Grab ’em by the shoulders

The best part, tho, will be that like 60 percent of the country doesn’t give a shit either way if a president grabs women“. – Jessica Valenti

People are really showing their true colors right now. I’m watching. πŸ˜‰

Ugh. I lost out on a date! If you know me, you know I’m just joking because I’m asexual and have no desire to date. However, I was in the grocery store, picking out nine tomatoes. He said I must really like tomatoes. ROFL. I do! πŸ™‚ Then he said, “I bet you know how to cook.” I said, “I don’t know how to cook at all.” Then he insisted that I MUST know how to cook. “No, I only fix salads.” Sad, but true. We went back and forth for some reason. I don’t freaking know how to cook!!!! I can fix chicken parmesan, but I haven’t done it in about 6 years so I would have to get the recipe.

It’s so funny. Where I live, I feel like a woman must know how to cook, or you won’t get a man. LOL. Please don’t tell me this is the attitude everywhere. Luckily, I don’t want a man. So screw that. I don’t like cooking or cleaning. Or sex. So yeah. Whatevs. Then I saw him again on the way out of the store. Haha. He said he is going to plant his own tomatoes. So jealous. He grows a lot of different plants and vegetables. I’ve only planted cucumbers. I don’t have the patience for growing tomatoes.

Anyway, could have gotten a man. You know that is all “straight” women want. SARCASM!

My first ever horoscopes were published on another website!! I’m their “resident astrologer.” LOL. There are people out there that like, know astrology. I’m only a newbie. Please don’t ask me any questions. HAHA.

I think I have it all figure out which means I know nothing. I’m going to do a three day work week when it comes to tarot/astrology. I’m planning everything out later today. Pretty much I will only work on tarot on Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday OR Sunday (whichever day I have the least plans).

The weekend will be for content creation. I’ll write blog posts, schedule all my Instagram posts for the week, work on my monthly newsletter, etc. I don’t have concrete plans for Tuesday and Thursday yet. It will probably be whatever doesn’t get done over the weekend. I just don’t want to spend all my time on something when I’m not getting much in return. I enjoy it, but I shouldn’t’ let it take over my life. That’s when I get overwhelmed and sometimes resentful.

If things go as planned, I should only be working on SWT (name of business/hobby) about 20 hours a week. If only I can keep to this schedule. Sometimes I will think of something, and I want to do it right then. For example, on Thursday I just had to redesign my whole website. It came to me, and I did it because I was inspired. That’s my problem. Too damn impulsive. I’ve had that old website design for 9 months though. After 9 months, I usually want to have a different looking website. I LOVE my new site. πŸ™‚ It’s not perfect, but everything people often click on works fine. I’m going to fix the rest over the weekend.

I had my first therapy appointment with a new therapist. We did it online at 6PM. I didn’t have to leave my house. Score! FUCK YEAH. I love her. BUT…my insurance made me pay full price. I’m so confused. I have online benefits, so why would they make me pay $80??? I can’t afford that. I can only afford that with a credit card. FUCK.

I’m going to call the health insurance company on Monday to see what’s up. I probably will continue to see her once a month IF we continue to work well together. But I don’t want to pay $160 a month. That’s like not having health insurance. 😦

Anyway, she made me feel so great, by saying so many things. Like how I survived the bullying all on my own so I should be proud. She mentioned PTSD. I never said a word. I just said 3 sentences about growing up and she got it. The most important thing is that she said even if the Abilify does causes compulsive behavior (the studies in the UK says it does), I can still stop the spending while being on Abilify. Please god!

Anyway, talking to her was like talking to a friend…if I knew how that felt. She’s so awesome! A therapist I like? I didn’t hate my last therapist. I think we just got tired of each other after 5+ years. LOL. Or I got tired of her. Anyway, my new therapist recommened this book:
The Gift of Our Compulsions: A Revolutionary Approach to Self-Acceptance and Healing by Mary O’Malley. I’m going to try to find the book at a library since I don’t see her for 3 weeks OR I may have to buy it, even though I’m trying to not buy stuff.

Btw, I’m going to cancel the appointment with the psychiatrist especially if they are going to charge me full price! Hell no. I’m cancelling because Abilify does work…I’m just suffering from one of the many side effects.

This week I…

Music of the week: Rachel Platten, Jussie Smollett, Maggie Rogers, Ariana Grande, Lake Street Drive, India Arie, Rozzi, Solange

TV of the week:  March Madness – Go UVA!, Survivor

Podcasts of the week: So You Wanna Be a Witch, Pod Save America, The Jim Fortin Podcast, In the Dark, Tarot for the Wild Soul, The Mind Your Business Podcast, Your Own Magic

Books of the week: Now reading – 

Weekend Plans: Working on my three day workday schedule. It starts this Sunday. I’m also taking a few – okay several – online courses, so I have to schedule out which days I want to work on what. Basically I just need to schedule things. Right now what I do is have a to do list which is okay, but I’m getting overwhelmed so I’m going to change the way I plan.

Feeling good after therapy. Plus, I had the day off today. YAY. πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ . What else am I doing this weekend? Repotting plants, and taking my dog to the park. The most important thing is coming up with a schedule. I may do that tonight or I may work on one of my online courses. It would be nice if I had a plan. Heh.

I’m going to eat a late dinner and take my dog outside. Thanks for reading. Have a great weekend! πŸ™‚

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