Waiting to become alive

Marianne Williamson is coming here! I don’t have to travel to see her. YAY. I was thinking about going to see her in New York. I do want to do that one day. Anway, she’s coming on January 6. I don’t know if it is a free event. I’m so excited to see her. She announced during her talk in NYC she was coming here, and I was shocked. I watch her on live stream every week, but I’ve never heard her speak live. I don’t even know the subject. “Details are coming soon” is all the website says.

Whatever the topic is, I’m committed. She will either talk about spirituality or politics. I adore her even though I don’t agree with everything she says.

I still don’t know whether I’m going to privately train my dog. I want to on days when we see dogs at the park. But it’s really complicated, and I don’t feel like getting into it now. Sigh. Can I really afford $200 for training? Is it worth it? Do I have to? *whine* I think I will make a decision by Monday.

UPDATE: I just found out I’m getting a bonus next week! I’m not sure I want to use the bonus on dog training, though. But at least I have it.

I think I sounded way too happy about my part-time project being over. In fact, I know I went over the top. I do need the money, but that project was so exhausting. I hope the Universe doesn’t think I don’t want any more work. I DO. I WANT MORE WORK. I just needed a break. I wanted to work on my class, and that is what I’ve been doing.

Recently I’ve been feeling spiritually lost. A lot of little shit has been going on. There are people doing work in the neighborhood. I know they are doing good things, but it has been a couple of weeks now. I have this hardcore rule that my home is my sanctuary, and I should feel comfortable here. They are always outside (in my yard or down the road). If I didn’t have a dog, they would never see me. I would just wait until the workers leave and then go get my mail or do whatever.

And this morning, I find out that my medicine has been lost in the mail. 😦 Why do I have so much mail trouble? This isn’t the first time I’ve had mail lost at this address. I don’t know what to do. I’m trying not to freak out. I don’t care about one of the medications (except that I paid $10 for it) but the other med, I need.

2nd UPDATE: My medicine has been found. I have it!!! I don’t know if it was delivered to the wrong address or what. I believe in miracles!!!!1111!!!11

I will probably blog more about the spiritual emptiness I sort of feel next week. I have been trying to listen to more Gabrielle Berstein. I’ve been meditating every morning. I do A Course in Miracles on most days. Sigh. I don’t know what to do.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8): Sam Smith, Kelsea Ballerini, Pink, Chris Stapleton, Kelly Clarkson, Demi Lovato, Cheyenne Kimball, The Wreckers

TV of the week: basketball, news, Vanderpump Rules

Movie of the week: None

Podcasts of the week: Accused, True Crime Garage, Oprah’s SuperSoul Conversations

Books of the week: I finished reading Behold the Dreamers: A Novel by Imbolo Mbue. I’m glad I gave this book a second chance. I almost didn’t read it once I found out it was about an African family coming to America. I hope that doesn’t make me sound racist (lol), but I have read a few books in this ‘genre’ because I thought I would love them, but I don’t. Anyway, this book was good. 4 stars.

Now focusing on reading:

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Get to Work Book (updated in my next entry)

Plans for the Weekend: Study, study, study!!! I know I’ve said this before, but I’ll say it again. I’m in the hard part of the course. I have so much to learn. I like learning new stuff. No, I LOVE learning. Love it. I would be a perpetual student if I could afford it. But I feel the pressure because I have to take a fill in the blank (!!!) exam in September 2018. I have to know this stuff! No multiple choice. Scary!

The only place I have to go this weekend is to my mom’s to pick up a package. With all the mail trouble I’m having, I’m either considering getting a PO Box or delivering ALL packages (including my medicine) to my mom’s house. I’m leaning towards a PO Box since the post office is much closer to my house than my mom’s house. I just hope the companies I order from most except PO Box addresses.

Gotta go. Thanks so much for reading! Have a great weekend. Stay warm. 🙂 It’s going to be cold here on Saturday.

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