How to lose 7 pounds in 5 weeks

Or so. I don’t know how long I’ve been sick. I have this blog and an online private blog that no one can read. I probably need to look at dates to figure out when I really got sick. Of course, I thought it was only temporary. But it wasn’t!

Here we are. AND I’M STILL SICK! Sigh. This sucks. Of course, this was the week I was forced to work 10 hours of overtime which is complete bullshit. I have never been treated so bad by this company. I’ve been there for 15 years and this is the worse!!

Do you think I would still be there if it had been horrible for 15 years???! I’m a Taurus, so maybe. I dunno.

I saw a random doctor via Telehealth on Thursday. She said it’s probably not COVID. She also said I didn’t seem stressed which is complete bullshit. A Taurus never seems stressed. You have to REALLY piss off a Taurus to see them stressed or angry. We hide our feelings and our disdain. I thought that was funny. In fact, I laughed when she said that.

Anyway…she said it could be gallbladder or diabetes related. She also said it could be anything. LOL. Thanks. I think it’s my gallbladder. Bummer. What if I have to have surgery? I’ve never had surgery. Stop freaking me out!

As far as diabetes, my glucose levels are fine so even though it runs in my family, I don’t think it’s that. I have another Telehealth appointment on Tuesday with my PCP. She will probably refer me to get an ultasound for my gallbladder.

I have no idea why Telehealth keeps getting capitalized. It’s BS. I’m not changing it.

I feel like shit right now. I’m working crazy hours. One client hasn’t paid me which is fine because then I can let her go. I don’t like doing her work. I don’t mind uploading her blog posts and making it look nice, but everything else is not what I enjoy doing. It would be nice to be paid though.

Fuck. What a privilege it is to not have to work for money. I am not talking about people receiving disability. If I lived in another country, I could receive disability. I have the receipts. Anyhow, I just want to make that clear.

I’m talking about people with partners and well off parents. etc. There are people that don’t have to work for money. What a nice life. While some of us are vomiting while working. Yes, that was me these past two weeks. I envy them. But that’s not my life and I need to get over it.

Current events 2020: I applied for my mail in ballot two weeks ago. Whatever about the president. (Okay, I hope Trump loses). I’m concerned with the local stuff. If I have to vote in person, I will. I think we can start voting in person in about a month. I don’t want to do have to do that, but I will. I’ll take my mom too. She also applied for her mail in ballot. So we’ll see.

I listened to a lot of the Democratic National Convention via PBS the day after the event occurred. I couldn’t listen to Biden. Bleh. I missed Sanders. I heard Warren, Kamala, Jill Biden and Obama. It was well done. I probably will listen to the Republican one, but not if it’s too stressful. For god sakes, I avoided BIDEN. How the hell am I going to listen to Republicans? Good point. ūüėČ

Centrists are destroying everything. I hate them. I guess I shouldn’t say hate, but ugh, they ruin everything. And they are just there…not doing shit. Okay, I’ve never protested but I have severe social anxiety. I want to protest how we are dealing with COVID. Fuck. I want to protest everything.

I’m going to start giving back to the Innocence Project once my money is more consistent. When I wasn’t making much, I donated $12 a month. I stopped when I ran out of money and had to cancel EVERYTHING. If I can find a more local charity – great. But I like their work. I don’t agree with how they handle everything, but I value 95% of their work.

If Trump “successfully” steals this election, there should be mayhem in the streets. I might even join if I’m not sick and working.

This week I…

Music of the week: Danielle Bradbury, Ellie Goulding, Marren Morris, Miranda Lambert, Jessie James Decker, Lauren Alaina, Maddie & Tae, Mariah Carey

Lot of country music this week. It just sorta happened.

TV of the week:  Big Brother, 13 Reasons Why

Podcasts of the week: Truth & Justice, Dateline, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Crimelines, Fresh Air, Serial, It Was Simple

Books of the week: Start Where You Are: A Guide to Compassionate Living by Pema Chodron

…and two other books by Pema Chodron that I’m too lazy to link to.

Weekend Plans:¬†Well, I have to work 7 hours tomorrow. I’ll probably get up at 7 and start work at 7:30. Then on Sunday, I’m going grocery shopping because I can’t eat any of the food I have!! I’m buying 5 cans of chicken noodle soup. That should last until I go back to the store on September 6. Since COVID, I try to only go to the store once a month. I was doing Instacart because I was feeling like shit, but that’s expensive. I’d rather put gas in my car (which I haven’t needed to do in about 2 months), and just go to the store.

Instacart is great for people with the resources, but when I’m not sure what I can eat and I keep wanting to get food delivered because I’m not feeling well…it’s BAD.

Have a nice weekend. Thanks for reading. ūüôā