I just wanna yell

Two days after I downloaded Ta-Nehisi Coates’ new book from Audible, the library offers an ebook version of it! argh! And it was available. WTF is wrong with people? Read the damn book. Are people not paying attention???  To be fair, at last count 17 people were waiting for the 3D version of the book at my local library. So everyone isn’t sleeping. Anyway, I’m glad it was available. 🙂 Now I (temporarily) have two versions. Some people read the book and listen to the Audible version at the same time. I have never tried that, but I think I will with some of this book. Just to see how it goes…

Geeking out on books. Yes!


I have a perfect example of how “doing your best” is not always enough. But I don’t want to share because I don’t know who reads and I don’t want anyone to figure out who I’m talking about. It is sort of obvious. I’ll try:

Someone is sick. O is trying her best to take care of this person. The best is all she has. But guess what? It isn’t good enough. The person needs more help. More resources. Doing your best isn’t always good enough. I think passing this lie around is part of the problem. People really think if they do their best then they are doing the right thing. Uh, no. Please stop with the doing your best BS. I do my best at lots of things. Guess what? Not good enough. I’m reminded daily.

Sometimes people have options. When doing your best is not enough, please look into getting help or other resources.

I had to get that off my chest. I could’ve said a ton more. Too bad I can’t talk any sense to O. I’ve tried. Didn’t work. I’m done. I just want to scream: JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE DOING YOUR BEST, DOESN’T MAKE IT RIGHT. Too bad someone is not getting the best care because this person truly believes if she does her best then that is enough. She has a record of this type of thinking, btw. The lies we tell…


Speaking of lies…I’m so annoyed at females right now. They were told in the very early 1900s that they needed to shave their underarms for hygiene reasons. What a joke. In 2015, women are still shaving their armpits. Some of them actually believe it is for hygiene reasons!!! Well then: why don’t men have to shave? This all started due to strapless dresses and what MEN WANT. Simple as that.

Again: What a fucking joke. Okay, I’m being selfish because I don’t shave. I have no desire to and I want that to be okay. What women do for men. It’s a shame. I know almost every female would say they shave because they want to. Sure. And I know men and women reading this are going “gross” so I’ll stop. 😉


I go to the doctor tomorrow for a checkup. I haven’t had a checkup in 3 years. I hope she doesn’t ask the sex questions. Everyone isn’t into sex. yadda, yadda, yadda. Oh! I have the perfect quote for this. I just read it last night.

I lived for the love of music. Maybe that’s why when everyone was forming couples and falling in love, when romance was all around me, I missed out. I was distracted. My life was in the headphones. It might have been lonely in there, but I had no choice. By then, music was an obsession. It still is.

-Luther Vandross (1990)

It is hard to believe there is something out there better than music. Love that quote because it is nice knowing other people out there get it. Other people are crazy passionate about music too. Music = life.