I never want to see your face again

(weekly and knitting stuff at the bottom of this post)

I’m sick of your bitchy ways. I’ve put up with it for over a year. I know your life sucks right now and it really isn’t all your fault. Well, I wouldn’t have chosen what you did but you felt you had no choice. I get that but part of me is angry that you chose it. That’s another topic for another day.

What I really want to get at is how you were acting so irritable while I may be taking my dog to be euthanized*. Don’t you get it? How can you be so damn heartless? So rude and non caring. She is my only friend. I don’t have human friends. That dog is my best friend. How about a little compassion? NO. All you can do is bitch about this and that. I didn’t want to hear it. I’ve been hearing it for a while. Usually I just put up with it because I do understand that when your life sucks, you are going to be irritable. But….

You have got to chill out and stop thinking about yourself all the time. I take your FEELINGS and situation into consideration all the time. I’ve cooled down a bit but I was so mad that you would make a big deal out of something I couldn’t control when I have the sick dog in the car. My fucking best friend is dying. You have human companions so maybe you don’t get it. You never “get” anything. You have no empathy and you act like you are always right and NEVER do anything wrong.

For once, please take a look in the mirror or I might have to leave until the old you comes back. If that person isn’t gone forever…

(*I didn’t have to put my dog to sleep that day. I was 100% sure that it was the end. She has the dog version of vertigo. I think she may have a tumor…Anyway, she isn’t eating or taking her meds but she is finally drinking water. I hope she gets better).

 

Weekly

Music for the week: Lucy Hale,  Ellie Goulding, Mariah Carey, Miranda Lambert, Ingrid Michaelson, Natalie Merchant, Ray LaMontagne, Ariana Grande

If you like pop country, try Lucy Hale. You will love her.

TV for the week: NBA playoffs, Switched at Birth

I would say I can’t believe what people are saying about LeBron James for leaving the game last night (with cramps) but I’ve been around people enough. I should not be surprised. I never want to defend LeBron but do people really believe he would leave the game if he wasn’t in serious pain? This is the freaking finals!  And cramping hurts like hell.

Movie of the week: none

Books of the week: #GIRLBOSS by Sophia Amoruso (loving it so far. I just hope it doesn’t turn into a everyone-start-your-own-business book. Everyone isn’t meant to do that. Obvious, right? But there are tons of “Be your own boss!!!1!” websites that annoy me. Who would serve them lattes and work for them if everyone started their own business? hmmmm). Creativity Inc: Overcoming the Unseen forces That Stand in the Way of True Inspiration by Ed Catmull (So far this book is not what I was expecting but I will read a little more before giving up).

Knitting projects of the week:  I wish I had more time to knit. I guess I shouldn’t say that. I should be glad to be busy but still…I WANT TO KNIT all the time. 😉 This week I worked a little on my stockinette stitch scarf. No pics because I’m running low on batteries and it is just a scarf. ha. Pics next week.

I am beyond frustrated with trying to knit on circular needles. I am (was?) working on a child’s hat. UGH! I started it over 4 times and it still isn’t right. At this point I think I’m going to wait for my double pointed needles to come in the mail. I’m so over circular needles!! I think I need someone to show me in person what I am doing wrong.

To practice ribbing, I’m going to start this ribbed hat. No circular knitting required. YAY! I started it last night but I hated how the swatch came out (the colors) so I’m going to try my favorite color (purple). I may start it tonight if I get enough studying done.

One final thing on knitting: YARN SNOBBERY! No more of that. I’m over that too. Knitting shouldn’t have to be expensive. Some people can’t afford the good yarn. That includes me. I will knit with the cheapest shit I can find. 🙂 No really, I will stick to 100% acrylic in most cases and stick with a few brands I know are decent (Lion, Redheart…) I’m just practicing and/or making stuff for myself so why should I use 100% wool? That doesn’t make sense on my budget. But almost all of the books I’ve read – and I’ve read a ton – tells people to use the more expensive yarn. Please. I’m not going to be priced out of this hobby.

/end rant

I have another knitting rant. I think I will save that for later. 🙂

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Typical Friday night plans: Studying. I mowed my front lawn after work. I’m going to mow the back on Sunday morning. All there is left to do is study….and maybe a little knitting. ::evil laughter:: I have to wake up at 5AM tomorrow to work so no late night for me. I will probably stay up until 11:30 or so.