desires of the heart never stay the same

Confession: I sort of hated Joan Rivers…until I saw her documentary and I realized how hard she worked, she was a trailblazer etc. I spent most of my life thinking she was just mean. (To this day I won’t watch comedians who pick on people. I still don’t find that funny).  I feel like she has been there my whole life and she has! She never stopped working. Rest in peace.


Those damn shoes! There is no way I’m wearing them to Vegas. Those pieces of crap – or should I say the left shoe – hurts my foot. It has nothing to do with how long I’ve been walking, it is just how long I’ve been wearing the shoe. I’m wearing my worn out, lightweight, 4 year old, Skechers to Vegas. I hate sending stuff back so I probably will keep the shoes. I can wear them for short periods and they look nice. 😉  The shoes are well made and probably awesome for someone with no major foot issues.

I have adult scoliosis and maybe flat feet. That can cause a lot of trouble and pain. I’m too scared to read more about it. Remember ignorance is bliss. I’d rather not know that I’m doomed with pain for life. Btw, it is not just foot pain it is also back pain. The foot pain just bothers me a little more.


#NoRedMeat (or pork)

baked chicken & salad

baked chicken & salad

ALERT: The following is turkey bacon….NOT pork.

turkey is white meat :)

turkey is white meat 🙂

Just to clarify (for myself – lol) I am not eating red meat OR pork. After not eating red meat for 5 days, there is one thing I have learned about myself: I cannot be a vegetarian. I love animals. I’m not ignorant about how the animals are treated but I have to eat meat. Okay, there is a chance that one day I will see food as just boring fuel. And then I could be a vegetarian. But until then….I will be eating white meat.

Meat outburst over. I have been eating more vegetables and fruit. I wanted to do a one day juice cleanse on day one of #NoRedMeat but I used the excuse of my blender being broken. I felt like my body was begging for a cleanse. I could just do a juice cleanse that requires no mixing. I’m going to buy a bottle of organic apple juice and do it one Saturday or Sunday. Soon. Probably next weekend.

I’m going to start drinking more water which is a big deal for me because I hate water. And I’m exercising more. yay me.


Music for the week:  Ariana Grande, Britney Spears, Ellie Goulding, Bethany Dillon, Mariah Carey, Jason Mraz, Maria Mena, Beyonce

I’m listening to Britney Spears because….I may go see her in Vegas on October 15th!! At this point it is all about the price of the tickets. I have a stub hub alert for anything under $80 BUT I just found out that the tickets often have to be brought in pairs. WTF? Edit: I did find a very expensive solo ticket so there is hope. I know someone who brought awesome seats in the very front for $60  from stub hub. Right now the ticket I want is $440. LOL. I don’t think so. I will probably end up sitting in the back for a regular priced ticket which is about $100. I may wait to the day of and pray that someone is selling a tic at the last minute.

I wish Britney shows were like they used to be but I tell myself that she is doing her best. That is all I care about. I could go see Shania Twain but like I’ve said I’ve already seen her so I’m trying for Britney. Britney and Vegas seem to go together well. I do get tickets to a free show. I am deciding between two musicals: A Beatles tribute or a Motown tribute. I know the Beatles show has gotten great reviews but I’m leaning towards Motown. I may just skip the free show if I am having too much fun….sure. 🙂

TV for the week: Big Brother, The Killing, college football

Movie of the week: none

Books of the week: Vegetarian books plus:

The Goldfinch by Donna Tart (I’m enjoying it but it is waaaaaay too long to read in 3 weeks. I borrowed it from the library. I should just quit reading it but I can’t stop. I don’t know what the plan is…maybe buy the book? It would be great for a plane ride.)

Knitting projects of the week: I have my knitting mojo back. My house is so cold in the winter, I need to wear 2-3 layers of clothes at all times. So I want to finish my hat so I can have that. I also want to start my fingerless gloves ASAP so I will have those. Otherwise I will just end up ordering a pair and I don’t want to do that when I can TRY to make them. If I do order, I want these pair from Etsy. I may use my shawl as a layer too if it doesn’t look too nice to just wear around the house everyday. I call this Operation Freezing House.

shawl -  love the color

shawl – love the color

I have about 1 inch to knit on this hat before I start the decreases.

ribbed hat

ribbed hat

I’m so envious of knitters who can just buy patterns and knit them. That is my dream. I’m stuck in the beginner stage. I guess that is what happens when you teach yourself. I think if I devote more time to it, I can get better.  I’m trying…


I’m working overtime tomorrow. On Sunday I’m going to do a 30 minute walk even if it rains. That is all I feel like I have to do. Everything else is just fun, I guess: knitting, reading, college football (yes!), and a little studying. No studying is not fun but at least I don’t have to do it. I’m choosing to do it so I won’t lose my skills.

Bye. 🙂 I’ve been working since 5:30AM. I’m going to take a nap.