Make Love to Myself

I didn’t blog last week. 😦 This blog is helping me with my astrology class. I can’t remember anything that happens in my life…except vacations. I do journal on paper, but I’m not consistent. I found a post from this blog that represents how Saturn affected my life. Now I have to write a 300 – 500 word paper on it. Without this blog, I would be lost entirely.

I just had therapy. The insurance thing is still not completely straighten out, btw. It’s a bit of a pain. But 3 weeks after my appointment, I do get my money back. I just have to email or call both companies after every visit, which is annoying. But at least I have health insurance. For now. Yes, I still have my job. I will check back around June 15th (or maybe before) for an update.

Anyway, NOW she suggests I get off the Abilify. Duh. Everything changed once I was on it for 2-3 years. I went from frugal to an impulsive spender. I was smart with money before I was on Abilify and then I got depressed. Nothing else worked besides Abilify. I did make an online appointment with a psychiatrist, but it isn’t until July 7. I see my “normal” psychiatrist at the end of June. It’s probably a waste to see him, but just in case the online doctor doesn’t work, or I lose my job, I want my prescriptions.

1 in 3 people on Abilify change in some way. In the articles I read, they mostly talk about people losing all they have to gambling. They are suing the drug maker of Abilify:

Patients who took the antipsychotic Abilify are filing a lawsuit after they developed compulsive behaviors that led them into gambling or other addictions. According to the ongoing mass tort litigation, the manufacturer Bristol-Myers Squibb and Otsuka Pharmaceutical failed to warn patients that the antipsychotic medication may increase the risk of compulsive gambling and type-2 diabetes in children. The pharmaceutical companies are facing legal claims by dozens of individuals who allege that the drug caused them to lose thousands of dollars or harmed their children.

If you or one of your beloved ones lost a considerable sum of money due to pathological gambling or showed any other sign of compulsive behaviors after taking Abilify, you should seek monetary compensation in court.

I might get in on some lawsuit as long as I don’t have to pay a dime. It is an antipsychotic but only at high levels. I take .5 MG 5 days a week, so I won’t go through withdrawal. Anyway, it’s probably a bit of work to prove it. I dunno. They only have to look at my credit report from before Abilify until now. So it might not be too bad. Thinking about it. I’m not expecting any money. I just want to get off the drug.

Update: Bristol-Myers Squibb has paid $535 million to people so far. Might be too late for a group settlement. And I’m not hiring a lawyer. LOL.

What else is going on? I signed up for a year-long astrology class (Thanks, Abilify). I got on the sliding scale. YAY! So glad some people offer sliding scales. School starts on this Sunday at noon online, but it’s in Maryland so I might get my ass up there once or twice over the year. I DESPERATELY wanted to do the 2-year apprenticeship, but it is $6,000 with no sliding scale. So I’m taking his class instead, and I’ll see how we get along. If we don’t click, I’m 100% sure it will be my fault. However, if we do click, I plan on saving up for either his level 2 year long class OR the more expensive apprenticeship. I would kill to have an astrology apprenticeship. That would be so helpful and speed up my process.

I am definitely creating the online beginner’s astrology course. I’m not worried about the other astrology classes out there, but since I opened my big mouth on Instagram, I am worried that others may recreate the exact same course I’m trying to do, and that would break my heart. Dozens have copied from me during this past year, and I don’t care as much because it’s FREE content. Copy me. I’m flattered. I know I came up with the idea first because you weren’t doing it until you started following me. Whatever. It’s free content.

I signed up for a course launch program (Thanks, Abilify). I have worked with this coach before. She’s awesome. So I know I’ll launch something because she’ll make me. 🙂 I don’t know how I’m going to juggle everything, but it can be done. I hope school isn’t too time intensive. It’s supposed to be every Sunday, but we already get Father’s Day off. That’s good. It’ll allow me to catch up on reading the two big textbooks.

I’m launching my class in September because that is when my coach thinks it’s best. It’s not a 1:1 coaching thing. That would be too expensive. It will be a small group of us. I hope there isn’t another astrology course creator. I would DIE! I’m going to try to pick a date that is best astrologically for me. I haven’t looked at what’s going on with the planets in September yet, so I don’t know what date I’ll pick.

