Right Words, Wrong Time

Today is my birthday. Tomorrow I’m leaving on my trip, and I haven’t packed one thing!! I’m going around noon, so I have a little time.

I weigh 107 pounds which is better than what it used to be. I was feeling pretty good, but on Saturday, I ate some chicken, and I don’t think chicken likes me anymore. Now I’m a bit nauseous, but I don’t feel too bad. Plus, I’ve been taking my nausea medication.

I ate my birthday meal from Denny’s (don’t judge). The cinnamon pancakes were awesome. The rest of the meal was average. I also took my dog to the park. We had a great time.

I went to the GI doctor on Wednesday. Well, she’s a nurse practitioner. She’s outstanding. I like her. She has a plan for when my gastroparesis flares up again. I don’t like the plan because it involves a medicine I tried before, but it’s a plan.

I’ve got to go, so I’m going to post a few entries from my ‘private journal .’

May 11, 2011

So overwhelmed with work. I feel like no one understands. It’s fucking hard to work ten extra hours. I’m so over it. Today I didn’t make my numbers, but yesterday I did.

I can’t believe C (an ex-client of mine) is really gone. Well, I wish her well.

Ugh. I have to cancel my sauna appointment. It’s probably for the best considering weight loss.

One thing I’m grateful for: I was able to eat burger and fries again today!

Now I’m off to the treadmill.

May 13, 2021

I’m so sick of my paranoid mom. She’s so tough to live with. I know it could be worse. But argh!

So sick of working. Thankful to be off next week. It’s just not right. They are trying to take all my time.

Unsure about the whole self-employment thing, especially when I’m working so much.

I wonder is the Paxil making me so tired or is it my body. Am I malnourished? Do I need vitamins? Should I email J (my dietician)?

Grateful for: Tomorrow is Friday!

May 15, 2021

I worked overtime today. At least I don’t have to work tomorrow. Last year on my birthday, I worked a little for C.

I also went to Walmart today. I spent too much on trip stuff. I haven’t started packing.

Tomorrow I’m planning on going to the park. It’ll be my birthday! I just don’t want to spend all day in bed because I do enough of that.

Good time for a break. I feel like I need to reevaluate things. Everything.

Grateful for: my dog!

Thanks for reading! Have a great week. 🙂