What if I lose?

SHUT THE FRONT DOOR! I just read for a woman in my tarot class. I blogged about it in my last entry. I pulled 3 cards for her. One was the tower card. It was in the future position. That usually means something will happen unexpectantly like a job loss. She lost her job 3 days later. FUCK. I expressed my sympathy to her over Facebook. I’m freaking out a little. Shit, I can’t believe that happened to her. She has a side business/hustle, so maybe that can work for her.

Oh, she just messaged me again. She is going to work on her spiritual business. I’m so glad she has that up and running (unlike me). WHAT IF I’M REALLY INTUITIVE? Oh, this is about her and her job, not me. Not. I was feeling so down about the tarot thing, and now I’m thinking what if I’m okay? I have tons of work to do, but maybe I’m not a complete tarot idiot.

This was my FIRST reading for someone else, and it was sort of right. WTF? I’m doing a financial reading for my mom in a couple of weeks.

Back to my regularly scheduled entry. I had to post that first.

I want a break! I didn’t take any time off from work all of April. I get 10 hours off this month. Two hours off on May 15 and all day off on May 16th (Janet Jackson’s and my birthday). I should say I have 8 hours scheduled off for my birthday, but now my manager is trying to change our training schedule so we can be in training all day long. (Now we are only in training about 4 hours a day).  It probably wouldn’t be a good idea to miss a whole day of training. I just wish I knew so I could make plans.

I’m obviously not doing anything big. I probably will go out to eat with my mom. I want to go to my favorite park in the city, but they don’t allow dogs. I don’t want to be without my dog all day. 😦 That’s no fun. So I will probably go to a park that allows dogs. I would go to the beach, but I don’t feel like driving there and back in one day PLUS I don’t know if I can take the whole day off yet.

This advanced tarot class is killing me. I can’t believe I’m doing this to myself. I LOVE the content. It is worth every penny, but I’m not advanced, so the coaching calls are over my head. I don’t have time to learn all the cards. By the time I feel comfortable with the cards, the class will be over. I need to get over it and be willing to suck in front of people.

I can’t wait to get my reading space ready. I’m buying an inexpensive table and using that to do all my readings (including readings for myself). I have to make space for it. That is the holdup. I need to declutter.

Woohoo! I made it to the park 3 days in a row. Can I make it 4? Why not? I might make it 5 days in a row. I don’t know what I’m doing on Saturday as of right now. The only reason I went to the park Tuesday through Thursday was because I wasn’t working overtime. I start working OT on Saturday.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Janelle Monae, Natalie Merchant, Ariana Grande, Cardi B, Brandi Carlile, Christina Aguilera, Lissie, Kesha

TV of the week: NBA playoffs,  How to Get Away With Murder

I’m loving season 4 of HTGAWM.

Movie of the week: none

I might watch The Rachel Divide this weekend or during the week. I’ve been watching a court trial. I finally finished it. Now I feel like I have my life back. I can watch other stuff! Lol. The movie is a documentary about Rachel Dolezal. It’s right up my alley.

UPDATE: Watched it. So good. I will do a “review” next week.

Podcasts of the week:  Wrongful Conviction, True Crime Garage, Tara Brach, The Lively Show, Fresh Air,

Books of the week: Now reading –

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Get To Work Book


Plans for the Weekend: I’m working on Saturday. I will probably go to the park either Saturday or Sunday whichever day is best for my dog. 😉 I have two tests left in the class I no longer care about. I will take that one day this weekend. I guess I feel like I have to finish the course even though there’s a zero percent I will pursue the certification.

I also have to mail my old router back to Verizon, or they will charge me $100 :/ I had that router for about 5 years. Small things like my Kindle would work with Wi-Fi, but my Mac and PC laptop wouldn’t connect to the Wi-Fi. That’s an emergency! (<– sarcasm)  I got the new router on Tuesday. It took me hours to set up my work desktop, but everything is working now.

Yeah, a pretty lowkey weekend. I really want to focus on reading my library books and working on the tarot class.

Thanks for checking in. Have a great weekend! 🙂

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