Winter: You run me down restless and wild


I had my telephone meeting with my manager. LOL. It didn’t go well….according to HER.

I hope our conversation is better next time.

WTF? $%#$ OuchOuchOuch! I did try to come up with something to say but I didn’t have any questions. It was a disaster. Shocking! I don’t have any social skills. I’m laughing about it now but oh dear!

I did type some things to say. I didn’t want it to be awkward. I tried to plan. Only one of my sayings worked. Oh god. Talking and I don’t get along. Ugh, I can’t email either. It is a communication thang.

I do have one question for next time but it isn’t really work related so I froze up when it came across my mind while we were “talking”. But next time I will just ask it. Who knew she wanted questions? I thought she was going to tell me things. (Duh?)


The last time I weighed myself was in October. I weighed 135. I wasn’t pleased with that. Now I know I weigh at least 140. SOBS. I get weighed against my will tomorrow. I so don’t wanna know. I always gain weight in the winter (not this much!). I hibernate when it is cold. I don’t leave my house if I don’t have to.

I’m going to try not to freak out tomorrow when I see the number. I already have my exercise plan for when it is warm*. I’m going to walk around the neighborhood. I hope I don’t see people. I just find the treadmill so boring. I can only do a mile before I want to pluck my eyes out but I love nature. I just have to get over my fear of running into people. I will continue with weight lifting.

(*Warm enough is 55 degrees at 7AM.)

I have been doing sit-ups and a little yoga at home this winter.  Btw, it doesn’t help that my house is cold. The last thing I want to do is take off all my layers to do yoga. I haven’t been going to the gym regularly. It isn’t really about the number but I know I’m not healthy at 140+ lbs.  I would love to be 130 pounds, exercising regularly, and eating all right (ha!). That would be healthy.

IT WILL HAPPEN. 🙂 I have to do a lifestyle change.

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