I thought I was flying

I would start this entry off with a breaking news alert, but I already knew this was coming. The part-time people “let me go”…a long time ago probably. LOL. I knew it, but no one said anything. Then I got an email on Tuesday about them not getting my laptop. You didn’t get my laptop because you never asked for it.  I received no reason which is fine. I would rather not really know the real reason. Okay, I know why they got rid of me. All I got is a UPS label for their laptop.

Maybe the Tarot reading I got was referring to me losing my part-time job? I dunno. Losing that is NOTHING compared to losing my full-time job. It doesn’t even compare. I don’t want to be in that field anymore. (The field my PT job is in). If I’m not good at something, I have no desire to do it. If I suck at Tarot, I’m not going to do it just because I invested in it. It’s okay to change your mind. I don’t want to do that anymore.

With that being said, I will keep my 2 certifications for at least 3 years. Unfortunately, I have to pay dues and get CEUs every year to keep the certifications. It isn’t cheap, but it isn’t too expensive. I hate to let my certifications go, but I’m not going to be chained to something I no longer want to do. I might need it to fall back on. That is the only reason why I’m not completely cutting the cord.

UPDATE: I just received some news about my full-time job that leads me to believe my position could possibly be gone in a year or two so I will not be completely cutting the cord. It’s possible I could find another job within my company, but then I may not work from home. So…sigh. Anyway, I will probably keep my certifications for at least 5 years.

The part-time people hired me with NO job experience. So…whatevs. I’m over it. I hadn’t worked since December. It doesn’t sting like the temp jobs I mentioned a couple of entries ago.

Live and learn and never regret it.

I decided to do a few goals for the new moon year. I’m not posting all of them here because I would like to keep some things private. This list isn’t even complete. I haven’t had time to really think about what I would like to accomplish in the next 365 days. But I will list the few things I came up with. When I set my mind to something, I usually do it. 90% of the time.

Goals I would like to accomplish prior to April 17, 2019

  • Buy a domain through Squarespace by November.
  • Learn the Tarot thoroughly.
  • Do readings for my mom. (first one in May 2018 – next month!) 
  • Learn my Oracle cards.
  • Finish A Course In Miracles lessons by September. 
  • Have a place in my home to do Tarot readings by October.
  • Have my website up by January 15.
  • Get back on my treadmill weekly.
  • Buy a storm door by October 1.
  • Have a website drawn out by September.
  • Offer a stranger a free reading in exchange for something by February.

Yes, I moved the purchase of my website back because I don’t see the point of purchasing a domain if I’m not going to work on the site. I feel like that’s wasting money. The domain name will be there in November. I also don’t want people visiting the site until it is the way I truly want it to be. Is that perfectionism or just smart?

I’ve been saying I want a storm door for the past 3 years. Money has stopped me (lame excuse), and I have to figure out how to get it installed and delivered. I want it all to happen in one day. They want to deliver it and then come by two days later to install it. Not going to work. I also have to figure out measurements. Sigh. I just don’t want to do the work, but I need a storm door. I’m not going to tell anyone about this goal because I might flake out again. 😉

Update: My mom took an online Enneagram test. She’s a 6 (and a 5)! Like I said in my last entry, if she wasn’t a 2, she’s definitely a 6. She’s a 6 because she’s paranoid and she depends on others for everything. I’m independent, so that drives me a little nuts. I will blog more about this next week. If I had read the basic fears of a 6, I would have pegged her for that over a 2.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): First Aid Kit, Florence + The Machine, Pink, Camilla Cabello, Kacey Musgraves, Lissie, Justin Timberlake, Cardi B

Ariana Grande has new music coming out tomorrow! I hope she releases a good album. She has never released a good, cohesive album. I usually love 4-5 songs on each of her releases. Her last album is probably her best, but it still isn’t great.  I think that is what separates her from other big stars in pop music. But then again, I don’t think Beyonce has released a good album…ever. And people love her. She’s on my mind because she was at Coachella.

TV of the week: NBA playoffs,  Survivor, How to Get Away With Murder

Movie of the week: none

Podcasts of the week: The Lively Show, Fresh Air, The Lowe Post

Books of the week: I finished reading This Messy Magnificent Life by Geneen Roth. Great book and I don’t usually like essay books. I can relate to this book so much. I can say that for all her books. 4 stars.

Now reading –

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Get to Work Book

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Plans for the Weekend: Working, returning my laptop to the UPS store, going to the post office, getting gas for the lawnmower. Fun stuff, I know. That is all happening on Saturday. On Sunday, I hope to just chill and read.

I’m very nervous right now. In less than 2 hours, I have my meet and greet with the Advanced Tarot Class. I haven’t written out what I plan to say when I introduce myself. As soon as I hit publish on this post, that is what I’m going to do. I’m going to keep it very short. What a shocker!

Um, I just found out she’s using Zoom and we’re going to be on camera!! Oh god, now I have to get dressed. 😦 I was dressed to take my dog to the park. I get right back in my comfy PJs whenever I get the chance. I have to use my Mac because guess what? I can’t get on the internet on my PC. I’m glad I have the Mac. Btw, I hope to be able to fix my PC laptop. I haven’t tried everything yet. Now I’m much more nervous! AHHHHHHHH!

UPDATE: This class is serious. OMG! I went second (by chance) in the meet and greet. And people probably could tell I was reading a little. I didn’t read it word for word. But I had pointers. FUCK! In the coaching calls, we are going to be paired with another person and doing READINGS. Double fuck! Our cameras are on the whole time. How can I do a reading when my dog is right beside me? My “office” space is small. More on this later. I thought I would do an update when I’m freaking out. Why not? LOL. OMG. I’m going to bed now.

Have a wonderful weekend. Thanks for reading! 🙂

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