I had a lovely time at the park today. It was 61 degrees. I saw no dogs. No school kids. Not too many people either. Hallelujah! More walks like this, please.
I want to speak on loneliness. I am not lonely. I rarely feel it. I can’t remember the last time I felt alone. Yet, I’m alone most of the time. 90% of the time. I enjoy being alone. This is a hard concept for people to comprehend because they project their own feelings. People assume a person is angry about not having friends. You know what? It is quite the opposite. PEOPLE bring out the anger because people like me love to be alone. So when people disrupt that, we get pissed.
It is not the other way around. I’m not pissed because I don’t have friends. I’m angry when people are in my face. Okay? It’s only hard for people to understand because they lack the ability to place themselves in other people’s shoes.
I’m sort of ranting about this because of recent events of being around more people (at the park, in the neighborhood). But also due to reading Truly Madly Guilty by Liane Moriarty (Yes, it is fiction but…) and Braving the Wilderness: The Quest for True Belonging and the Courage to Stand Alone by Brene Brown. And I’ve been reading news accounts of loners.
People are totally missing the point. Some people truly want to be left alone. Not everyone is lonely just because they are alone.
Now I’m going to rant about Depo-Provera. It’s just not working for me. I’ve had a period for the past 3 days. What happened to DP taking a period away? That’s why I’m on it in the first place!! I’ve been patient. More than patient. I’ve been on Depo for more than a year. I’m supposed to get my next injection at the beginning of January. I know I’m going to the GYN. It might be to get another shot or to try a different birth control.
I’m guessing I have fibroids even though I don’t have all the symptoms. I should have tried to find out whether I had fibroids, but I didn’t want to deal with all the doctor appointments. Getting the Depo injection is enough for me. Like I’ve said before, I wish getting an IUD was an option, but I’m not dealing with that pain. No way.
I’m SO bummed to hear about Charlie Rose. I kind of idolized him. I thought he was so great. I used to watch his show all the time on PBS. He wasn’t just any journalist. He was great and asked thought-provoking questions. Sigh. I think a lot of allegations will come up in DC. I think politics will take a big hit when it comes to sexual harassment. No one will be surprised. Well, I’m kind of surprised that Al Franken was first. (I’m not counting Moore since he isn’t in DC yet).
Oh well. I gotta go. I’m supposed to be studying right now, but I had the urge to blog first. Now I’m going to study.