The Sick In The Head Song

Colds aren’t curable. Taking antibiotics for a cold can end up hurting you. I always wondered why people went to the doctor for a cold. Now I know why! Because doctors wrongly prescribed things and people think they work. ??? NEWSFLASH: Going to a doctor does not help with a common cold. It’s a cold. Um…..I swear Never ask me if I’m to the doctor for a cold. I will suddenly be able to talk. (This has nothing to do with kids and colds. It is probably different for them.) Sorry, it is a pet peeve of mine.

Here’s webmd since I’m not a reliable source. No, I don’t have a cold but ugh, I can feel PMS coming on. It sucks soooooooooooo much. If I could just be alone in the country (heh), I could deal with it. But knowing that other people can be affected by MY irritability makes it 100x worst.

I should be keeping track of this in my paper journal but I’m not tracking it for a doctor. I can tell because things that I can usually overlook aren’t overlooked. No matter how hard I try…..This just sucks. Unfortunately PMS seems to last for 7 days+ for me. Cramps are nothing (to me) compared to the PMS symptoms. I already have enough mental ish to deal with.

Okay, I’m done. It’s day 1 so I had to get that out.

I’m supposed to be blogging about a church invite. She is a Christian. I’m not. However, I am open minded. (I did recently say that I thought most preachers are full of crap but that doesn’t mean their message is bad). I do occasionally listen to Christian ministers on TV. I’ve always been interested in religion. Judiasm mystifies me. Don’t ask me why of all religions that I am so into trying to “get” that.

Asking a non-Christian to go to a Baptist church is kinda weird….no? The only thing I can think of is that church is the one thing she does outside of work so why not invite a person? But she doesn’t know that I’m not a Christian for a reason. I don’t believe in a God. or Jesus. or any savior.

In fact, where I live you are considered evil or a devil if you say you aren’t Christian. So maybe it is my fault for not coming right out and saying it. I did tell her that “I’m not religious”. I think I led her to believe that I’m agnostic. I guess she doesn’t know that I’m an atheist. If she weren’t a coworker…If I didn’t know that she would tell the other coworkers what I said…then I would have no problems telling her. I’m not ashamed of it. But do you really want to be known as a devil at work?

When two people found out I was familiar with Buddhism, they freaked out! “Does she believe in God?” They did some research on the Google machine 😉 and came to the conclusion that “they” believe in a God but not like Christians do. ?????

*Whew*

I just don’t feel it is right to judge someone for not wanting to go to church OF ALL PLACES with you. It’s CHURCH. I don’t believe in that particular faith. Church is the last place I would go. I would rather go to a library or museum. And then she asks me these questions in front of other coworkers. So now they know that I have “no religion”. I also turned her church invite down. I didn’t really. If I were being 100% honest like I am most of the time I would have said, “NO”. Instead I said “maybe”. See, I’m learning to lie social skills slowly. But the others heard and they said stuff. I don’t know exactly what. I was listening to my iPod. I know they were being assholes about it. (NOT the one who asked me but the other coworkers).

As far as religion goes I do study Buddhism but I will probably never call myself one. The biggest difference between Buddhism and Christianity is the whole savior thing. And asking a God for forgiveness is not good enough. etc. But there are a lot of similarities. I have a hard time getting over the savior thing though.

Also, on the weekends I like to hibernate. This isn’t a religious thing. This is an introvert, loner thing. I don’t think I could ever commit to going to church every week. That is simply too much people/social stuff. If I worked at home then going to a church once a week wouldn’t seem so bad. I do need some stimulation. LOL.

Is this a bitchy entry? I probably didn’t get my point across. I just wanted to get this out. And no, this woman I would not consider a friend because she tells my coworkers things I say. We go weeks without talking so we are merely acquaintances. I can’t be friends with someone I can’t trust. If I ever have a friend, I’m pretty sure it won’t be a coworker due to gossip.

Leave a Reply

Please log in using one of these methods to post your comment:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s