Thought I was gonna break

I’m blogging today because I may not feel like blogging later. Tomorrow I take my dog to the vet for Xrays. $$$ Sorry, yes I care about his health, but I feel like X-rays won’t solve the problem. I feel like he has kidney failure. 😦 There isn’t a cure for that. But being optimistic – they will do x-rays while he is sedated and then they’ll do surgery on another day if he needs it.

I’m thinking there will be no surgery because of what I said above. I’m working for one hour and then dropping him off. I should have just asked to go to work at 8:30. Oh well. I HOPE HE NEEDS SURGERY! That is a cure. No one wants their dog to go under anesthesia, but the other alternative is unthinkable. Well, I think about it a lot.

UPDATE: I updated Instagram, but forgot to blog here. Basically, I won’t know anything for 2 weeks. He doesn’t have kidney stones, so no surgery is needed. Like I said above, I would rather him have kidney stones because that’s curable. Kidney failure IS NOT. Anyway, the total cost was $460 for x-rays that proved nothing. Just like I thought. Sigh. I have to give him expensive food for the next two weeks and some medication. Then I guess they will check his urine again. Hoping for the best, but still extremely worried. :/

I won’t go back to the park we used to go to if he is no longer here. It will hurt too much. Will I get another dog? I’ve had dogs since I was 17. I’ve only had two dogs. My last dog lived for 17 years. My current dog is 4 1/2 years old. He says “almost 5”. 😉 Anyway, I probably will get another dog one day. I can’t imagine a life without a dog.

I’ve cried enough over this and something else. No more tears until tomorrow. LOL.

Astrology class is kicking my ass this week. This is where I got stuck when I tried to study on my own. I’m a little frustrated that I’m getting stuck in an online class, BUT we haven’t had our meeting yet. That occurs on Sunday. If I still don’t get it after Sunday, I’m going to be exasperated. And people think astrology is easy. Ha!

I’m bummed I don’t get it because I’m excited about next week’s homework. I wanted to be ahead and do it tonight. We get to choose a celebrity couple and analyze a small part of their chart. I’m thinking about choosing Bill and Hillary. How original, right? I’ve never studied Bill’s chart and I only looked briefly at Hillary’s. I don’t know who else I’m that interested in…If someone else chooses them first (we have to post it on the discussion board), I’ll choose someone else. I wish I could choose Amelia Earhart, but she wasn’t in a famous couple. I was obsessed with Amelia for years.

Nutrisystem update: I’ve lost a total of 10 pounds in about 25 days. I guess the weight loss is stalling now. I want to lose at least another 10 pounds.

I got a horary astrology reading. I wanted to know if I would become a successful astrologer, but that question doesn’t work because one year I might be successful and then the next year, not so successful. So I asked if I would make $1,000 in revenue within the next year (not counting expenses). Basically, the answer was I do great work, but I need better marketing and branding. And it will be tough to make a thousand dollars this year. I knew that prior to asking the question. I think it’s interesting he picked up on the branding/marketing issue just from looking at a chart!

He also told me it is hard to make a middle class living being an astrologer. I forget that sometimes because all the astrologers I know probably make at least $50,000 a year. They teach, write books, and give speeches. That’s how they make money NOT by doing readings. I know I’m not going to make much doing tarot and astrology. However, I’m not money hungry. I don’t need to make the most to feel successful. Money doesn’t motivate me. I wish it did! But I do want to travel a little, so I can’t be broke…

Anyway, my plan for 2019 is to create at least one course about tarot or astrology. Leaning towards very, very basic astrology. That can be passive income if I can market myself right and do a great job. Marketing. Hate that word. :/

WORK. Sigh. I can’t say much because I do believe one of them (which means all of them) may be reading. I don’t understand why people make a big deal out of little things that mean nothing. There are so many problems in the world. I used to say I wish these people had problems so they wouldn’t nitpick, but I know they have problems! That’s just that person’s personality. Nothing to do with me.

Election 2020. No, I don’t feel like I’m being too hard on Kamala Harris. Don’t call yourself a progressive Democrat when you aren’t. Simple as that. Now she says she’s against the death penalty. Whatever. She’s better than the current president. I’ll give her that. woofreakinghoo! I’m not saying the candidate has to be perfect but don’t paint yourself as a progressive when you’re really not. I take offense to that and so do other people.

She pushed for programs that helped people find jobs instead of putting them in prison, but also fought to keep people in prison even after they were proved innocent. She refused to pursue the death penalty against a man who killed a police officer, but also defended California’s death penalty system in court. She implemented training programs to address police officers’ racial biases, but also resisted calls to get her office to investigate certain police shootings

https://www.vox.com/future-perfect/2019/1/23/18184192/kamala-harris-president-campaign-criminal-justice-record

Fighting to keep people in prison even after they were proved innocent is typical “justice system” BS. I will not vote for her. Enough of bashing her. Should I move on to the other fake progressives in the Democratic party? No. I don’t have enough time. Maybe later. 😉 All these “progressives” running around. Interesting. It’s cool to be progressive now. Good to know.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Maggie Rogers, Rozzi, Kesha, Lissie, Rachel Platten, Lake Street Drive, Ariana Grande, Taylor Swift

TV of the week:  basketball, You

I’m 10 minutes into episode one of Conversations with a Killer: The Ted Bundy Tapes. I read the Ted Bundy book by Ann Rule years ago – Stranger Beside Me. I’ve forgotten a lot so this should be interesting. I love true crime.

Podcasts of the week: True Crime Garage, Pod Save America, The Astrology Podcast, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Tarot for the Wild Soul (sooo good!), Generation Why

Books of the week: 

I’m surprised I’ve never read a book on crystals. But now I know why! It makes me want more. In fact, I ordered about 6 crystals today. Oops. One was to replace a lost one and one got wet in the rain and got cracked. Right now I have 14 crystals. Can’t wait to add the new ones to my collection. I did go about 8 months without buying a crystal so, c’mon it was time. 😉

Plans for the Weekend: Well, it depends on whether my dog needs surgery. I have a feeling it won’t happen this weekend. So I’m working overtime, doing a free tarot reading and school work.

I feel like this entry is crap. I feel a little down about not only my dog. Other crap is going on too. I’ll probably post an update at the top of this entry when I find out something about my dog.

As always, thanks for reading! Have a great weekend. 🙂

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