Election 2020 – As of right now, Marianne Williamson is in the June debate. But since there over 20 people running, the polls could change. If one person -can’t remember his name- moves up to 1% in the poll within the next week, Marianne will probably get bumped. Sigh. So it’s too early to celebrate. Hopefully, by next Friday, we will know. But for now, all the media outlets are reporting that’s she’s in. Of course, they also mention that guy who might bump someone. I’m too lazy to look up his name right now. I think he is a DC politician, or a governor, or a mayor. Haha. In other words, he is a politician.

Update on Buttigieg. Things aren’t looking good when it comes to the black police chief or sergeant. Long story, but The Young Turks have done a lot of research on this story. A few other outlets are picking up the story. I’m not getting into all the details. But since white officers were supposedly using racial slurs against the black police chief, it looks bad that Buttigieg made the black guy resign. The good thing is that Buttigieg hasn’t heard the tapes of the slurs. That would be a felony in Indiana, so he has to say that. I’m sure he knows some of what’s on the tape.

At the end of the day, it really doesn’t affect my opinion of Buttigieg. It could hurt him. It depends on when the tapes are released. Right now, he’s not doing well with blacks. He’s doing okay with whites, but I think Elizabeth Warren is currently doing better than him. Oh, and Kamala is surprisingly still hanging in there. I don’t get it. She’s smart. I thought she was tough, BUT I watched her townhall on MSNBC, and she sucked on some questions. It was bad. She stumbled on the Medicare question. She couldn’t say whether people could keep the doctor they have now. She needs to be more prepared. How is she going to debate Trump? (Not that Trump is good at debates). How is she going to do against the other Democrats in June? I guess my standards were too high for her.

This week I…

Music of the week: Jess Glynne, Mariah Carey, Maggie Rogers, Sara Bareilles, Britney Spears, Ellie Goulding, Carly Rae Jepsen, India.Arie,

TV of the week:  Dead Like Me, When They See Us, NBA playoffs

Podcasts of the week:  True Crime Garage, Online Marketing Made Easy, So You Wanna Be a Witch, All in With Chris Hayes, Pod Save America, Tarot for the Wild Soul, The Astrology Podcast, Why is This Happening? Your Own Magic

(This is a combo of last week’s list and this week listens).

Books of the week: Now reading –

And a bunch of astrology books.

Weekend Plans: Working overtime on Saturday. I’m excited about the astrology course starting on Sunday. I’m glad we have a big group. It looks like it may be 40 people!! My last live class had only 14 people, which was a large class for them, but way too small for me. We don’t have to speak, but he would like to see our faces (not a requirement), so I will have my webcam on 90% of the time. If I’m eating or have to take my dog outside, I’ll turn off the camera. Since I don’t plan on participating (but who knows?), the least I can do is show up on camera since he likes when students do that.

I’m also doing business stuff. I have to send out my newsletter to my email list this weekend. It’s more work than usual because I promised more stuff. (WHY?) Sigh. I’m definitely going to spend a few hours on the course I’m creating. I still have research to do, but I have been practicing recording videos. But nothing is done. Not even an intro.

What else? Oh, I want to find time to knit. I might cook again on Sunday. I canceled Hello Fresh due to cost. I also have to cancel Nutrisystem. Back to Hello Fresh – I cooked Flatbread Pizza tonight. Considering the ingredients (baked tomatoes, walnuts, arugula), it came out pretty good. I would give it an A-. I only cooked that one because it was the only one that didn’t need something thawed out and it was so quick and easy. None of the other meals are that easy. I now have the chicken, cauliflower mac and cheese, and meatloaf to cook. I think that’s it. I cooked the tilapia, hamburgers, and pizza. I will probably try the meatloaf because I’ve wanted to make my own meatloaf for years and I’ve never tried.

I didn’t blog that much about transcendental meditation. Now I’m doing it when I first wake up for 20 minutes, and 20 minutes before I eat dinner. Yesterday afternoon I meditated with my TM teacher on the phone. I can’t make the next (and last ‘required’) group meeting, due to the astrology class, so she decided to meet with me on the phone. We have two more telephone meditation meetings scheduled, and she might add more. I was so scared my dog was going to bark. He moved and heavily sighed once (LOL), but he didn’t bark.

The meditation is going fine so far. I will blog more about that later. I feel like I have more energy (hence why I’m blogging at 11:30 PM on a Friday night and not tired at all). And my sleep is better. Now if it could only cure my anxiety/PTSD. That would be awesome.

Another long entry. Shocking. Thanks so much for reading. Have a great weekend. 🙂

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