I want more best days

When I think I have some time, my clients give me work out of the blue! I shouldn’t be complaining. I really could use the money. The problem is one person pays two weeks late. And two clients are paying me a low rate. I have four clients. Sigh.

I’m thinking about dumping everyone since I know what I do and don’t like to do. BUT I need to find a person to replace these clients. And finding one client who pays and has work I enjoy doing would be a full-time job. I don’t have time to do that, so now I’m back to feeling semi-stuck.

One client is paying a nice rate, and I don’t hate doing the work. It’s just time-consuming.

I’m thinking about pivoting my online biz to offering Pinterest only. But I’m nervous. I’m not confident. This may be my only way out of this hell.

I’m blogging here, so I won’t keep working. I wish I could take Sundays off. That would be nice. Many people only work five days a week or less, and they make a lot more than me. That’s always a fun fact to keep in mind.

My ballot is on the way back. I mailed it over two weeks ago. They haven’t gotten it, which is probably normal. I don’t care about my vote. Virginia will be blue, so if it gets rejected, I will NOT vote in person. But if my mom’s ballot gets rejected and I have to take her to vote, I might vote too. If I’m going to wait, I may as well vote. I wish I didn’t have to take her. All I know is that I’m NOT voting on election day. That’s for sure.

As of today, I think Biden is going to win. I just want this election to be over. I usually enjoy politics. But I’m pissed at the people for voting for Biden and Trump. People ruin everything. The Dems are lucky. I think any Dem would be winning right now. I hope the pro-establishment, centrists, Democrats are super happy right now. No sarcasm there.

I’ve just been working and pissed at the establishment. My hernia is still here. I think. I have an ultrasound on the 22nd. I’m scared they will say I have to have surgery. I barely have any time off after October, so it’s going to have to wait.

I’m down to 125 pounds. I think I’m done losing weight. I haven’t checked, but now I eat two meals every day. I have Carnation for breakfast, a 240 calorie drink. I’m still not eating much because I don’t want to get sick. Being sick sucks.

This week I…

Music of the week: Kelly Clarkson, Carrie Underwood, Ellie Goulding, Fiona Apple, Patty Griffin, Ed Sheeran, Emily James

TV of the week:  Big Brother

Podcasts of the week: Truth & Justice, Dateline, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Crimelines, 48 Hours, Without Warning

Books of the week: Now reading –

The Meaning of Mariah Carey by Mariah Carey – I thought this would be a quick read, but I’m not as interested because I know she’s not addressing her REAL issues. What’s the point of a biography if the person is leaving out the major stuff? But it’s still interesting.

Weekend Plans: Working. I exist to work. What else is there to life? Since January 2020, I haven’t had a real break. And other people were talking about things slowing down and I’m like, “WTF?” I’m in this weird space right now. Hopefully, I will have more answers soon. I would like some stability.

Thanks for reading. Have a great week! 🙂