8 days before my week-long vacation
UPDATE: Yes, I have an update at the beginning of this entry. This blog post bothers me because it is so negative. Talking about jealousy is negative. I’m going to come right out and say where the following entry comes from. It comes from work. A couple of people want to talk about jealousy at a meeting when we are STRESSED the hell out. Hello? Why jealousy? What does that have to do with work? 90% of us work from home. I don’t think jealousy is bothering us as much as stress. It’s not bothering me at all. I know others are stressed out. This job is no joke. Sigh. I just wanted to explain this overly negative entry because it kind of has been bugging me. Not that I’m Positive Polly, but…still.
Okay, here’s the entry with no edits:
When I hear people talk about others being jealous of them, my first thought is “Who the fuck are they?” Then I think the person is paranoid. Yep, that’s my second thought. Why do people think people are jealous of them? I ask once again; WHO THE FUCK IS SHE? Yes, in this case, I can use the pronoun she because I’m talking about a paranoid group of women. I cannot mention how I know about this group. Even though it is pretty obvious.
I don’t assume people are jealous of me and I’m not jealous of other people because I know other people have problems too. I know a LOT of people don’t like me. Are they jealous? I would hope not! LOL. That would be so sad.
If someone doesn’t like a person, it may be his or her attitude they don’t like. Or maybe the person doesn’t hate that person at all. Stop making assumptions! I know a lot of people think I don’t like them when that could be the furthermost thing from the truth. First, I’m not thinking about them. Second, I think ALL people suck. People just fucking suck. Okay? I would love to live on a private island. So if a person takes that personally, that’s on THEM.
There was one woman I was jealous of years ago. She worked from home. She didn’t have kids (at that time – not sure about now). She had the life, IMO. 3 years after she started working from home, I started working from home. I honestly believe all my jealousy manifested me from working from home. So jealously does have some benefits even though it can be hateful or ugly.
But now I know better. I’m not saying I never get jealous of situations. When I see a nice, big bathroom, I drool. I want that. One day, I will have that. I’m not jealous of people making more money than me because my mental health is more important than money. I’m not money hungry. At all. I would rather have peace of mind. If the person has both, then good for them.
The people at work that make more money than me? You know what they have? MORE STRESS. Um, my job is stressful enough already. I don’t need that. They work more hours than me (and sometimes I work a LOT). They don’t get lunch on most days. Etc. I would rather have my life than theirs.
Thanks to the specific people I won’t mention who think people are jealous of them. You gave me something to go off on. I haven’t done that in a while. 😉 Oh, and if Kylie Jenner or Gabrielle Bernstein thinks someone is jealous of them, it’s probably true. Famous people are in a different camp. For the record, I have never heard Gabby say people are jealous of her because she has a different mindset. That is the kind of person I want to be. Not a person who goes around assuming people are jealous of them. WTF?
Also, people who are so focused on people being jealous of them…I should probably be jealous of them because that’s their main problem? Cry me a river.
This week I…
Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Carrie Underwood, Beyonce, Florence + The Machine, Janelle Monae, Joss Stone, Demi Lovato, Alessia Cara
TV of the week: Big Brother, The Bachelorette, The Bold Type
The Bold Type is not a great show. I don’t know why I’m watching it. I guess I’m trying to see why others like it? Do people like it? I have no idea. It’s still on TV. I’m watching the first season.
Movie of the week: None
Podcasts of the week: So You Wanna Be a Witch, Over It and On With It, The Biddy Tarot Podcast, True Crime Garage, Unsolved Murders
Books of the week: Now reading:
- Eloquent Rage: A Black Feminist Discovers Her Superpower by Brittney Cooper
- We Wish to Inform You That Tomorrow We Will Be Killed With Our Families: Stories From Rwanda by Philip Gourevitch
- I’ll Be Gone in the Dark: One Women’s Obsessive Search for Golden State Killer by Michelle McNamara
- Sister Outsider: Essays and Speeches by Audre Lorde
Plans for the weekend: I’m not going anywhere! I hope no one asks me to take them to the store. I’m exhausted! This has been the longest week ever. I got up at 4:50 AM and got off at 4:30 3 days this week. TIRED. I’m so done. But I won’t be working like this next week. YAY! I will be doing some overtime, but it won’t be that bad. Next week is my last week before my week long’s vacation. Woohoo! It’s going to be a staycation.
I might take my dog to the park on Sunday. He kind of deserves it. We only went to the park on Thursday of this week.
I have at least one free tarot reading to do. I will probably get 2 more to do this weekend. So far I’ve been getting 5 stars since I started telling people which cards I pulled so thanks for the feedback Ms. 3 stars. LOL. This afternoon I have a meeting with my mentor. I hope we can discuss money. I need to talk about finances. I also want to explain to her that I’m not expecting to make any major money in the first 5 years. Maybe I can quit my full-time job in 7 years? Hmmm. #goals
Have a great weekend! Thanks for reading. 🙂