I have no idea what’s going on. The end. I’m starting this post on Thursday night and will post it on Friday. I’m scared to type anything because I never know when shit is going to hit the fan.
Today at work sucked. Some of it was my fault. I’ll take the blame for 35%. I can’t help that the system sucks. Not my fault. I won’t take the blame for that. I can only work with what I have. All week wasn’t bad. Sigh. Whatever.
I probably shouldn’t say anything about work. I know one of them is reading. And if one is reading, that means others are reading. Social people. Sigh. All I can say is that I get frustrated when people don’t LISTEN. I never talk. I dunno. It would be nice if when I did say something people would fucking LISTEN.
Okay, I need to forgive. I forgive them or her or whoever. I know they don’t like me, but it doesn’t matter. I forgive them. That’s what I need to do. That’s my part.
I need to focus on the online course I want to create. I have the outline. I started the slides. I still have a lot of work to do if I want it out by the end of September. I’m hoping to get a lot done this weekend. However, I have to record YouTube videos this weekend for my tarot biz. That could take forever. I’m so glad my videos aren’t long.
I’m trying to work for myself, so yes, I have to do this stuff. If I want my tarot biz to succeed, I have to do 12 blog posts a month, record 12 videos and post on Instagram at least 20 days a month. And I have to do as many free tarot readings as I can. My mentor asked, “You are going to continue doing your 12 blog posts for September, right?” All I could think is of how busy I am. I wanted to say I don’t know. But I just said, “yes.”
Speaking of tarot readings, I have not heard back from the company where I applied to be an email reader. I submitted my 500-word tarot reading on Monday night. Have they read it? Did they hate it? Did they laugh? I must admit I sounded like an amateur. That’s because I am! LOL. I look at my readings from a month ago, and I can’t believe I even wrote that crap. I’m growing every day. Practice, practice, practice.
What did I do that was fun this week? I went to the park. I took many pictures of flowers:
I made 5 flower essences this week. I made rose, lavender, black-eyed susan, sunflower, and dandelion flower essences. I don’t know if I believe they work. I go back and forth with it. They are so easy and fun to make. This all started with my mentor sending me a mix of flower essences. I take it two to 3 times a day. Now it is fun to make my own. I have two flower essences outside under the moon right now. I prefer the sun, so I’m leaving it out overnight and during the day. Who knew something so simple could be so fun? Most people mix theirs with alcohol, but I’m using apple cider vinegar instead.
This week I…
Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Ariana Grande, Aretha Franklin, Lauren Daigle, Christina Aguilera, Ellie Goulding, Demi Lovato, Kelly Clarkson, Britney Spears
TV of the week: Big Brother, Castle Rock
Movie of the week: To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before I read this book about 2 years ago and hated it. Okay, I didn’t read the whole book. I got to about page 60 before I knew the book wasn’t for me. But the movie was okay. I felt like the movie was a little rushed. It’s very light and fluffy. Not much there. I guess it is for the young folks. 😉
Podcasts of the week: Tarot for the Wild Soul, So You Wanna Be a Witch, The Lively Show
Books of the week: Now reading –
- Sister Outsider: Essays and Speeches by Audre Lorde
- Big Magic: Creative Living Beyond Fear by Elizabeth Gilbert
Plans for the weekend: Hopefully I’m working overtime. Then I’m working on my own shit. I hope to have some fun too. Not that my crap isn’t fun, but making YouTube videos is not my idea of fun. It’s stressful, and I hate the outcomes. It’s also time-consuming. Should I work on my course so I can have it ready ASAP? Maybe, but I can’t just let my tarot stuff slide. I just started and to slack off on being consistent now?? Not happening.
Oh, weekend plans? I’m also mowing the lawn. This weekend is supposed to be nice. Not too hot. Yay! I will probably make more flower essences. I’m kind of going nuts with the flower thing because the flowers will stop blooming soon. Then I will have to wait for next spring to make more. That’s a long time from now.
Thanks for reading. Have a great weekend! 🙂