Someday I won’t be afraid

Ugh. My landlord and I are doing a walkthrough of the house on December 15th. 😦 I’m scared. WHY???? Fuck.  Unless something happens, my mom will be there too. I’m not going through that crap alone. Oh, he said he would have given me a break on my rent. Whatevs. I needed 3 months rent free to keep living there. Three months every freaking year. Not happening. 

I’m off Monday through Wednesday of next week. I should have taken the whole week off. Too late for that now.  I will make sure the junk (sofas, TVs, and actual junk) is gone by the 15th. I have to take my dog to the vet on Monday and then it would be great if the junk people could come Monday or Tuesday. I’m making the appointment soon.

Sucks. Sucks. Sucks. I just talked to my landlord. I lied to my landlord. Kind of. He always lets his calls from me go to voicemail so I expected that to happen today. NOPE! He picked up the phone. I was shocked. We talked and then he asked, “Is anything wrong with the house?” I almost passed out. I couldn’t talk. I just said, “the water”. And then he went on about the water pressure and blah, blah, blah. 

The point of all this is that now I’m thinking about calling a plumber. The problem is MONEY of course. But there are other issues too. What if they can’t fix it? What if they can’t fix it before December 15th? My walkthrough is December 15th. It has to be before the 15th because I’m returning the keys on that day. 

At this point, I don’t know what to do. Obviously, if I could afford it, I would call a plumber. Well, I did call a plumber, but the fixing of the leak did not fix the water issue. I think I’m going to do it. But I have so much to do over the next 5 days. I’ll go over it in “weekend plans”. So now it looks like I’m paying the junk company and a plumber. 😦

That whole ‘so you can have it all.’ Nope, not at the same time,” Obama said. “That’s a lie. And it’s not always enough to lean in, because that shit doesn’t work all the time.”

I love the part about how leaning in doesn’t work all the time. AMEN! People that act like all people have the same chances, talents, opportunities make me sick. They say that shit to feel better about themselves. They don’t want to see their privilege. Beauty? Privilege. Communication skills? Privilege. Nope, NOT EVERYONE can learn that. Most people can. Money from mom and dad? Privilege. From what I’ve seen most people have no clue about their privileges. The more I interact with people online, the more I see how clueless people are. 

Anyway, about having it all? It depends on what you want. I don’t want kids, to climb a corporate ladder, a husband, or a white picket fence. I want an eight-foot privacy fence, a big bathroom in a smallish house with at least 2 acres of land, to be able to work from anywhere and my dog. That’s doable for a lot of people. So maybe I can have it all. I don’t know. I’m working on it now. 

As far as the whole kids’ thing goes, I know people who had their kids when they were either really young or much older. They got to live their own life prior to having kids or afterward. So kids aren’t necessarily a prison sentence. LOL. I know for some people their kids are their life (is it rude to gag?). I know people that rely on their kids for their happiness. I think it’s sad, but some (most?) of these people seem okay so who am I to judge? 

Some people claim to have it all. I’ve seen people say it online. I think 50% of these people are telling the truth. 😉 It just depends on what people want. Everyone doesn’t want the same thing! If people could comprehend that, that would be great. 

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Alessia Cara, Maggie Rose, Ariana Grande, Carrie Underwood, Halsey, Matt Nathanson, Missy Higgins

TV of the week:  basketball, House of Cards, The Haunting of Hill House

I finished House of Cards. It ended the way it should have. I guess. We all knew it would end that way. I think I’m going to re-watch House of Cards from season 1 soon. 

Movie of the week: None

Podcasts of the week:  Fresh Air, The Mental Illness Happy Hour, True Crime Garage, Pod Save America, So You Wanna Be a Witch?, Where Should We Begin?, Tarot for the Wild Soul

Books of the week: Now reading:

Plans for the weekend: Groan. How can I complain when I’m off until Thursday? But I have so much to do. *whine* I’m probably calling the junk company and plumber tomorrow. 

I should be doing an astrology/tarot reading right now instead of blogging. I have never done one of these readings before, so I’m nervous. I’m also excited. I just don’t know how long it will take. She gave me her astrology info and her boyfriend’s info, so I have to merge all of it into a cohesive reading. I’m going to try my best to finish this reading tomorrow even though I’m going to be out most of the day.

I also want to work at my day job for at least 3 hours during my vacay. Imagine my horror when I found today that I was behind! Oops.  I hope I can find 3 hours since I have to take my dog to the vet, and I will be spending a lot of time at my old house with no internet so I can’t work. I NEED to find the time to work so I won’t get more behind. I will find the time. It is necessary. I really hope it doesn’t snow.  That could mess up most of my plans, but I would probably get to focus on my day job. Yipee. :/

Well, I gotta go. It’s Friday night and it’s a little late to start something, but I might start the astrology part of her reading. Or I might journal. Or just do a tarot reading for me. ha. I’m so fun!! 

Thanks for reading. Have a great weekend! 🙂 

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