Hurts like hell

It sucks to write about this. I think my dog is in the beginning stages of kidney failure. He is only 4 1/2 years old. I thought we had at least a DECADE more together. 😦 I’m taking him to the vet on Monday. I will probably know for sure on Wednesday or Thursday once the lab results come back. I yell at him a lot, but he is my only friend.

Speaking of yelling at my dog. UGH! He ate my Nutrisystem chicken breast tonight!! &$%^ I am still pissed. I usually put my main dinner on one plate and have a plate for my salad, but tonight I had it all on one plate, so I had to throw my awesome looking salad away. And I only had two bites of my chicken breast. ARGH! Yes, I screamed at him. :/

I’ve lost a total of 7 to 8 pounds in seventeen days. Not bad considering I’m not exercising because I hate winter. 😉

I had my first hardcore cravings on Tuesday and Wednesday of this week. I wanted to cheat so bad. What did I want? On Wednesday, I would have eaten anything bad. On Tuesday, I wanted pork. I wanted to order from the Jimmy Dean restaurant. I would have ordered sausages and pancakes. Yum! I didn’t cheat because of money. How foolish would it be to spend so much on Nutrisystem and then ruin it by eating out? That was about 90% of it. The other 10% was about me feeling like a failure. I didn’t want to cheat and feel like shit afterward.

I hope I can keep my cravings at bay. I didn’t crave anything “bad” today. Sometimes I think it has to do with the stress of work plus being hungry. That’s what happened on Tuesday. I was so frustrated about work. Then Jimmy Dean sausages sounded so good. Okay, I’ll stop.

I have the week of my birthday off. So far it looks like I’m going to the beach for 4 days and 3 nights. Well, I really don’t know. I want to pay by February 20, but it depends on money. I have a lot of points from Capital One so the hotel bill won’t be that high. Thank Buddha! But the hotel is still expensive since I’m booking one that allows dogs. I’m so glad I have points. I’ll post pics of the suite after I book. It’s really nice. Full kitchen. I could stay on Nutrisystem while I’m there, but that’s probably not happening.

Astrology class. What can I say? I hate that discussion is 40% of our grade. If anything stops me from continuing there, it might be that. As of right now, I’m definitely skipping spring semester. I’m thinking about going during the summer. I LOVE THIS STUFF. I want to know everything…now! I would love to get a diploma* from their school, but the discussion in class and online might kill the fun.

*They used to offer a Bachelor’s in Astrology, but some uneducated snobs decided astrology wasn’t worth a degree, so their program ended about a decade ago. They are a “real” college that has all kind of degrees, but I can only get a certificate or diploma in astrology. As long as I learn something, it is worth it.

Election 2020 talk. Kamala Harris…NOPE! I knew she was a prosecutor. That doesn’t automatically make her a bad person. LOL. But she denied a look into police behavior while she was a prosecutor. I’m done with her. I’m so sick of all these fakes running around calling themselves progressives. Fuck that. I’m not voting for these people!!! I will stay home on primary day if all I have to choose from are LIARS. Yes, I’m pissed.

Marianne Williamson seems bothered by the lack of press coverage. 😦 I feel bad for her, but she’s not giving up. She knows she has a long road ahead. Damn, I feel like I don’t have many options. What are the chances I will get to vote for someone that believes in 85% of what I believe? The last time that happened was when I voted for Howard Dean. I knew he wouldn’t win by that point, but I still voted for him in the primary.

Too bad Beto O’Rourke is untrustworthy, and Bernie is well, Bernie. Sigh. No one for me. I’ll guess I’ll be stuck with whatever fake ass Democrat half of America selects. I hate fakeness if that’s not obvious. I keep forgetting about Elizabeth Warren. I guess I’ll vote for her in the primary if Marianne isn’t on the ballot. Oh, I have to mention that I don’t know enough about Julian Castro to even mention him. That’ll change by next week. 😉

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Kari Jobe, Taylor Swift, Carrie Underwood, First Aid Kit, Kacey Musgraves, Lissie, Maggie Rose, Aretha Franklin

TV of the week:  basketball, You, Nashville

I’m so excited for Duke vs. UVA this Saturday. I have it written down in my planner. I’m a fan of both schools, but needless to say I’m rooting for UVA this weekend. You is a creepy show on Netflix. I don’t know whether I like it yet. I’m only on episode 2. I only started watching because I’m a Penn Badgley fan.

Update: Oh You was on Lifetime and it didn’t do well. I can see why. It seems very Netflix-ish. I wonder what that means for a season 2 if season 1 didn’t do well. It’s doing great on Netflix. I think I love the show now that I’m on episode three. So creepy. I love stuff like this. Give me slow horror.

Podcasts of the week: True Crime Garage, Pod Save America, All In with Chris Hayes, The Bill Simmons Podcast

Books of the week: I’m mostly focusing on astrology books. I’m doing a list of the top astrology books for beginners soon for my other website. The book I’m reading now is awesome but not for beginners. It’s called How to Co-Create using the Secret Language of the Universe : Using Astrology for your Empowerment by Pam Gregory. The Kindle version (which is what I have) is on sale for $3.99. Insane value for that price. Also reading:

Planner Spread for the week: I didn’t do a full bullet journal spread this week. I just used my regular planner. However, I do have my spread from last week:

Plans for the Weekend: I’m working overtime on Saturday. My paycheck will look decent next week. I worked more OT than usual. woohoo! I have to go grocery shopping on Sunday.

The most important thing is SCHOOL. I’ve been doing well. I’m ahead of schedule, but today I blogged here and worked on my tarot and astrology website instead of doing homework. Lame. But I feel like I have to work on my business. I can’t just sit here and do nothing. Since I’m not advanced enough yet, I’m thinking about getting an astrologer to tell me WHEN and IF it is a good time for me to start a business. If he or she says ‘never’. Fine. I will just do tarot and astrology for fun. I really, really, really, want to be an astrologer so I will be disappointed if that’s not on my path. I don’t want to force it. I have a lot of interests. That doesn’t mean all my hobbies should be a business.

I already started the tarot and astrology thing so…oh well. If it’s not meant to be. I’ll do it for free and spend a whole lot less time dedicated to it. In addition to law and accounting, my chart also says I should be a teacher (nice – there are lots of ways to teach) and an interior decorator. I love looking at nice spaces. Love it, but doing it is so not me. One day I will do a ‘report’ on exactly what my birth chart says. 95% of it is accurate. That’s why I believe in astrology.

Well, I have to go now. I’ve rambled long enough. I have my homework done for the discussion board, but I’m scared to post it. It’s not due until Tuesday. Hmmm. I will probably post of it over the weekend. Why am I still rambling?!

Thanks for reading! Have an excellent weekend. 🙂

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