I so hate consequences

I believe in miracles!!!!!!!111!!!11!

The rental company is helping me  find someone to lease my apartment. How awesome is that? 🙂 So freaking relieved. When she called and told me that, I felt like the luckiest girl in the world!

She really called to tell me that I have to keep paying the gas bill and then she asked me whether I was still living there. She said, “Do you know how many people come in here looking for a 1 bedroom?” Um, actually yes but I couldn’t find one person willing to commit to sublease. Anyhow, this is great news. She will find someone and I won’t have to keep paying rent at two places. YAY.

I did borrow money from my 401k to pay the rent. I’m not sure what I’m going to do about that money. Even without the apartment, my bills are more than I make. 😦 Actually I am too scared to check for sure. I may break even. But I had to get this house. I know the house is worth the rent. I feel semi-safe here. I don’t have the high levels of anxiety. I can actually work.

I may pay some of the loan back early. I hope they will lower my payments if I do that. I’ll think about that later. I was also thinking of finishing up school. To get a certificate it will cost me $800 (for one final class). To get certified it will costs me additional money. Right now I will just settle for the certificate.

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In other news I lost .8 pounds. 😉 (That’s *point* 8 – not 8lbs)  It has always been easy for me to lose weight in the past…without really trying. Now I’m nervous that I’ve messed up my metabolism. It’s not easy now. I have to keep it off. I have stopped eating bread. I have cut down on soda. None today, in fact.

I was stung by a bee on my ankle of all places on Saturday. It happened while I was mowing the lawn. It was the first time I ever got stung. It really hurt. Online articles say the pain may last a few hours. My ankle hurt really bad all day.

My point is that I have only been to the gym once this week. I can’t do Body Step due to my ankle. I did do the weight training class on Tuesday. Now my foot is just annoyingly itchy. The pain is 99% gone.

I don’t know what I’m doing for the rest of the week.

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Online “dating”

Dating?? ME?? LOL. So not going there. I have no desire to date. Once a month I feel outgoing. That is what happened when I posted the ad. Now I’m my usual introverted self. I have been communicating every other day with one person. Ugh, coming up with stuff has been so hard. I almost stopped. But I don’t want to be the “rejector”.

Other people have tried to talk to me but they have kids! Red flag. Me don’t do kids. It seems like everyone on this site -besides the one person I’ve been messaging- has kids. So…eh. Plus they live too close to me. Another red flag. I’m not trying to get in a relationship or anything.

So that’s that.