Joy Oladokun, Boyce Avenue, Ellie Goulding, Maggie Rogers, Miranda Lambert, Selena Gomez

TV of the Week:  You, Housewives, Vanderpump Rules

Podcasts of the Week: The Vanished, Crimelines, Generation Why, Magik Vibes, The Astrology Podcast

Books of the Week: I finished  Both/And: A Life in Many Worlds by Huma Abedin. Great book. Awesome. It’s one of the top books I read in 2021. I finished it on December 31. I admire her. I didn’t finish Not All Diamonds and Rosé: The Inside Story of The Real Housewives from the People Who Lived It by Dave Quinn. I doubt I will buy the book unless it goes on sale. I don’t think this would be a good audiobook because I don’t know many of the characters. It would just be confusing. But I do want to finish this book. 

Goal for Next Week: Who knows? I’m so exhausted. I’m supposed to work on my business website this month. I’ve done a lot, but it’s not finished. I want everything ready to go by February 1. I need to research dentists. I have bad dental insurance this year (by choice), but if I still have my job, I may consider going in 2023. I need anesthesia, and the insurance won’t pay for it. That’s the main issue. AND some dentists don’t even offer anesthesia. Sigh. 

I’m also working on my book. OMG. Editing takes so long, and it’s boring. But I do want the book out there. I know most will criticize, but I’m doing the book for loners. I can’t change neurotypicals’ minds. They are the majority, and they have no reason to understand us. 

Weekend Plans: Today is Sunday. I’m paying my quarterly taxes. It’s kind of warm for January, but it might rain. If it doesn’t rain, I might take my dog to the park since we didn’t go at all last week. I would like to get some reading in. And maybe do 90 minutes of work? LOL. I have to get some work in. 

A pic from a recent visit to the park:

pic of a park in Virginia. lots of trees, leaves and water.

Thanks for reading! Have a great week.