The noise got too loud

OMG. I almost forgot to blog here this week. This week has been crazy. I have 3 tarot classes upcoming. Well, one already started. Two start on March 15th. I’m going to put one of the classes I was most excited about on the back burner. It’s a prerecorded class, so it’s not a big deal. I’m so tired right now. Why am I blogging? Sorry.

I can’t get comfortable. My dog is in my way on the bed. Grrr! Only 9 weeks until my birthday vacay! woohoo! No work. No school. A real break!! Oh, I’m also taking an astrology course that starts April 25th. I’m only taking it because I’ll get a certificate from the School of London. That’s not the real name of the school. I just know the professor teaches in London. Anyway, I won’t be doing any school work during my break.

I think I’m giving up on my “business”…for now. I’m still going to post on Instagram at least 4 days a week. I will probably do two free tarot readings a month unless I’m swamped with school. I’m not sure. I believe practice is important, so I don’t want to just completely stop doing readings. I’ve only had one sale. One sale.

I’ve invested way too much into this “business”. Fuck that shit! I’m not going to apologize for this outburst. No more money. No more classes. I have enough classes to last me for TWO+ years. I don’t need anymore. I have enough tarot, astrology, and business resources. I’m done. So done.

Oh, money. I borrowed $2,000 from my 401K. I should have borrowed more. The good thing about borrowing from my 401K is that all the low interest goes back to me. That is MY MONEY. Well, half of it is mine. I want it all, but my job won’t let me borrow it. I could borrow it for a downpayment on a house. But I’m 4-5 years from buying a house.

The $2000 is gone, btw. I paid my bills with it. Moving was so expensive! I’ve moved about 5 times since I’ve been an adult. It has never cost me a lot…until now. I had no idea I would be so worried about ‘checks’ bouncing as of Wednesday. I was so scared and so thankful that my loan came just in time. Thank the universe.

This week I…

Music of the week: Rachel Platten, Ariana Grande, Jewel, Maggie Rogers, India.Arie, Solange, Christina Aguilera, Lake Street Drive

TV of the week: Survivor, basketball

Podcasts of the week: True Crime Garage, So You Wanna Be a Witch, All In With Chris Hayes, Over it and On With It, rise up! good witch podcast, Tara Brach, Tarot for the Wild Soul, The Lowe Post, Your Own Magic

Books of the week: Now reading – 

Weekend Plans: I went to the library for two hours today. I booked a study room. I went to the county library this time. There was a big screen TV. They have wi-fi. I normally don’t need internet while studying but I made the stupid decision to put ALL my documents in the cloud the night before. Anyway, I got a ton accomplished. I’m back on track. I’m definitely going to book there again. The only downside is the noise. I can hear everyone else and they can hear me. No soundproofing. I just put my headphones on and listened to Spotify with the volume really low.

Tomorrow is supposed to be 70 degrees. If it doesn’t rain, I’m going on a walk with my dog. I have astrology class at 2:30. I really want to plan my whole week hour by hour every Sunday. But things keep changing. Am I doing tarot or not? If I’m not, I can take a break for a few days while I think about it. Sigh. I usually work on SWT (my biz name) for at least 2-3 hours every weekday. I think I’m thinking about Monday off.

So tired. It’s 11:21 PM. I had a decent day until I realized that my business probably won’t suceed because I won’t do events. $%@$

I’m over thinking about it. Should I even start my Patreon? Good question. What’s the point? I think I can figure out a way only to spend 20 hours a week on tarot/astrology and just keep putting content out there. I don’t mind if I don’t make money, but I can’t invest anymore. That’s for sure!

I’ve rambled enough. I know there are probably a ton of mistakes in this. Too tired. Have a great rest of the weekend and good week! Thanks for reading. 🙂 I’m going to bed.

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