Happy fucking 2021!

My aunt with MS and a lot of other health issues is in the hospital with COVID. I don’t want to hear anything about how great 2021 will be. It’s just another day. I don’t mark my time in years anyway.

Who the fuck has a good year? 12 whole months of goodness? I made a lot of money in my business this year. I surpassed my goals. However, I didn’t make a lot of money at my job. My net income was less than $24K.

Edit: I guess I should say I made a lot in my business FOR ME. It was about $5K. I will probably post the exact amount sometime in the future. Considering that I’m brand new and don’t know what I’m doing….$5,000 isn’t bad for year one of a business. Plus, I’m working full-time, so less time for the business.

And I got sick in July. Really sick. I’m still sick. I still don’t know what’s wrong. Anytime I get a day off work, I have to go to the doctor. I haven’t been able to get a mammogram because I have to figure out why I lost 19 pounds in less than 6 months.

I weigh between 117 and 118. I think that’s underweight for my height. Gaining weight is hard. It’s even harder when you can’t eat anything. I’m so sick of searching for smoothies and it’s all healthy shit.

I will probably get a colonoscopy. What else am I supposed to do? Die? I’m not happy about having to pay for it. The cost without anesthesia is $280. By the time, I add the anesthesia, medicine, transportation, it could end up at $500.

Happy fucking 2021! The shit doesn’t end for me. Maybe it does for others. Still sick. Still stressed out. I’m probably burned out. I worked enough to be burned out. That’s for sure. What do I have to show for it? I paid some medical bills.

If my aunt dies, I’m going to be pissed off.

My dad got hit by a car. He is supposed to go to court for jaywalking (ROFL – sorry, but that’s a joke), but I doubt he goes. He fractured his leg and had to have surgery. He is recovering now.

Current Events: Fuck all these politicians. Bernie Sanders might get a pass this week. But no one else!!

This week I…

Music of the week: Taylor Swift, Patty Griffin, Ariana Grande, Ellie Goulding, Kari Jobe, Sara Bareilles, Selena Gomez, Tupac

TV of the week: Dexter, This is Us

Podcasts of the week:  Dateline, So You Wanna Be a Witch

Books of the Week: John Wayne Gacy: Defending a Monster: The True Story of the Lawyer Who Defended One of the Most Evil Serial Killers in History by Sam Amirante I finished this book last week. This is probably the best book I read this year.

Lying Next to Me by Gregg Olson

Death’s Awakening (Eternal Sorrows Book 1) by Sarra Cannon

I’m trying fiction. I don’t know how this will go.

Weekend Plans: I am off NYE and New Year’s Day from my day job (RARE!!!) I worked on business stuff today. I’m taking Friday and Sunday off. I’m thinking about going to the sauna on Sunday, but I don’t want to leave my house. LOL. I already have to go grocery shopping on Saturday. The sauna is nice, but I have to think about it more. One of my clients gave me an extra $200 for Christmas!! (and I don’t even celebrate it) I can’t think of anything to spend it on. So $35 at the sauna sounds like a good way to spend a little money.

Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend. Relax. 🙂